FIC: Finding Me AU

[witchbitchwillow]

yes whatever you say aly :-s

*thats me as a vampire im so evil and skanky and i think im kinda gay*

*no candles? well i brought one its extra flamey!*

[spazz07]

A little angst never killed anyone right. right. I'm sure our girls will come out of this closer than ever before. Love how you got them together and lets hope we can see a more trusting Willow in the future although i totally felt for her when Tara was going behind her back even if it was for a suprise.



Anyhowz loving this fic so keep up the great work and update soon please.



Cheers

Nath

If life was meant to be a bed of daisy's we'd have chicken crap thown on us all the time.

[Kieli]

I agree Cliffhanger queen, NOT FUN! Here I am tearing my hair out over this. there had BEST be an update soon, missy!

Love is tricky. It is never mundane or daily. You can never get used to it. You have to walk with it, then let it walk with you. You can never balk. It moves you like the tide. It takes you out to sea then lays you on the beach again. Today's struggling pain is the foundation for a certain stride through the heavens. You can run from it but you can never say no. It includes everyone."--Amy Tan "The Hundred Secret Senses"

[The Rose24]

Yay. Time for W/T to talk.

Tara: My heart doesn't stutter.

Tara: Willow, I got so lost.
Willow: I found you. I will always find you.

Willow: Hi, um Tara. I was wondering maybe you want to go out some time for coffee? food? Kisses and gay love?

[SlayerTazz]

I love this fic - but OMG that was just a mean place to leave it...sheesh...man...how to fill the time til the next update...



Oh look computers - wonder what this button does....

A dream is a wish the heart makes.

Willow: "You had two eggs, sunny-side-up. I remember because they were wiggling at me like little boobs."

Tara: "Sassy Eggs."

[Loco2]

Ally? i do believe i am owed an update.



*drums fingers impatiently*



steph

"Dr. Becker, have you seen the skeleton?" "What do you think I am, a skeleton thief? You want to search me?!"
"Who sponsered career day this year, The Brittish Soccer Fan Association?!" - Xander - What's My Line?
"We'll all be a lot happier without the constant whining....Mom, Buffy, Tara, Waah" - DMW to Dawn

[ally02]

Steph - Sorry, I know that I promised updateness 2day but I am hungover. I will write one at work when I am sitting for 5 hours doing NOTHING!! lol Well actually thats pretty good - getting paid for doing nothing!!



Nath - Yep a little angst never killed anyone...unless its in the story of course. Phew not being called evil for once. Very glad your loving this fic and update 2moro!



Kieli - He he he, cliffhanger queen is SO fun! More 2moro so you can stop tearing ur hair out! lol



The Rose24 - Yep, it will be a BIG talk. Not actually 100% sure how its going to go...but im sure it will go somewhere.



SlayerTazz - Very glad you love this fic and I know I am so mean he he he! Argh, dont press the button it might be self destruct...you know if it was like a super computer *cough*



More tommorow everyone, thanks for ur replies!

love Aly xxxxxxxx

You cannot have more catnip! You have a catnip problem!

[Jennpurr]

Um... OKAY... I held out as long as I could.



Aly, , you and your cliffhangers.



That is so not fair!!



Tomorrow, you said? I'll be here!



Jen

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"Alyson Hannigan is a frickin' amazing kisser."Amber Benson

[Grimaldi]

loved the last part looking forward to the talk between W/T, hopefully Tara can help Willow work on her trust issues, otherwise Willow is going to lose Tara

Dude, we're surrounded by perverts!

Worm, are you ready to die in the cleansing apocalypse?

Its not my fault that you're a little geek with no sense of humor

[ally02]

Okey dokey here's the next part. Thanks for those replies and get those darn hammer smilies away from me...argh! Urm anyway, here you go.



Title – Finding Me Part 2



Chap – 8/?



Author name - Alyson Walker or Ally02



Email Address – alysonwalker@hotmail.com



Website – Plenty of Magic: www.plentyofmagic.cjb.net



Rating - PG-15



Disclaimer – No spoilers unless Buffy goes really wacky and back in time! Some guy called Joss owns all the characters.



Feedback- Yes please! Don’t make me beg! Ok, I’m begging!



Summary- This is set in an alternate universe where Willow ended up moving away and meeting Tara. Now Tara has moved to Sunnydale with Willow.



Notes- I have a vague idea of where I am going with this story, but it may suck. I’m just going to see where it goes and hope for the best lol. Also finding it hard to update quickly because of mountains of Phsyc and English coursework. Thoughts are in << >> Another thing, this is kind of a long chapter.



Willow and Tara stood for a few more awkward moments until Tara finally spoke, “So, um you wanna come in?”



“Yeah that would be great.”



Tara stood to the side to allow Willow to enter. Willow awkwardly stepped in and sat down in the living room. Tara sat opposite her and nervously twisted her fingers in her hand. Neither of them spoke for a few moments. Willow opened her mouth to speak at the same time as Tara, “Sorry you go first.” Willow said apologetically.



Tara sighed, “Will why are you here?”



Willow looked confused, “What do you mean? I’m here because we have stuff to sort out.”



“There’s nothing to sort out,” Tara said firmly, “We’ve been here before.



“I know, but I thought it was like what I’d seen with Oz. It looked pretty conspicuous. If you were me you might have thought the same.”



“No, because I trust you unconditionally.”



“Tara I trust you I do. Please don’t give up on us. Okay we have a problem I get that. We can sort it out together. What we have, you can’t just throw it away,” both Willow and Tara were in tears.



“Willow, its hurts to much to be with you, knowing you don’t trust me.”



“Tara I trust you.” Tara shook her head and stood up to leave. Willow took hold of her hand and pulled her back, “Tara, baby please. I’ve never met anyone like you. I’ll never meet anyone like you. I loved you from the first moment I saw you. You’re my soul mate.”



“Willow its all words, it doesn’t mean anything to you.” Tara shook her hand from Willow’s grasp and ran out of the house sobbing. Willow moved into the living room and sat in shock. << I can’t loose Tara. >>



* * * * * *



“I’m back!” Buffy shouted, “Tara?” Buffy moved into the living room and saw Willow sitting on her sofa in tears. Buffy quickly moved over to her friend and sat next to her. Willow pulled her into a tight hug and sobbed into her shoulder, “Wills, what’s wrong?” Buffy asked concerned.



Willow pulled back from Buffy and tried to calm herself, “Tara, she broke up with me, I think she means it this time Buffy, I cant loose her.” This sent the redhead into a fresh bout of tears.



“Shhh, its okay. Where is she?”



“I don’t know, she ran out of the house.”



“Lets get you calmed down.” Buffy reached over for some tissues and offered them to her friend.



* * * * *



Willow was making her way back to the dorm after an excruciatingly long talk with Buffy. Once inside she noticed a letter that had been pushed under the door. She picked it up and sat on the edge of the bed to read it, dreading what was inside.



Willow,



I don’t really know what to say. I have found somewhere to stay. I need some time. Know that I love you, I always will.



Tara



Willow placed the tear stained letter on her bad and lay back to cry herself to sleep.



* * * * *



2 weeks later



“Open it!” Buffy said impatiently.



It was Willow’s birthday and it couldn’t have sucked anymore. But her friends had gone to a lot of trouble even though they knew that without Tara, Willow could never be completely happy. Willow smiled at Buffy and opened the clumsily wrapped present. She opened the small box inside and took out a beautiful gold bracelet. Willow read the inscription;



To our loyal Scooby, we love you.



Willow felt her eyes well up and she pulled Buffy into a tight hug, “Thank you so much.”



“Glad you like it, because I had to put up with weird looks from the jeweller when I asked to get that inscribed on it!”



“So, more frosty nectar?” Xander asked.



Willow looked at her watch, “Actually guys I think I’ll head home.”



“What? But it’s early yet!” Xander exclaimed.



“I know but I’m pretty beat.” Willow offered and apologetic smile.



“Well the birthday girl has spoken.” Buffy added.



Willow hugged all her friends goodbye and Buffy led her to the door, “Thanks for tonight guys, it was really great.” Willow called back.



“Why lie? We all know it sucked because you lost your orgasm friend.” Anya said.



“Ahn!” Xander shouted.



Willow felt a pang at the mention of Tara but put on a brave face, “I’ll see you later guys.” Willow left and as soon as the door shut behind her she sighed audibly. << Being brave is hard work! >>



* * * * * *



Willow wearily placed her key in her door. She was surprised to find it unlocked. << Okay that’s not good. >>



“Hello?” she asked before flicking on the light. She nearly passed out when she saw Tara sitting on her bed, “Tara?” Tara stood and moved to stand in front of Willow.



“What are..” Willow started.



“Wait, I h-have a speech and I n-need to get it out.”



“Urm okay.”



“Okay, I was stupid. I was stupid to even think about giving up what we have. I’m going crazy without you. I understand if you hate me for leaving and we have some stuff to sort out but I…” Tara was cut off by a demanding mouth on hers.



Willow pulled back, “I love you so much.”



Tara sighed and enveloped Willow in a tight embrace. They both began to cry softly into each other’s shoulders.



They pulled back and stared into each other’s eyes, “Can’t have you crying on your birthday.” Tara said.



“It’s good crying though.” Willow added.



After a few more moments of being lost in each other’s eyes, Tara said softly, “So do you want your present?” she then smiled cheekily at Willow.



Willow grinned back, “Yes ma’am!” she said before kicking the door shut and pulling Tara into a passionate kiss.



TBC

You cannot have more catnip! You have a catnip problem!

[LeatherQueen]

Nice to see them back together again. And I love cheeky Tara there at the end.

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"But when they're playing your song on the jukebox in Hell, you might as well dance." - K. Simpson


"Futile... like a FOX, baby!" - Tara in The Late Shift by wiccachica

[The Rose24]

*sigh*



Not again

Tara: My heart doesn't stutter.

Tara: Willow, I got so lost.
Willow: I found you. I will always find you.

Willow: Hi, um Tara. I was wondering maybe you want to go out some time for coffee? food? Kisses and gay love?

[xita]

sigh, thank you! For a second I thought we were going to have another cliffhanger with Tara walking out, but she came back!

- - - - - - - - - - - -

Willow: (to Tara) I could heal.

Tara: (to Willow)And we’re gone.

[Jennpurr]

Awwww... but, did you have to go and end it there. At least you ended it with smoochies.



I knew they would work it out. Thank you.



I'll look forward to the update. I want to know what Willow's present is.



Jen

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"Alyson Hannigan is a frickin' amazing kisser."Amber Benson

[fidds]

yay! they're back together

great update



*Hannah*

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I just needed someone to talk to, you were just too busy with yourself, you were never there for me to express how i felt ,i just stuffed it down- *STAIND -FADE*

[Lynz]

Aww shucks! that was reeeally lovely, I sound so stoopid, but all i keep thinking is awwwww! hehe. Yay for the smoochies and patching things up.



seee ya!





Lynz

x x x x

[Lola19]

Yeay they're back together.

Great update Aly.

Looking forward to more!

Love Lola xxx

[spazz07]

Damn i want the exact same present for my birthday and i'm not talking about the braclet as beautiful as that was.

This story so rocks and i'm so glad Willow and Tara patched things up to some extent there at the end. Although i agree that they deffinatley need to talk things through so that we can all be happy.



Thanks for the update Ally hope for more soon.



Cheers

Nath

If life was meant to be a bed of daisy's we'd have chicken crap thown on us all the time.

[Grimaldi]

that was great but why did you have to end at that point, i want to know what the present is

Dude, we're surrounded by perverts!

Worm, are you ready to die in the cleansing apocalypse?

Its not my fault that you're a little geek with no sense of humor

[SlayerTazz]

Great update - glad that they are together - but cliffhanging with smoochies is a bit more acceptable than non-smoochies.



Thanks for the update - can't wait for the next one.

A dream is a wish the heart makes.

Willow: "You had two eggs, sunny-side-up. I remember because they were wiggling at me like little boobs."

Tara: "Sassy Eggs."

[Loco2]

hey hey! here it is, the long awaited update! but 2 weeks? how did i miss 2 weeks? i was only gone a couple days...

and it was a long update, too- not that that is a bad thing cos otherwise it woulda ended very unhappily, im gonna shut up now and leave, but i think what i'm trying to say is, well done.



steph

"Dr. Becker, have you seen the skeleton?" "What do you think I am, a skeleton thief? You want to search me?!"
"Who sponsered career day this year, The Brittish Soccer Fan Association?!" - Xander - What's My Line?
"We'll all be a lot happier without the constant whining....Mom, Buffy, Tara, Waah" - DMW to Dawn

[ally02]

Ellie - Promise there will be more soon. But no more drunken convo's because they lead to awkward convo's and big long talks



The Rose24 - Sorry, more soon though!



Xita - Well I was going to do that but I decided to resist the dark side. Plus its so much better when it ends in smoochies!



Jen - Well I think we can all guess what half the present is the other half will be revealed soon.



Fidds - Yep back without stupid smell Warren men and their evilness!!



Lynz - You dont sound stupid! Have you read some of my insane replies?! Now thats stupid!



Lola - Very glad you liked the update, more soon!



Nath - Ahhh wouldnt we all like that *goes into deep thought* ok im back. Maybe if I'm really good I can get it from santa? There will be talkage and more smoochies and the other half of Willow's bday



Grimaldi - Well i had to keep some of my evilness in tact! lol



SlayerTazz - Glad you liked the update. I wouldnt try real cliffhanging with smoochies cos that could end badly *cough* anyway, more smoochies in the next chap



Steph - You miss one day on this board and u can miss its domination by coffee makers that think or um something...I think I need to shut up and leave too, well not really cos then I wont be able to update!!



Thanks for all ur replies, glad you liked the smoochies, more soon I promise...maybe 2moro cos im on holiday...going to stop rubbing it in as of now!



love Aly xxxx

You cannot have more catnip! You have a catnip problem!

[witchbitchwillow]

yes because i dont think that i could cope with another one of them at the moment. so no alchohol wehn speaking to aly online and that goes for you as well missy okay?



update soon would be very lovely of you



love ellie x x x x

*thats me as a vampire im so evil and skanky and i think im kinda gay*

*no candles? well i brought one its extra flamey!*

[snuggle79]

SO glad, they got back together again! Thanx!

Oh baby, want me to rub your tummy? She likes it when I ... stop explaining things.

Hi, um Tara..how are you? well...I was wondering maybe you want to go out some time...for coffee? food? Kisses and gay love?

[Kieli]

Well thank all the deities in the world that these two have gotten back together. While I don't think they've really resolved anything, at least they can be happy while they work through some issues.



Good stuff!



Toni

Love is tricky. It is never mundane or daily. You can never get used to it. You have to walk with it, then let it walk with you. You can never balk. It moves you like the tide. It takes you out to sea then lays you on the beach again. Today's struggling pain is the foundation for a certain stride through the heavens. You can run from it but you can never say no. It includes everyone."--Amy Tan "The Hundred Secret Senses"

[SlayerTazz]

Quote:

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SlayerTazz - Glad you liked the update. I wouldnt try real cliffhanging with smoochies cos that could end badly *cough* anyway, more smoochies in the next chap

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I don't know Aly - sounds like it could have potential for some fun -- smoochies and cliffhanging...

A dream is a wish the heart makes.

Willow: "You had two eggs, sunny-side-up. I remember because they were wiggling at me like little boobs."

Tara: "Sassy Eggs."

[Loco2]

dammit, i knew my cat was up to something! and the fish population is going up, too (my fish eggs hatched) that's one step closer to world domination! crap, i'm never gonna leave for one single day again! (and neither should you, 'cos you really wont be able to update, and that would be a huge disappointment to like, a billion kittens....ok, so maybe i exaggerate)



steph

"Dr. Becker, have you seen the skeleton?" "What do you think I am, a skeleton thief? You want to search me?!"
"Who sponsered career day this year, The Brittish Soccer Fan Association?!" - Xander - What's My Line?
"We'll all be a lot happier without the constant whining....Mom, Buffy, Tara, Waah" - DMW to Dawn

[pikescoob]

Depressy music and moping...I know those times well...heh. I'm glad they worked things out.



--Michelle

[ally02]

Ok ok a very slow update but it here! lol glad everyone liked the last chap with the reconcilliation. No cliffhanging here you will be glad to know! But smoochies of course. Ok im giving stuff away...here's the next part



Title – Finding Me Part 2



Chap – 9/?



Author name - Alyson Walker or Ally02



Email Address – alysonwalker@hotmail.com



Website – Plenty of Magic: www.plentyofmagic.cjb.net



Rating - PG-15



Disclaimer – No spoilers unless Buffy goes really wacky and back in time! Some guy called Joss owns all the characters.



Feedback- Yes please! Don’t make me beg! Ok, I’m begging!



Summary- This is set in an alternate universe where Willow ended up moving away and meeting Tara. Now Tara has moved to Sunnydale with Willow.



Notes- I have a vague idea of where I am going with this story, but it may suck. I’m just going to see where it goes and hope for the best lol. Also finding it hard to update quickly because of mountains of Phsyc and English coursework. Thoughts are in << >> Another thing, this is kind of a long chapter.



Tara woke early; yawning sleepily. She stretched a little then realised that someone was pressed up firmly against her. She smiled and turned to see her lover snuggled up to her possessively. Tara knew that she and Willow had a lot to discuss. They had been through some rough patches but thankfully always ended up together. << That’s the way it should be >>



Tara moved some stray locks of hair away from Willow’s beautiful face. Willow stirred at the touch and gradually opened her eyes to see Tara gazing down at her. Willow smiled up at her girlfriend. She still felt guilty for ever doubting Tara and knew she was the luckiest person alive to have a wonderful person like Tara in her life.



They sat for a few more moments, simply staring at one another, until Tara spoke softly, “What you thinking about?”



“Hmm, just wondering when I got to be the luckiest person alive.”



Tara blushed and Willow moved further up the bed to kiss her adorable girlfriend. Tara moaned and opened her mouth to invite Willow to deepen the kiss, but instead Willow pulled back.



Tara frowned, “Is something wrong?”



“No nothings wrong it’s just…do you think we should talk some more?”



Tara sighed, “Yeah we need to talk more. But the most important thing is that we’re together now…. nothing is going to ever split us up ever, ever, ever again!”



Willow smiled at Tara’s affirmity, “Definitely not.” Willow smiled and kissed her girlfriend passionately. Talking could wait!



* * * * * *



Buffy worriedly dialled her best friend’s number. Every time she phoned her friend lately it ended up with Willow crying her heart out again. << Maybe the birthday cheer helped her move on. >> Buffy rolled her eyes at her own naivity. << Like one birthday party is enough to get over your soul mate! >> Buffy felt a pang in her stomach as she remembered her own soul mate and how long it had taken to get over him. << Okay Buffy now is not the time for self-pity. >>



Buffy heard the phone ring then a breathless Willow answer the phone, “Hello?”



“Will’s? Are you okay?”



“Um yeah more than okay, wonderful in fact…” Willow struggled to talk as she felt Tara kiss and nip her neck.



Buffy frowned, “You sound like your having an asthma attack or something.”



“Umm no I’m not…I’m…oh…nope…asthma…no.” Willow made a half hearted attempt at shoeing Tara away, but she was enjoying the attention far too much to care.



“Will answer me honestly. Have you been drinking?”



“No!” Willow’s sharp tone made Tara jump a little, “Oh sorry baby.” Willow forgot that Buffy could still hear her.



“Will who’s there? Oh god, you’re not rebounding with someone?” Buffy asked shocked.



“God no! Its Tara, we got back together.”



“What, when, why didn’t you tell me?!”



“Last night when I came home, and I didn’t tell you because we were…playing cards all night.”



“Hmm yeah playing cards. Well I’ll leave you to your…cards then.”



“Yeah, were moving onto Monopoly next and you know how long you can play that.”



“Yeah Will thanks for those mental images.”



Willow smiled, “See ya later Buff.”



“Bye.”



Willow put down the phone then turned to look at her girlfriend who was grinning wickedly, “Someone’s been naughty!”



Tara screamed when Willow launched herself on top of Tara and started a huge ticklefest, “Say sorry!”



“Never!” Tara said through giggles.



Gradually the tickling subsided and Willow sat looking down at Tara, “What?” Tara asked.



“I love you.” Willow said, her eyes full of love. Tara’s heart warmed at the sight of this beautiful woman who looked at her with such adoration. She would never leave Willow ever again. It had drove her insane after two weeks!



Tara decided not to think about the past for the time being, “Come here!” she said before pulling Willow down to kiss her vigorously.



TBC

You cannot have more catnip! You have a catnip problem!

[snuggle79]

yeah, it was short, but it was very nice! More smoochies!

Oh baby, want me to rub your tummy? She likes it when I ... stop explaining things.

Hi, um Tara..how are you? well...I was wondering maybe you want to go out some time...for coffee? food? Kisses and gay love?