poems

[angel of salvation]

wow....these are great. Three songs, yay! The first two were my fav's. I could play them out in my head to my own lil tune Write more soon please!



Jess xxx

'You're my angel of salvation, and hope, and strength...your my multi-angel'-Jay (My baby)

"Denial, Party of one, You're table's ready"-Spud

]|My Anime Site|[

[Renee85]

Hey, I’m glad things are going great for you and good luck with the songs and future songs. As far as this update, I’ve just finished reading it and all I can is wow, three little letters yet it pretty much explains how I feel about what you’ve written down. I’m glad too that you decided to share these on the board, there will definitely be some happy reading from me. I hope to read more!

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"For it was not into my ear you whispered, but into my heart. It was not my lips you kissed, but my soul." -Judy Garland

"Live as if you were to die tomorrow. Learn as if you were to live forever." -Mahatma Gandhi

[SJ]

Great songs

[mocha fiend 22]

I would like to thank you all for leaving me some feed back. This has inspired me to write even more. Now all I have to do is find a good Drummer. LOL Anyway here is more for you all to read.



~ To fall ~

Until I leave this earth

On my dying day

I will praise you

In every way

I might have fallen

Oh so many times before

Just to know what it’s like

To fall



Fallen in love with those eyes

Fallen to the ground when I said Good Bye

Fallen apart inside right now



Oh take me back

Back to the beginning

Make everything right

Just for another moment to depart

Just another moment

To fall

All over again



Fallen in love with those blue eyes

Fallen to the ground when I said Good Bye

Fallen apart inside right now



Oh If I could take back everything

I’d do it a heartbeat

Just to say your name

To wake up next to you in bed

Make the right ending start

Just for another glimpse

Of how lucky we were

And to just fall

All over again



Fallen all over again with those blue eyes

Fallen to my knees to beg you baby please

Fallen apart inside just to feel you next to me



~ The Calling ~

Destiny is calling me

As it choking out single word

NO don’t let me go

Oh please make me stop



I will walk alone forever

Cuz you can’t see me there

The one that controls my world

It’s not the end of the story



Push me a lil further down

Push me to my ending now

My destiny, My world

It’s coming together



Here in this place

I know I am not safe

Don’t look back now

Ill be back to

Come to get you

Crushing your heart now



I wish I could stop myself

Stop my wounds from bleeding

It’s all so deceiving

To see myself walking along

Walking along



I wanna take this last plunge

Feel the warmth I always miss

Always, So if I do will you

Be there for me at the end

What if this is just the start



Will I always be alone

Will I never know

Oh please can you be there

[mocha fiend 22]

I decided seeing as I haven't posted all that much, that I would post another couple songs. Hope you like them.

~ Spun around ~

Spin me around and a round

Cuz the drugs and me just don’t mix

Its all in your head, I just fell down

Everyday I wish I were dead

Cuz this pain is gone

Now I am just numb



Spinning around and around

The drugs messed me up

I see the blue in your eyes

It’s starting to intensify

Get me out of here

Just save me a lil bit



My blood is pumping pumping

To my heart this will go

Just save me from this ending

Take me back to the beginning

Cuz I feel so numb

OH how could I be so dumb



It’s pumping pumping to my brain

Making me spin around and about

I cant figure which is up or down

I am so fucked up, all for nothing

Damn I did it again to get you out

Of my mind out of site



In my veins my desires start to rise

Pumping pumping again and again

Oh here it comes that feeling of pain

Not numb, never will be

I just wanna be me again



Its pumping I’m spinning around

It’s making me feel all the shit

I didn’t want to deal

I just want to heal



From the beginning to my end

The stupid things I have done

Just to feel something tonight

To make the animosity stop

Oh just save me here

Save me here

Cuz It’s all because of you

Just hold me

OH just hold me

Tonight



~ Drugs over Me ~

This was the girl of my dreams( you aren’t her)

I fell for the girl of my dreams (OH so Beautiful)

She taught me Love (In so many ways)

No where did she teach me Pain (How wrong could I be)



The girl of my dreams left me (my mistake)

Left me at a party (with her new friends)

She smoked her pain away ( the drugs over me)

Oh she smoked our lives away ( did you even know)



In a second (My world)

Falls away from me (Topsy turvy)

So as my walls crumble (the weak)

The drugs or me (I feel sick)

The drugs over me (coming down)



My world My heart My soul (pick them up)

Pick and Choose (the drugs over me)

The mistake and remedy (The drugs or me)

Oh the drugs over me (Killin a part of me)



Some time passes (the pain still there)

I can still see (the drugs over me)

Some stars collapse (as the pain grows)

My heart implodes (when you picked)

The drugs over me



Our painful good-byes (your last choice)

My tears are real (you have your way out)

You made this mistake (drugs over me)

You can’t make this go away

Cuz you let me go

[MissKittys Ball O Yarn]

Wow. Did you write those? Cause they're amazing.



xoxo

Emms

To the smut! ~ Me

[SJ]

Those songs are great

[mocha fiend 22]

Thank you both. Yes these are my songs, and I did write them. So here are a couple more. One of which is my second favorite. LOL My all time favorite I wrote for my Girlfriend. So it will never see the light of day. TEHE.... ok so here are the songs. Hope you all enjoy.





~ Open Road ~

Can you hear the sounds of the open road?

All I can hear is the beating of your heart

Can we just leave with out sappy good byes

Pave this enviable road we drive on



This Unwalked path (the beating of your heart)

The trails to happiness (of the open road)

Just drive to the sounds (never say good bye)



Tonight is ours to choose

Live or Die on the open road

Never saying goodbye, never be afraid

Even though we both know when the sun comes up



This path we pave (Live or Die)

This trail to bless (never be afraid)

Just drive away (till the sun comes up)



We’ll never be the same

Nothing to loss only to gain

Drive with me on the open road

Take my hand as we make our get away

Just be here with me no more lies



This is open road (same again)

The trail of nothing (no more lies)

Take the time to know (our get away)

Just be here now



Take my hand some how

Be with me here (there is no fear)

Only time will tell If we

Make it out of this highway hell





~ Wanna Scream ~

You make me wanna scream

From the inside out

Like a cut so deep



I can’t figure this out

I can only make it work

I just want it to go away



All the hate building up

Only the fates can make this start

I wanna scream from the inside out

Spit the words out of my mouth

Why I feel like this I don’t know



Spit it out already DAMMIT

I am sick of the worst day ever

Stop making sexual innuendos

Cuz I’m out



All the hates building up

Only the fates can make this start

I wanna scream from the inside out

Spit the words out of my mouth

Why I feel like this I don’t know



Spit the hate out

Cuz I’m sick of it already

I wanna scream

Make you disbelieve

In everything



You make me wanna scream

Cuz all you do is cut me

Gonna rip that still beating heart

Right out of your chest

And pound it to a million shreds



Screaming from the inside out

Cuz I am sick of it all

All the hate builds up

Only fate can make this stop

Spitting the words from my mouth



So here is an update. Maybe I will let you all read the song I wrote for my girlfriend. But right now this is what you get. I hope you like them and "Open Road" is my second favorite. So I hope you all enjoy them.

[kiwi6969]

wow you have been busy lol great yes I really enjoyed them

[Renee85]

I’ve enjoyed them too, these are really good. ‘Open Road’ is beautiful.

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WILLOW: She's my everything.

Tough Love

[SJ]

Both those songs are great

[MissKittys Ball O Yarn]

Niiiicce. I really like these as well.







xoxo

Emms

To the smut! ~ Me

[mocha fiend 22]

Thank you all very much. I will have an update for you shortly. But I have some new stuff to get writin So here is me thanking all you wonderful lil kittens. Thank you all again for the feed back

[mocha fiend 22]

So I am about to go to bed but how could I not give you kittens a lil more. So here they are.



~ To Grandma ~

If I look up to the sky

Will you be there listening

If I ask you for hope

Will you give me some?



Oh do you know how much I miss you

Every day it hurts a little more

You were my family

I miss you

Oh I miss you

So much



When I look up at the stars

I can feel you here

In my heart were you will stay

Always in my heart



You were like a mother

To me

Did you know I looked up?

To you

I miss you so much

I miss you



You were my strength

When I fell

You were everything

I ever needed



Oh Grandma you were

The strength of our family

We fell apart the day you

Left us for heaven



Do you know how much?

I miss you right now

I look up and know you see me

Are you watching over us?



Still to this day I can hear

Your voice

If I only could tell you

How much I miss you

Tonight



You left us for Heaven

We broke down and cried

I love you still, even though

You are gone now



I miss you

I miss you

I miss you





~ Red Handed ~

Came home early

Came to surprise

You with a ring



If only I knew

If I knew I wouldn’t

Have come home that day

Oh If only



The sight I saw

The blood on your hands

The look in your eyes

Why didn’t you say?



You were falling

Falling fast

Away from me

Away from this plain



If only I knew

I wouldn’t be here

I couldn’t just

Watch



Why was she taken?

How could I be mistaken?

Where was her family?

Oh my what have we done?



Did we take away her faith?

Was she just too gone

I tried to help her

Get her some help

Someone stop her

Make it all right

Make it all right





So there you are. Two more songs even if at first they were just poems. I added some stuff to the. I hope you like them. They aren't so much about one girl as a friend of mine. And my grandma which I guess you understand if you read it. Take care and Goodnight.

[angel of salvation]

ooo update...i really liked the first one..to grandma. That was really sweet and pretty I like pretty. Great work.

The second one was also really nice. Hope you write some more soon!



Jess xxx

'You're my angel of salvation, and hope, and strength...your my multi-angel'-Jay (My baby)

"Denial, Party of one, You're table's ready"-Spud

]|My Anime Site|[

[Renee85]

I like the first one the best, but they’re both good, hee. The one about grandma is relatable because we’ve all lost someone and not only was it really well written but it’s so honest and poignant and I just love it. I can say the same for the other one also, powerful stuff. Thank you for the update and I hope to read more.

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TARA: Willow, I got so lost.

WILLOW: I found you. I will always find you.

[SJ]

Great writing

Edited by: SJ at: 4/20/05 11:40 pm