To all of you who have been patiently waiting for the outcome of Willow's dive to the phone, I say the wait is over people. Hope you enjoy this chapter as much as you have the others.
First, replies to feedback.
Zampsa 1975 – Willow and Tara will definitely have fun on their date, you can be sure of that. Not sure if the snugglies will be naked though
Willowfan – Sorry about stopping it there. But good things come to those who wait
Wimpy079 – Willow thinks that gaybars are like those she has found in the erotic fiction she had been reading - hotbeds of lesbian lust and fumblings in dark corners (I wish!). Her limited experience has left her believing the sterotype.
the name of that bar cracked me up and makes my mind wander -- hmm...Stiff Kitten...Stiff Kitty...Stiff Clitty. Yep, that's what I'm gonna name my gay bar when I open one.
That’s exactly my train of thought about the Stiff Kitten, and if you ever open that bar, mines an ice cold bottle of Bud!
nimloth – You credit me with too much depth, I wish I was that clever. But I do follow your argument, and totally agree with it.
It is possible to expect something predatory or even quite seedy because, for most of us, our initial perceptions of the world we live in are taken from a straight perspective, and whether we like it or not our initial judgements are coloured by this.
Hope I'm not being too complex. Everyone I know over here groans when I get into analytical mode lol .
I certainly don’t mind the complexity and analytical nature of your feedback, I find it extremely interesting and flattering, that you see so much in, what for me is, a piece of fluffy storytelling.
Hondos -
I would love to bad with Faith
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I reckon you’re joining a very long queue, and you're behind me
Title: Quiet Saturday Morning’s
Author: Paint the Sky
Rating: PG-13
Pairing: W/T
Disclaimer: AU. No spoilers whatsoever. Oh, forgot to add that I don’t own any of the characters in BTVS, I’m only playing with them.
Feedback: Yeah, sure, why not.
Summary: Shy, newly gay Willow Rosenberg and her first venture into love with an equally shy blonde.
Notes: This is my first attempt at any kind of fiction since I left school many, many moons ago. After a long time reading the fic’s on this site and others I thought why the hell not, give it a whirl, try it on for size and all that. From this point I’m going to put thoughts in italics, I’m getting confused writing in double and single quotes in the one sentence.
Chapter 18
Willow breathed heavily as she put the phone to her ear and gasped “Hello”
Tara heard the breathy greeting and wondered what Willow had been doing to respond in such a manner “Hi, Willow it’s…”
“Judith” the redhead teased recognising the voice.
The blonde laughed, “Busted, how did you know?”
“Well, it seems the redheads in the Wicca group are being stalked by a dangerous woman called Judith. You are Judith and I claim my $5”
Tara laughed again “I’m not dangerous, crazy, maybe, what with ringing redheaded Wiccans and all, but it all could’ve been avoided if we had told each other our names last Saturday. So, you’re guilty by association”
“Mmm…maybe, but I’m not the one stalking redheads to give them books. Anyway I wouldn’t worry about it…Judith” Willow said with a light laugh, feeling amazed at how easy they were with each other again.
“Ok. Let’s start again, shall we? Hi, Willow its Tara”
“Hi, how are you?” Willow asked her in a cheery tone.
“I’m fine. Well, I am now that the headache has gone and the light no longer hurts my eyes” she said with a shudder thinking of how she felt that morning. “How are you?”
“Oh, I’m good, thanks, just killing time before afternoon class,” she said,
and wondering if you wanna hit the gay bar on Thursday, “What about you, out of class obviously, but what are you doing now?”
“Mmm, class was…well…interesting,
seen you everywhere, but now I’m at the shop helping out Anya. She’s a bit delicate today,” Tara told her.
“Ah! Just like Buffy, it would seem that a good time was had with Faith, ooh, that didn’t sound right, no…I mean they all seemed to have a good time” corrected Willow.
“We all had a good time” said Tara amused by the redhead’s words, “and talking of good times, are we still ok for Thursday?”
“Yep. Still ok…um…do you have any preference as to what and where?” she asked,
gay bar, gay bar, say gay bar.
Tara’s mind froze, she hadn’t expected that question, “You know I was just wondering about that this morning, and to be honest I don’t mind what we do, as long as we do it together, erm…is there anywhere you want to go?”
“Well, there’s your traditional dinner and a movie deal, or there’s dinner and dancing…um…sorry it sounds a bit safe and boring,”
like me, apologised Willow.
Tara heard the redhead falter slightly and responded with “You forgot a movie and dancing”, she was relieved when she heard Willow laugh softly in her ear.
“Actually, that sounds like a good combination, the Sun is showing Casablanca, so, do you like old movies?” Willow perked up at the blondes’ suggestion.
The blonde thought for a moment and said “This could be the start of a beautiful friendship, I love old movies, so movie and dancing it is then.”
“Um…good, good…so do you wanna go back to the Bronze or try somewhere else, here goes, the Stiff Kitten maybe?” Willow held her breath after she spoke, hoping she had sounded as if it was no big deal to her that she wanted to go to the Kitten.
“Yeah, I know the Stiff Kitten…well online, I haven’t actually been there but it looked like a fun place judging by the photo’s” said the blonde to Willow’s delight.
“I haven’t been either, but it does seem to be a fun venue. So that’s great, Thursday all sorted…except will I pick you up at your room or meet you at the cinema, what is the accepted protocol on these things? To be honest I’ve never taken anyone on a date before, and no-one has ever taken me so is it ok to do either or do I have to pick…”
“WILLOW!” her name loudly interrupted her chatter, and she stopped talking.
Tara heard the silence and wondered if Willow was still there, “Willow, hello, are you there? You were babbling again, sorry for shouting” she said with sincerity.
“That’s ok, but I preferred the method you employed last night to shut me up” she giggled teasing the blonde,
every sentence would be a babble if you would kiss me quiet.
Tara coloured with pleasure at the redhead’s unexpected reference to her kiss and replied “Sorry sweetie, but I have to be in the same room for that, not much else I can do from here but shout.”
I called her sweetie!
She called me sweetie!
“Pity” said Willow sadly, who at that moment wished she could teleport Tara to her, or her to Tara.
The blonde remembered the touch of Willow’s lips against hers and the sensation of that ‘bad tongue’ teasing the roof of her mouth and shivered, “Mmm…I agree” was heard softly by the redhead who smiled knowing that Tara was feeling the same way as herself.
“Meet me. Today!
I want to see you now” Willow suddenly said caught up in the emotion washing over her, and hoping she didn’t frighten the blonde with the desperate tone in her voice.
Tara heard the words and a thrill ran through her, “Meet you? Are you serious? I…I don’t know…I have a class…”
Why am I ducking out of this, I want to be with her, so why not meet her?
“I’m sorry, it was a stupid thing to say” Willow apologised, “I have a class too, and then work, but I do wish we could meet. Thursday seems so far away” she finished quietly.
“It’s ok. Please don’t apologise, it wasn’t stupid. It was sweet and spontaneous…not very practical…but I’m flattered you wanted to see me so much,” Tara said.
Neither girl spoke. The silence between them felt thick and weighty.
Willow’s mind dwelled on how Tara must be feeling at her suggestion,
I’ve scared her, confused her, made her uncomfortable, oh I should’ve kept my mouth shut. Stupid mouth!
The blonde stood behind Anya’s counter, the phone felt heavy in her hand, as heavy as heart felt in her chest. She knew Willow’s comment had just been on of those things that are said when you are carried along in the moment, and her hesitation was just part of her natural reticence. She thought about everything she had done so far in her pursuit of the redhead, and everything had been out of character, would it be so hard to say yes Willow, let’s blow off afternoon classes and spend a few hours together?
“Tara? Tara? Are you still there?” a slightly concerned voice broke through the silence and into her thoughts, helping her come to a decision.
“Yes, yes, I’m still here. Sorry I got caught up in my own head. Um…Willow…if you’d still like too meet up, um…” she paused and took a deep breath to centre herself, “I’d like to meet you too, er… today”
“You would? You really mean that? Of course you mean it, you wouldn’t have said so if you didn’t mean it, I can’t believe I’m cutting class” said the giddy redhead in a high-pitched tone who’s brain was now going in a dozen different directions wondering how best to spend her very unexpected afternoon with Tara.
Tara laughed as she imagined Willow’s reaction to her change of mind, and she rightly guessed that the other girl was happy about her decision, “So, if we’re gonna play hookey, you got anything in mind?” Tara voice held a teasing edge that surprised her.
What am I doing? I don’t usually move this fast…it scary…exciting…about damn time Anya would say…Anya would be right.
Willow took the phone away from her ear and looked at with a raised eye-brow.
Did I hear that right? God, Tara sounds so sexy. I love flirty Tara! Love? So soon…scary thought…go away scary thought…now is not the time to think about that! Her internal babble almost caused Willow to drop the phone, and with fumbling grip she brought it back to her ear. “I’m happy to go along with anything you want to do” she said calmly though her mind was racing again keeping pace with her heart.
“Mmm…Well, why don’t we meet at the Espresso Pump, and take it from there?” the blonde suggested, not trusting herself to say anything further.
“Sounds good to me, um…so, I’ll see you soon then, it should take me about half an hour to get there. I still can’t believe we’re doing this” giggled Willow.
“Oh, believe it. You’re with dangerous Judith now” Tara laughed at her own words. I’m such a dork!
Willow gave a loud laugh into the phone,”Dangerous Judith. That’s funny. Like a deranged superhero. Do you have a costume, like Supergirl?” The redhead almost drooled as an image of Tara as Supergirl flooded her mind in shades of blue and red.
I’m such a horndog, like I need any encouragement, go away sexy image, I gotta get to the real thing! “Wait! Don’t answer that, the more we talk the less we’ll see of each other. See you very soon, Tara, bye” her excitement getting the better of her, her voice was almost a squeak.
“Bye, Willow, see you soon” said the blonde and she hung up the phone with a wide smile and a happy heart.
Tara stood alone in the empty shop completely bemused by the turn of events. She had woken up this morning with the hangover from hell, and now she was waiting to see the girl who in a very short time was having the most amazing consequence on her life.
She had never encountered anyone who had had such an instant effect on her. From the moment the redhead had babbled in the library she knew she was in trouble. Her subsequent actions were testament to that, and she also knew she was ready to take a chance on this bright, bubbly, and sexy girl.
Tara heard noise coming from the direction of stockroom and was glad that Anya was awake now as she hated the thought of disturbing her. She was also pleased when the shopkeeper emerged looking a little dishevelled but definitely brighter than she had been before her nap. Tara smiled at her and asked “How are you feeling, Anya?”
Anya ran her fingers through her light brown hair gently scratching her scalp and with a yawn said “Oh, much better, thank you. I’m almost feeling human again. I’m ready to get back behind my counter and make some money.”
“Well, that’s good, cos I have to go now, what with getting back to campus and class an that” she lied.
Why am I lying? I’m not doing anything I shouldn’t. Admit it Tara, blowing of classes and meeting Willow feels all the more naughty if you don’t tell anyone.
“Well, you go study gal, and don’t forget to ring Willow” she replied as she walked behind the counter to stand beside Tara.
“Um…I won’t forget. I’ll see you tomorrow after class, gotta work more of them hours off I owe you” she said giving Anya a hug, “Bye”
Tara had made her way to the coffee shop where she now waited nervously for Willow. She had arrived in good time to get a table before the lunchtime rush really got going, and she had ordered a tea to pass the time and look less like someone waiting for someone.
Willow walked quickly to the Pump, having got off the bus five minutes before. Since hanging up the phone her only focus had been to get into town and meet Tara. She had wondered were things were going with the blonde, and how fast. Her earlier thoughts about loving flirty Tara had left her unsettled. She knew it had just been a figure of speech, but all the same, it alluded to so much more and Willow was scared by how her feelings were running so far ahead of her intellect. Her head told her that someone she had met for the first time just over forty eight hours ago, and got to know in a fun but limited way in even less time couldn’t be the object of love. Attraction certainly, lust possibly, but not love. Surely that took more time. Love needed grow, be nurtured, it needed to be based in some commonality beyond a love of old movies and a shared sexuality. She inwardly groaned as the weight of her thoughts began to impinge on her excitement of spending time with Tara.
Shut up brain, now is not your time, I’m gonna let some other body parts take the lead, you just function quietly in the background for a change, ok?
Tara sat cradling her tea-cup, taking small sips of the warm liquid and savouring the heat on her tongue. She was still nervous. Nervous about the unexpected hours she was about to spend with Willow. She wondered what had possessed her to change her mind. It wasn’t just about taking a chance, it was about taking a chance with Willow. She felt attracted to redhead on many levels, it wasn’t hard to admit that to herself. But the intensity of it was overwhelming, it made her heart pound and her stomach fluttery, or maybe it was the caffeine and the remains of her hangover. She smiled at her denial of the cause and took another sip of her brew.
Finally setting her cup on the table, she looked up toward the entrance just in time to see Willow arrive. Tara didn’t need to wave as her eyes immediately locked with the redheads.
Oh, God, here we go. No turning back now…like I would want to.
Her blue eyes never left the green of Willow’s as the redhead made her way across the shop to her table. Tara gave a slow blink and a warm smile as she watched Willow’s mouth quirk into a grin.
“Hi” Willow said in happy voice.
“Hi” said Tara, “You’re early, Sunnydale Transport is running on time for once”
“Mmm” replied Willow, “I had it arranged specially, rang the manager and told him I was meeting a superhero, and I might have to help save the world, wouldn’t do to be late”, laughing at her own silly joke she pulled out a seat and sat down beside the blonde, who she was pleased to see was laughing with her.
When their laughter stopped, both girls’s sat quietly looking at each other, waiting for the other to speak.
“Um…so…I got some tea while I was waiting, and” looking into her cup, “it’s gone a little cold, so I think I need another” Tara broke the silence in a slightly awkward manner, “can I get you something?”
Willow looked around the busy shop and suddenly decided that she didn’t want to be here. She wanted to be with Tara, somewhere, anywhere that wasn’t here. There were too many people and she didn’t want to share her time with the blonde with anyone. She didn’t want the bustle and noise of a coffee shop to distract her from giving Tara her full attention and vice-versa.
“Willow” Tara waved a hand in front of the red-heads face, “are you ok?”
“Mmm…what, baby” she murmured absently, still caught up in her thoughts.
Tara smiled, enjoying the zingy feeling that zapped through her tummy and exited through her bellybutton when Willow said baby. “I asked if you were ok, you look kinda, um, spacey”
“Oh, oh, I’m sorry. Yeah, spacey. I was just thinking how busy it was here and maybe we should go elsewhere, less noisy, fewer people, ya know…” she tailed off.
Tara considered what had been said, The Pump had got a lot busier since she arrived, and the noise levels were getting to the point were conversation would be a problem. And, as she looked at the still distracted red-head, she released that somewhere with fewer people certainly had advantages.
“Ok. I don’t mind leaving, somewhere quieter and fewer people would be nice,” she said brightly smiling at the red-head.
“Yeah” Willow practically bounced on her seat “Ooh, we could have a picnic…or is a picnic in November the action of a crazy person?” she asked earnestly, hoping she didn’t sound like a crazy person, “We can get sandwiches here, soda, stop off and get some fruit and paper plates an that at the convenience store on our way to the park. The parks always quiet, fresh air, trees, birdies…what?” She realised Tara was looking at her, and that she was blushing slightly, “I sound like a crazy person don’t I?” she squeaked, wondering what Tara would say.
“No, sweetie, I don’t think you’re a crazy person. I think a picnic is a fine idea, it’s just you were babbling…and…and I remembered last night in the bronze…” she admitted, and coloured further.
Willow put a comforting hand on Tara’s and smiled at the memory, “Oh, yes, well, that…” she looked around at the packed tables “I don’t think the patrons of the Pump are quite ready for kisses and gaylove with their coffee, so why don’t we take a raincheck on that particular piece of babble.” She leaned in closer to the still blushing blonde and intimated “You can redeem it later, when we have much less company” With a soft squeeze to the hand she held, she sat back enjoying the buzz of her connection with Tara.
Sitting there with goofy grins, and their eye’s making direct contact, they both shared the similar thoughts to how comfortable they were with this very new relationship.
Willow compared it with her instant connection with Buffy.
Except, I don’t want to kiss Buffy, thank you very much. She giggled out loud and saw Tara’s face, a quizzical expression on her pretty countenance.
“I was just thinking about Buffy…well how this…you and me…is like Buffy” she explained, totally confusing the blonde.
Tara laughed, “Ookay that makes absolutely no sense to me. Why don’t we get started on this picnic thing and you can try and clue me in to the workings of your mind while we eat.”
Willow smiled, a bright wide toothy grin and stood up saying “That’s a very good idea” She took the hand she still holding and gave it a gentle pull indicating she was ready to go.
Standing, Tara lifted her bag from the floor and they both walked to the queue for their take-out.
People grow through experience if they meet life honestly and courageously. This is how character is built. Eleanor Roosevelt