New fic-Passion Never Dies

[Magrat70]

I'm glad everybody is still enjoying this fic and I agree Miss Kitty they still have to talk about things that happened before they can truly get together.



I'll try and post another update soon

These five words in my head scream "are we having fun yet?"

Chad Kroeger

[eccentrictulip]

tack on another vote for daddy giles--he's adorable!!! glad they're finally back together, although i sense some angst in the future.....however, as long as it's kitten angst and not evil joss angst, i can handle it

*please use both hands....*

[Magrat70]

Title: Passion Never Dies part 15

Author: Magrat

Spoilers: As before

Ratings: PG13



Passion Never Dies part 15



They arrived back at the hotel mid afternoon with Willow desperate to talk to Tara.



The blonde and her friend had arrived a couple of minutes before Giles and Willow and she was all smiles waiting for them in car park.” Nice trip?” she asked.



“Great” said Willow. “Jersey is beautiful”



Tara noticed the pensive look on her girlfriend’s face “What’s up?”



“I…can we go back to the room. I need to talk to you,” said Willow



Tara felt like her heart was going to burst, fearing the worse, Willow was going to tell her that she just wanted to be friends. “O-okay”



They walked quickly across the car park towards the room leaving Giles a little stunned by the sudden strained atmosphere between the two.



Tara opened the door of the room trying to fight back the blind panic that was rising within. She was scared and she didn’t want to lose her dignity. She wrapped her arms tightly around herself in an effort to ward of the pain she felt sure was coming her way. She kept her back to Willow just hoping the redhead would say what she needed to say quickly.



“Tara turn round” said Willow gently wondering what was wrong with blonde.



She turned but wouldn’t raise her eyes to met Willow’s.



Willow sighed she wasn’t really sure how to broach the subject “Tara I was…Giles told me…I mean. He said that when you moved in with him you were suffering from really bad nightmares.”



“Oh” said Tara surprised “you looked so serious I thought you were going to tell me you just wanted to be friends”



“No, no that’s never going to happen. I mean I hope we’ll always be friends but I want a whole lot more than that” said Willow.



Tara felt the relief flood through her body, she moved in close to Willow and pulled the hacker into her arms.



Willow gently pushed Tara away “Tell me about the nightmares”



A frown crossed the blonde’s usually pretty features “It was s-such a long time ago, you don’t w-want to hear about t-that”



Willow knew she had hit a sore point as soon as Tara’s stutter had started “Now come on don’t go all avoidy on me”



“I’m not” said Tara “I just really don’t want bring it all up again.”



“Baby we can’t start by hiding things from one another” said Willow. “Please I want to know”



“You really don’t” said Tara with a shake of the head.



“I do, now don’t argue with me, see I have my resolve face on, you know what it means” said Willow looking serious.



Tara took a deep breath. “I-I just had a lot of nightmares t-that’s all”



“Tara” said Willow sternly.



“Okay” said the witch looking defeated “you win” the blonde sat down heavily on the bed and her voice seemed to be coming from a long way away and she couldn’t bring herself to look at Willow. “They started before I went to England but they just seemed to get worse when I got there.”



“They are always the same, it starts with me sitting on that damn bench during the fair. I sit there by myself, when someone holds my hand I turn to smile thinking it’s you, when it happened for real I look up and it’s Glory, but in my dream it is you. It doesn’t matter though you do all the things Glory did too me; torture me, break my hand and eventually take my sanity.” Tara shudders as the memories come flooding back to her. “I had them night after night sometimes two or three times a night, it got so bad that Giles tried to get me to go see a doctor about them, but in the end I found a mixture of meditation and martial arts got me through.”



Willow looked dumbstruck not sure what to say. She knew she had caused Tara pain but this was the first time it had really hit home how much she had hurt the quiet blonde whose only crime had been to fall in love with her. “How can you forgive me?”



“Because I don’t want to live with bitterness and hate and besides you weren’t your self at the time” said Tara simply.



“You are just incredible, do you know that? I crossed so many lines at that time, but the stupid thing is, all the things I did to you were to try and stop you from leaving, pretty dumb huh?” said the hacker. “ I’ve learnt the hard way that you can’t make people do things against their own will and I if I could take back any of the hurt I caused you I would. Tara I’m so in love with you and I promise with all my heart that I will never cause you that kind of pain again.”



Willow holds on Tara’s hand and looks deep into her eyes hoping that her depth of feelings can being transmitted to the other girl.



“K” said Tara softly “I believe you but it’s been hard, you know, to try and trust you again but it seems to get easier the more time I spend with you”



“I guess you’ll have to spend as much time as possible with me then” said Willow with a smile, which is answered by one of Tara’s sweet half smiles.



“I suppose I’ll have to force myself” said the blonde with a giggle relieved that the moment of tension had past.



TBC

These five words in my head scream "are we having fun yet?"

Chad Kroeger

[Lola19]

Aww that was sweet. Poor Willow though, she must have felt so bad when Tara told her about the dreams. Im sure all will stay well with our girls though? Please?

Great update Magrat70

Love Lola xxx

[LeatherQueen]

Ah, good to see them communicating and trying to work through old issues. Nice update.

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"But when they're playing your song on the jukebox in Hell, you might as well dance." - K. Simpson


"Futile... like a FOX, baby!" - Tara in The Late Shift by wiccachica

[Puff]

Oh I had two updates to catch up on and I am really enjoying how this fic is going. It's great to have Willow and Tara talking again so they can sort out their problems. And I like how Giles is being a father figure to Tara as well

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You know, it's a real deal relationship and that's why people can relate to it
Amber Benson

[no birthday cake]

talks like that are always difficult. i think it was really well done.. i could feel the tension.

two thumbs up.

[Jennpurr]

Communication. Very good.



Poor Willow, but poor Tara. I can't imagine if that was me having those dreams. I'm glad she's doing okay. I hope our girls can grow stronger and wiser. Thanks for the update.



More, soon?



Jen

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"Alyson Hannigan is a frickin' amazing kisser."Amber Benson

[MadeinNZ]

Awwww. They'll be together forever.

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"When someone falls for Willow, they stay fallen" - Normal Again

[xita]

Oh they are talking, poor Tara was worried, heck I was worried. But that nightmare Tara had, that's pretty bad and hits to the core of their trust issues.. good they talked.

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Willow: (to Tara) I could heal.

Tara: (to Willow)And we’re gone.

[snuggle79]

Great update! Good, that Tara finally told her about those dreams.

Xita, can i say, that i really really love your avatar!

Oh baby, want me to rub your tummy? She likes it when I ... stop explaining things.

Hi, um Tara..how are you? well...I was wondering maybe you want to go out some time...for coffee? food? Kisses and gay love?

[Magrat70]

I must admit I wasn't sure if the last part had really worked (I've been holding onto it, not sure if I wanted to post it or not) so I'm glad that people seemed to like it, so thanks for feedback.



Have a nice what's left of the weekend

Love

Wendy

These five words in my head scream "are we having fun yet?"

Chad Kroeger

[Grimaldi]

great update it was good that they finally began to talk about what Willow did and how it affected Tara

Dude, we're surrounded by perverts!

Worm, are you ready to die in the cleansing apocalypse?

Its not my fault that you're a little geek with no sense of humor

[Miss1234Kitty]

Aw, how sweet. I'm glad they talked. Now Tara needs to realise how much she hurt Willow as well. Relationships don't break down from just one person's mistakes. Please, huge Tara fans, don't kill me for saying that, but they don't. Yes, I am more of a Willow fan than a Tara fan, so I am protective but I don't think I'm wrong either when I say that Willow wasn't the only one who messed up. She messed up MORE, but not alone.



Great update. You've really got into their heads. I know I've said this before, but I really do like protective Giles!



Gem

Tara: There's just so much to work through... and can you just be kissing me now?

[SlayerTazz]

awww - that was a sweet update!! Talking is always good. Thanks for the update!!

A dream is a wish the heart makes.

Willow: "You had two eggs, sunny-side-up. I remember because they were wiggling at me like little boobs."

Tara: "Sassy Eggs."

[Rane018]

hi! finally caught up to this fic! woo hoo. tara and willow slowly getting back together are cool fics.



i like how you set it in the future and that tara went off to england. the jump in narrative tense jars a bit the flow and a beta reader sure would help with that and certain british-ism that come out in the writing. i agree tara would have adpated to the british way of speaking and i liked that she had to explain to willow what pissed meant. i like that word. hehe...



i also liked them having sex right away like that and them having to deal with the reprecussions of their actions. lord knows i've done that and i'm not the only one. it's obvious by *seeing red* that something like this could happen. their love is so strong for each other.



the physcial violence was horrible and i think they should have dealt with that a bit more, tara left her home and her lover due to such things.



having the LA gang there was cool and having connor there is interesting. i dont like him at all, not really having paid much attention to the last half of the season for angel i cant really give a reason.



so um... yeah. i've written way too much and now my brother is calling for the phone line. gotta log off. cant wait for another update!

[Magrat70]

Thaks for all the kind words



Snuggle-I'm glad Turkey at least came out with something out of the world cup



Rane-Yeah I should get a beta-just another one of those things i just never seem to have time for . I'm glad you liked it anymore up dates for Camp Flutie-Please

These five words in my head scream "are we having fun yet?"

Chad Kroeger

[snuggle79]

magrat70 - yeah, thanx! I think so too. They really deserved it. I have so enjoyed watching the game yesterday! It was such a pleasure and so sweet to look at when they shoed the kids of several players. Watching the South Korea vs. Turkey game was way more better than the final game today.

Oh baby, want me to rub your tummy? She likes it when I ... stop explaining things.

Hi, um Tara..how are you? well...I was wondering maybe you want to go out some time...for coffee? food? Kisses and gay love?

Edited by: snuggle79 at: 6/30/02 4:05:13 pm

[mollyig]

She wrapped her arms tightly around herself in an effort to ward of the pain she felt sure was coming her way Tara back using her defensive posture. Poor love.



Glad she told Willow about the nightmares, and they're trusting each other.

Adding up the total of a love that's true, multiply life by the power of two
Indigo Girls

[Mix]

Woo, had me worried for a minute there. I'm glad the trust issues are being worked out, though it's a shame that Tara automatically thought the worst!



M

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If you love men so much, go love men! - Anya before walking off with Willow's coffee in Entropy

[pikescoob]

Daddy Giles looking out for Tara...so sweet. I'm glad they talked...it was stuff they needed to get out in the open.



--Michelle

[Magrat70]

Mix, Mollygig I think Tara will always be insecure round Willow, because she loves her so much



I hope to post the next part soon

These five words in my head scream "are we having fun yet?"

Chad Kroeger

[TareBearRS]

I'm glad they got that out of the way, now nothing stands between them in trying again and making it work this time.

Love how protective Giles is.

And way to go Tara, forgiving is so hard.. especially when you were hurt so badly. Way to go girl!!

Good pionts for Willow too, not giving up and staying strong.

R.

[Magrat70]

Title: Passion Never Dies part 16

Author: Magrat

Ratings: R

Spoilers: As before

Notes: The story of Jambo is true and his progeny (13) have been distributed between collections in Europe, North America and Australia. He was also the first male Gorilla to be born in captivity in Basle zoo in 1961. Probably too much info I know.



Passion Never Dies part 16



“What else did Giles to talk you about?” asked Tara curiously.



“He just wanted to know what my intentions were towards you,” said Willow.



“Excuse me?” said Tara a little shocked.



“He’s just trying to protect you. I wish I had someone who looked out for me, the way he looks out for you,” said Willow “You’re very lucky.”



“You have Buffy and Fred,” said Tara.



“I suppose… but not quite the same. They’re friends but he told me he was your father” said willow.



“H-he has looked after me since I came to live in England. He’s everything my own father wasn’t; he’s kind, loving generous and he would do anything to help me out of trouble. I guess you’re right. I am lucky,” said Tara. “So what did you say?”



“What?” said Willow confused as Tara produced a Willow style jump in the conversation.



“About your intentions towards me?” asked the blonde.



“I told him that I intend to have great sex with you for a week…”



“Will” squealed Tara once again looking shocked.



“I’m joking” said the redhead. “I told him I’d be keeping you prisoner in the room…”



“I can see I’m not going to get any sense from you” said Tara. “Come on Will just tell me”



“No” said the hacker “I don’t want to inflate your ego too much”



“Oh that good” said Tara grinning. “What do you wanna do for the rest of the afternoon.”



“Funny you should ask that” said Willow. “but I feel the need to lie down.”



“You tired baby?” asked Tara playing the innocent. “You want me too leave you so you can sleep?”



“I think I need you to lie down with me for a totally satisfying experience” said Willow



“And what sort of experience are you after?” asked Tara.



“Come here and I’ll show you” said Willow sitting on the bed indicating to the blonde to sit next to her.



“Nothing you are suggesting is going to lead to sleep” said Tara.



“I said I wanted to lie down, who said anything about going too sleep?” said Willow “and I thought you were going to see how quickly you could please me”



Tara knelt on the bed bedside Willow and looked into her eyes “How about if I see how long I can keep you on the edge”



“On the edge…”



Tara pushes Willow down on the bed “I think it’s my turn to be in charge.



Willow sighed gently as Tara starts to nibble on her neck; soon she stopped sighing, soon she started to scream.



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“This is a weird hotel,” said Willow starring out the window.



Tara raised her head from the pillow and looked blearily at her girlfriend. “What now?”



“It’s weird,” said Willow.



“I got that part sweetie, so weird how and what time is it?” said Tara.



Willow looked at her watch “Sorry, baby it’s only 6:30, go back too sleep if you want”



Tara smiled “I’m already awake so tell me what you want to tell me.”



“Ducks” said Willow.



“Ducks?” said Tara. “Did I just fall back to sleep then and miss a part of the conversation?”



“On the pool, there is a family of ducks swimming on the pool,” said the hacker “and the staff have walked past but no one has tried to shoo them off”



“They usually sleep under the lounger,” explained Tara, “Someone will come and clean the pool when they finish.”



“See I told you; weird” said Willow.



The blonde levers herself out of bed “Actually you being here has knocked me out of my routine”



“I can disappear if you want,” said Willow playfully.



“Don’t you dare” said Tara “All I was going to say is do you want go for a swim”



“I thought you weren’t allowed to use the pool until after 8:30,” said Willow



“Oh I forgot to show you the other pool and stuff, it opens at seven, come on” Said Tara.



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Tara leads Willow out of the courtyard towards the car park.



“Okay more weirdness,” said Willow glancing around the car park. It was full of bustling people cleaning their MGs.



Tara giggles and whispers to Willow “Some of these will have been up since five and talking of obsessed with their cars. Hi Giles”



“Oh hi girls. Lovely day, any plans for today?” asked Giles.



“I thought I’d hire a car and take Willow to the zoo” said Tara. “Or you could lend me yours”



Giles turned puce.



“Don’t worry I’m only joking” said Tara.



“Very funny” said Giles. “You going for a swim?”



“Yeah catch you later” said Willow.



They crossed over the car park to a small building. They entered it. It was a small heated pool and next to it was a large Jacuzzi.



“Wow” said Willow “It’s lovely and I want to use the Jacuzzi.”



“Don’t you think you should get changed first” said Tara.



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They arrive at the zoo.



“I thought you didn’t approve of zoos,” said Willow.



“This zoo is different. Gerald Durrell started it and it is one of the main conservation zoos for great apes in the whole world.” Said Tara. “Plus apes funny”



Willow was amazed by the size of the zoo and the amount of animals that were just free to roam around. Tara pointed out the family of Golden Lion Tamarins who were free to roam about the woods and could go anywhere in the island but they always came back.



Willow could tell her girlfriend felt very passionate about the conservation work the zoo was involved in and it felt just nice listening as she explained all the workings of the zoo. She just smiled and found that she was having the most fun she had had in years.



Willow was then brought almost to tears as Tara told her about the tale Jambo who used to be the zoo’s Silverback Gorilla. She told her how a small boy had fallen from the wall surrounding the Gorillas’ enclosure and fractured his skull and how this huge ape had approached the boy, much to his parents’ horror, and just sat with him stroking his head until the keepers could get help for the boy.



“Do you want some lunch?” asked Tara.



“Sure” said Willow.



They sat in silence eating their lunch for a while.



“You love it here, don’t you?” said Willow



“Yeah it’s nice but I like a lot of places in Britain,” said Tara smiling. “Bath’s lovely, so’s Scotland, Cornwall and other places. I’ll have to show you sometime”



“That would be nice,” said Willow smiling, but at the back of her mind thoughts of what they would do in the future started to lay its ugly seeds.



TBC

These five words in my head scream "are we having fun yet?"

Chad Kroeger

[SlayerTazz]

Magrat70 - Awesome update - very sweet. I love the interaction betweetn w/t!!

A dream is a wish the heart makes.

Willow: "You had two eggs, sunny-side-up. I remember because they were wiggling at me like little boobs."

Tara: "Sassy Eggs."

[Jennpurr]

Magrat,



That was a lovely update. Thank you. But... that last sentence, didn't sound good. Ugly seeds??



I love your W/T interaction and it was funny what Will told Tara, what she said to Giles.



Hee...can't wait for more.



Jen

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"Alyson Hannigan is a frickin' amazing kisser."Amber Benson
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Mi corazon perdido en ti...

[snuggle79]

Great Update! But i think i'm kinda worried about the last sentence...

Oh baby, want me to rub your tummy? She likes it when I ... stop explaining things.

Hi, um Tara..how are you? well...I was wondering maybe you want to go out some time...for coffee? food? Kisses and gay love?

[zero]

Ugly seeds...trying to turn me on?!



Sorry, couldn't help myself!

Liking this muchly.

'Winners never quit, and quitters never win, but those who never win and never quit are idiots!'

[xita]

Oh wow, Tara really likes Britain, doesn't look like she might be leaving... what are they going to do?

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Willow: (to Tara) I could heal.

Tara: (to Willow)And we’re gone.

[eccentrictulip]

once again, another fantastic update you've really shown lots of sides of tara that joss & co never explored, & i'm loving it!! hope there's more soon.....

*please use both hands....*