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Re: The Lamb - updated CANADA DAY, July 1

Postby taraslove » Mon Jul 14, 2008 6:13 pm

Big, fat, Kraken-y dibs! (teleporting myself off to read and then I’ll be back.)

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Wow. Phoenix, wow.

That was... wow. So good. I know that you were worried about the action, but honestly? It’s so spot on! Great job of explaining Will’s limitations with the forcefield, the fantastic sights and sounds when it came down with Tawarick charging through it, and that mighty demon stomp that made the earth move like water. And then Tara letting totally loose at the end! Wow, and wow again. (I'd be sore afraid, too, to try and stand in the way of a pissed of Tara and her girl. For real.)

And now (for something completely different), misc thoughts and musings. In no particular order.

Words I looked up this update: threnody, tertiary, ire, gorge, cabal. Goodnight, Phoenix. Rockin the vocab this update!

John!!! You know I love him, right? (Loved the image of him as the shepherd, by the way, standing in between Tara the Lamb and Willow the Sacrificer. Poetic. Truly.)

The great kings of the past look down from the stars.
is that… the Lion King?

Rack the Hound! Loved that image! He was scary and creepy before but now… with that scar… will somebody second my very heartfelt “ew”?

Wicked twist with the powers of the knife. Makes me think somebody wants to kill Willow pretty badly, then. Gettin’ all those powers along with it.

Althanea’s certainly got a lot of baggage, huh? I'm seriously pulling for some closure for her. I'm guessing Tara's the one to give it to her, being so much like her daughter and all?

Wicked, wicked image of Willow and the blue-energy forcefield! I can totally see her hair all windy-like, her arm extended, her hand holding up the energy. Lovin’ that.

Some quotables I loved:

The stars dared to shine.


The nurse was intoxicating as always, and Willow wished she had nothing better in this life to do than sit and kiss Tara.


A coin turning, a shadow exposed to light, her dark hollow spaces sanctified and ready.


And lastly:

Clearing her throat of all envy, she asked, “Is Willow all right?”


Eesh. That’s such a perfect description, I can't even say. That's... exactly where you feel it, envy. In your throat. And your heart literally hurts. But then, it's so vivid -- Tara's immense love for Willow. That's exactly how love is. Real, true love. No matter the murk that threatens it, the envy or the pain or the... complications (which there always are)... real, true love pushes all that aside and reaches out to care tenderly for the thing it holds dearest. It doesn't matter about those other things. It matters (to Tara) that Willow's all right.

Thank you, Phoenix. For saying it so eloquently.
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Re: The Lamb - updated Monday, JULY 14

Postby Paint the Sky » Tue Jul 15, 2008 4:54 am

I was hoping just to lurk for a week and use my 900th post in the Thursday thread, but here is just as good. :)

Wow, I was pulled all over the place emotionally with this chapter.

The opening scene was very poignant, and John's allusion to be the shepherd has me wondering just what part he will play at the end. Doesn't a good shephered lay down his life for the lamb?

Rack, ughh! Is there a more odious character than him. The pleasure he takes from the pain and dispair of others just makes my skin crawl. Likening him to a hound on a leash is just so accurate - slavering and drooling waiting for the kill. That's one doggy that should have a one-way trip to the vet!

Poor Althanea, she's a game old bird isn't she? God, I hope she survives all of this, I have to say I'm not too hopeful on that count, but I hope she gets some closure, she deserves it - she couldn't help one daughter in the past, but she sure as hell is making up for it now.

And, OMG, what about Tara? For so long her passive participation has been the norm, almost as if as her tumor grew and she had had been getting smaller, swallowed up in the pain and disease, but damn, what a way to end.

I swear, by the finish, I saw her as ten foot tall and so strong and ready to embrace who she really is that I'm almost feeling sorry for the bringers and Tawarick.

The Kraken awakes, indeed!
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Re: The Lamb - updated Monday, JULY 14

Postby Zampsa1975 » Tue Jul 15, 2008 5:40 am

Yay for excellent update-y goodness... Big yay for Tara figuring out her Kraken-ness... I hope Willow & Althanea aren't too badly injured...
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Re: The Lamb - updated Monday, JULY 14

Postby Moonbug » Tue Jul 15, 2008 7:06 am

How does it go? Cometh the hour cometh the (wo)man?!

From:
What are you without the magic? Just a nurse? Just a girl? A drifting mite?

Hell no.

I have always been the Kraken.

I was waving my fists in the air yelling “hell freakin yeah!!!” (in my head anyway) and going all welly in the eyes.

It unfolded so beautifully in my head, all movie-like: the king-daddy of the nasties, Tawarick, strutting up all full of it’s bad-self to this teenie little lady like she was a nothing he could just squish (which he kinda did to Willow :paranoid ) then just as all seems lost Tara shrugs off the mantle of her little ole down trodden self to reveal the blazing glory of her true self ready to kick some Tawarick ass. It was like she unfurled into this larger than life being (in my mind with wings, I liked the wings a lot), which she is of course being the descendent of a god and all.

Gah! I’m all fired up myself and wanting to, well, I don’t actually know what... maybe I should go to bed.

Another magnificent update Phoenix!

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Re: The Lamb - updated Monday, JULY 14

Postby wimpy0729 » Tue Jul 15, 2008 7:21 am

Oh my, WOW. Firstly, I've got to say that your Kraken banner of Tara was absolutely gorgeous. It gave me goosebumps. I couldn't stop staring at it.

Now, we are really getting down to the nitty gritty. All of it was riveting, yet with some very touching moments, such as Tara comforting Althanea. Your bad guys are just so...bad, and you write them so well they make my skin crawl. Funny thing though, I'm watching a show on the Sci Fi channel, and who do I see on there, but the guy who plays Rack. That guy was just meant to play evil parts.

But just when we think they've found a way past the bringers via Willow's tunnel, they decide to cave it in. Of course, cause nothing would be that easy for our girls.

But I LOVED the ending and Tara becoming something even the demon fears. That made me cheer out loud. Now, I really can't wait to see what happens next. This is getting so exciting.


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Re: The Lamb - updated Monday, JULY 14

Postby katjetson » Tue Jul 15, 2008 8:52 am

I guess Tara's good as gold as the Kraken now, so long as someone doesn't go twirling around a Medusa head in front of her face. (Let's be honest, I was schooled in Greek mythology from the classic, cheesy genius that is "Clash of the Titans.") Still, where did this inherent "nobody messes with my girl (power)" come from? I blame my slowness on, well... it's not a Monday, and I actually didn't just get up, so yeah... I blame my slowness on it being a random time on a random day of the week.

Tawarick = a tongue twister. I keep saying it as TARAWICK and then I think of well, Tara, and wick (like, as in the wick of a candle, and then i think the candle is extra-flamey) and then Spiderwick Chronicles and then I totally forget this is some kinda Big Bad and he's out to hurt our girls. It's my way of deflecting. "You shall not pass!" And now I'm just rambling and not at all talking about this update and will someone please shut me up and throw me in the shower so that I'm not late for work yet AGAIN. Thanks.

Seriously, I think I'm hemming and hawing and being silly as a direct reaction to the intensity of this update. Jude seems to have said, well... everything, but what immediately struck me as crushing was Willow and Tara holding on to each and every bit of togetherness they could have. I loved Willow sniffing Tara's hair in the midst of like, a major ass apocalypse. She stopped to sniff. her. hair. The power of scent, and boy the places it can take one's heart. I also adore the quick kiss over Althanea and Tara needing just a shred of evidence that Will was okay in the tunnel.

Rack is grossie. Not much more to say about that jerkaholic. (I also can't look at him without remember the show China Beach, but that's not so bad because then I just start remembering Dana Delaney and h'ohboy, that's a good thing.)

So yeah, get Kraken, Tara, (get it, Kraken... crackin'...? Har har har!) and biff! bang! pow! the evil so that you can, you know... snuggle up on the couch with the aforementioned Ben & Jerry's and enjoy some Willow boobies.

The end. (And not a minute too soon!)
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Re: The Lamb - updated Monday, JULY 14

Postby sadie » Thu Jul 17, 2008 2:16 am

I agree with katjetson lol. Get crackin', Kraken!

What are you without the magic? Just a nurse? Just a girl? A drifting mite?

Hell no.


Loved it! So much to do though for her. Tara's still sick, right, even if she's the Kraken? And Willow still stuck in the tunnel... Althanea, Angel... I can't wait to see what happens but I am sure it's gonna blow us away :)

Thanks for your nice reply and for another great update!
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Re: The Lamb - updated Monday, JULY 14

Postby barnabasvamp » Fri Jul 18, 2008 5:18 pm

I recently discovered this wonderful story, I have now caught up completely and find the girls on the edge of yet another apocalypse.

Your writing makes me feel like I'm there and I feel like I'm watching everything happen. Very good! :clap

Looking forward to more.

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Re: The Lamb - updated Monday, JULY 14

Postby Nenyath » Sat Jul 19, 2008 2:11 am

I have been speechless for a couple of days from this update, it was that good! The action was right on spot and what a pleasure to see Tara in charge, stepping into who she really is! I love the duality and depth in your characters, their developements from individual strengths and frailties, to the strenght they find in eachother.. :sigh

Looking forward to the next!

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Re: The Lamb - updated Monday, JULY 14

Postby JustSkipIt » Sat Jul 19, 2008 10:06 am

Phoenix - I'm so excited about this update. For one thing, I love that it puts everything back on Tara. I want to see her with power. With vigor and conclusion. Don't get me wrong. I love Willow but I want Tara to do this. My question is this: can she put her pain and injury into this superbad demon? Can she blow him up and heal herself? That would be awesome.

This entire update is very well written. The pacing is good and emotional but not too emotional. You hit the high points just right.
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Re: The Lamb - updated Monday, JULY 14

Postby Lelotusluna » Sun Jul 20, 2008 12:44 am

Hey! I've been a lurker here at the kitten board for a little while now, and have perused a few other fics that I've really enjoyed... but this is amazing! Your writing style is so eloquent and natural and visual... You have Tara and Willow down perfectly. Every moment, every interaction between them is heartwarming and utterly true to the characters. Kudos! I've been glued to this for the past few days. Easily one of the best pieces of fanfiction I've come across. Thank you so much for posting! Eagerly anticipating the next update... (:
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Re: The Lamb - updated Monday, JULY 14

Postby ceridwen » Mon Jul 28, 2008 8:50 am

Cool!!! This chapter was action packed, and the next one will be even better!

Can't wait for it.

Update soon please :pray
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Re: The Lamb - updated Monday, JULY 14

Postby Tara the Phoenix » Tue Jul 29, 2008 6:56 pm

It’s now time for feedback to feedback!

taraslove – JUDE! Congrats on the Kraken-y dibs. It’s been a while for you. Your comments were so concise and magical; I just got shivery reading them. Thanks for the nods to the vocab; I actually subscribed to dictionary.com’s word of the day. Though none of those words have been featured yet…it’s still fun! Dean Koontz used the word ‘threnody’ and I knew I had to have it.

John is all for you. Seriously. He wouldn’t be anything more than a minor character if you hadn’t said in feedback some while ago that you’d like to see more of him. Ever since then he’s been banging on my muse’s door, begging to be let back in to the party. Since he’s such a genial fellow, I suppose he can come back in. I’ve got a treat in store for all of you!

Real, true love. That’s what we’re all looking for. That’s what some few of us actually get. But no matter how far away it feels in our real lives, we always have Willow and Tara. Maybe that’s why people like us spend so much time writing these fics. Actually, that thought is kinda sad. We all need a Willow. We all need a Tara.

Mucho thanks for joining in the beta party, Jude!


Paint the Sky – Congrats on the 900th post! That’s amazing! Your musings on John were delightful to read, and it will be my great pleasure to show you all exactly what John is capable of. Eventually. I’m glad you enjoyed my description of Rack the hound on a leash. A one-way trip to the vet, indeed!

And Tara. This was my point exactly. To show that Tara is still a powerhouse, even crippled as she is. I don’t like to moralise out loud, but if there was a moral to this chapter, it’s that you should never underestimate the little guy. Thank you for reading, and for taking the time to comment!


Zampsa – Always a pleasure, my Finnish friend! I so appreciate your support from the very beginning. May you, too, discover the Kraken within.


Moonbug – I love the wellies. I love it when readers tell me they get the wellies. It makes me all welly. Seriously, thank you for commenting. I’m so glad you’re here with me. It was so fulfilling to write a chapter like that one. It’s too bad that you didn’t cheer out loud, but maybe you were in a crowded space and would have looked like a loony. I get you, though, that feeling that your heart is about to burst out of your throat? I’m so pleased I can evoke emotion like that in you. I hope you enjoy what’s coming up.


Wimpy – Thanks for the kudos to Foo for the banner. It was magnificent, wasn’t it? She’s been such a help. I hear what you mean about Rack and some people being born to play evil parts. They just have faces that don’t make your heart melt. For me it’s Jack Nicholson. I can never take that guy seriously. He always looks like a joker to me. If he tries to do romantic comedy, I just gag.

But of course the tunnel collapses. Nothing could be that easy. I’m glad you’re enjoying the upped tempo of the story, and I certainly hope you continue to enjoy the ride! Thanks for commenting.


katjetson – It has been far too long since I’ve seen Clash of the Titans. I should go rent it. You certainly were rambling and deflecting a bit in your comments, but I just smiled all the while. Willowmistic, that’s what you are. If that’s a word. You know what I mean.

Thanks for commenting on the sniffed hair. I like taking little opportunities to ground the characters, to quiet the plot, and that image struck me as well. Thanks for sharing your fave moments with me. I never really know what part of the chapter a person is going to latch on to. I’m so glad you’re still with me on this. I appreciate all you’ve done for me recently, and I can hardly wait to meet you.

By the way, hope you’re okay after the earthquake. You are okay, right?


sadie – The Kraken may still be sick (yes, she is) but she is crackin’ and about to open a major can of whoop ass. Boo yah. Thanks for sharing, and I hope you enjoy the update!


barnabasvamp – I can’t tell you how pleased I am to see newcomers to this fic. It’s probably a good thing you discovered it now and not during my hiatus, when the future seemed cloudy and uncertain. Thank you for your comments, and I hope you continue to enjoy.


Nenyath – I’m glad you had as much pleasure reading this update as I had writing it. It felt so good to unleash Tara again, to show everyone how strong she is, how capable, even though she’s sick and afflicted. It was good to prove to herself, as well. You don’t have to wait much longer for the next, it is coming right away! Thanks for writing in.


Just Skip It – I think this is another of those important moments, the moment that Tara gets it. That she is strong all by herself. We all love Willow, but this has been Tara’s story. In this next update, we’re going to see what exactly she can do against this demon that Willow herself can barely handle.

Thanks so much for your thoughts, your kudos. It means a lot to me. Take care!


lelotusluna – Welcome to my fic, and thank you so much for commenting. I absolutely THRIVE on these little bits left by my readers – they give me so much hope and inspiration. I’m chuffed that I was your first. As for it being one of the best pieces of fanfiction, I’ll just duck my head and say, aw shucks. On a personal level, it’s the best thing I’ve ever written. I’m just glad to have an audience to share it with. I hope you enjoy what’s coming.


ceridwen – I’ve always found it a little hard to write the action, so hopefully it’s coming across all right. You said that the next one will be even better? Here’s hoping so! Thanks for commenting!


Big thanks, as always, to masterjendu, and to my most recent initiate, taraslove. My ladies make the story better than it ever could be on its own. Jen, I promise a rainbow of skittles. Jude, get ready for your character to come back in play.

Next update up in a jiff!

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Re: The Lamb - updated Monday, JULY 14

Postby Tara the Phoenix » Tue Jul 29, 2008 7:13 pm

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Chapter 44
even the powerful die


Althanea had been seventeen when she realized the gods touched her. Until that point she had been more concerned with who was winning the Eurovision Song Contest, with watching the Beatles on her tiny black and white television. The goddess Hecate blithely danced into her life and gave her meaning and purpose beyond that of most mortals.

Teleportation was a gift that Hecate offered to her freely when she asked, and often. Yet Althanea could count on a single hand the number of times she had been given the opportunity to see the world as a God would see it, all the banality of the physical plane with an overlay of the divine.

It was so even now.

She lay on the gritty ground and watched Tawarick approach, the silence deafening after the concussion of sound that tumbled Bringers back like so many leaves. Disoriented, confused, her very soul shuddering with fear, Althanea struggled to rise even as her sight became narrow, focused. She looked upon Tara, and felt awe akin to her worship of her goddess.

There within the laboured beating of Tara’s heart lay a corona of divinity, a sunspot of celestial glory, which grew and expanded until it pulsed from the nurse like a halo about her whole body. It was a white light, pure as new-driven snow, sacred as the sun.

Althanea blinked, and the vision expanded. Wings sprung from Tara’s shoulders, feathers soft as rose petals, gleaming white and dipped in gold. A gown appeared, woven of shooting star wishes and penny dreams. The goddess stood, robed in truth, and she held the terrible knife in her hands.

Why was the world not bowing at her feet? Kissing her toes, worshipping her?

Tearing her eyes from the angelic vision in front of her, Althanea looked at Tawarick. With only her physical eyes, he was frightening. With her god-touched vision, he was terrifying.

Balefire streamed from his horns, and he stood within a pool of the blackest energy, agitated and hungry. A black hole ready to feast upon the divine.

Tara and Tawarick stared at each other, and Althanea expected the world to tear apart in the silent maelstrom.

A rumbling out in the desert, yet Althanea would not tear her eyes away.

“I will destroy you, witch,” the demon snarled. His voice was the crunching of bones between teeth, the gnawing of hyenas over their kill. “You cannot stand against me.”
“You can try,” Tara replied. “But I don’t recommend it. In fact, if you are still around by the time my girlfriend gets here, you’re going to regret it.”

Tawarick lunged for her and Althanea opened her mouth to scream even as she wove magic in her fingers, yet Tara easily sidestepped the massive demon. As he stumbled past her, she raised her hands and placed them on his pebbly skin.

“Goddess forgive me,” Althanea heard Tara say.

No earthly ear could have heard the thunderous detonation as Tara touched the demon’s skin. For one moment longer, Hecate blessed Althanea with her otherworldly sight, and Althanea saw the white glow surrounding the nurse pulse with light and beauty. She could almost see the ripples of energy pass through the demon’s skin and into Tara, and Althanea silently prayed for this most desperate gamble to work.

Not even a minute had yet passed.

Then her vision vanished, and it was just Tara, in her jeans and black sweater, her hands still on Tawarick’s back, the great demon falling to his knees as his skin began to smoke and blister. Was Tara healing herself, or was it simply her blessed touch alone he could not stand?

Althanea had no time for such rumination. From the corner of her eye she saw Rack through her thin barrier, and his eyes had turned into midnight pools of the darkest power. Black magic sparked about his spider-thin hands and Althanea panicked, recognizing the power within his grasp. Althanea tried desperately to sever her spell

(release! release!)

yet the warlock lifted his hands and the field shattered as invisible glass, piercing her magical soul.

It wasn’t a particularly strong forcefield spell, yet the pain of its destruction knifed her already pained side. Althanea had been trying to rise from the floor, yet now she tumbled back, her head striking the ground. Pain cracked behind her eyes and spots flickered about her vision.

The faint was maddening, almost close enough to touch, but Althanea strained for consciousness, her eyes watering, fear a lump in her throat. Dizzy with pain and fear, Althanea watched Rack approach her even as she looked for Tara.

And saw what Tara could not see, saw the rippling of determination in the great demon’s jaw, the flexing of his muscles as he prepared to strike.

“Tara!” two voices shouted, Willow’s and Althanea’s blended together. Both Tara and Althanea stared out into the desert at the sound of Willow’s voice. Tara’s face brightened momentarily as she recognized the voice of her love; it was only a single moment she took to look out toward that ruined line in the desert, to see Willow flying like a comet toward her.

One moment to distract her.

Tawarick was no fool.

Althanea had no power.

Her spell shattered, her head spinning with pain, a vision of Maggie floating behind her eyes, Althanea tried to weave the magic, whispered spell after spell that evaporated in the heated mouth of the desert. Anything to save Tara. Anything. She could not, would not fail again.

The magic was elusive quarry.

Tawarick, his eyes bleeding, his back smoking where Tara was touching him, draining him, he twisted to face the distracted nurse. Lifting a massive arm, he swiftly clawed Tara in the chest, a horrific four-pronged wound that started near her shoulder and ran halfway down her chest. It wasn’t until Tara staggered and gripped his other shoulder, her face blanched, that Althanea saw the amulet fall from her, its chain broken.

Time had no meaning.

Flying Willow caught the amulet a hairsbreadth from the ground, even as Tara’s head lifted, her eyes shining dead black. Implacable Willow sent a pulse globe to Rack as the warlock raised a deadly blow to Althanea’s blind side, even while Tara glared at and tightened her grip on the great demon. Terrified Willow tried to press the amulet into Tara’s exposed and blood sodden skin; even as the nurse levelled her midnight gaze upon the red-haired witch.

“Hello, dirty girl.”

No amount of heat could melt the lump of ice that had formed, clot like, in Althanea’s soul. It wasn’t Tara’s voice that erupted from her throat, yet it didn’t belong to another. It was a throaty growl that caused Althanea to quake to her very toes.

The knife flashed in her hand and would have destroyed Willow if it had landed. The red-haired witch propelled herself back just in time to avoid the killing blow. Tara smoothly redirected the pass of the knife, held its gleaming edge against the demon’s throat.

It was no mere trick of the light. The demon was screaming in concert with her, a monstrous duet. Tara was sucking the life force of the demon, and Althanea saw the most recent and awful injury heal itself with lightning speed. And then Tara’s mouth shut as her practiced hand drew the knife with laser precision through Tawarick’s throat with no more emotion than killing a pig or a chicken.

Willow was getting up off the ground once more, the amulet draped in her fingers.

Rack’s body was only now skidding to a stop, bowling against Bringers.

Tawarick’s dead body was a misshapen lump on the ground.

The silence was threatening, hungry.

And the nurse screamed again, dropping the knife with a tinny clatter on the ground, holding her head in her hands. Under the flickering glare of the streetlamp, Althanea could see her eyes flickering. Black. Blue. Black. Blue.

Blue.

Willow at her side, pressing the amulet into her skin. Tara weeping, weeping as she embraced Willow, as Willow held her head to her chest, stroked her hair. Althanea’s side aching as if Willow had not healed her of her wound, her head pounding from its terrific blow.

Althanea realized she had been holding her breath, and let it out explosively.

The Bringers advanced, drones of the hive.

Tawarick lay dead on the grimy gas station floor.

In the distance, Angel was waiting.

Willow and Tara were in their own universe; Althanea saw Willow fix the amulet with a single word, then place it reverently around Tara’s neck, looking deeply into Tara’s eyes. In their haste, in their worry, their words washed over each other and over Althanea as well.

“Will, I thought you were…”

“Tara, are you…?”

“I thought I had lost…”

“However did you…?”

“Did you hear me call?”

“Baby, your shoulder…”

“The amulet, Will…”

“Tara, you did it…”

“We need to hurry…”

“Tara, is it really you…?”

“We have to get Angel…”

“What should I do…?”

“God, Willow, I love you.”

“Tara…”

“We have to go…we can talk later. Althanea needs a doctor.”

“I don’t want to leave you…”

“We need Angel. We need the scythe.”

“I need you.”

Althanea scrambled to her feet, pain still a knife in her side, yet she could feel the magic returning. She stood, trembling and swaying, watching Willow and Tara, and tears climbed into her eyes, ran down her throat, thickening it. Loss was a hammerstroke to her breast.

Willow bent to kiss Tara, just as Tara turned to look at Althanea.

Willow’s lips on Tara’s cheek.

“Althanea, are you all right?” the nurse asked.

There had been blood in Maggie’s hair. It had not been washed out by the time Althanea had arrived at the morgue.

Tara’s hair was sticky with blood; it clumped by the newly-healed grooves in her chest. The amulet lay as a millstone about her neck. There was only a single street lamp illuminating them all – Tara’s blood was tar in the darkness.

Rhythmic shuffling, a soft shushing of sound as Bringer robes brushed the gravel, crunching sounds as Bringer boots strode closer, a sibilant murmuring from their lips, their star-crossed eyes somehow leading them to their quarry, straight as an arrow. With a whispered spell, Willow once again enclosed them in a forcefield.

Tawarick smelled like demon barbecue, a tasty dish from hell’s kitchen.

Even the powerful die.

Tara’s eyes were flat.

“I’m all right,” Althanea breathed. “We’ve got to get out of here.” Tearing her eyes away from Tara and Willow, Althanea looked down at Tara’s foot. The knife was there, singing its murderous song. Tara followed her gaze, bent easily and picked up the knife. It looked unnatural in her hand.

Tara’s eyes were blue.

Althanea could not suppress a shiver down her spine. She had come too close to dying here. Too close to Maggie.

“Willow, let me take Tara home,” Althanea said softly, touching the nurse’s other hand. It was warm and soft, but Tara didn’t smile at the touch. She looked nervous, scared.

Willow looked uncertain.

“Will, we need to stick together,” Tara said, squeezing Althanea’s hand before releasing it. “I need to be with you.”

Althanea could see the war in Willow’s expression. Commanders pick their battles, and deep inside, Althanea knew what Willow would choose. Tara was in control again, and they desperately needed the scythe.

They could both see the decision on Willow’s face. “Go home,” Willow whispered, pulling Tara into her arms. “I’ll be there soon. Two shakes of a dog’s tail.”

Willow looked over Tara’s silken head at Althanea.

*Protect her, please? She is my life.*

Althanea nodded. *Release the field and we’ll go. Be careful. We’ll see you soon.*

Althanea was close enough to Tara to smell the dirt and blood, a faint streamer of sandalwood and rose. Her legs were leaden. It was as if she hadn’t slept in days. Magic filled her, and she allowed it to coruscate throughout her body, washing the ache away, wishing she could heal herself completely, suddenly shy of asking Willow to take the pain of her old and weary body away.

For it was such a little thing, really.

Willow kissed Tara’s forehead, and the nurse turned away with a final squeeze of Willow’s hand. Two steps took her to Althanea’s side, and the Bringers, like mindless cockroaches, continued to swarm at the edges of the field. Althanea looked out into the desert, and imagined Angel kneeling on the ground, the scythe pointed at his heart.

Willow could save him, when no one else could. Without Tara to worry about, Willow could do it faster.

“Let’s go,” Althanea breathed, taking Tara’s hand. It was cooler than it was moments ago. The nurse gulped.

“Back to my house?” the nurse asked.

“Yes.”

Althanea had to resist an impulse to ask Tara to give her the knife. The memory of Tara’s blackened eyes haunted her, but they had run out of time.

(Hecate, teleport me. Please.)

In a heartbeat, they vanished from the gas station and reappeared in Tara’s kitchen. Althanea could smell the sharp tang of Korean cooking. The dirty dishes were still on the table.

Her stomach growled.

“Tara, I…”

When Rack had attacked her earlier, Althanea had never felt anything so painful as the first time the knife slid across her ribs. Some black magic, like venom, had caused the wound to sting and bite ferociously.

Was it the because of the bearer’s hand?

Tara’s hand was wet. The knife slid into Althanea’s chest with the eager slickness of a lover. Pain was sharp and distant at the same time.

The number of the pizza place was still circled by the phone.

Althanea slumped to the ground, blood dribbling from her lip. Tara hunkered down with her, crouched easily on her heels and looked at the dying witch with a clinical interest.

The knife made a sucking sound as it exited her lung; Tara pulled it out only to thrust it in again, lower, deeper.

Blood erupted in her throat, and Althanea spat it out even as a cloak of dimness settled over her eyes. “Why?” she choked.

One drop of her crimson blood struck Tara on the cheek. It was a dark beauty mark on the pale perfection of her skin.

“Twasn’t anything personal,” Tara said amiably, leaving the knife to shudder inside Althanea’s vital organs. “I just needed your power. Got some mighty important folk waiting to come to town and I need to prepare a proper welcome.

“They want to use me, see?” Tara continued, drawing the amulet over her head, pooling the chain in her hand. “All sorts of sacrificing to be done. Someone needs to stand over the seal, and it won’t be me.”

Tara dropped the amulet in the expanding pool of blood.

Was this how it felt for Maggie? This coldness, this numbing anaesthesia that crawled up her legs and hibernated in her chest?

*Willow!* she tried to call.

Tara’s full palm slap rocked Althanea’s head against the wall, sending another spatter of blood across the wallpaper and floor. “Now, now,” Tara admonished. “You don’t seem to remember, you filthy whore.” The knife slid from her again and Tara held it by her face. “This is p’achi. The blood it spills is consecrated to the oldest evil. It opens the mouth, and takes the power.”

One final thrust and Althanea knew no more.

“You have no more magic, witch. It is all mine, and soon I will be free.”

Caleb got up and stretched his legs, looking disdainfully at the witch at his feet, feeling the stickiness of the blood on his hands. Tara was sobbing somewhere in his head. Using her body felt corrupt, unholy. It had taken everything in his power to let Willow embrace him, those moments after the amulet broke and he won his freedom. He played the part, though. Anything to get Althanea far enough away from Willow, to perform this most important murder.

He strode to the sink and washed his hands, looking at his reflection in the window. The sweater was ruined – he’d need to wear another. He wished he had a little time to explore the luscious body that he was suddenly master of, but he had a timetable to keep.

Cassandra. The coven’s seer would tell him where the others were. She could be… persuaded.

The witch was dead, but he looked at her one more time. “Even the powerful die,” he said softly. “And the meek shall inherit the earth.”




To be continued with Chapter 45: Weight of the World

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Re: The Lamb - updated Tuesday, JULY 29

Postby Moonbug » Tue Jul 29, 2008 8:01 pm

Work dibs!!!
“I don’t care if you’re lying…” Willow whispered, completely losing herself to Tara’s knowing hands, “…but if you’re going to turn me, can you please fuck me first?” – Van Rosenberg by Alcy
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Re: The Lamb - updated Tuesday, JULY 29

Postby katjetson » Tue Jul 29, 2008 8:24 pm

Moon, you dibs scoundrel, you!

Whoa!

Allow me to repeat, "Whoa!"

Well frickity frack on all that. Caleb has gone and taken over Tara's mind (and body) completely. How'd he do that? I thought Tara was all amazon strong... Hmph! I don't like this death of Althanea one bit. Especially considering she was perhaps about to order pizza. (Me, too!)

I just don't know what to think of all this. It's crushing and downright nasty. And all that ick imagery of tar-colored blood and dirty, matted hair. Gosh.

Also, I'd like to point out for the record that Caleb got a bit cuter in my brain now that Nathan Fillion has played Captain Hammer in Dr. Horrible. I kinda just imagine him just singing about kicking ass now. Still, the preacher man is ruthless and I can't wait for Comet Willow to destroy him from the inside out.

I keep wondering -- where's Faith? Or... maybe I'm just wanting to see her leathers in like, every fic I read.

Althanea dead? Honest? Really? C'mon. Please no.
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Re: The Lamb - updated Tuesday, JULY 29

Postby Egnalos » Tue Jul 29, 2008 9:03 pm

This Fic is awesome; it took me long enough to catch up with the last updates but it was worth it...

You are writing an amazing story. Keep up the great work.
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Re: The Lamb - updated Tuesday, JULY 29

Postby Zampsa1975 » Wed Jul 30, 2008 5:10 am

Yay for another excellent update-y goodness... Caleb taking over Tara's mind and body is definately not good... I hope he doesn't go to a slutting spree in Tara's body to get what he needs...
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Re: The Lamb - updated Tuesday, JULY 29

Postby Paint the Sky » Wed Jul 30, 2008 12:08 pm

Feckin' hell! I'm seriously stunned by the turn of events in this chapter. I was all with the woo-hoo as Tara drained Tawarick, my thougts the same as Althanea's that Tara was using the demon's energy to heal herself, and when the amulet was torn from her I actually said 'oh shit' out loud I was so into the scene you had created. And, then, Willow all comet like and rescue gal, I was all with the 'it's cool, no damage done', a bit of teleporting, save Angel and it's a victory for our girls.

That would be too easy, wouldn't it?

I found it hard to relate to Tara killing(?) Althanea, even though deep down I knew it had to be Caleb directing her hand, using Tara's name made it all the more hurtful, it gave me shivers that this gentle and beautiful soul was made party to such a act of foulness trapped as she is within her conciousness.

Part of me was hopeful that she would survive events of this chapter, and I was optimistic to almost the end.

There's also part of me hoping that she writes Caleb in her blood with her dying breath, but you tend to shy away from cliches, so thats not very likely to happen!

Really powerful and beautiful storytelling as usual, it's always a pleasure to see an update to this fic. I'll be very sad to see it end.
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Re: The Lamb - updated Tuesday, JULY 29

Postby wimpy0729 » Wed Jul 30, 2008 3:54 pm

OMG All this action, and it seemed it was turning out so good, and then BAM, Tara goes all Caleb-y and kills Althanea. Noo. That just sucks so much, kinda like her sucking chest wound. Eww, and you described her being stabbed so descriptively that I could totally see it all unfolding before my eyes. But I really did like her, and I miss her already. What a horrible way to go.

Just one second with the amulet off and Caleb has totally taken her over. That has been his plan all along, but I have hope that there is still some part of the real Tara there, and he can hear her in his mind now. I hope she plays with his mind the way he did with hers. So come on Tara, give him hell. Now I'm wondering if Willow was able to hear Althanea's dying plea.

This is so exciting. Now I really can't wait to see what happens next.


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Re: The Lamb - updated Tuesday, JULY 29

Postby synthwrr » Wed Jul 30, 2008 3:56 pm

holy crapo-wapo.
Oh man, I need to learn to steer clear of these really long story-threads. They're death to my life. Just read the whole thing over the last... say, probably 6 hours. Maybe 8. My family is upset.
Thank you for this transcendent experience.
But it killed me.

Anyway, wow, am I glad I caught the ride as it's leaving. I don't know if I could have stood the suspense that long... now I only have to wait, what, maybe 2 weeks till the story's finished, huh?

okay okay. I've been accumulating things to say about this. I guess I'm not really saying them for your benefit, but for my own; in fact, if you're pressed for time, feel free to skip this post. I understand.

1. I'm liking the new versions of W&T, their love captured in a grand scale as it was never on the show... although it's obviously a completely different love than the show's W&T shared. Which is interesting to me, but sad too.... In creating this brilliant tragedy, something *was* lost, which you probably realize. Just wanted to say that.

2. HAHAHAH Rack wants STRAWBERRIES! Haha. Brilliant. I am awed by your ability to sprinkle memories of the show into this story, making it so bittersweet and evocative; every flashback to the show I see clearly, and how the pair of them end up saying lines from the show, too... wowzie. "You're like... cool monster fighter." Too bad Tara didn't do the little boxing dance thing. She's such a cutie..

3. Mmmm in one of the very early chapters, the first we hear from Willow I believe, when Tara takes Caleb into her, you paint a picture of Willow's psyche that is troublesome to me. The images of Xander and Oz being pushy and needy... I mean, it really wasn't true to the characters or the show at all. Later on, as Willow mourns for Xander, you kind of backpedal back into canon-dom, but those first few impressions, as you described Willow's experiences with men while she was "closeted," really didn't jive with me. I actually took time off reading to go on a long rant, which mostly doesn't apply anymore so I'm not going to include it here, but yeah.

4. So, I feel motivated to try to pinpoint the exact spot where this story becomes AU: Where exactly this universe split from the one we all know. At first, the difference seems only to be that Tara didn't go to UC Sunnydale; but she didn't because her mother urged her not to, and *that* because the goddess told her mother she would die if she went to UCS.
So, is the difference simply the existence of that goddess to warn Tara away? Tara was a descendant of the goddess in this fiction, and thus imbued with powers our Tara didn't have; is that all?
Not really. In BtVS, Tara was dead before the final battle with the First, and yet the forces of light prevailed; in this, the forces of light didn't prevail. It couldn't have been just due to Tara's absence... could it? Perhaps Tara's presence in Willow's life before strengthened her, so that she was able to completely vanquish Caleb.... But probably that wasn't it. So, Caleb and the First are stronger in your AU.
To balance that evil power-up, comes Willow. In canon, Willow really isn't the *most* powerful witch ever... and a big part of Willow's study and mastery of magic is Tara, even if Willow strays from the path of light magic after a time. If anything, Willow's life without Tara would probably contain less magic... or else perhaps a complete surrender to dark magic, which Tara obviously pulled Willow away from in canon. Neither happens in your AU.
Finally, and least significantly but I have to say it, Oz is a different guy. If Willow had taken him back in the show, they would have been happy together... that much is clear, judging even from the canon Willow, with Tara in her life, during "New Moon Rising." There was still affection in their relationship, even as Willow was in love with Tara. Even if Willow could never quite love him as she would love a woman (which is a completely different discussion for a different day), *he* did love her. And he provided at least a safe haven for her.

So that's what I have to say about your story... I should write my Master's Thesis about it or something, haha. Says something, that a story would have such complexity that I could go on an intellectual strain about it for that long. Thanks for writing it... awesomeness corporeal :)
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Re: The Lamb - updated Tuesday, JULY 29

Postby barnabasvamp » Wed Jul 30, 2008 4:41 pm

Speechless I am, well almost :blush

Excellent update! The fight with the deamon was awesome, so descriptve, and intense.

Willow to the rescue, but as we saw it was just a bit to late to return the amulet to Tara. :cry

Now have we lost Tara to Caleb, or is this a ploy to give him control just long enough for Tara to empty her pain and destroy him?
Guess we'll just have to hang in there and see.

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Re: The Lamb - updated Tuesday, JULY 29

Postby Nenyath » Thu Jul 31, 2008 3:16 am

-shudders- I would like to call this one, like so many of the other chapter in this fic for the most nerve wracking and intense one, perhaps it really was. When that amulet was torn from Tara's neck, I was so drawn into it that I couldnøt help but to say "no" out loud, just knew it couldn't be a good sign! The eye colour changing from black to blue was such a simple, yet such a powerful image. How much we are used to their complexions and how certain that made me that Tara had one over. But ofcourse Caleb can act, it just seemed so wrong though, at the scene in the kitchen, someone as mild as Tara, killing someone as powerful as Althanea who is thinking about something as banale as pizza. It just shows the absurdity of the situation! And so heartbreking too, considering Tara could still sense what happened.. Althanea was right in being uneasy with the knife in Tara's hand though, it's an image I'd like to expell from my own mind asap! I do wonder though, how Caleb will keep hiding it from Willow, he's got a murder to clean up, a lot to organize apperantly, and a witch who crave the closeness of the body he inhabits.

Awaiting the next update with a mixture of angst and anticipation!
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Re: The Lamb - updated Tuesday, JULY 29

Postby ophelia11 » Thu Jul 31, 2008 11:43 am

I can't believe I missed this story for so many months! I just caught up in the last few days and it is superb.

There's no way I can provide adequate feedback for all these wonderful chapters but I wanted to tell you how much I'm enjoying the story. The imagery you've created is fantastic. You've take the time for every little detail and it makes all the difference in the world.

I love the way you've balanced the sweet and tender moments between Willow and Tara with the gripping action like that in the gas station. This last chapter was particularly agonizing though I suppose it would've been too simple for W/T to have contained Caleb.

I'm on the edge of my seat to see how John, Donnie and the others will play in to the remainder of the story. It seems there are still so many unknowns, though the climax is certainly building.

Thanks for continuing to share this story!
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Re: The Lamb - updated Tuesday, JULY 29

Postby masterjendu » Mon Aug 04, 2008 8:27 pm

This momentous chapter has been in the works for so long that it is absolutely wonderful to see it come to fruition.

I'm sad to see Althy go (especially, as Kat said, if she was about to order Canadian Pizza; maybe to feed the hungry silence; loved that metaphor by the way), but you know how much I love a death scene from the victim's point of view.

You pulled it all off perfectly, Phoenix.
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Re: The Lamb - updated Tuesday, JULY 29

Postby ceridwen » Wed Aug 06, 2008 9:15 am

Tara is gonna be devastated about Althenea having died by her hand, even if she wasn't in control of her body at the time.

Now i'm even more curious about how you're gonna finish this fic.

I never would've thought that Caleb would be set free.

Next update soon? :pray
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Re: The Lamb - updated Tuesday, JULY 29

Postby Tara the Phoenix » Wed Aug 06, 2008 7:54 pm

Feedback response at the beginning of the next update. Many thanks to Jen and Jude, my masterful betas!

Chapter 45
Weight of the World


Ritual bloodletting wasn’t exactly a new concept for Willow. If she had Xander and Buffy back, they’d probably all be joking about how the big bad really needed to get a few new ideas. This whole idea of Tara’s blood closing the seal was frighteningly similar to Dawn’s blood opening the portal to Glory’s hell dimension, and the necessity of Buffy’s blood to close it. Buffy mouldered in her grave, next to other forgotten and lost souls, until Willow had changed the rules. Only by beguiling Osiris did Willow bring Buffy back to life, and with the Slayer came the opportunity for the greatest evil this world had ever known.

If Willow allowed herself to think about it, she would have gone insane. The weight of the world had never been entirely on her shoulders before.

How was it that she was here again? This geographical spot, where Giles’ blood was still on the counter, where a flying hubcap decapitated their prisoner, where Dawn was taken? She was just a sidekick then, valued, yes, but not the one with apocalyptic decisions to make. After Dawn had been taken from this very spot, after Buffy had retreated into the neverland of her subconscious, Willow had followed her, determined to do everything in her power to save those she loved.

You've carried the weight of the world on your shoulders since high school. And I, I know you didn't ask for this, but ... you do it every day, she told Buffy that day.

Now the onus was on her, and the weight of the world upon her shoulders.

Literally.

The magic was coming back, flooding through her shattered bones, cascading through her broken blood vessels, yet the pain of her injuries deadened her, made her weak. Never in all her years of Scoobyage had she been hurt so much in so little time. It was less than an hour ago that she lay on the floor of Tara’s bedroom, her back broken.

It was hard to breathe. She was pinned under the rocks of her collapsed tunnel, and with every moment that passed she was aware that Tara was vulnerable. Worries were runaway horses in her mind, and back in her subconscious she questioned and despaired of every decision she had made thus far. Every time she tried to gather the magic it was obliterated by pain and worry. Gritting her teeth, coughing with the thick dust by her mouth, Willow tried to calm herself.

Yes, I know it hurts.

Yes, I know Tara is in trouble.

Now, heal, dammit!

With a shuddering burst of energy, Willow’s body broke free of the rubble, her bones knitting, her muscles renewing, life, energy, and vitality streaming through her by the gift of the goddess Panacea.

Why had they not given her the power to stop time?

The gas station was gone, its walls were obliterated. In the distance, Willow saw Tawarick on his knees, his body smoking where Tara was touching him. Bursting through the air like a comet, a supersonic jet, like lightning yet still not fast enough, Willow flew back to Tara, knowing she left Angel behind her, knowing the scythe was still in the enemy’s grasp, knowing all these things but knowing that she would die without Tara.

Without Tara, this world meant nothing.

The demon was crisping beneath Tara’s hands, and Willow had no time to marvel at it. Rack was advancing through a shattered forcefield, heading inexorably toward the fallen British witch. And Tara was seemingly oblivious to the danger.

“Tara!” Willow screamed, and instantly regretted it.

Her beloved, her eyes the blue of bellflowers in springtime, the blue of hot summer days, the blue of the deep end of the ocean, those eyes turned to her in gladness. A distracted moment, and Tawarick was no fool.

Claws to Tara’s chest. The amulet gleamed as it fell from her neck. Skimming over the desert ground, over the oil-stained cement floor, Willow caught the amulet before it touched the ground, and immediately tried to press it into Tara’s skin

(It just has to be touching your skin, and the chain has to remain intact. If the chain is broken, or if it leaves your skin even for the tiniest moment, then you'll have to fight Caleb for control of your body.)

because this was her worst nightmare coming true, this was…

Save Althanea from Rack.

A pulse globe, and her eyes never left her girl, whose fair face was screwed up in agony of the worst sort, her eyes swiftly changing from the deepest blue to the darkest…

“Hello, dirty girl.”

Tara’s eyes were black, the black of a midden pool, the black of oily tar, the black of crusted hate-blood spilt with eager vengeance. The eyes of the preacher.

The knife was in Tara’s hands. Willow saw it speed for her chest, knew that if that knife pierced her heart, even she could not heal herself in time. Willow propelled herself backward, the amulet draped in her fist, even as Tara shifted her movement to put the knife to Tawarick’s throat.

The great demon could not move. It took two seconds for Tara to heal herself of her most recent grave injury, the slashing of the demon vanishing as if it had never been, both she and the demon screaming all the while.

And then…

Willow could not know if it was Tara’s experienced farm-girl hand that drew the knife across Tawarick’s throat, slaying him as easily as she would a pig or a chicken. She only knew that it took another two seconds to do, four seconds she had now squandered like a tharn rabbit on the road when she should have been trying to reconnect the amulet with Tara’s skin.

Too late.

As Willow lifted the amulet to press into any spot of exposed skin she could find, now seeing an abundance of newly healed pearly white skin, Tara lifted her hand. It would have been a force globe, such as Tawarick would have used.

(The knife takes the power.)

Three-second precognition being what it was, Willow erected a forcefield just as Tara screamed and clutched at her head, dropping the knife, falling to the ground.

Wary of a trap, yet aching for her girl, Willow dropped to her knees beside Tara and pressed the amulet into her skin. Tara’s eyes immediately flushed back to blue, and she began weeping, great tearing sobs that ripped at Willow’s soul.

Get her home. Get her safe. Get Angel and the scythe. And don’t mess up, Rosenberg.

The weight of the world is on your shoulders.


She could not have anticipated it could all go so wrong.

A whispered conversation. Althanea and Tara supporting each other as they teleported away. Niggling worries wormed their way into her brain. Did Tara fight him off in time? Did the amulet actually work? What if it wasn’t Tara at all, but Caleb who hugged her, kissed her cheek, wept for her? Could Althanea protect herself if she had to?

She remembered the look on Althanea’s face, that day in the hospital. She loved Tara, too. There was no way she would allow Tara to come to harm. With all of Willow’s choices gone bad, she had to trust in Althanea, trust in the decades of experience she had as a practicing witch, the same competence that helped her all year, helped her find Potentials, helped her heal her legs.

Now they were gone.

There was no time.

Shut it all out, Willow. Focus on one thing at a time.

Breathe, Willow.

Tawarick was an empty husk at her feet. Her field was down with Althanea’s departure, and Bringers advanced over the rubble, stepping over the bodies of their fallen brethren with an ease belied by their star-crossed eyes. The desert yawned with a hungry grin, eager to swallow her whole.

And there was no one in this world who could help her.

Fear fuels rage. It always has.

The scum hurt Tara. A debt of pain was about to be called in.

That lone streetlamp still flickered, drawing moths and flies to its warmth and heat. The air was dry and wounded, reeling from the concussive shocks it had suffered. Willow was too warm in her pink sweater. The sweater she bought yesterday, in the market, where the plump girl was a Slayer without a Watcher. A durian, kisses on the couch, the taste of Tara’s mouth. The softness of Tara’s breasts. The moonlit glow on Tara’s skin. Fingers passing through silky folds, a world of pleasure in Tara’s hands. The scent of sandalwood and roses.

Willow could not know why the Bringers suddenly halted in their tracks as they looked upon her.

Blackness crept up the roots of her hair, swam into her eyes.

She walked, stepping over a body here, a cash register there, sidestepping the debris without looking at it. Her gaze was fixed firmly on the horizon where Angel waited. As she walked the Bringers tried to attack her with their knives, but the blades turned on empty air. Crossbow bolts thudded into nothingness. Her every step left a smoking footprint on the ground.

More than human.

Why had she not done this before? Why had she waited, hesitated, chosen to tunnel out beyond the forcefield in order to save Angel? What was she trying to prove?

(We’re not killers, Willow. We fight, we protect, but we don’t kill.)

Buffy’s words, and Willow had gambled everything on that ideal. She played her cards, and only then realized that the other side didn’t play by her rules. They never had. If only she had done it like this in the first place. Strong. Hard. Implacable.

Invincible.

They saw her coming, the honour guard about Angel’s kneeling form, the ones who stayed beyond Tawarick’s destruction. A hive without a mind, it seemed they would follow their demonic mandate to guard the vampire to the grave. They saw the black lightning dance around her fists, her black hair streaming in an impossible wind. They saw the cracks of the earth under her feet, her booted heel crushing a scorpion underfoot. They saw, and they jumped up to attack, knowing that they would be crushed just as casually.

(We don’t kill.)

Lightning sped from her fingers; it roared around the mob of Bringers and they opened their mute mouths as if to scream, they held their heads as if they were exploding, they writhed on the ground as if on fire.

But they weren’t dead.

The scythe fell to the sun-cracked mud as Angel wearily rose to his feet. His eyes were wary. Why was he looking at her like that?

“It’s me, Willow.”

Lightning was not enough. Perhaps knives would do. Oh, yes, knives, their own knives, the knives they would have used on her Tara, the knives to pierce her heart, eviscerate her. Or maybe the scythe. Oh, yes, the scythe. It would sear their flesh, burn into the hollowness of their souls.

“Willow, where is Althanea?”

They had no souls. Did it matter if they died, then, like the insects they were?

“She took Tara home.”

Tara.

My Tara.

Willow blinked, and let out a long breath. Angel was still looking at her sideways; she could not see the blackness fading from her hair, the wildness from her eyes. She did a double-take as she looked at the bodies strewn about the desert, at the scythe in her hands. She didn’t remember picking it up.

“Let’s go, then.”

He was still looking at her strangely, as if she were the one who had murdered his fish. As if she were the one who broke Jenny Calendar’s neck.

Must save Tara.

It was an almost timid pale hand that took hers, and she flinched at the coolness of his flesh. How had Buffy ever loved him? His flesh was not warm like Tara’s, wasn’t soft and pleasantly scented of roses. He felt cold, and smelled of dust and perspiration.

The fact was Buffy did love him. Buffy would have wanted him to live. Buffy would have done anything to keep him alive. He was Buffy’s Tara.

Enough said.

The scythe was heavier than she remembered. Focusing the power of Thespia, Willow conjured a heavy leather scabbard that looped over her shoulder. Awkwardly, she wrestled the scythe into the scabbard, and then held it in her hand. She wouldn’t need it at Tara’s house. There would be a little time now, to make sure the amulet held, to sleep a little longer in the protective embrace of Tara’s arms, to wake in the noonday muted heat of a summer afternoon; a perfect end to a night of demon bashing.

A little Tara-time.

Willow pictured Tara’s house as they had left it an hour earlier. The dishes strewn on the table, the kitten-abraded couch, the congealed gravy of the poutine. And Tara, safe.

Tara, alive.

Tara.

Pop.

Willow dropped Angel’s hand as they appeared in Tara’s kitchen. The floor was sticky; there was a sharp tang in the air that Willow recognized all too well. It reminded her of the butcher shop where she had purchased blood for Spike.

Her eyes dropped down to the floor. Her feet felt heavy – she couldn’t lift them out of the pond of blood where Althanea rested like a water lily. She crouched; her head feeling strangely light, unbelieving. A trembling finger touched the side of Althanea’s neck. She had once kissed Tara on that same spot and felt the lifeblood of her beloved whooshing through her veins.

Althanea was dead.

And the amulet lay on the floor, its spires covered in slick redness.

The knife was gone.

Angel’s soft touch on her shoulder snapped her from her detached contemplation.

“TARA!” Willow screamed, and she leaped from the floor and tore through the house, calling Tara’s name, knowing, oh knowing that Tara would not be found. Not here. Not now.

Not ever?

Her strength gone, Willow collapsed on Tara’s bed. It was still unmade. She gathered the sheets into her arms and breathed deeply, smelling Tara everywhere, only now noticing that tears were streaming down her cheeks.

A soft knock on the door and Willow looked up. Angel stood there, his face haggard and drawn. “She’s not here, Willow.”

Willow hiccupped before she responded, her voice shaking. “I know.”

“What are you going to do now?”

“I need information. I need to find out where Tara is. I need to find out what the HELL I am supposed to do now!”

There were bloody footprints on the floor. The image of Althanea’s face ghosted into her vision. Loss gnawed at her backbone, scraped her insides raw. The witch had been so helpful, so kind. All year long the supplicant of Hecate had provided Willow with information, helped her find Potentials, helped her heal. At least, until Willow had been gifted by the gods.

Willow’s head snapped up.

*Thespia, answer me!*

Nothing.

*Maia? Aranaea?*

“Someone answer me!” Willow screamed aloud, her chest shuddering with her broken breath, the emptiness of the ether a void in her soul.

The world was so very heavy.

Where was heaven?

“If the gods won’t answer you,” Angel said slowly, “then maybe someone else will.”

Willow looked at him, pain and fright lancing her breasts. “What do you mean?” she asked, her voice watery.

“Beljoxa’s Eye.”

Willow didn’t want to open the demonic portal in Tara’s living room, but found she just didn’t want to go anywhere else. Here there were the little lights, and the abraded couch, and the smell of bulgogi still in the air. Here Willow could pretend that Tara was just upstairs, just out of sight, just for a moment…

Angel easily drew a kitchen knife down his arm, blood beading upon his pale skin. He flicked the blood in the air as he intoned, “Ek'vola mok't Beljoxa do'kar.”

A whirling, fantastical portal appeared in the air, and Willow’s mouth turned dry. “Ladies first,” he drawled, gesturing to the mystical doorway.

Willow took a deep breath and walked through the portal, Angel on her heels.

They found themselves in a pitch black, windy tunnel, about ten feet away from Beljoxa’s Eye. Even though Willow had grilled both Anya and Giles about their experience, she was still taken aback at the sight of all those eyeballs, that hovering mass of mystical energy.

The Eye blinked.

Well, most of the eyes blinked.

“What is this, some kind of freak show?” the Eye bellowed. “Maybe I should charge admission, you think?”

Willow gulped and twisted the hem of her pink sweater. She should have changed back at the house when she had the chance. It was dirty and torn, much like the rest of her.

“I need your help.”

“What you need, toots, is to get out of here. Do you think you have time for chit chat? Every second you spend in here a minute goes by in the outside world.”

Willow’s heart froze. Anya and Giles didn’t tell her that part. But come to think of it, it did seem an inordinate amount of time they had spent in the company of the Eye.

“Where is Tara?”

“If you’re going to ask questions, you might as well ask the right ones. You want to save your little dimension, your little plane of existence? You want to see your girlfriend alive? Then get out of here. You have no time. You have to save Oz.”



To be continued with Chapter 46 "Too Late"

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Re: The Lamb - updated Wednesday, AUGUST 6

Postby masterjendu » Thu Aug 07, 2008 2:24 am

Jet-Lagged dibs!

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That was quite the lag, wasn't it?! Sorry about that!

I seriously love how unbalanced this chapter makes me feel. It has been so long since Willow and Tara were apart in this story that I've forgotten how all is not right with the world if they are not together. Even the air aches!! I love the many facets we see in Willow here: from would-be saviour to dark destructor to finally a scared, young woman who must soldier on just as she has potentially lost the light of her life. What a wonderful roller coaster this chapter is, Phoenix!

Thank you so much!
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Re: The Lamb - updated Wednesday, AUGUST 6

Postby Zampsa1975 » Thu Aug 07, 2008 3:01 am

Yay for excellent update-y goodness... So now Willow knows that Caleb has taken over Tara's body... So now Willow's mission is to save Oz... Next chapters name is now very encouraging... I still hope that Caleb hasn't taken Tara's body for a test drive...
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Re: The Lamb - updated Wednesday, AUGUST 6

Postby Paint the Sky » Sat Aug 09, 2008 6:32 am

I've been struggling with leaving feedback here for this chapter as everything I want to say just sounds like sycophantic fangirl stuff that would be so over the top as to be a parody of itself.

So, I'll just say what I said to another kitten on msn when discussing this story as she hasn't been begun reading it yet (can you believe that someone is not reading this - I was astounded, but that will be rectified soon).

I am in awe of this story, it is truly an amazing read with it's complexity and characterisation, with its presentation of choices and the fact that there are no easy solutions, or resolution (as yet), to be found for the protagonists.

As I read it I can't help but think 'how the hell are they going to get out of all of this intact'.

And, I just don't mean physically.

If I were in Willow's situation I'd be a total cabbage by now, and lord alone (and you, of course), knows what Caleb is going to do in Tara's body and the consequences of that for our gentle girl.

I'm totally enthralled by it on every level, and I'm itching to know what happens next.

If every second in the portal with Beljoxa's eye is worth a minute of Sunnydale time, then every day is like a year in kitten time until the next chapter.
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