Dawn had just emerged from the bathroom, still chomping on her toothbrush as she meandered back to her room for skin lotion humming along to the fairly loud music coming from Buffy and Tara’s exercise session in the living room. She had just reached up to push her door open when a blood-curdling scream rocked through the house.
Dawn felt her bare feet dig into the carpet as she turned and raced towards the sound of the screaming.
The teenager’s hurry was echoed a fraction of a second later by the unmistakable noise of the Slayer’s footsteps literally jumping up the stairs.
“It’s Willow.” Dawn stopped at the door to their room as she saw first Buffy and then a few steps behind a very out of breath Tara emerge into the hallway.
“I know.” Buffy was about to run in then she stopped and turned. “Oh God Tara sorry I didn’t think.” The Slayer moved to help the Wicca but Tara shook her head and motioned for Buffy to leave her and go straight to Willow.
“Open the door!” Dawn urged the motionless Slayer as she ran back to help Tara.
Buffy nodded mutely and threw the door open more or less sending it cracking off its hinges.
“Willow?” Buffy called the redhead’s name her voice full of confusion when she saw the bed lay empty. It was more or less stripped of its soft lavender bedclothes that were strewn down onto the carpet.
“Buffy where is she?” Dawn finally half-led and half-dragged Tara to the doorway as the blonde’s legs started to give on her.
“I don’t know.” Buffy threw a panicked glance in Dawn’s direction as she grabbed one of the displaced blankets and pulled it up in her hands, she threw it hard against the wall. “Willow.” Irrationally the Slayer ran to the window peering out of the closed glass panes.
“She has to be somewhere?” Dawn helped Tara in further and positioned her to ease down to sit on the bed.
“I know.” Buffy snapped her head round and glared at Dawn unintentionally harshly.
“I’m just saying.” Dawn made sure Tara was safely sitting before she dashed to check the closet, pulling herself through clothes to the very back. “She’s not in here!” She mumbled and tried to get back out only to find herself tied up in a sweater.
“Shush.” Tara suddenly made the request of everyone. “Please just shush.” She repeated her voice infinitely tender. Dawn stopped her battle with the interior of the closet and Buffy stopped at the window. “Listen.” She urged them all quietly her finger still hovering near her lips.
As the room finally went down to silence the soft sound of erratic deep breaths could be heard, though they were muffled. Tara could see Buffy’s slayer sense tuning into the noise just as her own ‘Willow’ sense did too. Silently the Slayer pointed to the bed and then motioned under it. Tara nodded not speaking yet either.
“How did she get under there?” Dawn whispered knowing that there wasn’t that much of a space between the bed frame and the floor. Both Buffy and Tara gave the teenager their best ‘no clue’ shrug. “How do we get her out?” She asked the next important question.
“Ah now that I do have a clue on.” Buffy moved forward. “If you’d just like to help Tara stand Dawn…” The Slayer took up a position at the foot of the bed, grasping the end board with both hands. Reluctantly Dawn moved over offering Tara her arms.
“No.” Tara looked up and smiled at Dawn shaking her head, she turned more on the bed and looked at Buffy. “That’s not the way, she has to get herself out.” She explained softly.
“Oh.” Buffy stopped her hands on the wood. “Should Dawn and I go downstairs?” She looked to the blonde for guidance.
“Maybe.” Tara thought for a moment and then looked up shaking her head again. “No.” She decided upon. “No, it’s important for us all to help her, not just me.” The Wicca said softly.
“What do we do then?” Dawn questioned worried.
“We assure her that it’s ok to come out.” Tara gently guided them. “Buffy, you’re better at me than getting down right now, see what you can do.” The blonde encouraged the Slayer.
Buffy nodded and moved over to the side of the bed getting down on her knees before she flipped up the bed skirt.
“Will, Will are you in there?” She questioned softly and only muffled sobbing answered her. “Willow, it’s just me. Dawn and Tara are here, we really want you to come out.” She tried again.
“Tara’s dead!” Willow sobbed back as she wedged herself into the very centre.
“Willow, she’s not dead. Remember? She came back to you, she came back to us.” Buffy leaned down further and slowly moved her hand under. “If you just come out Will you can see her for yourself, she’s up there sitting on the bed waiting for you.” She stopped her arm when she realized the vague shadow under the bed was edging away from her. “Willow please, you must be hurting yourself under there. Please come out.”
“Yeah Willow please.” Dawn’s voice joined Buffy’s as the teenager wiggled down next to her sister.
“See everyone wants you to come out. We have nice fruit salad for breakfast and the little cereal with marshmallows that you like.” Buffy tried to keep her voice soft and soothing.
“And you have to braid my hair for me. If you don’t do it I’ll have to go to school with bad hair.” Dawn encouraged gently.
From her place on the bed Tara closed her eyes for a moment letting the room around her fade away as she concentrated on her lover. Suddenly feelings of almost overwhelming claustrophobia pressed down upon her and a myriad of voices swirled around and around her head.
“Dawn, Buffy.” Tara instructed softly and Buffy’s head poked up over the edge of the mattress. “You need to back away.” She motioned back with her hand.
“Away?” Buffy looked for a moment and then nodded as she urged Dawn to move back with her.
“Willow, sweetie can you hear me?” Tara spoke in a loud, clear voice. The sniffling and sobbing seemed to get quieter for a moment as if the redhead was listening. “Buffy and Dawn weren’t lying to you, I’m not dead, no matter what you might see when you close your eyes.” She kept talking.
“I killed everyone.” Willow’s voice whined out as she admitted the content of her dream.
“It was just a dream sweetie.” Tara continued finding it hard to stay in her place and not rush down and offer solace to her lover. All of the feelings that were being show to her though underlined that Willow had to make the effort here, had to take this small step to break out of her cycle of pain. “Just a dream.” She underlined.
“I want it to be a dream.” Willow’s breathing was ragged. “But what if it’s not?”
“If its not, then you can punish me for lying to you… you can take away Mr. Muffleuffous.” Tara replied not sure indeed why she had quoted the name. It had just somehow pushed into her head.
The mere mention of the name made the sobbing stop and a slight scuffling could be heard as the redhead moved a bit closer to the edge.
“How do you know about Mr. Muffleuffous?” Willow’s hand emerged around the edge.
“I know because you bought him for me.” Tara replied as her memory helpfully filled in a small gap. She moved her hand down so that it rested ever so close to Willow’s. “At the little stall at the Sunday market and you had to pay extra for all the letters cause they embroidered his name on his little shirt.”
“Tara?” Willow’s head poked out a little, her eyes puffy and red from crying.
“Though do not expect me to explain why we called him that in front of Dawnie.” Tara said as she looked down at her lover tenderly. “Hey sweetie.” She added meeting wet green eyes.
“Hey I’m not that naive.” Dawn huffed from her place by the wall.
“You should be.” Buffy hissed under her breath.
“Baby, you’re still alive?” Willow whispered and pulled reluctantly out a bit further.
“A little more alive every minute I spend with you.” Tara nodded softly as she spoke and slipped her hand down into Willow’s.
“Oh like you can talk!” Dawn turned and poked her sister in the arm.
“And what’s that supposed to mean?” Buffy turned to glare at the brunette.
“All I have to say is Angel.” Dawn poked her again.
“That was so different.” Buffy hissed and rubbed her arm.
“Oh it’s always different when it comes to you.” Dawn rolled her eyes looking over to Tara for support when she stopped. “Ahhh.” She smiled when she saw Willow was now fully out from under the bed and hugging onto Tara. Buffy followed Dawn’s eyes and breathed out softly as she too saw the girls embraced together with Tara rocking Willow gently.
“Lets go and get breakfast shrimp.” She motioned to the door with her head.
“I am so taller than you.” Dawn pushed up sticking out her tongue at her sister as she happily moved to the door.
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