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Re: New Fic - At Any Cost. (Updated 22 April)

Postby Useful_Oxymoron » Sun Apr 23, 2006 10:49 am

Tara's heart swelled with a love so vast and powerful that she thought her heart must surely break. How did I ever get so lucky? How could I have ever won this beautiful, magnificent woman? Every morning I wake, I am surprised that she loves me. Because she does. Shes loves me as much as I love her.


*heart melts and drips down along my intestines.* Aww, that was so heartwarmingly cute. :wtkiss

We open to see a slighty nervous timothy talking to Willow and Tara who can only dance around the truth. Comedy potential here. :) Not to mention the nasty smelly demon hiding in the background. Granted the food-excuse is probably not the best avenue to explain the smell... what if Willow and Tara would have wanted a taste? ;)

Ah, the eternal agony of the man trapped in his own time-paradox... He might actually do more damage if it is revealed who he really is, after all.

The fourteenth of December, 1999.


The day that Tara first met a young redhead named Willow Rosenberg.


I imagine that can be creepy. Hm, I wonder if nameless will be getting a name soon. ;)

“Hello?” Tara spoke into the receiver, prepared to welcome even a telemarketer asking if she were happy with her long-distance service.


I love those phonecalls! I can tell them to fuck off without feeling guilty about it afterwards. :kdevil

After a brief exclamation of pain, Mrs Creedy responded that she was. “I seem to have hit myself in the head with the phone. I don't know what's come over me,” Mrs Creedy finished with a weak chuckle.


Too bad there wasn't a jackhammer nearby. :kdevil
Of course, Tara's too much of a kind soul to think she'd deserve that. So let's leave the violent thoughts to cynical bastards like me, I suppose. ;)

All ending within a rousing scene filled with action-packed violence. Nice, very nice. So, Nathaniel, eh? Well, Tara knows A name, but is it really his? Still, we're still a bit sketchy what his true motives are.

I'm at the edge of my seat here. Hoping for a swift continuation. Oh, and get well soon, obviously.
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Re: New Fic - At Any Cost. (Updated 22 April)

Postby db » Sun Apr 23, 2006 8:17 pm

kayaushk: You are right. It is all true. Every word. I stand corrected.

It's just that the word 'sex' can be a little ambiguous here on the kitten board';-)'


What was my point anyway? Somethin' about chromosomes and, wait... Oh yeah. Um. I like this story. I would like to read more so... um, yeah. My apologies to all for this digression.

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Re: New Fic - At Any Cost. (Updated 22 April)

Postby viximon » Tue Apr 25, 2006 11:03 am

Gack, I almost go without feedbacking you.

Muy buenas Paul!! How are you? Me fine, thanks for asking, though you didn't...and don't need to...I mean...bah, forget it. Bigbadies like us are always fine, evilish, laughting and complainig and laughting(ho ho ho >:) evil laughts) ... you get my point.
Why is that the badies are always so full of themselves , always laughting and stuff...if you don't laught properly you aren't a real BigBad. Had you wondered ever? Eitheir way, I'm still practicing my powerful great evil laugh for my future conkering of the world (don't want to made a fool of myself, I need to be a mighty dominator with perver laugh)
...and I'm babbling senseless, aren't I? :smug well, that comes in the BigBad cliché pack too so. Rambling endlessly till you enemies pass out. That's it.

That's my overstuddied Xander-like point speech which I show Nameless isn't a BigBad. (It's working?):-D

Anyway, that chapter was great. Really. Timothy had yet to make his best move on the story. But it's promising. Nathaniel too is yet surronded by mistery goal mist, acting madly on what seems to make no sense.


The fourteenth of December, 1999.


The day that Tara first met a young redhead named Willow Rosenberg


I can't wait to put the puzzle pieces together already. It's so cool. Love the fic more every time. So keep it up.
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Re: New Fic - At Any Cost. (Updated 22 April)

Postby Darth Pacula » Fri May 05, 2006 8:13 am

For those who are so inclined as to actually give a stuff, the next update should be posted some time tommorrow morning (Oz time). It's about ten past one in the morning right now, so I'm going to catch at least a few hours of sleep.

Unless I trip over one of the random piles of books and knock myself out or something.

Wish me luck!

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Re: New Fic - At Any Cost. (Updated 22 April)

Postby Katez0r » Fri May 05, 2006 9:05 am

Good luck, and no tripping!

For some reason I haven't left feedback for the last couple chapters. Possibly because I am brain dead and burnt out from workshoolworkverylittlesleep. And right now I have to go to work. But! When I return? Feedbacky goodness. And also, a little "I was riiiiiiiiiiiiiiiight" dance about Timothy.
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Re: New Fic - At Any Cost. (Updated 22 April)

Postby Darth Pacula » Fri May 05, 2006 2:59 pm

Dianneswillowtree - G'day, Dianneswillowtree. Congrats on the dibs, and thanks muchly.

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Roger Doger - G'day, RD. When you tell a writer (even a half-assed amateur such as myself) that their prose almost plays in your head like a movie, there's little higher praise. So thank you.

Yep, Tara's a force to be reckoned with when she's riled. Which isn't easy, but go after Willow ... and you better watch out!

Will ... well, she's okay in the long term sense, but short term ... well, lets just say it's not all fluffy kitties and happy puppies.

Cheers!

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db - G'day, db. Nothing to forgive, mate. Criticism might make me blubber impotently (:p just kidding!), but when I'm wrong I'm not afraid to admit it. (My brother might try to argue that point, but who cares what he says, right? :p)

See what I meant by my HS Biology being rusty? It has been more than a decade since I really even thought about it much, so ...

Anyhoo, your points are spot on. But you have to remember, I haven't come out and said that Timothy is their biological son. I might have hinted at it, but he could just be adopted. Adopted kids still call their parents Mum and Dad, or in this case Mom and ... Mom 2? :grin

But aside from that, thanks for your kind words.

Help. Cliff hanger. I need to know what happens next!


Okay! The next update is entirely about Nameless basting himself like an overcooked chicken. :grin

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gabbyx19 - G'day, gabbyx19. Thanks.

Don't keep us waiting long :pray


You know, I keep meaning to bring each part out faster, but my writing speed seems to be all over the place lately, and I keep running over schedule. But what can I do?

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Roger Doger Mk 2 - Back again, huh?

Of course, sexuality is a preference, and doesn't necessarily have anything to do with your gender. I'm sure some readers here could attest to that fact very much. Just because you're physically a female doesn't mean you like boys sexually, or feel like you should be more feminine.


Spot on, mate. Personally, I think sexual preference is a non-issue, and always should be, unless you yourself have a sexual interest in the person in question, or they in you. Any other time, it's none of anyone else's business.

Okay, I'll just come out and say Timothy is a guy, flat out, in the statistically typical sense of the word. He's not a cross dresser, or a hermaphrodite or ... I dunno ... a giant killer tomato. Where he came from, or how he came to be ... I'm not telling. Yet.

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caz - G'day, Caz. How's tricks in 'Geordie Land'?

I don't think it will take Willow long to recall where 'the smell' came from.


Depends on how acute her sense memory is, I suppose. She's only encountered Lickspittle the once, and while his odor is ... er, somewhat unique, she doesn't know it off by heart yet. If they have another run-in though ...

What Nameless was trying to do to Willow in the first place will be revealed at the end of this next update. Yes, we could have had a tragedy on our hands, except for the fact that this is Pens, and we're guaranteed a happy ending for W/T at the very least.

Nameless will come clean eventually, and it is coming closer.

Oh, and I'm feeling much better now. Thanks for asking.

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kayaushk - G'day, Kayaushk, and welcome.

It always gives my vain little ego a nice puff up to hear this referred to as a masterwork, so thanks for that. Though, if my head is too swelled to fit through the doorway, I'm blaming you. :p

You're right, in these days gender, like so much else, is a social construct. I think we were more using the term in it's scientific sense (or rather db and RD were, since I haven't commented until now :grin), but point taken.

I'll accept the little smack on the back of the hand with equanimity and grace. Which is not to say I won't quietly start plotting my revenge ... but we won't go into that here. :p Just kidding.

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WillowRulez - Well, of course I couldn't resist! :grin

Glad you liked the update, and sorry I couldn't post all of the rest of the story in one hit, just for you. But that would require me to have actually written it yet.

Ahh, Buffy. She did just follow her instincts here, rather than stop and think about what she might be doing. Wouldn't you, if you found someone doing ... whatever ... to your best friend?

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Useful_Oxymoron - G'day, UO. You know, I recognized that passage you quoted, but I took me ages to remember where in the story it was. Imagine my surprise when I found it on the first page of the thread. Been re-reading, have we?

Timothy's food excuse was based in reality. I have personally experienced both of his examples in real life, complements of my brother. Though to be fair, I've had my own fair share of culinary disasters.

I love those phonecalls! I can tell them to fuck off without feeling guilty about it afterwards.


Well, I'm usually too polite in reality to do that (stupid upbringing!) but here in Oz, most of the telemarketers these days seem to operate out of India. When you pick up the phone, there's a few seconds of silence as it gets switched through, so if no-one answers right away I just hang up.

Too bad there wasn't a jackhammer nearby. Of course, Tara's too much of a kind soul to think she'd deserve that. So let's leave the violent thoughts to cynical bastards like me, I suppose.


Thee and me, my friend.

But yes, I'm all better now thanks. Well, mostly. Stupid cold snap.

Cheers!

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db Mk2 - Hello again, mate.

It's just that the word 'sex' can be a little ambiguous here on the kitten board


Except on Pens. There it just means hot Willow and Tara lovin'. :drool

Oh, and feel free to digress away. Up until the point the mods tell us off. :grin

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viximon - G'day, Vix!

Muy buenas Paul!! How are you? Me fine, thanks for asking, though you didn't...and don't need to...I mean...bah, forget it. Bigbadies like us are always fine, evilish, laughting and complainig and laughting(ho ho ho evil laughts) ... you get my point.


Yes, I did indeed get your point. In that spirit, I'm fine, how are you? :grin

Keep up on that evil cackle practice. It will keep you in good stead when you're a dictator on your own private island. Speaking of which, I'm still working on that. They keep getting hit by cyclones! What's up with that? :p

well, that comes in the BigBad cliché pack too so. Rambling endlessly till you enemies pass out. That's it.


Well, either that or they get bored and just wander off, foiling your evil scheme while you weren't even looking. :grin

You take care too, mate.

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Darth Pacula - G'day ... hang on! That's me! Whoops ...

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Katez0r - G'day, Katez0r. Thanks for the luck wishage thereof ... okay, I don't know where the hell that sentence went. Anyway, I'm happy to report there was no tripping or unconsciousness. Just a nice solid five or so hours of sleep.

No worries about feedback, mate. We all know how the daily routine can spiral out of control and take over your whole life.

Good luck, have a good at work (or as good as it can be, since it is work), and I'll hold you that that dance mate.

Cheers!
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Re: New Fic - At Any Cost. (Updated 22 April)

Postby Darth Pacula » Fri May 05, 2006 3:21 pm

Title: At Any Cost


Author: Paul aka Darth Pacula


Distribution: Knock yourself out, just ask first. ( That means yes if you're not sure )


Feedback: Go nuts. The more the merrier. Unless you're all wanting to roast me at the stake that is. Then, less is more. My email address is darthpacula@hotmail.com if you prefer.


Disclaimers: Needless to say, I do not own the Buffyverse, nor those who inhabit it. I only wish I did. Oh, the fun I would have ...


Summary: A powerful, ruthless and unstable figure begins to meddle in Willow and Tara's lives, with unforeseen consequences.


Rating: PG-13, maybe R at times for a touch of violence.


Timeline: Well now, it starts off just before the end of Seeing Red, but will contain elements of an altered Season 7.


Spoilers: Err ... pretty much the entire show. If you haven't seen any of it yet, and actually want to, you just aren't trying hard enough.


Thoughts are in italics.


A/N: The spell that Tara uses at one point is not of my making, but rather from the show itself. Any self-respecting Buffy-ophile should be able to place it.


A/N 2: Towards the end, an especially nasty thing almost happens. Needless to say, given what happens to the attempted perpertrator, I don't like it, and would like to do unpleasant things involving a dull, rusty spoon and some razorwire to anyone who even tries it in real life. If I'm not making any sense, just read on. You should catch my drift.


Part 30.


Agony. There is a sort of ... purity to pain. It is ... hard to appreciate such purity in the moment for most people, but anyone can learn anything, given enough time and practice. I have had a lot of practice at pain. But even for me, being set alight is an unusual occurrence.


There's some sort of grading system for burns, I know that much. But causing injury rather than treating injury has always been my specialty, so I had no idea where on that scale I would fall. All I knew was that I had never tasted such purity of pain before.


My flesh was blackened and cracked, pulled tight around my skeletal structure. In certain places, where cracks ran deeper than others, blackened flesh gave way to red raw. Even my lungs were burnt, as the fire had scorched its way down my throat, piggybacking its way on the very air I'd breathed.


Given the amount of pain I was in, I don't think I could be blamed for my less than graceful arrival at my lair. I reverted back to reality from my teleported state a full five feet above the floor, and at a ninety degree angle to what I had intended. The impact as I hit the floor opened half a dozen new wounds.


The one benefit of the teleportation, aside from the fact that it removed me from threat of ass kickage that the scoobies posed, was that it had snuffed out the flames. So as I lay on the ground, I wasn't still on fire. Just smoldering.


The agony rampaged along my nerves, capering grotesquely like a deformed jester, but no sound escaped my lips besides the uneven rasp of my labored breathing. My mind was focused elsewhere. Unusually for me, I wasn't even dwelling on the failure that had resulted in this night's endeavor turning into a complete balls up.


All that I could see in my mind's eye was Tara staring at me. Her eyes in particular, fixed upon my own, as if staring into the black recesses of my soul. Could she see me? The real me? Past all my deceptions to the heart of me?


There had been fear in Tara's eyes, fear for Willow, for herself, and strangely enough, even fear for me. No doubt she blamed me for what happened to her lady love, and fair enough. I might have tried to shift the blame onto Buffy, but it was my spell that nearly killed Willow, my ineptitude that allowed Buffy the opportunity to break the spell in the first place.


But despite that, she still felt sorry for me. Likely not as sorry as I was feeling for myself, but that was to be expected. I still find her forgiving nature perplexing. She should hate me. That is what I have been trying to do, get her to hate me. It appears I have not been cruel enough to her for that particular weed of an emotion to take root.


I will heal from this; the plethora of injuries I suffered during the civil war on Hyriault can testify to that fact. There are things I could do to speed up the process, potions that would enhance the healing process, or the same spell I had used on one of the vampires just the other night.


I did none of these things, and I had no idea why. All I did do was lie where I had fallen, and think upon what once might have been. Oh, and smolder. Can't forget that.


**********


The crackle of the flames that had engulfed Nameless had scarcely faded from the air before Tara's full attention swung back to Willow. She was scrambling onto the bed even as Buffy, Giles and Dawn fell forward as Nameless' barrier vanished, yelping in surprise as they pitched to the floor. Normally, Tara would have wanted to check that they were okay, but right now, her only priority was Willow.


Tara cupped Willow's face between her palms and crouched down, hovering over the prone redhead. “Willow? Sweetie? Talk to me. Please, talk to me!”


Willow's eyelids were fluttering rapidly, and even as Tara watched, a tear trickled from the corner of one of Willow's eyes. Tara's fingertips fluttered over her lover's skin like butterfly kisses, terrified that any firmer pressure might further hurt Willow.


Mouth working soundlessly, Willow finally managed to focus her eyes on Tara. Without warning, Tara felt herself pulled down into a tight embrace as Willow clutched desperately at her. She was vaguely aware of the others standing in the background, watching helplessly, as Tara returned the embrace with equal fervor, making soothing sounds as she stroked Willow's hair over and over.


As she lay shuddering in Tara's arms, a quiet hiccup of a sob escaped Willow's throat and she burrowed her face into Tara's chest. Though she felt utterly helpless, Tara did the only thing she could think of, and kept up her ministrations.


**********


As she watched the two women cling to one another, Buffy couldn't help but regard them guiltily. When she had seen Nameless doing ... whatever it was he had been doing to Willow, Buffy had reacted on instinct alone. She hadn't even considered the possibility that interrupting the warlock might have had adverse effects on Willow.


Because I didn't think, Willow ... god, I don't know. She could have died. Buffy shifted awkwardly at the thought. Instead she just got really, really hurt. I can't stand this anymore. I have to do something.


Turning on her heel, Buffy began striding out of the room. The movement dragged Dawn's attention from Willow and Tara, and she hurried after her sister.


“Buffy,” she hissed, “where are you going? What about Willow?”


Grinding to a halt just outside the bedroom door, Buffy turned to confront Dawn. “I can't help Willow, Dawn,” she admitted. “I wouldn't know how to start. But what I can do is try and find out how Nameless got in here in the first place. And make sure he is actually gone.”


Dawn pondered this silently for a few moments. “Then I'm coming with you.”


Buffy's heated reply was virtually instantaneous. “Like hell you are!”


Dawn shook her head in frustration. “Buffy, you've fought this guy twice now, and both times he's handed your butt to you. I don't care if he is extra crispy now, last time he grew back a hand! You are not going alone, even I have to tail you!”


“Tail me?” Buffy repeated, her lips twitching. “In our own house? How do you plan to pull that miracle off?”


“With style and panache,” Dawn replied, tossing her hair back hautily and bringing a wryly accepting grin to her sister's face.


“Fine, you can come with,” Buffy announced begrudgingly. “But at the first sign of trouble ...”


“I'll help,” Dawn attempted, before Buffy raised an eyebrow. “Fine, at the first sign of trouble, I'll go find the cavalry. And hope you haven't gone for the hat trick before I come back.”


**********


An uncertain amount of time passed before Willow felt capable of more than shaking and weeping in Tara's arms. Willow's sense of time was so messed up that it could have just minutes or even hours, she wasn't sure. All she could be sure of was the gentle sensation of Tara stroking her hair, over and over.


Willow clung to that feeling like a life preserver, focusing on the sensation with all her might in the hope that it might drown out the memory of the agony that had recently beset her. And it seemed to work too, as her breathing evened out and her racing heart pulled back to a more sedate pace. As her composure began to return, Willow gradually expanded her sphere of concentration, always focusing on Tara as she did so.


The swell of Tara's breasts, compressed against Willow's own body; the warmth of Tara's skin beneath her arms; the brush of Tara's silky hair against Willow's hands where they clung tightly to Tara's back; most of all, that indefinable scent that was simply ... Tara.


Once her hiccuping sobs had tapered off, Willow reluctantly loosened her hold. Tara did likewise as soon as she felt her partner's grip lessen, allowing her to pull back slightly.


“Sweetie?” she anxiously asked.


Willow adopted a weak smile in reply. “W.. what happened?” she whispered, and her voice rasped as if it had not been used for a long time.


“Nameless, sweetie. He was here, doing ... he was casting some kind of spell on you, and it all went wrong.”


“I ... it felt like ... I've never felt anything so painful, Tara,” Willow confessed, the words falling from her quivering lips like water over Niagara Falls. “It w.. was as if I was on fire inside, and ... and not in the good kind of way.”


Making a shushing noise, Tara leaned back in so that her forehead rested against her lovers. “It's okay, sweetie. It's over. It's all over.”


“You stopped it?” asked Willow in a childlike voice.


Tara hesitated briefly, for a moment wishing that she could reply affirmatively. “No, sweetie,” she finally admitted. “N... Nameless did. I d... didn't know w... what to do ... and he said ... he s... said you could d... die.”


Willow absorbed this information quietly, but reached up with one trembling hand to stroke Tara's cheek. The blonde clutched at her partner's hand with quiet desperation, and pressed it to her lips.


“It's okay baby,” Willow whispered consolingly. “I'm still here. You'd have to use dynamite to get me away from you now. Okay?”


Tara kissed Willow's hand again before replying. “A thousand times yes, Willow.” Tara's eyes grew wide as a terrible thought rampaged into her mind, and a stricken expression bloomed on her face, like an ominous mushroom cloud of apprehension. “Willow! The baby!”


The panic that Willow could see surging to life in Tara's face was so similar to that which had assailed herself almost as soon as she had regained consciousness. There had been three concerns that had consumed Willow's thoughts, even as she'd been reduced to sobbing in Tara's arms.


First, as always, was the need to know that Tara was okay.


Second was the wellbeing of the life she carried within her. It seemed peculiar, but strangely right to Willow somehow, how swiftly that life had become a priority to her. She didn't even know how she could be pregnant, but that was seeming to become increasingly less important than keeping her child safe as time went by.


Coming a close third was the welfare of her friends. If she stopped to think about that, Willow felt slightly guilty that the people who were virtually her family had been displaced by what, for all she knew, could be a bouncing bundle of slimy tentacles and sharp teeth. But only slightly. She figured that they would forgive her that.


The first and third concerns had been addressed as soon as Willow opened her eyes. The second, however, had proved trickier. No matter how she hard she strove to find one, Willow could not find a single physical indicator as to the wellbeing of the life growing inside her.


In the end, reassurance came from a direction that Willow would have never expected. All of her life, Willow had been a firm believer in logic. Even when she had been exposed to magic, something that inherently defied so many scientific laws of nature on a regular basis, she still approached logically, trying to see beyond the flashy trimmings to the pattern that she believed was inherently present in everything.


This wasn't to say that logic ruled Willow's life. She wasn't a Vulcan from Star Trek by anyone's measure, for her logical nature went hand in hand with an enormous heart and a fathomless well of compassion.


Be that as it may, it still surprised Willow how strongly her instincts were telling her that her child had not suffered any ill effects from her recent misadventure. Part of her wanted to argue with that instinct, to demand scientific evidence that confirmed that conclusion. But mostly, Willow chose to not look this particular gift horse in the mouth, and go with relief. After all, horses kept their teeth in their mouth, and Willow never wanted to risk that.


So when she answered Tara's panicked query, Willow tried to pass on that same sense of serene certainty through her eyes, her expression, and even the tone of her voice. “It's okay, baby. We're both okay. I know it.”


“You are?” Tara repeated softly, and Willow felt relief as how swiftly the blonde's anxiety seemed to subside. “Are you sure?”


Willow nodded, and felt the corners of her lips tug upwards. “I am, but don't ask how, okay? Cuz I haven't the faintest idea.”


The two women stole a brief moment to share a secretive grin; they both knew how much Willow disliked not being able to know the reason for something.


“Help me up, baby?” Willow asked, once the moment had passed.


Giles coughed awkwardly, drawing both Willow and Tara's attention, and Willow felt slightly guilty as she realized that she'd totally ignored anyone besides Tara. Even if that list of people seems to have shrunken considerably while I wasn't paying attention.


“Are you quite sure that's an entirely wise idea, Willow?” asked Giles, his concern openly displayed across his drawn, tired face. “By your own admission, you have just suffered a traumatic experience. I don't want you to hurt yourself.”


Willow shook her head. “It doesn't feel as if any physical damage was done, Giles. It definitely hurt, that's for sure, but other than being a bit tired and weepy, I feel fine. Finey McFine, in fact!”


Despite Willow's self-avowed certainty, Giles frowned. “I would still suggest you take it easy, Willow. Even if you do feel ... 'Finey McFine' as it were, if what happened to Nameless was any indication, it was a close run thing.”


“Huh?” Willow asked in a stunning display of verbosity. “What do you mean? Didn't Buffy fight him off or something?”


“If by fighting off you mean getting tossed out the door like a drunk at closing time, then yes,” Giles answered with a shrug.


“I heard that!” protested Buffy's voice faintly.


Shifting to one side, Tara helped Willow up into a sitting position, pushing a mound of pillows back against the bed head to provide a more comfortable seat. “W.. whatever was happening to you ... I don't think he knew how to stop it, sweetie. So he ... somehow he redirected it onto himself.”


Giles made a chiding sound. “I think you might be giving him too much credit, Tara. What happened may not have been intentional.”


Tara acknowledged the possibility Giles raised with a shrug. “Whether he set himself on fire intentionally or accidentally, Nameless still saved Willow. You can't argue with that.”


“On fire?” Willow echoed nervously, the squeak in her voice growing increasingly prominent with each word. “There was fire? With the flames and the burning and oh god ... that's what that smell is?”


“Ah ... yes, I'm afraid so,” Giles confirmed.


Willow forcibly swallowed, her face sallow at the thought. “How did he get in?” she made herself ask, hoping to derail that particular line of thought. “Shouldn't Tara's barrier have warned us? He's set it off before, hasn't he?”


“Nameless must have found a way around my spell,” Tara admitted, “Some weakness he could exploit. I don't think this was the first time either.”


Giles' eyebrows rose at this declaration, and he frowned. “What makes you think that, Tara?” he asked, taking a step closer and violating the boundary he had self-imposed to afford the two women some measure of privacy while still maintaining a watchful eye.


“You saw the pattern when Nameless was doing ... whatever it was that he was doing, right?”


Giles nodded. “I assumed that it was the fabric of his spell, somehow made visible to the naked eye? Does that tell you something, Tara?”


“It was too complicated, Giles, way too complicated to have been the work of even a few hours. I think he's been doing it piece by piece for who knows how long now.”


Behind the lenses of his glasses, still askew from the haste with which he'd donned them, Giles' eyes darted towards Willow. “Then you think ....”


“... that the bun in my oven has his mark on it?” Willow finished weakly. “But if the spell has been broken ...”


“We don't know that yet, sweetie,” Tara pointed out from her perch on the edge of the bed. She reached out, and brushed an errant lock of red hair back from Willow's face. From the distracted expression on the blonde's face, Willow knew with absolute certainty that there was something else on her lover's mind. “But I mean to find out, one way or another.”


Willow gnawed on her lower lip as a sudden thought struck her. “Um ... I know Buffy and Dawn were here, but ... where's Katie?”


**********


Katie would, if pressed, acknowledge to herself that she now trusted the people in whose care she found herself. She was even beginning to think of this house as her home, a thought which gave her pause when she stopped to think about it.


Less than a fortnight ago, Katie had another home, and she still had a family, her real family. The ease with which she had accepted this collection of odd people into heart made Katie feel a bit guilty, as if she were betraying her family's memory.


She hated that feeling with an intensity unimaginable to most girls her age. She'd watched her family be brutally murdered. She watched her mother die twice, even if the second time it had only been a shell of her mother's former self. Katie knew all too well for an eight year old child the inherent fragility of life, and she refused to let herself guilt ruin what happiness she could find. Her Mom and Dad would have wanted her to be happy, and Katie sensed she could be happy here.


That being said, Katie also knew from personal experience just how easily a person's world could be torn to pieces. So when she had been torn from slumber by screams, shouts, and the sounds of violence, Katie knew exactly what she meant to do.


From the first moment she had arrived here, Katie had determined that she would never be taken again the way the vampires had before. She would rather die first, she knew that know. The life lessons she had learned over the events of the last two weeks had been hard, but she had learned them well.


Nowhere is really safe anymore, so always be ready to run. If you can't run, hide. If you can't hide, fight. This was Katie's mantra, the rule by which she had decided to live her new life. She repeated it to herself every morning when she woke up, and every night before she went to sleep. Every place she went to was carefully examined for both escape routes and hiding places.


Her friends at school had noticed Katie's newfound intensity, and had reacted with uncertainty. They knew, vaguely, what had happened to their friend, inasmuch as anyone outside of the scoobies and Nameless truly knew. They knew Katie had lost her entire family, and Katie in turn knew that such a thought terrified her friends.


Some of her friends had tried to offer comfort, each in their own way, ranging from the spontaneous gift of Tonya's favorite Pooh Bear doll, to Cody's solemn promise to stop teasing Katie and pulling her hair. Others had taken a different tack, and started avoiding Katie, as if scared by the changes in their former friend, and the frightening possibility she now represented.


Such abandonment hurt, but Katie refused to let it get to her. She had survived, and she would go on surviving, whatever it took. She would never let anyone, or anything, hurt her again.


In that vein, when the noise of the fracas awoke her, Katie had swiftly considered her options. The window was out, it was too high up to Katie risk. If she fell badly, and hurt herself, her mobility would be unacceptably compromised. She could flee down the corridor, but Katie felt leery of that option.


Guess I'm not running then. For a brief moment, she considered going towards the ... whatever it was. But ... no. Survival comes first.


Katie quickly ran over her list of potential hiding places. Under Dawn's bed was tempting, but Katie dismissed the idea out of hand. It was too obvious. Finally making her choice, Katie grabbed the sharp tipped nail file she kept under her pillow and scurried over to Dawn's closet. A plastic storage box became a makeshift stepladder, and boosted Katie to a height where, with effort, she could leap up and catch the edge of the top shelf with her fingertips.


Biting back a groan at the effort, Katie hauled herself up onto the shelf and burrowed back into the pile of miscellaneous bric-a-brac Dawn stored there. There she waited, heart pounding, fingers gripped white-knuckled around the nail file.


Time passed slowly, agonizingly, and with every passing second, Katie's heartbeat seemed to grow louder and louder, until it seemed as if that were the only sound in existence. How can anyone miss it?, she thought despairingly. They're bound to find me for sure!


“Katie?”


If it was physically possible, Katie froze even more than she already had at the sound of her name. Squashed back in the corner of the cupboard as she was, Katie couldn't see out into the room proper, nor could she hear well enough to recognize the voice.


“Katie?” the voice repeated. “Where are you?”


Katie's fingers tightened on her weapon as she carefully squirmed forward, driven by an overwhelming need to know what she was dealing with.


“Willow, she's not here!” the voice called out again, sounding worried now that Katie could hear it better.


Worried ...? Katie wriggled her way further still, until she could sneak a peak back out into the room. She found a familiar blonde figure on her hands and knees, peering frantically underneath Dawn's bed.


“Tara, I'm up here,” Katie announced cautiously, ready to pull back into the dubious safety of her sanctuary if Tara was no longer who she used to be.


The blonde's face whipped around with a look of such profound relief that Katie's reservations were dismissed in an instant.


“Katie ... what are you doing up there?” Tara asked, her relief segueing neatly into perplexity at the sight of Katie's head protruding from a closet well off the ground.


“Umm ... hiding?” replied Katie, her tone clearly indicating that the answer should be patently obvious. “What else would I be doing?”


**********


“Wha' the hell do ya mean, youz callin' it a night?” Cooper whined indignantly, his words slurred by the overabundance of alcohol he'd consumed.


Ashley blatantly ignored her date's comment and continued stalking towards the Bronze exit with a pointed sniff of dismissal. Cooper followed in her wake, and in his inebriated state he bounced off of several other patrons as he went. A discontented buzz followed them as they went, before Ashley and Cooper passed beneath the disapproving eye of the bouncer.


“Hey! Don't ignore me!” slurred Cooper, clutching awkwardly at Ashley's shoulder. Shaking off his tenuous hold, Ashley rounded on her date furiously. She wielded her index finger like a weapon, poking him sharply in the chest and sending Cooper stumbling backwards.


“Get lost, loser!” she snapped brutally. “I'm done with you!”


“But ... we wuz getting on slo well,” Cooper complained piteously.


Ashley laughed bitterly straight in his face. “Sure, before you got drunk and started ogling and groping every woman you saw! So you can forget your chances of getting any of this!” She gestured down the length of her lithe body, displayed to great effect in a short skirt and cleavage-heavy blouse.


Her point made, Ashley turned on her heel and continued on her way down one of the maze of alleys that made up the area around the Bronze. Her own gait was none too steady, and lacked most of the sultry sway that Cooper had so admired earlier on their date.


But point made or not, Cooper would not be so easily dissuaded, and staggered after her into the poorly lit alley. Normally, neither of them would dare to be walking in this area at night; they had both lived in Sunnydale long enough to achieve a vague understanding of the rules they had to follow if they didn't want to suffer a 'neck rupture'. However, the term 'dutch courage' refers to alcohol for a reason.


Cooper finally caught up to Ashley at a point in the alley where it undertook a sudden right angle turn for no apparent reason. A person more inclined towards tactical considerations might have considered the area a potential killing zone, an area perfect for a vampire to strike from. Indeed, it may have well been designed to fulfill that very purpose, a legacy of the late Mayor Wilkins, a gift to the more undead members of his constituency.


The threat to Ashley, when it did come, came from a much less supernatural if no less insidious source. A hand landed heavily on Ashley's shoulder and spun her around violently, slamming her into the nearest wall. At any normal time, she would have felt fear, and likely would have lashed out with a kick to a certain part of Cooper's anatomy. But just as her judgment had been compromised enough to bring her down this less than sanitary path, it was compromised enough for her to react in anger.


Ashley's arm swept out in a short, sharp slap that knocked Cooper's head to one side. “Get your hands off me, you jerk!”


Cooper's hand tightened painfully rather than let go, and when his face turned back to glare at Ashley, it was heavy and ugly with rage. His own hand shot out and dealt a heavy-handed blow that knocked Ashley out of his own grasp and sent her staggering sideways, raising a livid mark on her cheek.


“The amount of money I spent on you, bitch, and you won't even put out?” he growled, lurching after Ashley. When she tenuously regained her balance, Ashley looked up with eyes that were widening with shock and sudden fear as her buzz beat a hasty retreat. She tried to turn and flee, but Cooper's hand fell on her shoulder once again, and he hurled her backwards.


Landing roughly on her backside in a particularly squalid pile of refuse, Ashley squealed in panic. Flailing her limbs wildly, Ashley scrambled to her feet as Cooper loomed over her menacingly. In desperation, she swiped at his face with one hand, fingers hooked like claws.


Cooper yelped as Ashley's fingernails gouged a series of furrows in one cheek, and he lashed out ruthlessly with a fist without a second thought. The blow split Ashley's lips, and bounced the back of her head off the alley wall behind her.


As she began to slide down the wall, moaning incoherently, Cooper caught hold of her by the front of her blouse with both hands and hauled her upright. The sheer fabric ripped beneath his grip as Cooper pinned Ashley to the wall. One sweaty hand clamped down on the stunned woman's throat as it's twin fumbled at the hem of her skirt.


“I'm gonna claim what I deserve,” mumbled Cooper, his tongue thick from both alcohol and barbarous lust.


A second voice sounded from behind, an eerie rasping whisper that sent tremors racing down Cooper's spine like nails scrapping down a chalkboard.


“Would that oh-so deserved fate perhaps be ... oh, lets say ... to be raped up the ass with a chainsaw?”


Head spinning around, Cooper found himself face to face with a grinning horror, a charred mockery of a human countenance, bald as an egg and gaunt as a skull. Mismatched eyes of blue and black glared at Cooper with undisguised malevolence, burning with indefatigable life even in that ruin of a face.


“What the fuck are you?” Cooper whimpered pathetically as he lost control of his bladder.


Gash-like lips that were split and shrunken by heat pulled back from teeth in a predatory smirk, the teeth looking abnormally white against the blackened flesh. “Oh, I rather think that fucking of any kind is off the menu for you, sonny Jim.”


A claw like had that looked like it should belong on a barbecue rather than on the end of someone's arm lashed out, snagging the back of Cooper's jacket and flinging him backwards into the opposite alley wall. Relieved of the force keeping her upright, Ashley sagged backwards against her own wall.


The ghastly figure began to pace forwards and backwards between the pair with a hitched, limping gait. “Ya know, I was lying on my floor, feeling sorry for myself and ... well, smoking ... when I decided to do something about my little ... sunburn. I was planing on making a little snack of some random demon, but you ....”


A shuddering breath was rapidly sucked into a cadaverous chest, and the burned man smacked his blistered lips in delight. Lurching to a halt, he reached down and plucked up Cooper as if he weighted nothing at all, and slammed him hard against the wall.


“I'll be the first to admit that I have committed more than my fair share of sins from the vast pantheon of depravity,” continued the horror, “But never rape. It never seemed to me to serve a worthwhile purpose, and ... well, to be perfectly honest, it offends me.”


Cooper tried to say something, but due in no small part to the bone claw clamped on his windpipe, all his efforts afforded him was an incoherent gurgle. His only payment was a sharply jerked knee to the testicles.


“So congratulations, my dear boy! You've been downgraded from the attempted perpetrator of a heinous crime ... to victim of an exceptionally hideous death. For while I do not commit rape ... I most certainly do commit murder most foul.”


Leaning in close, the burned man favored Cooper with a maniacal grin. “Buckle your seatbelt, you worthless wretch, and save me a seat in Hell!”


It was only now that Ashley began to scream, as Cooper spasmed in the burned man's remorseless grip. She only screamed louder as, true to the burned man's claim, her attempted rapist underwent a ghastly metamorphosis.


Cooper's heels drummed against the wall as his flesh began to dessicate, his eyes bulging from their sockets in desperation. His visible skin, at face and hands, was being rapidly pulled tight against his bones, as if the meat of his body was being siphoned away. Soon, it had acquired the look and texture of ancient parchment, and livid blue veins pulsed feebly it with the last flickering vestiges of life as Cooper's heart struggled for each and every beat.


Even as the life was being sucked out of Cooper, it seemed to be flowing into the burned man with the same speed. Skin and flesh that had been blackened and cracked became whole and if not flush with life, at least healthier than it had been. A dusting of hair sprouted on his previously bald head, flowing from his scalp like thickened water until it stretched to his shoulders.


The formerly burned man sighed deeply in satisfaction, and carelessly dropped Cooper's mummified remains to the alley floor. The body's bones were so fragile that they snapped like glass at the impact.


Head twitching, the murderer tilted his head to one side as if listening to Ashley's frantic screams for the first time. He spun around, scowling ferociously at the screaming woman.


“Oh, do shut up,” he snarled, fingertips flicking in Ashley's direction. A tendril of some mist-like substance shot from his hand and darted down Ashley's throat, and the sound of her scream was instantly cut off. Even so, as if she didn't even realize that no further sound was escaping her, Ashley's mouth still gaped open, her throat working as if she were still screaming.


“Honestly, the least you could do is show a little gratitude,” Nameless grumbled. ”Just because I graphically murdered someone right in front of you is no reason not to mind your manners.”


He glared at Ashley as the terrified girl fumbled disbelievingly at her throat and lurched to her feet. She returned his gaze with her own 'deer in the headlights' expression that made Nameless sigh in long-suffering annoyance.


“Well? What are you waiting for, an escort home?” he growled, lips nearly twitching into a smile as Ashley flinched at the sound of his voice. “This would be the part of this evening's festivities where you run away. So bugger off already!”


Taking the warlock at his word, Ashley spun on her heel and fled as if all the hounds of Hell were breathing down her neck.


“Kids these days,” Nameless complained to himself.


**********


“So what's Tara trying to do again?” Dawn whispered in the manner of someone unaccustomed to attempting to avoid notice. Which is to say, not that quietly at all.


Eyes closed, Tara felt a frown born of exasperation begin to pull at her lips, and hurriedly tried to sooth her frazzled nerves. Given the eventful night they'd had, Tara felt that she was entitled to feel a little on edge, but that was precisely the opposite of what she needed if this ritual that Buffy had suggested was to work.


The ritual invented by the sorcerer Cloutier in the 16th century was called 'Tirer la couverture', or 'Pull back the curtain', and had been the same spell that Buffy had used in an attempt to ascertain the source of Joyce Summer's illness. Since Joyce's ailment had been natural rather than supernatural in origin, all the spell had revealed was Dawn's unusual beginnings.


As it revealed to the caster any spells in their immediate vicinity, this ritual was exactly what Tara needed to determine if there were any other arcane surprises that Nameless had left on Willow. With any luck, Tara thought to herself, it might also give some clue as to what Nameless had been trying to do to Will tonight.


Which was how Tara found herself seated cross legged on her bedroom floor in the center of a circle traced with red sand. Two burning incense candles were placed on the edge of the circle, roughly in line with Tara's knees, and the resulting scent tickled pleasantly at her nostrils.


As spells went, this one was less flashy than most. Aside from the aforementioned candles and sand circle, all it required was for the caster to enter an intense level of trance. Which was where the problem was lying so far.


Tara was finding it incredibly hard to concentrate. Her mind was positively abuzz with thought and worries, and though she normally found it relatively easy to quiet her mind, her mind was having nothing of it this time.


The fact that her hearing seemed to have sharpened acutely, perhaps in sympathy with what she was trying to achieve, didn't help either. Time after time, Tara had felt as if she was on the brink of achieving ... something, only for her attention to be dragged away by any number of distractions. She was even at the point where the sound of other people's breathing diverted her attention.


Willow came to her rescue, shushing Dawn urgently. Tara heard the teen begin to protest, but she soon subsided, and Tara smiled as she imagined the resolve face Willow much be using. There were no further words spoken, but Tara was convinced she could hear Willow's hands moving through the air in some sort of elaborate pantomime. Soon, that was replaced by the sound of feet moving on carpet, and then the sound of the bedroom door easing shut.


Movement in the air betrayed that not everyone had left the room, and even without opening her eyes Tara knew that it would be Willow. She got the distinct sense of a presence hovering on the edges of her ritual circle, and Tara could easily imagine Willow almost twitching in indecision as to whether she could leave or not. The mental image that thought inspired was so adorable that a crooked grin graced Tara's lips.


Tara took pity on her uncertain lover. “You can stay, sweetie.” In actuality, Tara usually found Willow's presence soothing, rather than distracting. Unless there's nudity involved. Then she's very distracting.


Willow emitted a small sigh of relief, the sound of which only widened Tara's grin. As she heard her girlfriend settle down on the floor, Tara turned her attention back to her efforts. Now that Willow had removed all of the other distractions, she hoped that it would prove an easier task.


As she bent her efforts towards achieving the state of mind necessary for the spell, Tara began to find that Willow's presence was indeed a boon to her concentration. The quiet, even sound of her lover's breathings seemed to provide a rhythm that Tara's heartbeat soon matched. As she slipped further into her trance, the sound of both her own heartbeat and the in-and-out of Willow's breathing began to merge together, forming a kind of natural chorus.


Tara found her concerns slowly drifting away, carried away bit by bit on the tide of a vast ocean with herself at its very center. Time slowed to a trickle, until the passing of each second seemed an eternity. It didn't concern Tara though. She was awash in a sea of serenity.


Knowledge came without warning. One moment there was nothing, and the next, Tara knew with absolute certainty. The spell was done, finished, and all Tara had to do was open her eyes. But hand-in-hand with that knowledge came an irrational fear. Tara was suddenly, and violently, afraid of what she might find.


She knew that it was ridiculous, that prolonging her ignorance of what Nameless had been doing to Willow wouldn't somehow make everything okay. But that selfsame knowledge that loomed on her immediate horizon terrified her. The truth might set you free, but sometimes ... sometimes freedom could be more frightening than slavery.


Finally, Tara forced herself to open her eyes, but turned her head to one side rather than look directly at Willow. The effect she beheld was unusual to say the least. Tara's vision in constant flux. One moment, the world appeared exactly the same as it normally did. The next, it was as if all of the colors in the world were being bleached of their vitality. Yet another moment later, Tara could have been viewing the world through a negative filter.


For reasons she couldn't explain, Tara felt her attention drawn upwards towards one corner of the bedroom. It took her several moments for Tara to realize what she was seeing, during which she was vaguely aware that Willow was attempting to speak to her.


High up in the corner hung the image of a large, staring eye, formed from some sort of gleaming mist. The eye gazed down at Tara as she stared up at it, and she had to fight off the temptation to shudder at the intensity that it somehow suggested to her.


“Willow,” she whispered, almost not recognizing her own voice due to the ethereal lilt she heard in it now. “He's spying on us.”


“What?” asked Willow, the redhead's words still faint when heard through Tara's daze.


Tara turned to repeat her statement face-to-face, and froze. As Willow's face crinkled in worry, and she asked Tara what was the matter, all the blonde could do was stare.


In Tara's eyes, Willow presented as a double image. Willow herself was as solid and beautiful as she always was. But around her, surrounding her, was something else entirely. Formed in a similar fashion to the eye she had seen just before, Willow was surrounded by a massive suit of armor. It was cracked and broken, gaping rents making a mockery of the protection it should have offered, but it was definitely armor.


“What is it?” Willow begged, her voice still sounding to Tara as if it were coming from the other end of a long tunnel.


Tara licked lips that were suddenly dry, and blinked repeatedly at her lover before she managed to reply. “I ... I think it's a protection spell.”


To be continued ...
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Re: New Fic - At Any Cost. (Updated 6 May)

Postby WillowRulez » Fri May 05, 2006 4:50 pm

Great update!
I really like that Willow helped Tara while she tried to concentrate without her knowing. Very well written.
And ha! I knew it! A protecton spell!
My favorite line:
“If by fighting off you mean getting tossed out the door like a drunk at closing time, then yes,” Giles answered with a shrug.

That really had me rolling on the floor. Recently I have developed an extremly pissed off feeling towards the Buffy and Spike characters, dont know why. So Giles was speaking in my favor lol.
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Re: New Fic - At Any Cost. (Updated 6 May)

Postby Roger Doger » Fri May 05, 2006 6:47 pm

WillowRulez wrote:My favorite line:
“If by fighting off you mean getting tossed out the door like a drunk at closing time, then yes,” Giles answered with a shrug.


To me, the next line really sold it:

“I heard that!” protested Buffy's voice faintly.


I could plainly hear Buffy's voice wafting up from the downstairs. Ah the benefits of slayer hearing and slayer mouth.
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Re: New Fic - At Any Cost. (Updated 6 May)

Postby gabbyx19 » Fri May 05, 2006 9:36 pm

Excellent update.

I like how the wannabe rapist got his. Sorry, I'm not a big fan of rape. :angry But I'm not a big fan of murder either.

Can't wait til next update.
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Re: New Fic - At Any Cost. (Updated 6 May)

Postby Lonewolf22 » Fri May 05, 2006 11:40 pm

Darth Pacula: I just got caught up with this great fic(sorry it took so long). There are so many twists and turns to this story that I don't know where to begin.

Whats up with this protection spell that Willow has around her, and what was Nameless doing in the first place, if he wants them to suffer why is he helping them?

I love the way that Tara was taking care of Willow, it was just so great and so sweet, just the way love should be. I really like that Willow knows that she and her baby are OK, mothers know.

I like Timothy a lot how is he Willow and Tara's son?

I can't wait to read more.

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Re: New Fic - At Any Cost. (Updated 6 May)

Postby caz » Sat May 06, 2006 12:53 pm

Hi Paul! :wave

Geordie Land is fine although I'm leaving it for warmer climes next week. I'm off to Sorrento for a week with my Mom - I'm leaving my boys to fend for themselves. :banana

Wonderful update (as always). I'm starting to feel sorry for Nameless although I don't condone his methods of healing himself. :happy

Katie did the right thing by running and hiding. The girl must have the 'scooby gene' in her!

I'm so pleased that the baby is okay. I'd be interested to find out how Willow knew everything was okay. Is it a maternal thing?

We already knew that Nameless was spying on the gang but the spell on Willow was a complete surprise. What better protection than a suit of armour! I'm not even gonna try and guess what Nameless is up to, I'm gonna sit patiently and wait for your next update.

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Re: New Fic - At Any Cost. (Updated 6 May)

Postby Willowtree252 » Sat May 06, 2006 12:54 pm

:pinky This is so deep wow your mind is just wow more soon please :kgeek
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Re: New Fic - At Any Cost. (Updated 6 May)

Postby a willow angel » Sun May 07, 2006 5:37 am

Hey Paul

What a sweet update!

*melts from Willow and Tara cuteness*

I loved the bedroom scene, especially Willow's complete trust in Tara, her utmost belief that Tara can make everything better.

I thought Dawn was annoying, talking through Tara's spell. But I'm not a big fan of Dawn, so i find a lot of things about her annoying. You portray her well though, coz she often sticks her nose in the middle of things in the show.

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Re: New Fic - At Any Cost. (Updated 6 May)

Postby Useful_Oxymoron » Sun May 07, 2006 3:22 pm

About the quote. Yeah, that quote always stuck to my mind since the first time I read it and I've been meaning to comment on it for so many replies now. Ironically enough, I completely forgot to mention it every single time. If that isn't murphy's law, I don't know what is. :)

Err ... pretty much the entire show. If you haven't seen any of it yet, and actually want to, you just aren't trying hard enough


Just as I've always wanted to say that I've tried to watch the entirety of season seven, but for some odd reason, I start with watching Buffy S7 and always end up either watching a season of Hercules or reading stories on the Kitten. Odd, that. :kitty

In the end, if I ever hold another Buffy marathon, it might be a nice idea to stop before the ending of Seeing Red and read this story instead. I'd be better for my blood pressure too. ;)

It's not surprising that Nameless acts violently towards our friend who experiences the violent end. It's the kind of behaviour a lot of evil masterminds in the world, both fictional and historical, look down upon. No surprise there, because it's base thuggery and a recourse of the weak.

“With style and panache,”


Cue for entrance, stage left. : Mission Impossible Dawn. Hey, she's much cuter than that scientology prat Tom Cruise.

Lotsa sweet, sweet W/T sequences. Again, consider my heart duly melted. :wtkiss

In the end, reassurance came from a direction that Willow would have never expected. All of her life, Willow had been a firm believer in logic. Even when she had been exposed to magic, something that inherently defied so many scientific laws of nature on a regular basis, she still approached logically, trying to see beyond the flashy trimmings to the pattern that she believed was inherently present in everything.


Actually, that's not so strange. I imagine magic works according to a logical system. You perform action A to get response B. You combine element X and Y to receive response Z and all that. Most of the magic systems I've worked with in RPGing follows a very specific set of rules, which is ironic considering magic is supposed to infuse the feeling that anything is possible.

I'd say Cooper's demise is appropriate, though the suggest of the chainsaw up the ass is very Richard Pryor-esque. :) Nice bit on the protection spell too.

Please do update soon. My heart needs more melting soon.
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Re: New Fic - At Any Cost. (Updated 6 May)

Postby mole » Mon May 15, 2006 5:43 am

Hi Paul,

I've been buried with work and school of late but I'm still here and still loving this story. With each update, Nameless becomes more likeable. Well, perhaps "likeable" isn't the proper word; maybe sympathetic is better? Not sure, but I think you get my meaning.

Although, this has me a wee bit nervous:
But despite that, she still felt sorry for me... I still find her forgiving nature perplexing. She should hate me. That is what I have been trying to do, get her to hate me. It appears I have not been cruel enough to her for that particular weed of an emotion to take root.


Of course, I'm not sure what Nameless is up to, but should he harm Tara I fear my sympathetic view of him will be shattered.

This story continues to intrigue me. Looking forward to the next update.

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Re: New Fic - At Any Cost. (Updated 6 May)

Postby viximon » Fri May 19, 2006 7:52 am

HEEEEEEEEEEELLO there Paul!!
Had you see my temporal avatar? Isn't it cool? Cute. Though it resembles yours too much. Well, you know, evil minds think alike so it seems their avatars are similars too. Don't worry, it's just till I find one more fitting.

That update was intense. What a scare you give us all with Willow. Youre again twisting everything so no one know what to think about the stuff anymore. (Talking mostly about our dearly Nameless fool, who seems to always take the worst of everyone and all)You're so cruel.
Katie situation is so confusing, poor girl. Although she managed herself quite well through the circunstances. I want so read more so much.

How is you are keeping us waiting so much for next chapter? You usually are weeky so now I'm worring. Are you ok? I hope so.
See you around pal.
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Re: New Fic - At Any Cost. (Updated 6 May)

Postby Darth Pacula » Fri May 19, 2006 3:50 pm

Okay, here's the thing.

Today is my brother's birthday, and I just found out we're going to Dreamworld in fifteen minutes.

Now, where this becomes a problem is that I was just about to post the latest chapter, but that normally takes at least an hour or two, what with writing replies and reformatting the update for the board.

However, since it's finished, I'll post the update now in it's largely unformatted state. I'll reformat it when I get home, whenever that is, and do feedback replies later.

Cheers, Kittens!

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And a good three days later ...


Title: At Any Cost


Author: Paul aka Darth Pacula


Distribution: Knock yourself out, just ask first. ( That means yes if you're not sure )


Feedback: Go nuts. The more the merrier. Unless you're all wanting to roast me at the stake that is. Then, less is more. My email address is darthpacula@hotmail.com if you prefer.


Disclaimers: I own nothing from Buffy, Angel or any such associated franchise. Is that disclaimered enough? Is disclaimered even a word?


Summary: A powerful, ruthless and unstable figure begins to meddle in Willow and Tara's lives, with unforeseen consequences.


Rating: I think this update definately rates a hard R, once the violence gets underway.


Timeline: Well now, it starts off just before the end of Seeing Red, but will contain elements of an altered Season 7.


Spoilers: Err ... pretty much the entire show. If you haven't seen any of it yet, and actually want to, you just aren't trying hard enough.


Thoughts are in italics.


Part 31.


Willow blinked slowly as Tara's words penetrated her mind, leaving a maelstrom of thought swirling in their wake. “You said ... a protection spell? Tara, are you sure?”


Her lover didn't respond immediately, but Willow didn't expect Tara to do so. From what Buffy had related from her own experience with this spell, Willow imagined that Tara's perceptions were distorted, and not just visually. Buffy had told them that time itself had seemed a bit on the wacky side, as if everything seemed to take a few seconds longer than usual.


If I didn't know better, I might think Tara was stoned. Not that she would do the whole drug thing, and I don't really know what it looks like in real life anyway, just what I've seen on TV. Which okay, not so much a bastion of truth and accuracy, cuz just look at what they do with vampires! Less with the grr and more with the boohoo, I'm all immortal and lonely and misunderstood and broody which is so not accurate. Well, there's Angel of course, he's the poster boy for broody ...


Tara's voice careened into the speeding train wreck of Willow's inner monologue and derailed it handily. “I think so, sweetie. It ... you look like you're wearing a suit of armor.”


Willow's eyebrows twitched upwards. “Armor?” she squeaked. “I'm all knighty?” Willow knew that what Tara was seeing was a metaphorical representation of the spell, an image that should reflect what the spell was attempting to achieve. But the idea of herself in armor was still surprising.


“You'd do the Knights of the Round table proud, Willow,” Tara assured her, and Willow inadvertently found herself puffing up proudly. At least until Tara continued. “If your armor wasn't broken, intangible and ... well ... physically non existent.”


“So what does this ... wait a minute,” Willow began as their earlier conversation began to replay in her head. “Um ... didn't you say something about Nameless spying on us earlier?”


Now it was Tara's turn to blink lazily, her eyes slightly unfocused. As those azure orbs focused on Willow once more, Tara slowly raised an arm, as though fighting against gravity, to point at a corner.


“There's an eye,” Tara stated, her voice thick and leaden. “I think ... I think he's been watching us.”


Willow blanched as she realized that the location Tara had indicated gave a bird's eye view of their bed. “You mean ... he's been ... we've ... that peeping tom!” Willow's stop-start exclamations gave way to the heat of righteous indignation. “He's been watching us when we ... ah ... when we ... you know, snuggle?”


A horrified blush of vivid mortification bloomed on Tara's face as Willow's implications penetrated the supernatural funk still clouding her head. Licking suddenly dry lips, Tara turned and moved towards the closed bedroom door.


“Tara! Where are you going?” blurted Willow in surprise. “We have to talk about this! He ... oh god! He could have been taping us! We could be porn! There could be a DVD out there of 'Lesbian Witches Gone Wild'! Staring us! You and me ... ya'know ... together?”


Tara half turned as she reached out and grasped the doorknob. “Sweetie, I need to see if there are any other ... eyes in the rest of the house. Besides, I don't think ...”


As Tara turned the doorknob, the door swept open and deposited three startled and guilty-looking figures at her feet. Tara took a step back, a combination of consternation and the spell leaving her looking awkward and mildly intoxicated. Willow's embarrassment level tripled, and she glared at them irritably, naming each with bitingly precise pronunciation.


“Buffy. Dawn.” Willow's voice paused for a beat as one eyebrow rose in disappointment. “Giles? You too?”


The flustered Englishman clambered to his feet, reaching for his glasses. Willow marched over and snatched the handkerchief from his hand before Giles could reach them, forcing him to forgo his usual tactic of pretending that he couldn't see them.


“Yes ... well, ah ... she made me do it,” stammered Giles, pointing his finger at Dawn. For her part, the teenager went from startled to indignant in record time. Meanwhile Willow continued to glare at Giles, and he soon realized the folly of trying to place blame on a young woman who was less than half his size. In desperation, Giles shifted his finger to point squarely at Buffy, and tried his luck again.


“She made me do it?”


“Oh sure, blame the girl with super powers!” complained Buffy sulkily.


**********


“Here?” asked Xander, fumbling sleepily at a corner of the lounge room roof. The discovery that the Summers' house was wired for sound on, as Buffy put it, the 'Nameless Candid Camera Show' had been deemed important enough to call both Xander and Anya back to Scooby HQ. Not to mention the pesky little detail of Nameless' little nighttime visits. Thus far, Katie was the only one to escape the call to action and be allowed to return to her interrupted sleep.


“I think ... a little more to the right?” Tara suggested, and Xander reached in the suggested direction, teetering a little on his precarious perch on the back of a couch.


“Aha!” Xander crowed in triumph as his fingers brushed against a small object that his eyes insisted wasn't there. “Got it!”


After a moments worth of scrabbling, Xander managed to pry the cloaked item loose. As soon as it came away from the wall, the air around the device shimmered like heat-haze on the horizon before revealing a metal ball with articulated, spider-like legs.


Xander juggled the magical construct from hand to hand, as if he were afraid to hold it in one hand for any length of time. Needless to say, it didn't do wonders for the dubious balance he possessed in his current position. With a strangled squawk, Xander pitched backwards, sending Nameless' device flying. Without pausing to think, Tara moved to brake her friend's fall, but the full weight of Xander's bulk proved more than she could handle, and they collapsed in a pile with a joint 'oof'.


Meanwhile, the errant device was snatched neatly out of the air by Buffy as she entered the room. “Loose something?” she asked wryly as she regarded the winded pair. “You'd better watch your hands, Xander. When it comes to Tara, Will's the possessive type.”


“Hey! I'm the one getting felt up here!” Xander protested, and Tara's face burned with embarrassment as they pulled apart.


“I didn't m.. mean to!” Tara blurted, pulling her hands back as if burned.


Hearing the stutter, and having a rough idea of what that meant, Xander immediately moved to reassure the blonde in his own special way. “Hey, I'm not complaining here, Tara. I never complain about being man-handled by a pretty lady.”


Tara just blushed deeper, and Buffy covered a grin.


“What's this about man-handling?” Willow interjected, her voice a combination of absent-mindedness and nervousness that was uniquely her. “Only I'm supposed to be handling Tara!”


Tara, Xander and Buffy redirected their attention to where Willow was ensconced in the dining room. The dining room table had been commandeered by Willow and Giles to aid in their study of the rest of Nameless' surveillance devices.


“Nothing to worry about, sweetie,” Tara assured her, frowning good naturedly at Xander and Buffy, who just grinned conspiratorially. They both knew Tara was playing along with them. “They're just making fun of me.”


“Would we do that?” Buffy asked innocently before breaking into a broad grin.


“Yes, you would,” Willow noted, doing her best to come off grumpy. The overall effect was hampered by the wry smile she wore, since she knew just as well as Tara that it was all spoken in jest. “So stop picking on my girlfriend before you all end up on a fly diet.”


“Can you actually do that?” Dawn asked as she stopped looking over Giles' shoulder. The teenager had been camped there for quite a while, asking a myriad of questions for which Giles had few answers, and he visibly relaxed as her attention was diverted away from him.


Willow noted this obvious relief as she turned to answers Dawn's question, and silently commiserated with Giles by waggling her eyebrows. Though Willow obviously thought her message had been quite eloquent, it left Giles utterly perplexed.


“Umm ... I kinda don't know, Dawnie,” admitted Willow. “I've never actually set out to try and turn anyone into a frog. Amy did turn herself into a rat I suppose, even if the reversal still had a few bugs in it , and ... ah well ... when I was ... you know ...”


“Out of control?” offered Dawn helpfully, and Willow winced at this blunt summary of one of the darker periods of her life.


“I think what Willow means is that while we might be able to do it, we never actually would,” Tara informed Dawn, slipping an arm around her lover's waist as she came to a grateful Willow's rescue.


Dawn frowned thoughtfully. “Why not?” she asked curiously. “I mean, I know why you don't go around frogging people left and right ...”


“Because she'd run away screaming because of frog fear?” Xander jovially suggested as he followed Tara into the dining room, and Willow swatted him on the shoulder.


“No,” Dawn drawled pointedly, “... well okay, maybe. But wouldn't it be a good idea for vamps and demons and so-on? You or Tara could frog them, and Buffy could ... I dunno, step on them.”


“Gee, thanks sis,” quipped Buffy. “Way to reduce my 'sacred calling' to stepping on stuff.” Dawn's only reply was a saccharine sweet smile.


Choosing to ignore the sister's jibes beyond giving them a genuine smile, Tara answered Dawn's question. “Honestly, Dawn? That kind of magic is pretty ... well, black, and every time you use it, it leaves ... sort of like a stain?”


“If we kept doing that sort of thing, sooner or later we'd end up like Nameless,” Willow added. “I don't know about you, but I don't fancy the idea of the whole .... 'bleh' look.” She punctuated her words with a series of highly animated facial expressions and accompanying hand gestures, her fingers wriggling like snakes across her cheeks.


The rest of the scoobies regarded her with bemusement, and Willow's movements gradually tapered off as she became aware of the weight of the gazes upon her. She flushed in embarrassment. “What?” she questioned anxiously.


Tara pulled Willow into a warm embrace as she laughed in delight and placed a loving kiss on the redhead's forehead. “Don't ever change, sweetie. Don't ever change.”


“You wouldn't prefer a suave sex-kitten instead of a babbling, goofy nerd?” Willow idly asked, wearing a suitably self-satisfied smile after enthusiastically kissing Tara back.


“To me, you're already a suave sex kitten, sweetie, just the way you are,” Tara murmured, her liquid gaze heated and her voice a sultry velvet purr.


Giles cleared his throat pointedly, and both women blushed slightly as they realized the other scoobies were watching them with obvious interest.


“It's times like this I wish I was profoundly deaf,” Giles muttered, the slight smile he wore belaying his words.


“Hey yeah!”, Xander chimed in, “I can just see Giles whipping out his hearing aid to give it a good polish!”


Her cheeks still crimson, Tara ducked her head as she took a seat beside her girlfriend. Despite her embarrassment, Tara still wore a happy grin. There was a series of loud metallic thumps as Buffy added her last handful of surveillance devices to the pile already on the table.


“Looks like Nameless had at least one of these in every room in the house,” Buffy noted grimly. “Who knows how long he's been watching, laughing behind our backs? And we don't even know how he got in here in the first place!”


“Through the front door, remember?” Dawn reminded her sister. “We found it unlocked.”


Scowling, Buffy glared at Dawn. “I know that! What we don't know is how he crossed Tara's barrier.”


Dawn shrugged carelessly. “Does it matter?” she countered. “We know he can get in, isn't that enough? We've seen him do his big disappearing act plenty of times, so he probably just teleported in or something.”


“No, Dawnie, I thought of that,” replied Tara with a shake of her head. “The spell would still have picked him up as he crossed the boundary, even if he was in the disembodied state of a teleportation.”


“Okay, so he found some other way to sneak in,” Dawn allowed with another shrug. “Again, does it matter how he gets in?”


“Dawn, if we find the loophole Nameless is exploiting, maybe we can block it up somehow, or trap it or something,” Willow explained, exchanging a hopeful glance with Tara.


“Oh,” Dawn mumbled, her face falling. “Yeah, I can see where could be a good idea.”


Buffy snorted in amusement, drawing a dirty look from her younger sister. “Yeah, it might save you from having to stand a watch at night.”


“Stand a what now?” Dawn blurted, aghast at Buffy's suggestion. “Did we get drafted into the army while I wasn't looking?”


Buffy drew herself up to her full height, arms folding across her chest in an unforgiving pose. “You could just go to sleep each night knowing that he could sneak in here at any time, and do who knows what to you while you sleep?” she asked scathingly. “The next thing you know, we could all be pregnant. Even Xander and Giles!”


“Oh, I rather hope not,” Giles exclaimed. “That's one of the best things about being a man!”


Xander nodded fervently. “Amen, G-man! You're preaching to the choir here! The only stomach swelling I ever want to have to worry about is of the snack based variety.”


Tara's head popped up as she realized that amongst all the excitement, she'd forgotten to divulge one last discovery her spell had revealed. “Nameless didn't make Willow pregnant,” she blurted before Giles could unleash what had promised to be a scathing reply to Xander.


All eyes turned to Tara, but no-one was more shocked than Willow herself. “What?” she asked in a high-pitched, uncertain voice. “He didn't? Tara? What do you mean?”


“The ... the spell I cast?” Tara began nervously. “I saw a protection spell around you, a really powerful one ... but that was all. There was nothing else.”


Giles leaned forward in his seat, eyes narrowed thoughtfully. “Are you quite sure Tara?”


Tara nodded emphatically. “A spell like that ... to create a whole new life, from nothing? There's no way that wouldn't leave a trace. I couldn't see even the slightest trace of any spell other than the protection spell.”


“So how'd Willow get pregnant then?” Buffy asked, but she wryly answered her own question almost as soon as she'd finished asking it. “Let me guess? We don't have the faintest idea?”


“I'm afraid not,” Giles wearily allowed.


Sitting behind Willow, Anya had been silently watching the other scoobies with a calculating expression on her face. Pursing her lips, Anya nodded precisely as she came to a decision. “Willow?” she called out.


“Hmm?” murmured the redhead as she turned to face Anya.


WHACK!


The sound of Anya's hand meeting Willow's cheek in a full bodied slap echoed through the room like a gunshot, and Willow's head snapped to one side with the force of the blow. For a brief handful of moments, the other scoobies stared at Anya in shock and disbelief, as Anya herself regarded Willow critically.


“Ahn!” exploded Xander incredulously. Tara might have beaten him to the punch, but Anya's actions had left her open-mouthed and lost for words. The blonde's furious eyes were another matter altogether; they spoke volumes, and few of those words were polite.


Her head turning back slowly, a livid red mark on her cheek, Willow's eyes shot daggers at her attacker. “What. The. Hell, Anya!” she angrily demanded. “That hurt!”


“What?” Anya nonchalantly replied. “I was testing the efficiency of this protection spell. It doesn't seem that powerful to me.”


“That's because it's broken! The spell was never finished!” Tara explained heatedly as she found her voice.


“Oh.“ Anya blinked, then shrugged. “Whoops?”


“Whoops?” Willow repeated in a dangerous tone of voice. “My face is all red and ouch-y, and all you can say is whoops!”


Anya looked like she was on the verge of issuing her own rejoinder, which, judging by both Willow and Tara's obviously antagonistic mood, wouldn't have been the smartest move. In the hopes of heading off another colossal argument at the metaphorical pass, Xander leapt headfirst into the conversational lull.


“So ... protection spell, huh? Does this make him on our side now? In a very strange, convoluted kind of way?”


“What?” snapped Willow, her blood still seething.


Gulping as the full force of the redhead's ire fell inadvertently on his shoulders, Xander forged bravely onward, with a sickly smile on his lips. “Well, sure it's massive invasion of privacy, and creepy on a Michael Jackson kinda level, but ... this means he's trying to protect you, right?”


“We've been over this, Xander,” Buffy grumbled, gesticulating wildly as if that could somehow emphasize her point. “It looks like Nameless is protecting at least some of us, but we don't know why. If he doesn't have some ... uber-evil ... ulterior motive, why do things this way? Why be stealth-guy?”


“Um ...” Willow mumbled, raising her hand.


Leaning in close, Tara whispered in her partner's ear. “Sweetie, you're not in class. You don't have to raise your hand.”


Flushing, Willow swiftly yanked her hand down, trying desperately to ignore the fact that she'd ever raised it. “Well ... remember that protection spell I tried to do for you in senior year, Buffy?”


“What, you mean the one you were doing in secret?” asked Buffy, her brow furrowing in thought. “Right before our mom's tried to burn us at the stake?”


“That's the one,” Willow acknowledged. “Remember how I said it had to be a secret, or it wouldn't work? Maybe ... this is a similar kind of thing? Nameless had to do his spell in secret, or it wouldn't work?”


Scowling, Buffy shrugged. “I see your point, Will, but ... I just can't bring myself to trust him. Every sense I have says Nameless is a bad guy to me, and I can't get past that. If it walks like a duck, and talks like a duck ...”


“Maybe it's a bunny?” Willow finished, shooting a snide glance at Anya.


“Oh, why did you have to say that?” Anya complained, shifting as though she wanted to check under her seat for any trace of the aforementioned rabbits.


“Why would you try to break my face?” countered Willow pugnaciously.


“Good grief,” mumbled Giles, dropping his head into his hands. “I'm going back to bed. Even that infernal sofa is better that listening to another speech about the inherent evilness of 'bunnies'.”


As the watcher dragged himself wearily to his feet, Dawn tugged on his arm. “What about Nameless' camera-type thingies? What do we do with them?”


The grin that crept across Buffy's face as she answered her sister's question wasn't entirely pleasant. “Oh, I've got an idea about that.”


**********


Stolen life force hummed through my veins, filling me once more with vigor. It appeared that draining the life from a living member of my own species provided more of a kick than preying upon demons. It was an interesting fact to know, if largely unusable. I couldn't rely on the handy presence of a suitably odious criminal every time I needed to quickly heal critical damage.


I suppose I could always prey on the innocent, I have done so in the past when necessary. But it always leaves a sour taste in my mouth, and another entry on my extensive list of nightmares. Whereas criminal scum like that rapist doesn't even give me pause. Once, it might have done, but it's surprising how quickly you can become inured to the prick of a guilty conscience.


Or maybe it's just a testament to how morally corrupt I have become. How corrupt I made myself.


It makes little difference. Guilty or innocent, I'm still a murderer, many times over. And so long as what I desire comes to be, I honestly couldn't give a damn about the price I, or anyone else has to pay. My will be done, at any cost.


Dismissing such musing from my mind, I limp down the stairs into my lair proper. Past time I see how the scoobies have dealt with the aftermath of my visit. I do so hope they aren't bickering again. Amusing as it might have been to begin with, it is growing increasingly vexing. They never do their best work when they're fighting amongst each other.


Approaching my crystal receiving array, I activated it with a wave and settled down on a stool to watch. What I found myself watching was ... well, I wasn't quite sure what it was. The image was dark and grimy, somehow contained, as if inside a cramped area.


“What the ...?” I muttered. “Is that ... is that the inside of an s-bend?” My face dropped as I realized what had happened. “They flushed my bugs down the toilet?”


**********


“Captain, sir?”


Isiah looked up from the map of Sunnydale he was perusing to find Sergeant Bixby standing before him, positively quivering to attention. A slight, cruel smirk stole across Isiah's face as he studied his subordinate. Leaning back indolently in his chair, he studied Bixby's patently blank expression, a hallmark of non-commissioned officers everywhere.


It was a petty cruelty compared to the type he normally preferred to inflict, but forcing Bixby to silently stand to attention for no other reason than for pure spite amused his demon no end. The fact that Bixby displayed no sign of emotion in the least, positive or negative, took a lot of the fun out of it. Seeing or hearing your victim's pain was half the fun.


“Yes, Sergeant?” he finally deigned to ask, waving one hand lazily in the air.


Bixby slipped into his 'at ease' posture, which was to say no less stiff, but with his hands placed marginally differently. “Our contact has gotten back to us, sir.”


“And ...”


“We're a go, sir,” Bixby announced with a triumphant sneer. “He says it'll cost us, though. What we're asking for isn't easy, according to him.”


Isiah leaned forward, his expression shifting like quicksilver from idle to focused. “He can do it though?”


“Aye, Captain,” confirmed Bixby with a nod. “He can't guarantee any degree of accuracy with his placement, but he can get all of them inside the house well enough.”


Isiah leaned backwards once more, steepling his fingers thoughtfully. “I'd prefer to have used my own lads for the assault, but that ruddy invitation requirement still gets in the way. Still, I suppose beggars can't be choosers. You're sure these demons you found are up to the job?”


“So long as the Slayer isn't there, they should be able to handle it neatly,” Bixby insisted. “After all, they're only humans.”


“Humans who will be dead by this time tomorrow night,” Isiah proclaimed with a wolfish grin.


**********


The next day passed with agonizing slowness. Even after their good natured bickering had subsided, and the scoobies had retreated back to their beds, sleep had proved elusive. For Tara and Willow at least. Tara couldn't speak for the others.


Xander and Anya had been 'volunteered' to stay the night and provide another set of bodies to help stand a watch. Willow had quickly whipped up a color-coded schedule that divided the night into two person watches, and just as quickly browbeat Buffy when she protested at Willow including herself on the schedule. That argument had lasted for less time than Giles could go for without cleaning his glasses when confronted by Anya and a frank discussion of her sex life.


In the end, Willow had consented to rearrange the schedule to give Tara and herself the final watch of the night, on the grounds that it would provide them with the longest stretch of uninterrupted sleep. At least, that was the theory. In practice, it didn't work as well when neither woman found it easy to fall asleep.


Despite their lack of sleep, almost the entire household had risen early. The sole exception was Xander, who somehow managed to remain sound asleep long into the morning, sprawled out in a lounge chair, snoring like a wood chipper. He only eventually woke up when Anya intentionally kicked him in the shin.


By general, if unvoiced consensus, everyone's normal daily routine was put aside for the day, excepting Katie and Dawn, who were sent to school. Dawn had grumbled the whole time that it was a waste of her natural talents, which hadn't even earned a raised eyebrow from her sister. Katie, on the other hand, had simply nodded quietly, her dark eyes solemn.


Tara had been growing increasingly worried about Katie lately. Granted, she hadn't known her for long, but Katie seemed to be growing ever more prone to moods that, if not exactly black, were definitely bleak. Every now and then, Katie displayed flashes of a bright and bubbly personality, but these moments were occurring less and less frequently.


She supposed that Katie's mood was most likely a result of the violent loss of her family. Tara knew that she and Willow would do their absolute best to be there for Katie, but it would never, could never, be the same. Katie had lost a great deal of her innocence, and it broke Tara's heart to know it.


While watching Katie that morning, Tara had been gripped by an iron determination to do everything in her power to make the world brighter for Katie, to make it once again a place of wonder and promise, not darkness, pain and loss.


That vow had to wait for the moment though, until the situation with both Nameless and Hawkins could be resolved, one way or the other.


That resolution was what each of the scoobies spent the day working towards. Willow and Tara had gone through the spell book they had acquired from Lickspittle with a fine tooth comb, looking for anything they could either turn against the warlock, or use to protect themselves. Willow had been delighted with their degree of success.


They now knew the same spell Nameless had used on Willow to deny her access to her magic, as well as how to defend themselves against it. They had also picked up quite a few other nifty little tricks that might come in handy.


Since Willow had been otherwise occupied, the role of computer research girl had fallen to Anya. The former demon had proved to be surprisingly adept at it too, even when it didn't involve online investment. Together with the reluctant assistance of Giles, Anya was searching for any sign of where Isiah Hawkins and his vampires might have made their lair.


Given that they knew that Hawkins had a great many vampires following him, that limited the number of places where they could make their lair. That many vampires couldn't just set up shop in one of the many crypts in Sunnydale as the smaller nests were liable to do.


While Giles and Anya pursued that avenue of investigation, to little success, Buffy and Xander had adopted a more physical method of searching, searching the usual haunts for any sign of recent vampire infestation. But when they returned, late that afternoon, the both of them were dirty, tired and had next to nothing to show for their efforts.


Dinner that evening proved to be a somber affair; even Xander seemed subdued by their continual lack of success at discovering anything of use. Even Willow and Tara had grown glum, the bright spark of their achievement gradually overwhelmed by the palpable air of defeat.


As the night progressed, most of the scoobies withdrew in on themselves, or in the case of the couples, paired off. Anya, for example, had suddenly bounded to her feet, grabbed Xander by the hand, and taken him off to the nearest corner for 'a good talking at'. Dawn had attempted to correct Anya's statement, but Anya's expression left no doubt that she'd said exactly what she'd meant to.


Either way, Tara was just glad to see her two friends making any effort at all to talk beyond trading insults. She didn't know if Xander and Anya could resolve the issues that stood between them, but Tara hoped that they could. That was all they could really do, though Willow had apparently toyed with other ideas. Tara hadn't got the full story, but from the light in her lover's eyes, she was sure Willow had starting scheming for a way to bring Xander and Anya back together. That was Willow's way, to alway search for a way to fix what she regarded as broken. Tara just hoped that, if necessary, she could take the edge off whatever goofy scheme her girlfriend came up with.


Buffy had abruptly announced her intention to resume her patrol schedule, and refused to be dissuaded. Dawn did manage to finagle a promise from her sister to not attempt to tackle Nameless all by herself again. Both Willow and Tara understood that Buffy needed to be doing something, even if it wasn't anything directly related to their current problem.


In an attempt to distract herself from worrying about Buffy, Dawn had corralled Katie into a game of Monopoly in the room they shared. Neither girl seemed especially interested in the game, but it was better than doing nothing but moping.


In an surprise decision, Giles had settled down in front of the television, rather than retiring with a book. In the end, he probably ended up entertaining himself more with his dryly sarcastic commentary on the sitcom he found himself watching than the show itself did.


With everyone else otherwise occupied, and the fact that they were supposed to be up early for their watch, Tara and Willow retired to bed early, only half an hour after Buffy departed. The fact that they had got little sleep the night before was also a contributing factor.


As they changed into their pajamas, the two women swapped idle smalltalk, neither one in the mood to discuss anything heavy or meaningful. They exchanged loving caresses too, brushing fingertips along each others arms and cheeks. Normally, such behavior might have been a precursor to heavy petting and everything else that normally led too, but the fact was that they were both too tired to want to do more than snuggle.


Well ... 'want to' might be too strong a term.


Standing at the foot of their bed, Tara captured Willow's hand in her own as the redhead was walking past and pulled her into an embrace.


“Hi, sweetie,” Tara whispered, her hands running up and down Willow's spine.


“Hi yourself,” Willow murmured back, leaning her forehead against Tara's. “Um ... did you want anything in particular, baby?”


Tara's lips curved in a satisfied smile. “Just what I have right now.” She leaned in to kiss her love on the lips, and both women's eyes began to drift shut. Which is when everything went wrong.


A loud chime rang through the air, and their eyes flared back open in a sudden panic. “Not again!” Willow gasped.


But the threat heralded by the sound of Tara's boundary spell being violated was not the one Willow and Tara expected. With a sudden pop of displaced air, their bedroom abruptly got a lot more crowded, as four separate figures materialized out of thin air.


Willow and Tara gaped at their uninvited guests, all of whom were clearly of non-human origin. Each demon rounded off at about seven feet tall, with almost triangular torso's that gave them tremendous breadth of shoulder. Their heads were elongated at the back into a point, with loose, thick tendrils of cartilage standing in for hair. Nor were the demons' faces the sort to invite warm, fuzzy feelings in humans; they looked disturbingly like human skulls stripped of concealing skin and flesh.


All of the demon's wore a variation on the same outfit, with brown homespun trousers and open-faced leather vests. Various trophy's of a gruesome nature hung from broad leather belts, and stubby, four fingered hands clutched a variety of cruel-edged weapons.


The demons staggered slightly as they adjusted to their new location, and as one, their skull like faces turned to face Willow and Tara. Cold, hard eyes like agate bored into them, making the witches' skin crawl.


“Um ... hi?” Willow offered weakly, venturing a nervous wave.


Lips curling back to reveal rows of razor-edged triangular teeth like those of a shark, the demons charged.


**********


I was seated cross-legged on the cold concrete floor, naked to the waist, when the alarm was tripped. The loss of my surveillance devices had thrown me into a cold rage, and denied a suitable target upon which to lose my ire, I had decided to try and meditate to regain my equilibrium. It hadn't been going well.


The alarm was now audible as well as visible, unlike the vampires' last attempt. That meant that whatever was causing this was already inside the house, not just approaching it. Along with the color, this time a bright orange bleeding into arterial red, this told me it wasn't vampires.


How the hell did they get in? I snarled to myself as I scrambled to my feet. Whoever, whatever they are, if they harm but a single hair on their heads ...


**********


With a terrified shriek, Willow and Tara hurled themselves backwards as the nearest demon scythed a hook-bladed axe at their heads. Hitting the bed still clutching each other, they quickly rolled apart as the demon tried again, sweeping its weapon downwards this time. The axe's blade ripped the mattress apart and lodged in the bed frame, its owner growling in frustration.


“Run, Willow!” Tara yelped as she hit the floor. A quickly muttered incantation sent a jewelery box from a nearby dresser careening at a second demon's head, but the targeted demon simply batted it aside and lunged at her.


“Tara!” Willow screamed as she came to her own feet. She was vaguely aware of shouts, screams and various sounds of battle coming from elsewhere in the house, but Willow's attention was focused on the demon menacing her lover. There was no way that she would ever leave Tara to face them alone.


Reacting on instinct alone, Willow reached out and somehow 'shoved' at the demon with her magic. She wasn't quite sure what she'd done, but it proved effective enough, hurling the demon into the nearest wall with enough force to crack the plaster.


Unfortunately, with her attention diverted, Willow didn't notice the third demon grabbing at her until it was too late. Snatching a handful of Willow's hair in it's hand, the demon yanked her head back cruelly. Willow let out a yelp of pain as her concentration vanished like mist before a hot sun.


Tara tried to scrabble to her feet, but the last demon stepped in and hammered it's mace into Tara's vulnerable stomach. Doubling over in pain, the blonde lost her dinner in a scalding rush of vomit. An incoherent sound of anger and fear wrenched itself out of Willow's throat at the sight, and she twisted, trying to claw at her captor's face.


A four fingered hand slammed into the small of Willow's back, and her entire body spasmed with the pain, mouth hanging open, silent but for a gasp of agony. Unable to do more than twitch, Willow would have fallen to the floor if the demon hadn't caught her weight. Nor was she able to resist as the demon unsheathed a knife with a malicious, gurgling chuckle.


The demon brought the blade, the size of Willow's forearm, to the redheads throat. Willow tried to move, tried to fight, but she could barely raise her arms and her mind was too scattered to call the magic to her aid.


Tara looked up from her position on her hands and knees on the floor, and her eyes met Willow's as if they were the only things in the room. The demon with the mace raised it's weapon again in preparation to bring it down on Tara's unprotected, and all-too fragile skull.


Willow locked eyes with the love of her life, determined that if this was in fact the end, the last thing she would see would be Tara. She didn't want it to be the end, she'd never want that. She wanted to grow old and wrinkly with Tara. There was still so much that she wanted to do, to see, to share with the woman who made her soul soar. And if she could just move, she'd do everything in her power to see her vision of their future come true.


A sharp, pricking pain in her neck preceded the warmth of a trickle of blood as it ran down her neck. Willow felt a howl building inside her, low in her chest, in protest at the sheer unfairness of it all, the casual uncaring cruelty of fate.


The demon's grip on the knife at her throat shifted in preparation to slice open tender flesh, and Willow tried to put every once of her love for Tara into her eyes, to say farewell.


Tara's warning spell sounded once again, and Willow felt despair claw at her. What now?


The demon who held the knife at Willow's throat abruptly shuddered, and Willow dropped to the floor as the arms holding her went suddenly slack. The knife slipped from out of nerveless fingers, and buried its tip in the floor by Willow's feet.


A crackling roar preceded a concentrated bolt of lightning over Willow's head to strike the demon menacing Tara full in it's skull-like face. Skin, flesh and eyes were vaporized in a heartbeat beneath the onslaught before the still-standing corpse was hurled backwards.


Twisting her head with what seemed to be infuriating slowness, Willow looked up and back in time to see the body of the demon that had attacked her lift off the ground. Her eyes traveled further back, and found Nameless, his scarred face contorted into an expression of incandescent rage. For some reason, he was dressed in only a ratty pair of jeans. The full length of three taloned fingers of the warlock's bone hand were buried inside the back of the demon's skull, keeping the corpse aloft like a coat rack.


With a bellow, the first demon abandoned its axe, still embedded in the frame of Willow and Tara's bed, and rounded on both Willow and the warlock. It bellowed again, this time an incomprehensible war cry in some demonic tongue. Nameless answered the challenge with a bolt of lightning that darted through the demon's open mouth and blew the top of it's head clean off.


The last demon, the one Willow had fended away from Tara finally regained its feet, and charged, a bared short sword gripped in each hand. Nameless tossed aside the twitching corpse of his first victim, and silently rushed to meet the challenge half way, claws held out wide and low.


The two combatants came together like ancient warriors from days long since passed. Sweeping both it's blades in at once from either side, the demon sought to cleave the warlock's head from his shoulders. Nameless ducked the dual blows easily, and lashed out with both claws, back and forth, ripping the demon's torso into a red ruin.


As the demon howled in agony, the wound sagged open under the weight of internal organs, and a mass of rope like intestines slithered out like snakes. Straightening, Nameless twisted his wrists inward, flicking a claw out to almost delicately slash the tendons on the inside of each of the demon's elbows.


Blood that was black and thick as treacle dribbled from one corner of the demon's mouth as it sagged to its knees with a disbelieving expression. With a brutal, callous twist of his lips, Nameless ripped out the demon's throat with a right cross, and it's blood sprayed clear up to the ceiling before the demon toppled to the ground.


Nameless stood over his fallen foe, naked chest heaving, more from some sort of atavistic elation than from exertion. Liberally splattered with demon blood, and with each rib clearly visible, he painted the picture of a murderous victim of a great famine.


But right now, Willow wasn't overly concerned with the warlock. All she wanted to do, all she needed to do, was reach Tara. The blonde witch obviously shared Willow's need, and she also met Willow half way, albeit with less violent consequences than Nameless and the demon.


They fell into a tight embrace, their bodies melding together in a way that confirmed they had always been meant to be together. There was no kissing, not yet, for having come so close to losing each other, all either woman needed was to be held, and in doing so confirm that they were both alive.


“I can't leave you two alone for a second, can I?” Nameless snarled, spitting the words at both women with viperous intensity. He might have continued further, but the drum of rapidly approaching footsteps pulled Nameless' attention towards the door.


A further trio of demon's, dressed and armed similarly to the first four, appeared in the doorway, and Nameless reared backwards, his scrawny, scarred and tattooed chest inflating as he dragged in an impressive mouthful of air. The demons lunged forwards, and Nameless leaned forwards, expelling his held breath.


What jetted from his mouth in a plume of thick, swirling, corrosive-green fog was decidedly not the air he'd breathed in. It didn't behave in the natural way for a gaseous substance either. Instead of spreading out as you might expect it to do, the fog instead remained firmly in a tear-drop shape, with Nameless at the tip, and the rounded bottom at the door.


Whether or not they knew any better, the demons charged headlong into the mist. Their momentum carried them forward for a few more steps before they began staggering, clutching at their throats and audibly wheezing. One by one, each of the demon's dropped to their knees, then fell to the floor. None of them ever made a noise, not even when their exposed flesh began to run like melting wax.


Willow looked away with a rush, bile pushing at the back of her throat. These demons ... whatever or whoever they were, had attacked Tara, and in Willow's book that was a capital crime. She'd happily have chopped them all to bits, or more accurately, let Buffy chop them all to bits, but what Nameless was doing was inhuman.


The sound of Nameless' exhalations finally tapered off, and Willow cautiously looked back, just catching glimpse of the fog somehow billowing in upon itself until there was nothing left. The sight of what was left of the demons nearly cost Willow her dinner.


Nameless quickly limped forward, radiating fury and tension with every movement, and the head of one the demons that had been enveloped by the fog splattered beneath his foot like a piece of overripe fruit. Willow gagged at the sight, and worse still, the sound that action inflicted upon her.


“Please, do try and keep yourselves out of mortal peril while I'm otherwise engaged, will you?” asked Nameless as he stalked away, his voice drifting over his shoulder. Before Willow could even think of responding, the warlock flicked his wrist carelessly, and a shimmering barrier audibly popped into existence, blocking the doorway.


In truth, Willow didn't know whether to be angry or relieved.


**********


The next demon I encountered was on it's own, repeatedly shoulder barging the door to Dawn's bedroom. With each blow, the door came closer and closer to caving in, and from the series of feminine shrieks coming from inside, Dawn recognized that fact as well I did.


It was so caught up in it's assault that the demon that it didn't notice me approaching, and it roared triumphantly as the door burst off it's hinges. Dawn screamed as she leapt backwards; apparently she'd been trying to brace the door herself, with little success.


I lunged with one hand as the demon started forwards, catching it by the face and dragging it backwards. Startled, the demon didn't get a chance to put up more than a token resistance before I slammed the back of it's head into the corridor wall opposite with all my might. I heard something crack in my opponent's skull, and as I pulled it back, a black smear of blood was left on the wall.


There seemed to still be a little life left in the bastard yet, so I hammered the demon's head into the wall a couple of more times, then shoved a talon in it's ear for good measure. I felt the demon go limp then, and dropped it like a sack of potatoes.


When I turned around, the Slayer's little sister was regarding me as if I'd tried to hump her leg rather than having just saved her life. Some people might have been offended by such ingratitude, but it actually amused me no end.


Katie, on the other hand, seemed genuinely happy to see me, and actually gave me a little wave in greeting. I found myself returning it before I was even aware I was moving, and Dawn just looked even more suspicious.


“Play nice, ladies,” I ordered, re-sealing the broken door with a barrier spell.


Dawn shouted something after me as I turned on my heel and limped towards the stairs; knowing her, I assumed it was a complaint of some kind and ignored her out of hand. When it came to Dawn Summers, the ability to tune the superfluous crap out of a conversation was a handy ability to have.


As I reached the head of the stairs, yet another demon was halfway up the stairs and closing fast. Spotting me, the demon voiced a guttural war cry and charged faster still. Lightning flared from both of my hands, and sparks danced the length and breadth of the demon's spasming body. I kept up the barrage as I took the first few steps down, my gait awkward from my damaged knee. When I let the lightning die down, the demon flopped bonelessly, it's corpse slithering down the stairs.


There was another demon already at the foot of the stairs, but someone had already saved me the trouble of killing it. A quick glance at the gaping wound in it's skull told me all I needed to know. Axe.


A strangled shout pulled my attention to one side, where Rupert Giles lay pinned against the dining room table. The watcher's back was flat against the table, his legs hanging off the end and flailing in a furious attempt to gain traction. I could only assume that it was Ripper's own axe his demonic attacker had pressed under the watcher's chin, giving the attempt to throttle Giles that 'good old college try'.


Tut tut, Ripper, I silently chided in my head, wearing a snide smirk. How very sloppy of you. Just imagine how embarrassed you'd be if you were killed by your own weapon. Still ... I suppose I'd better help.


It was my own turn to be embarrassed now, as a second demon grabbed me from behind, arms like steel bands wrapping around my chest. My ribs creaked in an alarming fashion as the demon squeezed, with the apparent intention of crushing me like a empty coke can. Since I didn't overly care for that idea, I resolved to act to prevent such an occurrence.


As good old Sandra Bullock once said ... SING! I drove one elbow hard into my attacker's torso, but the demon just grunted. Of course, it's not quite so effective with a creature that doesn't have a solar plexus ...


Even though my attack had garnered me exactly sod all of use, the demon apparently took my efforts poorly, because it leaned forward and bit off my left ear. Blood ran down the side of my head, warm and wet.


Needless to say, I made my displeasure vocally evident. “You Mike Tyson wannabe bastard!” I bellowed, simultaneously slamming a foot down on the demon's instep, and driving my head sharply backwards. Something crunched in the demon's face, and it's grasp slackened enough for me to wriggle free and drop to my knees, taking the opportunity to rake it's legs with my talons as I did so.


Spinning, I came back up, ripping my claws through the demon's groin, hoping for a artery but only finding meat and bone. My savaged ear pulsed a fresh gout of blood down my face, and my vision went crimson with rage. Lashing out with blinding speed, I literally tore the demon's face clean off.


“Ha!” I crowed in maniacal triumph, shaking my gory trophy in ... well, it wasn't the demon's face per say, because I'd just ripped it off. “I've got your face! Who's laughing now, huh funny boy?”


A wet gurgle was the demon's only comeback before it collapsed.


Turning back to Giles, I found him beginning to turn an interesting shade of purple. A Giles brain damaged from lack of oxygen might be less stuffy, but he'd be of less use overall, so I figured I'd better stop screwing around and save the wretched bastard.


Grabbing the demon by a handful of it's head tendrils, I pulled it back from the watcher and severed it's spinal column with a quick slash. As it bleated in pathetic surprise, I hurled the now-paralyzed demon backwards. An errant coffee table shattered beneath it's bulk, and one of the broken legs impaled the demon through the chest.


Whoops, I thought. Xander's going to be pissed over that. On the plus side though, that was convenient. If not nearly as much fun as doing it myself would have been.


Giles was gasping and spluttering like a fish out of water, but his face was returning to it's normal pigmentation, so I figured he was well enough for now. The sounds of strife called to me from the kitchen now, and through the door I could see Xander and Anya struggling with yet another of the demons.


When I say struggling, I meant that the demon had it's hands wrapped around Harris' throat, and Anyanka was hanging on it's back, shrieking and raining down blows with a small fry pan. A second demon lay dead face down on the floor, any number of kitchen knives sticking out of the back of it's head. I suppose this pair isn't quite as useless as they look.


Stalking in, I plucked Anya off the demon's back and tossed her aside, heedless of her indignant squawk. For it's part, the demon was so intent on throttling Harris that I don't think it even noticed the difference. Nor did it notice me, until I politely tapped it on the shoulder.


Turning it's head, the demon blinked in surprise, and I idly noted that it's eyelids worked on a ninety degree angle to those of a human. Xander eyed me beseechingly, and I gave them both a sweet, utterly false smile. Then I shattered the demon's jaw.


Dropping Xander, the demon staggered backwards, blood dripping from it's mouth. Playing with it now, I hammered another blow into the demon's face that sent it careening into the wall. Shaking it's head groggily, the demon glared at me, roared something incoherent in a demon tongue with which I was unfamiliar, and charged.


I waited until the last moment to spin out of the demon's path, swinging one arm straight-edged at it's head. The demon's own momentum did the rest of the work, and the demon spun 270 degrees in mid air before it crashed back to the ground.


Leaning over the felled demon, I smiled at it mockingly. “Whoopsie. Did I do that?” I asked in a childlike tone. “How very impolite of me.”


My faux apologetic facade vanished in the blink of an eye, and I drove a pile-driver of a kick into the side of it's head. Raising one foot in the air, I stamped it down on the demon's chest. “WHAT! DO! YOU! THINK! YOU'RE! DOING!” I howled, punctuating each word with another stomp of my foot.


Forcing myself backwards, I shuddered, chest heaving with the intensity of my rage. All my senses told me this was the last demon, and I didn't want it dead yet. Not until I had a chance to ask it a few ... friendly questions. My quivering lips were drawn back in an uncontrolled rictus, and my face twitched as I tried to bring myself back under a modicum of control.


Xander, Anya, and eventually Giles regarded me cautiously as I slowly regained control of my emotions, much akin to the manner in which people look at a ticking bomb. To be fair to them, the metaphor is a fairly apt one.


Finally, I forced the rage back inside me to swirl and churn in frustration at being denied release, and my face slipped back into it's cold, emotionless mask. As I lurched forward, the watching scoobies visibly flinched, and I nearly giggled at the sight.


They sagged with apparent relief when I grabbed the last demon by the throat and hoisted it into the air. “Now then, my demonic friend, you're going to tell me exactly where I can find Isiah Hawkins,” I snarled malevolently. “Yes?”


Though it glared at me, the demon apparently realized it was outclassed, outnumbered and pretty much screwed no matter how it looked at the situation, and nodded reluctantly. I smiled the smile of a predator, and gestured for the demon to begin. Then, as it opened it's mouth, there was a meaty 'thunk', and the demon shuddered, and went limp in my grasp.


With a sinking feeling in my stomach, I moved the demon so that I could see the back of it's head. What I found was a wooden stake embedded in the back of the demon's head. My eyes flicked back towards the front door, and found Buffy Summers standing there in a combat pose.


I stared silently at the Slayer for a moment, and she did likewise, no doubt waiting for some clichéd villainous boast or threat. I decided to go with my feelings.


“You bloody little idiot!” I furiously growled, tossing aside the corpse contemptuously. “Do you just sit around all day, dreaming up ways to become an even bigger pain in my ass?”


“Hey, I try my best, Nate,” Buffy quipped, placing sneering emphasis on the name. “My job's not especially taxing on the brain power front, so I've got plenty of time to come up with ideas.”


“Before it came down with a distinct case of having a stake jammed in the back of it's head, that demon was about to tell me where Hawkins is hiding his damn lair!”


“What, so you two can join forces?” countered Buffy. “I don't think so!”


My mouth actually dropped open at the sheer stupidity of Buffy's statement. “Join forces? No, I want to find Hawkins so that I can eviscerate the pox-ridden bastard!” I shifted my focus to each of the other scoobies in turn. “Is it just me, or is she getting stupider? Honestly, has your hair actually taken root in your brain?”


“Hey!” the Slayer protested, starting forward combatively.


I jabbed a warning finger in her direction. “Do you want me to kick your ass again, you irritating little imbecile?”


Buffy's lips narrowed dangerously. “I'm still alive. That's the first rule of slaying.”


I made a contemptuous yapping motion with one hand. “Blah, blah, blah,” I sneered. “You're still alive because I haven't been trying to kill you!”


“Pretty big words from the guy who was Kentucky Fried Curmudgeon just last night!”


Spreading my arms wide, I bowed with an elaborate flourish and a mocking smirk. “As you can see, I got better. Sucking the life out of a wannabe rapist has a tendency to do that.”


“You what?”


“Ahh, deaf as well as stupid,” I noted, twisting my lips into a knowing smile. Buffy visibly bristled at the insult, as I knew she would. That was the good thing about this Slayer, she was so righteous and riddled with insecurity that it was relatively simple to manipulate her. Show yourself to her as a villain, and that's what you were to her.


In her work, a Slayer needed that sense of black and white, that sense of absolute moral certainty. Without it, she could be crippled with doubt, and unable to do what she must. Buffy existed in one of the grayest worlds of all the Slayers, but she still saw most things in black and white. As such, so long as I proported myself in a certain way, I could rely on her to oppose me.


Be that as it may, Buffy looked like she was rapidly reaching her breaking point. If I pushed her much more, she might snap and attack me. Fun as it might be to smack her down again, I didn't care to waste the time. Since I had lost this opportunity to track down Isiah, I had to find another. And I wouldn't find it here, not now.


So I blew the Slayer and her friends a kiss. “So sorry, but I'm afraid I must dash. Places to go, people to kill, that kind of thing.”


And even as I was vanishing, I flipped Buffy off, just to see the expression on her face.


To be continued ...
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Re: New Fic - At Any Cost. (Updated 6 May)

Postby WillowRulez » Fri May 19, 2006 5:08 pm

Willow blanched as she realized that the location Tara had indicated gave a bird's eye view of their bed. “You mean ... he's been ... we've ... that peeping tom!” Willow's stop-start exclamations gave way to the heat of righteous indignation. “He's been watching us when we ... ah ... when we ... you know, snuggle?”

Ah... it's (almost) the end of the world and Willow is worried about that. How adorable :p
Btw, I really love stories where Willow is pregant. Usually it's Tara and I think Willow is quite capable of dealing with that too ;)
Anya is just pricless. Slapping Will and looking for bunnies... she must be one of my fav characters ever.
Buffy is bloody brilliant hm? Interrupting the spell, flushing the surveillance 'cameras' down the toilet, killing that demon... geez! Somebody buy her a clue? Please?
And those damn demons! They interrupted the smoochies!
And even as I was vanishing, I flipped Buffy off, just to see the expression on her face.

I have something in common with good old Nate there.
Great update! Cant wait for more :x
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Re: New Fic - At Any Cost. (Updated 6 May)

Postby Lonewolf22 » Sat May 20, 2006 12:46 am

Darth Pacula: First off, Happy Birthday Darth, Secondly, Great update, I really LOVED the way the way that Willow was defending Tara when Buffy and Xander were making fun of her, and I ABSOLUTELY adored when Tara said to Willow "Don't ever change". It was very, very funny what Buffy did to Nameless' bugs and I wish that I could've seen the look on Nameless' face, LOL. I wish that Tara would've hit Anya back for what she did to Willow. I still wonder why Nameless is protecting the Scoobies? I know it sounds bad but I kinda agree with Nameless about Buffy, I mean I know where she is coming from but she has to see the big picture, and it was really funny when Nameless flipped off Buffy at the end. I can't wait to read more.

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Re: New Fic - At Any Cost. (Updated 6 May)

Postby AntigoneUnbound » Sat May 20, 2006 9:24 am

Paul, m'dear~Forgive this lax queer. Sorry to have missed so much but I finally sat down w/ coffee and settled into your story. And then I put the coffee aside because Nameless was letting worms drink his blood and cavort around his bones and well, it all just got to be a bit much. (Notice, though, that I sacrificed the coffee, not the story. Truly a compliment, coming from me!)

Note: I'm going to post my reply to the 2/24 update first, and take it from there. That way it won't be one mega-post, 'kay?

I can't help it: I like Nameless. Part of it is his attachment to Willow and while part of me still worries about the ultimate nature of that attachment, I go w/ the "Action talks; bullshit walks" theory: he seems to want to keep her safe. And that's gotta count for something. The other thing, though, is his ability to laugh at himself, which always redeems someone in my eyes, or at least inclines me kindly toward them. Will he ever play the piano again? God, that was beautiful. Throughout all of his his physical misery, there's this sardonic element: Oh, right--gotta re-attach my hand. Well, might as well get to it.

I wonder how Katie will play into all of this? There was something so poignant about her reaction to the news that something was wrong with Willow. She's seen so much, too much--she knows quite well how life can suck.

The exchange b/w our girls was so rife with pain and confusion, but Willow's line ("You can't make everything better if you don't say anything") captured, in this very endearing way, the belief she has that really, Tara will make everything better. When Tara stormed out, I was--I confess--very upset with her. "Willow needs you!" I shouted, but she just ran off as if she couldn't even hear me. But then we saw her own pain, and that hideous, damnably tenacious belief: she doesn't deserve Willow's fidelity. Really, at the heart of it: she can't keep her. She's not enough for her. And then I understood. I like that you don't draw her as a saint, ever-strong and ever-righteous, b/c it's easy to make Tara almost a caricature of goodness. But she struggles, too.

And then along came Timothy, whom I have grown to like a great deal. I love his wry description of SD, and the fact that indeed, only an idiot wouldn't know that this was a very, very weird place. But then that wanker has to come and knock on his door and oh, my hope is that Timothy, having read up on this Magical Kingdom, will be at least partly on guard and perhaps his invitation masks a very discerning nature and even now he's planning how to take down the creature that walks within his house or maybe he'll figure it out really, really soon and oh, crap--I'm scared to read the next update.

But I'm going to do just that.

Again, my apologies, and a reiteration of my love for this story~
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Re: New Fic - At Any Cost. (Updated 6 May)

Postby AntigoneUnbound » Sat May 20, 2006 9:58 am

Hullo again, Paul. Hope your enjoying your day with your brother!

And now, the 3/7 update.

Yay, Timothy Garner!! Yay, I say! (Um, I'm hoping that I don't find out shortly that he's actually working on the side of evil, but I do enjoy him!) I love it when characters assumed to be naive or weak are in fact very, very sharp and capable.

Oh, but first a quick note on the chapter as a whole: I loved your phrases and images throughout this, Paul. Let me give a few examples:

**"
Love is a fragile and flawed beast."
Yes...yes it is. But we keep chasing it...

**Tara's thought that if Mrs. Creedy's bun were undone, half of her face would sag off. That was wonderfully evocative, Paul; it absolutely captured her in my mind.

**"A single tear, unnoticed and uncared for..."
This makes me almost pity Mrs. Creedy. (A brief aside about characterization: you've made Nameless somehow endearing, or attractive, such that the horror he's about to wreak on a character more petty and weak than monstrous is something that we don't really argue with, and perhaps actively cheer. It reminds me of Hannibal Lecter's "I'm having a friend for dinner" comment at the end of "Silence of the Lambs.") But the tear--it was a wonderful piece of understatement, I think. You could have depicted a scene of great carnage and horror and dread, but that single tear captured it all.

I'm a sucker for group scenes, and you always do well by them. Oh heavens, Anya's comment ("You never got me pregnant") just summed up so well how she sees the world. Yes, there's chaos and epic upheaval afoot, but...Xander never got her pregnant. I cracked up, and then down, and a little to the side as well. Giles' reference to Tara taking up "an unusual hobby" was excellent as well. So understated; so funny. I also thought the discussion about Angel and other characters was nicely done: first of all, it really showed the history of this group, and the myriad ways they've grown together and apart; secondly, it anchored us in time and place. This is where the various people are at this time.

As ever, I try to glean clues to Nameless' identity. (I didn't miss it, did I?) "Twenty years of soul-destroying labor"; "a taint that was there before I was born"; "the one person who made my life worthwhile." Dammit--who is this person? What? It's international rugby star David Beckham? Wow...never saw that one coming...

I'm absolutely loving this, Paul. While I do regret being gone for so long, it is giving me the chance to catch up on so much of a wonderful story.

OK--gonna run a few errands, but I'll continue later.
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Re: New Fic - At Any Cost. (Updated 6 May)

Postby AntigoneUnbound » Sat May 20, 2006 10:39 am

And now, a few words on the 3/17 update, brought to you by International Foods.

This seemed to be a particularly reflective update, Paul, esp. with W/T musing sadly on the all-too-human limitations of this species. I loved Tara's point: who needs demons to threaten the world? We're so remarkable adept at destroying each other without any other-worldly help at all.

One touch that I thought was just excellent: using Nameless as a lens onto the Scoobies; particularly, each person's management of her/his own feelings. Buffy, Willow, and Dawn are transparent in their rage; Xander, almost equally so. But Tara...much, much harder to read, and not b/c she doesn't value emotional expression. (That was just a wonderful point.) No, she's all about others being emotionally open. But her own feelings--those are trickier. And my favorite element of the whole update: Katie as wild-card; standing at a fork in the road b/w Tara's way of dealing with her rage, and Nameless'. That was just beautiful, Paul. I felt things just "click" in my brain as I read it, and I don't think it was about those implants that the CIA put into my head. (Hey, in this age, in my country--would you really be surprised to hear they'd done it?) That was superb in both content and execution, if that makes any sense. It imbues Katie with even more import than she already had.

Nameless, for all his savagery, can do the subtle thing when he needs to, can't he? He would have liked to have ripped Mrs. Creedy's head clean off her neck, but he needed her for a bigger purpose and indeed, it's better for W/T to have her in this role than just...you know...dead and bloody. I can only imagine what she'll do and say on their behalf now. For some reason, I flashed back to the early days of lobotomies: people were rendered so docile, so pliant. Their personalities were gone, of course, but so was that nasty psychosis and its attendant unpredictability.

OK, so Lickspittle is cracking me up. You capture his dialogue really well, which isn't an easy task. His name, too, is just so perfect. For all his dirty ways, he does have a way with a phrase, doesn't he? Buffy ended up "a whole lot less deader than most." Indeed she did, Licky.

Timothy continues to intrigue and charm me ("Do I look inbred enough to be an aristrocrat?") and now I'm even more intrigued. I'm sending you a PM, actually, with a thought on the subject.

So loving this story, Paul!

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Re: New Fic - At Any Cost. (Updated 6 May)

Postby AntigoneUnbound » Sat May 20, 2006 11:14 am

Let's take a look at that 3/37 update, shall we? Oh, and by the way, Paul--when you're posting replies to feedback, you can just give a "Thanks, Mary!" I know I'm leaving months' worth of feedback here.

OK, so Aaron...what a sad, pathetic little toady he is/was. Others have commented on his rather...phallic attachment to his rifle, and I heartily concur. (NRA members: take notice. We see it.) Licking his wounds--well, I'll never use that phrase again, ever never ever.

Character points--I loved how they all hit the floor. No one went down alone. (U, that sounded sorta naughty, but I'll stay with it.) And Nameless--how betrayed does he feel (and how much will he mock himself for feeling that?) when Buffy shot him? I was also struck by the fact that he even considered the nearby houses, and the energy it would take to shield them all. I like him more and more as his complexity grows. The argument, of course...I think it was bound to happen. They've been through so much, and for all that they know that can and have to trust each other, how could any human being not have moments of doubt, of ill-temper? There's so much in their past, and while that binds them together it also provides an endless amount of angst material when any of them are feeling especially tense; like, for example, a woman who's pregnant and has no idea how she got that way. The idea of betrayal also seems to be here as well, as various members feel stung at the accusations thrown against them, and the possible alliances they would never have predicted.

"Nathaniel Haust"...I'm intrigued, and I have an idea which is almost certainly off the mark. But I'm gonna play with it a little bit and see if anything comes of it. I'm a geek that way.

Oh God--Katie watching her "mother" get killed--that was so heart-breaking, Paul. I'm intrigued by her statement: "I have to watch it." Why, little one? What's going on in that head of yours?

So very, very good.
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Re: New Fic - At Any Cost. (Updated 6 May)

Postby AntigoneUnbound » Sat May 20, 2006 11:36 am

OK, moving on to 4/7...

First of all: I was right! Timothy is their son! I know I'm not the only one who caught it, but I'm allowing myself a moment of indecorous self-satisfaction.

OK, I'm done.

Well, as a therapist, how much did I love Tara's little synopsis? Right you are, Tara, and right is Willow as well, insisting that she not be spared the honesty. Indeed, that honesty brought them all back together in the end, yes? Sometimes these moments, painful as they are, are absolutely necessary. Ask Tara if she'd like to go into practice with me, would you?

Ah, Nathaniel...Again I ask: who the hell are you? So...something happened in the winter of '99. I need to go back and review the canon, in case his character was ever referred to. I'm drawing a blank (an all-too-familiar event in my life) but I need to see at least what Season '99/00 was. He mentioned in another update his twenty-year journey, but perhaps that was 20 years in another dimension, one that equals 1 year in this one. He refers to Tara in the past (why she meant so much to Willow) but perhaps that was just a function of the tense in that particular scene.

My head hurts.

Must read more. Must learn Nameless' identity.

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Re: New Fic - At Any Cost. (Updated 6 May)

Postby Darkness » Sat May 20, 2006 3:58 pm

Phew. At last, I'm here. This has been a confusing story, and the entire Saturday passed by as I read this.

Never before have my guesses and opinions shifted back and forth so many times, and in the end, I haven't been able to find any solutions until they showed up themselves.


Willow - Well, except this case. With Willow vomiting and feeling sick, it was quickly stated that she was pregnant, which I assumed. I just hope it will work out fine.


The Nameless - This guy/girl give me serious wiggins. Who was it? My ideas went forth and back. Amy, Oz, Xander, future Willow, future Tara, even Dawn at some point.

But right now, even with the name being revealed, what connection does he have to them? Sure, he has seen everything that happend to them, but why did he get the visions in the first place, magical or no? Is he the dark version of the child in Willow's stomach?


Timothy - The future child? Well, he does babble like Willow, and seems to have inherited Tara's genuine goodness (as we saw in the park) but what is he going to do?


Katie - A possible twist later on? She might just be a kid on the wrong place at the wrong time, but still, new characters have a way for plot twists in some way, and the Nameless himself seems worried about her turning to his path.

Darth Pacula - The master of schemes, it seems. This is the first time I give a reply to this story, and I really wonder what your agenda with the Nameless one is. The guy confuses me to no small end! He first behaves like the worst enemy, and then he starts to save them. And alot of things in-between. I cannot wait to see where this will end.

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Re: New Fic - At Any Cost. (Updated 6 May)

Postby DarkWiccan » Sat May 20, 2006 4:22 pm

Paul --

This is such a fabulous story that you have left me no choice but to nitpick.

Heh.

Ok.. so... Willow is pregnant, yes? Kay. Weeelll.... she was having typical morning sickness and other pregnancy symptoms up until her condition had been revealed to her...but now that she knows... nothing. So, now everyone is talking about how she is pregnant... but she's no longer physically exhibiting the fact. Am I making sense?

I mean, obviously, you have a lot going on here that you have to keep track of... but for me there are details (I guess that are important to me as a woman) that have been continually nagging at me...

And they all stem from one overall big question:

How far along is she?

Branching off of this question comes these:

Is she still experiencing morning sickness?
How is her body changing?<---descriptively this one has been bothering me the most as far as a "need to see".
How is her emotional frame of mind/reference changing/maturing?
When can we expect to see her at the Dr's office again?

It makes sense that you're still tackling the "how" and the "why" of her mystical condition.... but I'd really like to see her also dealing with the realities of the "what" of it all.

Ok... nitpick complete.

Can't wait for more!

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Re: New Fic - At Any Cost. (Updated 6 May)

Postby AntigoneUnbound » Sat May 20, 2006 7:55 pm

OK...I now submit, for your consideration, feedback for the last three updates (4/21, 5/1, and 5/19). Ye gods, what twists and turns...

First of all, I remember when Thatcher (am I remembering his name correctly?) followed Timothy into the kitchen. You made mention of his red-gold hair and I took this faint notice of it...and now I think: red-gold hair! Duh! Actually, not a true "duh," b/c it was subtle but I loved looking back on it and seeing it in this new light. I love the fact that he's so poised w/ everyone else, but when Moms are there, he loses his equilibrium. I mean, really--who can lie to their mother without feeling at least a twinge of angst? Imagine lying to two mothers. I was struck, though, by his words after they left:
"Every time, it hurts."
Is the pain about withholding his identity? Fear of what he thinks might happen? That was a nice twist; a poignant, lingering note.

I think the following may have summed up things quite perfectly:
"We don't even really know who the bad guy is."
Indeed, and I think this whole story is, among other things, testimony to the complexities of morality. Nameless is so monstrously evil--except, he isn't. Aaron was just an innocent victim--except, in vampire form we saw his pettiness, his willingness to kill. There was at least some part of him remaining, and it was gleeful at the thought of killing. Wouldn't it be nice of the Bad Guys wore appropriate attire? It takes so much energy to see things in their full form and nuance. Dammit.

Go Tara, figuring out the 12/14/99 date! But why exactly did Nate link his fate to theirs? Was his vision linked somehow to their lives; the role they would play in some apocalypse? I love that even as you give answers to some questions, others emerge.

Of course, I had to crack up at the Freddie Prinze dream. A delightful touch, that, to smack realities up against each other.

Katie remains such an elusive character. I have this feeling that she could veer off in so many directions, depending on who and what enters her life. She's clearly a quick one ("If you can't hide, fight") and very resourceful. Now I'm remembering the girl who saw Nameless in the park...what was her name? Fanny? Feels like an "F" name. Anyway, she would be an interesting little friend for Katie to have.

And now, though I have no experience in jurisprudence, I would like to suggest that Cooper's fate at Nameless' hands be standard fare for all rapists and would-be rapists. Thank you. That was a nice little moment, and it gave Nate a chance to reflect on the morality of it all: he's disinclined to go after innocent humans. You know, part of what fascinates me about him is that he grants himself absolutely no quarter on the moral self-evaluation scale. He constantly describes himself as evil, reprehensible, beyond love and redemption. And yet his actions, for all their gruesomeness, have thus far been in service of protecting our girls. I forget who said it, but one of my favorite quotes goes thusly: "The essence of immorality is the tendency to make an exception of oneself." Other people are immoral; I simply made a bad decision, or was pressured into it, or didn't know what I was doing; at most, I did a bad thing but it was out of character. Nameless, though--he brands himself evil, and does it with clocklike regularity. Oh, and may I add that I loved this description of when Cooper laid eyes on him:
he was "a grinning horror."
That was wonderful.

I loved the "Pull Back the Curtain" spell, and you described that vague, blurry space really well. The armor image was compelling, too. They're learning that he really is trying to protect them; they just have no idea why.

Now--how do I order this "Lesbian Witches Gone Wild" DVD you mentioned? Oh, wait--I starred in one of those. Never mind. And did I totally see a pun where none existed when, after they've flushed his devices down the toilet, he sits down on a stool? Because if I did, I'm a little embarrassed but if that was intentional then count me in on it!

The onslaught of attackers was (no surprise) well and graphically done. Nameless is so incredibly comfortable in his capacity to wreak carnage. When he feels justified, he will slice and dice and perpetrate unimaginable horrors upon those who challenge or threaten him. And here we have Willow and Tara and even Buffy, the last of whom--despite her incredible strength, rarely seems to take visceral pleasure in the blood around her. I think she definitely thrills to the fight, but the actual blood and guts and charred remains--I don't sense that she thrives on that. Nameless, though, seems to draw actual strength from it. Willow and Tara, meanwhile, attempt to do their magic as peacefully as possible. Fascinating interchanges. Ditto the reflections on Buffy's black-and-white thinking. There are so many intriguing glimpses of character here, Paul, and you come up with creative ways to do them.

And that brings me to this last line, after so many today: I love this story.

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Re: New Fic - At Any Cost. (Updated 20 May)

Postby Darth Pacula » Mon May 22, 2006 2:19 am

G'day all. Belated though it might be, here comes feedback responses.

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WillowRulez - Glad you liked that Willow's presence acted as boon to concentration. I could have had her be a distraction, but it frequently seems the case that the people we love can calm us just as easily as they can excite us. Or so I've heard. :p

Good to know you liked the drunk toss line. It was inspired by an episode of the Simpsons, where they had a bartender competition in which one of the events was a drunk toss.

I've noticed a lot of Kitten's seem to get steamed with Buffy and Spike. Personally, I like them all, but I can see how the focus on the show could bug some people.

Cheers!

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Roger Doger - G'day, Roger Doder. Okay, confession time. Every time I see your screen name, for some reason I hear the battledroids from The Phantom Menace going roger roger. Cracks me up, every time. :grin Small minds are easily amused, I suppose. :p

Ah the benefits of slayer hearing and slayer mouth.


Ah yes, but it's not always a plus, is it. I can think of some occasions where enhanced senses might be the source of some embarressment. :devil

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gabbyx19 - G'day, Gabby.

I like how the wannabe rapist got his. Sorry, I'm not a big fan of rape. But I'm not a big fan of murder either.


Nor should you be, either way. Rape ... well, its one of those things that really incense me, hence the fact that anyone who commits, or trys to commit, such a heinous act in anything I write will meet a very sticky end. I tend towards the decidedly draconian when it comes to things like that.

The late lamented Cooper was included for a reason though. I wanted to have Nameless kill someone who wasn't a demon, it illustrate that no matter how much he protects our favorite ladies, he is not by any measure a good person.

But I also didn't want to have him kill a total innocent either. Hence Cooper, who I was fairly sure wouldn't evoke much sympathy.

Cheers, and thanks for reading!

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Lonewolf22 - G'day, Lonewolf and welcome to the wild ride! :wave Apologies are hardly needed though. Heck, I'm still chipping my way through the Sidestep Chronicles, not to mention the literal sea of other stuff I want to read. And that's not including the piles of books I have lying around. :grin

Ahh, the protection spell. Well, I'm not about to just up and tell you, now am I? I have a reputation of being an evil little bastard to live up to, you know. That being said, consider this, if you will (and even if you aren't): Has Nameless ever specifically said he wants them to suffer? ... Oh wait, he did, didn't he? Whoops. :grin But seriously, you shouldn't take anything he says to other people at face value, because you never know when Nameless is trying to manipulate someone.

Timothy is a similar situation. I can't really give away the plot yet, but we are nearing the sharp end of the story. I'm not totally sure how much more there is, but we're getting there, bit by bit.

Cheers!

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caz - G'day, Caz. :wave right back atcha! Good luck with Sorrento, and enjoy the kid-less-ness (:wtf :p) while you can.

I'm starting to feel sorry for Nameless although I don't condone his methods of healing himself.


Aww! I'm sure Nameless himself would tell you to take your pity and stuff it. :grin But on a more serious side, you aren't meant to condone his actions. He sure as hell doesn't, in his more introspective moments. As I made mention above, Cooper and his possibly(?) deserved fate were added to illustrate that Nameless isn't what you would call a good guy in the normal sense.

Regarding Katie, I wouldn't say she has the 'Scooby gene', because they usually run towards the sound of screaming etc. If you ask me, Katie's response was a bit more intelligent. :grin

To be honest, Willow didn't really know, per say. It was more of a concrete belief, a maternal instinct if you will. (If you won't .... well, I'll start blubbering, and you can come up with your own metaphor :p) But yeah, the baby's fine.

Woo hoo! Someone was surprised that it was a protection spell. That's good to hear!

Cheers, mate!

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Dianneswillowtree - G'day, Dianneswillowtree.

Deep? This pile of garbled rubbish? :p Thanks!

Oh, and was that a good 'wow', or an 'oh-my-god-this-guys-a-raving-lunatic wow'? :grin

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a willow angel - G'day, Nat.

Glad you liked the bedroom scene. I've always found it interesting how much the simple presence of the people who mean something to us can make us feel better. I know when I was in hospital with a cornucopia of tubes and other odds and ends sticking out of me having my parents visit always made me feel better for a bit.

Dawn was often portrayed as annoying on the show, but in her defence she was a teenager. Aren't they supposed to be annoying and self-involved, or is that just me? :grin (Apologies to any teen-aged readers. I just couldn't help myself. :devil)

Cheers, Nat.

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Useful_Oxymoron - G'day, UO. :lol about the quote. Don't you just hate it when that happens?

Well, personally, I can watch every single episode of Buffy and Angel from beginning to end, but that's just me. I'd be honored if you read this to top off your own Buffy marathons though.

Incidentaly, did you mean you watch Xena, or Hercules? Because while I have all of Xena on DVD (even if I haven't watched them all yet :paranoid ) I haven't really seen Hercules available down here in Oz.

Nice thoughts on the reaction of 'evil masterminds' to what you described as base thuggery. Good point that. I mean, you don't see many Bond villains doing the the ol' rape and pillage scene, do you?

Cue for entrance, stage left. : Mission Impossible Dawn. Hey, she's much cuter than that scientology prat Tom Cruise.


:lol Hah! You'd get on with my uncle. He doesn't much like Tom Cruise. He likes some of his movies, but that's in spite of 'He who won't come out of the closet', not because of him. My uncle always reckons you can improve Tom Cruise movies by having him dead at the end. :lol

With all these mentions of melting hearts, I'm surprised the World Health Organization isn't after me. :grin

Actually, that's not so strange. I imagine magic works according to a logical system. You perform action A to get response B. You combine element X and Y to receive response Z and all that. Most of the magic systems I've worked with in RPGing follows a very specific set of rules, which is ironic considering magic is supposed to infuse the feeling that anything is possible.


Good point here. Magic as portrayed on the show often seems to follow a set pattern, a recipe if you will, with the ritual magic anyway. My point was that there is no scientific correlation between the actions of the ritual and the effects they cause. Scientifically, it shouldn't work, or so I imagine.

If you want a more free form magic system, have a look at White Wolf's Mage: The Reckoning etc line. It's been a while since I looked at the book, but from what I remember a lot of that was done on the spot, rather than using a more rigid rule system.

Please do update soon. My heart needs more melting soon.


Check! One heart melting virus coming up, once I clean the bathtub. My homemade cholera was a right balls-up. :grin

Cheers, mate!

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mole - G'day, Michelle.

Work and school does have a tendency to sneak up on you, I know that. Even if I've been out of Uni for nearly a decade now, I haven't quite forgotten that yet. :grin So thanks for making time for my inconsequential little story.

Yep, I get your meaning about Nameless. It's good to know that even when he's being cruel, violent and just basically a right bastard, I can still evoke a little sympathy for him.

I shouldn't worry about Tara. This here Kitten knows the rules, and has every intention of following them. :grin. That being said, if he does hurt Tara, I would expect nothing less than righteous anger at Nameless.

Cheers, mate!

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viximon - G'day, Vix!

HEEEEEEEEEEELLO there Paul!!


:grin Okay then, you just gave me a flashback to Jack Nicholson in 'The Shining'. :lol

Nice avatar, Vix. I wouldn't worry about any similarity to mine, just go with what looks good for you. I've actually been considering changing mine.

Youre again twisting everything so no one know what to think about the stuff anymore.


Hah! Mission successful then. :devil If I can keep at least some people guessing right up until the end, I'll be one happy little evil dude.

Yeah, sorry about the delay. I'm fine, it's just my writing schedule seems to be running late a lot these days. What was once weekly has become more frequently fortnightly. I doesn't help that each update seems to get longer though. :grin.

Cheers!

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Okay, Kittens. That will have to do for now. I'll try to get onto the rest tomorrow, depending on how long I have to spend at the ENT clinic for my annual checkup.

After all, there's still a lot to cover. And yes, Mary, I am looking at you, little missy. :grin Welcome back, by the way.

P.S. According to my brother, I'm wearing the evilest little grin as I write this. :devil
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Re: New Fic - At Any Cost. (Updated 20 May)

Postby Darth Pacula » Tue May 23, 2006 1:25 am

As sands fall through the hourglass, so too do the replies continue ...

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WillowRulez - G'day, WillowRulez.

Ah... it's (almost) the end of the world and Willow is worried about that. How adorable :p


Well, wouldn't you? :grin Until the whole end-of-the-world type stuff crashed down again, at least.

I think in any story that has one of the girls pregnant the choice to make Tara the one actually carrying the child is due to her personality. She often comes off as more centered and calm, sort of projecting a more motherly vibe, probably due to her mothering of the other characters. Then, from a physical (if outdated) viewpoint, she has the stereotypical 'child-bearing' hips, which might be a subconscious deciding factor at the very least.

Willow would indeed be just as capable a mother, but due to her ... how shall I put it ... tendency to become flustered, in my mind it provides greater opportunities for comedy. Plus, the story needed it to be her who got pregnant.

Anya is definitely a fun character. The scene with her slapping Willow to test the efficiency of the spell was one of those that had been knocking around inside my head for a while now, so it's good to know I wasn't wasting that chuck of memory.

Buffy ... well, I can't blame her for the way she's acting, because I'm the one making her do it. :grin To be fair, she hasn't got the whole story, and she has to act on what she does know, or at least what she thinks she knows.

Interrupting the spell was just her instincts kicking in, which is understandable. She'd just woken up, and Nameless does set off her spider sense. From the scoobies point of view, flushing the camera's was a good idea. As for the demon ... well, would you buy force of habit? :grin

And those damn demons! They interrupted the smoochies!


Yes they did. And they quite thoroughly paid for it too, wouldn't you say?

Thanks for reading. Cheers!

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Lonewolf22 - G'day, Lonewolf22.

Um, little clarification here. It was my brother's birthday, not mine. That's the second last day of the year.

Glad you liked Willow's defense, and the "don't ever change" line.

Yes, I have to imagine the expression on Nameless' face would have been priceless. He might like to think he's all Mr Big Bad Magic Dude, but it's good for him to have someone tweak his tail on occasion.

Well, I could have had Tara slap Anya right back, but I don't think it really would have been in character. So you'll have to make do with some angry glaring.

Nameless does have a reason for protecting all of the scoobies; he's not just doing it on a maniacal whim. In regards to Buffy, it could be argued that she is seeing the big picture. Nameless is a self-avowed murderer and a definite wild card. He might be helping them at the moment, but Buffy has to worry what his large scale plan is.

Cheers!

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AntigoneUnbound - :applause :banana :eatme Well, if it isn't my favorite tall lesbian with a great rack! Welcome back, stranger! :wave It's bloody good to see you back!

Coffee sacrifice? Blimey, that is a complement! :p

Yep, Nameless can be liked for what appears to be an iron determination to keep Willow safe, or at least alive. He's not above manipulating her, or inflicting minor mental anguish though. So while it does count for something, does it count for enough? :hmm

As for the self-mockery, well it just does seem to fit his character. Plus, it's fun to write.

So, I illicited an audible shout, did I? Cool! :kdevil But yeah, I think a lot of Kittens have a desire to put our girls up on a pedestal, or Tara at the very least. But no-one is perfect, and no-one ever will be. We're all prone to buggering everything up now and then, no matter who we are. And then you have some people (aka Dubya) who bugger up everything they touch. A walking pandemic of ineptitude, if you will.

As for Timothy, well ... rather obviously you know how that turned out. As for his musing upon life in SunnyD', well, it should be obvious that he always knew more than he was letting on. But even the densest denizen of the town must be aware of the general air of weirdness, even it they try to ignore it. For example, remember Larry's comment in season 3 (I think) that if they can 'avoid so many unexplained deaths' it will be their year for whatever sporting team it was to rule.

And now ... on to your next post.

Will I do a sudden 180 on Timothy, and make him the villain of the piece, even above Nameless' ambivalent and unpredictable malice? Would I do such a thing, Mary? :hmm But I will agree with you, it's fun when the meek, mild and unassuming turn out to be anything but. See Doc for example. He turned out to be so much more that one ever expected. (As an aside, didn't you just cackle at his demise?)

Yes...yes it is. But we keep chasing it...


The sad thing is that even when we catch it, it's not always what we thought we were chasing in the first place.

I was wondering if anyone was going to pick up on that tear of Mrs Creedy's. I purposefully made her a vile harridan, yet if I can summon up even the faintest hint of potential pity, then I must be doing something right. I guess it was bound to happen some time, right? Law of averages and suchlike? :grin

I cracked up, and then down, and a little to the side as well.
:lol :rofl You see, that's the thing I missed most about your feedback, Mary. You just crack me up. :grin

However, I must nitpick. Bloody poncy-haired David Beckham isn't a rugby player, he's a football, or soccer player. Even if he is a colossal knob. :p

Ever onwards ...

And now, a few words on the 3/17 update, brought to you by International Foods.


:hmm International Foods, huh? Is that something to do with W&T's catering company whose name escapes me at present?

We're so remarkable adept at destroying each other without any other-worldly help at all.


Tell me about it; just look at the way the worlds going right now. And yet, I still remain optimistic. What do you reckon, Mary? Is that a sign of a delusional personality? :grin

Many thanks about your thoughts on Nameless as a lens on the scoobies reactions. I'm not liking the sound of those implants in your head though. Bloody CIA! Technically speaking, they aren't even supposed to operate inside US borders. Maybe your implants are by the NSA, while mine are by the CIA? What do you think?

That was a nice comparison between lobotomies and what Nameless did to Mrs Creedy. It is sort of similar to what he's done, effectively excising the less pleasant portions of her personality, and burying subliminal orders into her subconscious. Sort of a Manchurian Candidate situation.

Lickspittle's dialog is an interesting task. Once I know what I want to have him say, I basically have to translate it into his own personal dialect. I have to imagine that it isn't any easier task to understand him at times either.

The 'inbred enough to be an aristocrat' is one of my favorite lines too. But I don't imagine that I need to go into your PM, since your question has already been answered regarding Timothy, but yes, there was a name in the book.

I think I might have to leave it here for the time being, and pick it up tomorrow. I've got the day off, even though a far chunk of it is going to be spent at the dentist.

Oh, and I know you said:

when you're posting replies to feedback, you can just give a "Thanks, Mary!" I know I'm leaving months' worth of feedback here.


To which I reply, no freakin' way! This is too much fun!

Cheers, Mary.
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