First Fic: Beholden (AU)

[TemperedCynic]

Mai, your w/t characterizations are spot-on, and your fluid writing style kept me hooked until I caught up. Falling for a "straight girl" and your best friend must be so difficult, and Willow tries to reconcile her feelings by running from them. Tara realizes how deeply she cares for Willow with each napkin scribble. And darn it, I like Buffy! She has her foibles, heck who doesn't, but here her tenacity saved the day. Both girls so confused, sigh.

Quote:

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“Lick the sugar off the floorboards?”

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That, my dear, is positively naughty! More please!

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More than any other time in history, mankind faces a crossroads. One path leads to despair and utter hopelessness. The other, to total extinction. Let us pray we have the wisdom to choose correctly. Woody Allen (1935 - )

[Red Jassy]

hi Cinderlust,




I was wondering... when are you going to post an update soon???

I'm beginning to go crazy over here!!!

I'm afraid your not going to continue this cool fic goin...

Your humble reader,


Red Jassy

[Eternal Phoenix]

Hey Cinderlust,

i have to agree with Red Jassy, we need an update!!

give this poor girl a break! pleeaaassseeee! pretty please?!

i love this fic, it is one of my favourites!

keep it up!



Phoenix

[pioggia acida]

one of the other kittens told me about this fic and after reading it i can tell why...



it is really great...



looking forward to another update soon... please



oh and enough with the cliffhangers!!!!

if no-one wants to play with me then i am going to go to my room and play with myself... play by myself, i meant play by myself

[bindingwiccan]

heh luvin the fic kitten friend pwease update soon? we love you!





-bindingwiccan

[justin]

This is a really good story. You really make it easy to get into the heads of the characters and understand what they're feeling.

I understand, you should be with the person you l-love


I am

[StRaWbErRy]

woo and hoo! another dose of update-y goodness! i love this fic. i really feel like i'm feeling what the characters are feeling. and its so cute. yay.







can't wait for another update! (but there's like, no rush.)



- Erin

[Kiwigrrrl]

This fic rocks!!!



I've just read it from the start and I am hanging out for the next chapter already.



Update soon please?



- Skye.

[BFR from Paris]

Okay, I need an update like right now!!!

This suspense is killing me!



Please?



Christine

[hondosfirst]

Howdy.

I have to say that I am never disappointed with the talent on this board. When I read a first time fic like this I always appriciate how lucky we are to have people like you sharing there talents with us. .

I sure do hope we get an update soon on this wonderful fic. .Thanks and please...Hurry .

Tex Rose

[bluewillowwitch]

Hey,

Just read this fic up til now. I love it! I can't wait to see how and do. Update soon!



bluewillowwitch

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"Fate keeps happening."--Anita Loos

[BigGayBear]

Floods... ya can't leave it for so damn long at floods...



Ok, so I forgot about this fic for a while... and now I've read it again... I want it again... aww, come on... Ya know ya wanna...



Floods *shakes head* FLOODS...

[amberbensontotallyrules4e]

Please please please update soon. I'm dying to know what happens next.

Luv

Rachel

[Red Jassy]

okay i'll beg if i have to... you can't stop there.... and bad me. i forgot about this fic. and you know what.. i read it again and again.. like all of your readers did.. pleaseeeee.... your fic is great.. why not continue
Please
Red Jassy

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Don't you understand? That everything I do, I do for you? Anything that might be special in me...is you.

---GREAT EXPECTATIONS

[Washi]

I must have read this fic about 20 times. It hits me close to home. Please, for all that I hold sacred, an update soon! I beg of you.

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"See? I've mastered this tact crap." Anya in Tears Of The Goddess by Lisa

[cinderlust]

ack! didn't know this unfinished piece was causing such a commotion. sorry kittens, but i've been so busy lately. sigh. but a really good kind of busy though... I do intend to finish this fic, but i need some time... so sorry for the delay kittens. i promise updatey goodness in time. hugs!



Mai

[TareBearRS]

Flood alright haha.



I started this fic but due to being really busy it got away from me, i am really glad i found it again, cause i really like it.



Hope for a lot more soon.



Renate

[visual fallacy]

I went away to uni at the end of april and purposefully didnt check the boad in all that time so I could come back and catch the updates on this absolutely fantastic story... but I have no such luck... please please please can you update on this story sometime in the not too distant future, Its drving me crazy, I neeeeeeeeeeeeeed to know what happens next!!



sorry I went a bit mental then, but this fic's just so damn good!!



Sally xxx

[Twisted Minstrel]

Alright nagsdammit - I haven't read a bit of fan fic in ages, and when I finally do - it hasn't been updated in nearly two months. What is up with that, I ask you??



CL - this is just lovely stuff and you've left off at rather a *ahem* crucial point - would you mind continuing? *taps foots impatiently*



Would a big ol smooch help?







Piper

http://www.geocities.com/dijeratti/index.html

[the vamp nurd]

C'mon!



update.



The vamp nurd "Yes I'm the scary lesbian who sits on your shoulder and pervs over your friends."

Sorry I missed church, I was busy becoming a lesbian and worshiping Satan



Bardlet no #27

[Big Dummy]

I saw this fic on the main page, and thought "man, that title seems familiar". And then I started to read it and was all like"Yay, I remember this, this fic is great and it's been updated". But alas, I was wrong. But, it did make me re-read it and rediscover how good it is, since I had forgotten, so all is not lost.



Anyway, I look forward to whenever you update. That last part is sort've a tough thing to follow. Deciding on how to treat the next stage of their relationship isn't an easy task I imagine. So, take your time. I'm sure others would agree: better a well-thought out update than a hastily thrown together one. No matter how much we suffer in the meantime.

[TareBearRS]

Update soon!!



You can't leave us hanging where you did.. it's just completely unfair!!!



So Tara has found out she wants Willow... i wonder how she will deal with this descovery and if she will act on it.



Renate

[cinderlust]

Hi Kittens,



Sorry this story hasn't been updated in months. I've been all sorts of busy and I gotta admit that I'm not in the same mindset as when I began this fic. I'll try to write out what I initially outlined and update as regularly as possible. Again, apologies for leaving you hanging.



Now on to the update.





Summary and Disclaimers in Part 1



Cliffhangy yet again. Sorry, but I just can't seem to get away from it.

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Life in its simplest is merely a series of movements bringing on an array of consequences.



Tara stood in front of the bathroom mirror staring at her reflection. Inside, a bubble of mirth began to form even as tears blurred her vision.



Willow sat on the floor beside Tara’s bed staring intently at the door the blonde had exited, retracing the morning’s events. I woke up in shock from hitting the floor. Tara didn’t even look at me. She totally avoided eye contact then cleared out of the room. What the hell did I do??? What if I said something in my sleep? Oh god.



Willow shifted from her position and lightly rubbed her back. It would surely bruise, but something else concerned her mind. Something sticky and wet is on my knee. She looked for the source on the floor and found nothing. Something about the smell drew her in for a closer whiff. It was aromatic.



Tara splashed water on her face. She straightened and once more watched for any changes in her demeanor. Water drops clung on her nose, chin and eyebrows. Nothing seemed out of the ordinary. In fact, it could be just any other morning. She scooped more water and splashed one more time. Something was bound to be different.



Where is she? Willow began the dance of worry and confusion as her feet paced the length of the room. Damn it! Why can’t I keep my mouth shut even in my sleep? Did I miss a class in Kindergarten?? I mean, that’s where everyone learned everything, right?



Tara reached for a paper towel, dried her hand, reached for another and patted the wet spots on her face. Each infinitesimal movement was heralded by succinctly worded silent instructions. Dry your hands. Towel. Gotta get some. Reach for it. Yes, yes. Dry. Dry hands. Some small part of her knew she was channeling Rain Man.



Willow sat on the edge of the bed unable to let her muscles relax. She stared at her toes oddly fascinated at how small they looked. Why do I mess everything up every chance I get?



Tara baby-stepped the last few feet to her door. She scrunched her eyebrows wondering why she wasn’t agonized at all. What was all that drama in the bathroom then? Her mind drew a blank. Here she was, standing in front of her door, feeling so… centered. It was as if a part of her had the key to what was going on and it gave her strength to…to what exactly? Still, the answers eluded her conscious mind. Willow’s absence had robbed her of the ability to do anything but feel miserable. But now she was back. Perhaps Willow held the answers… to what? She shook her head. No. Willow is the question.

[hot monkey luv 66]

Thank you for updating after that little break!! yay you! I am really enjoying this fic, and I hope that you continue it & it turns out how u planned! great job!

~**Monkey LUv**



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Tara:"Until I realized that was her yummy face"

WILLOW: "There's something between us. It-it wasn't something I was looking for. It's just powerful."

Edited by: Warduke at: 10/9/03 8:20 pm

[Red Jassy]

aahhh.. update



thank you.. thank you.. thank you for the update...

heheh..

thanks again

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Cause you were made for me/Somehow I'll make you see/How happy you make me


I can't live this life/Without you by my side/I need you to survive
So stay with me/You look in my eyes and I'm screaming inside/that I'm sorry. » Evanescence

[Little M]

Yieeeeeeeeeehaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa its back *dances the dance of joy*



Fantastic that you are considering going on with this fic

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'I go online sometimes, but everyone's spelling is really bad..it's depressing' - Tara



Amber Online www.amberbenson-online.cjb.net

[shuyaku]

I agree - WOO HOO!!! It's back. Thank you for returning to this wonderful fic



-shuyaku

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"Oh God, Willow—you’re giving me the gift of Karen Carpenter. Just when I think I grasp the full extent of your love." - Tara

"Why do birds suddenly appear? It’s because, you are queer…" - Willow (Gods Served and Abandoned by AntigoneUnbound)

[Arwen276]

WOHOO!!





It's back, for real!!! how cool is that???

MORE PLEASE!!!!!



~Arwen

Hear That Baby? You're My Always... Willow

[Sleek]

Ashamed! I am properly ashamed for forgetting the author of this fic. I've read this a while back and I'm so glad it resufaced again. I know how hard it is to continue writing something you've put a long pause button on.



You're writing has a lyrical quality to it. And Willow is just too damn adorable. Thank yyou for continuing.



Sleek

[sabina]

Hi



I read this fic when I was still lurking around and I thought it was great

I'm glad to see that it is back for real



Update soon?

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"I know I was born and I know that I'll die.

The in between is mine.

I am mine!" - Pearl Jam