AKA Lady of Blessed Pain's Poetry

[SilverWingedNemesis]

Hey all.



I've been told time and again to get out the wrinkled notebook/journal and type up some poems and post them. I'm really self conscious but maybe it would help me to post. *shrugs* Some are light, some are dark, and some are very... dark. But again, as others say.. it comes from within.



Most of these I post.. have been written throughout my life. I'll try to post you a timeframe on each one tho.





Nickole

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(March 1998)



~LIFE~



Life is but an endless road,

One we walk along

We live off the world

Life has begun its song.



Life is mysterious

No one knows why

Our hearts are so curious

That we begin to cry.



We cry for our family

We cry for our friends

We cry when life begins

We cry when life ends.



Love is the power that saves lives

Hate is the evil that divides souls

We dont' realize until it's too late

That lifes' love is replaced with hate.



Peace is gone, we grow old

We sit and watch the world grow cold

No one to love, no one to hate

I don't believe this is to be our fate.



How long does it take

To tell someone you care

To make them a birthday cake

Or run your fingers through their hair.



No one to hug

No one to hold

No one to say

"I'm here and I care"



Why does this happen?

Why do we fear?

Someone is a killer

The killer is near.



To find one person

That makes you complete

Is not only a miracle

But a miraculous feat.



So find that special someone

And tell them how you feel

Hold their love in your heart

That no evil can steal.



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So there's one. Any comments?





~NICKOLE~

"Life is eternal; it has no beginning and no end. The loving friends we meet on our journey return to us time after time. We never die, because we were never really born."

[Taras Shadow]

Wow Nick, that's beautiful and powerful.



I love it, as always.



~H.~

"I was born 'normal'...life made me strange." - Marina

"I am a tongue whore...you gave me tongue, what am I supposed to do...sit back and keep my mouth shut?" -Me-

"I know who you really are...you're the one who cries when you're alone." - Where Will You Go? - Evanescence

[SilverWingedNemesis]

Here's another for your.. well.. enjoyment or not.. haha



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Forbidden Love



I close my eyes

Your face is there

Searching for an answer

To a well known question

Green eyes burning

A slow careful flame

Warming my heart

With all the love I have to give



Forbidden fuel to feed a flame

That I'm scared to share

You think you know

Or at least understand

You cover my trembling hand

With your calm one,

And try to look into my eyes

I am too scared to open them

Afraid to see no place for me

And I will have destroyed everything

We have worked to build together



I unlock my heart

And open my eyes

Smile the smile of faith

And look into the eyes of a stranger,

Yet my best friend

And know the peace and love



Only a tortured soul could endure.

"Life is eternal; it has no beginning and no end. The loving friends we meet on our journey return to us time after time. We never die, because we were never really born."

[SilverWingedNemesis]

Forgot to Say



I forgot to mention

I forgot to say

Somehow lost in space

Lost in the grey

The feelings I feel right now

Something that I know

The pain is keeping it all inside

The thing I cannot show



So here I sit

And here I stare

BOTH CONFUSED

Too scared to care

It's easy to see

What I forgot to mention

What I forgot to say

"I love you"

Please know it's okay.

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1999



What Do I Do for You?



You always stand by my side

No matter what I do

I really don't deserve you

But you always say I do.



You're there when I'm happy

And even when I'm sad

You hold my hand and see me through

Everytime I need you to.



You comfort me at night

When I wake from a bad dream

You hold me and say

Everythign will be alright.



Sometimes I'm afraid

To let myself get too close

But when I think of losing you

Is when I need to hold you most.



My heart tells me to hold on

My mind says "she's there for you"

But what I can't understand

Is what I do for you?



I tell you my hopes and dreams

You hide yours within your soul

You say only pain is there

Pain only you can hold.



Why won't you let me help you?

You will not cause pain for me

But if you struggle on your own,

It will kill me, you will see.



I hate to see you battle

To face your demons on your own

I am here to love you

And chase away fear of being alone.



I will always be here

For you to cry upon my shoulder

And when you are weak with worry

I will be your boulder.



Dedicated to Samantha Joclyn Everett. My first love.

"Life is eternal; it has no beginning and no end. The loving friends we meet on our journey return to us time after time. We never die, because we were never really born."

Edited by: SilverWingedNemesis at: 3/18/04 2:44 pm

[Taras Shadow]

Forbidden Love- Wow, this one I felt. I can't explain the feeling, but it really touched me, again, powerful.



Forgot To Say- This one left me speechless actually. So many things to relate too. I love it.



What Did I Do For You?- Beautiful.



~H.~

"I was born 'normal'...life made me strange." - Marina

"I am a tongue whore...you gave me tongue, what am I supposed to do...sit back and keep my mouth shut?" -Me-

"I know who you really are...you're the one who cries when you're alone." - Where Will You Go? - Evanescence

[sunspud]

Hi, baby. I think I've read some of these already, but I just wanted to say that I love your writing and I think you should post more.. LOTS MORE! They really are wonderful poems.



I love you!!



Brandi

"If you're sleepin are you dreamin.. If you're dreamin are you dreamin of me?" - Calling You by Blue October

[shadowygirl]

NICKOLE !!!!! heh I love your poetry great writer you are



Hope to read more soon , Forgot To say was my fav



More soon please



Luv April

[SilverWingedNemesis]

Authors note: This is dark and hard to post. But it's a part of me.



Rescue From Despair



In dark, thick as coal

I search for something never to find

In soundlessness I grasp at shadows

This dream darkens my heart, from within my mind.



They begin their torture

All before me one by one

And smile with hateful eyes

As they start with a gruesome pace



All look into me, through me and past

To the empy nothing, no one around

Blood seeps around me

As I lay crying upon the ground



In sweat and horror I awake

Shaking with knowledge of my life

Filled with guilt and sorrow of my past

And images of which will always last.



But then my eyes see you

And gentle arms around me fold

A soothing voice speaks from the heart

And beckons me from evils cold



My savior and my friend

You rescue me from dark despair

For I can only face the night

Knowing you are there.

"Life is eternal; it has no beginning and no end. The loving friends we meet on our journey return to us time after time. We never die, because we were never really born."

[onyxsundrops]

Really wonderful poems. I liked them all, but 'rescue from despair' was really great. Thanks.



Yvonne

[sunspud]

Wow, baby.. those were some very powerful words. Amazing poem.. I loved it.



Love,

Brandi

"If you're sleepin are you dreamin.. If you're dreamin are you dreamin of me?" - Calling You by Blue October

[SJ]

Your poetry is great,thanks for sharing

[quarian]

Well, I got here and I read. I'm left with mixed feelings because the words are beautifully written but also I can't help feeling very touched and sad...



I like Forgot to Say coz it's simple and real.



And What Do I Do For You? is just so raw and written straight from the heart...



Rescue from Despair makes me sad but I like that it ends with a note of hope..



And I loved Forbidden Love, when I first read it more than a year ago and I still love it now.



Your poetry made me feel...



Cindy

[Spikeizmine87]

hey! Ive read all of your poems and enjoyed reading them all! Such passion in your words! I hope you post more! Thanks for sharing! Write on!

-Rose

The only thing I hate in the world, is people who are dishonest with themselves. And people who smell.

[SilverWingedNemesis]

Death



Death...our fate, our end

Is it our salvation

Or just oblivian? Maybe,

An easy way out.



Do you see the children's faces,

Do you see their mothers cry?

Do you hear jokes about races

And ever wonder why?



Why do we hate,

Those different than us

Why do we manipulate

And put up a fuss.



Everyone is different

Theres no changing that

Killing another is wrong,

But is your death the easy way out?



Do you ever stop and say,

Hey friend, I'll help in any way

Do you ever think that maybe,

A mother will miss her baby?



Even if you sin,

Killing yourself isn't right

Life is not so bad,

You've got to stand and fight.



12 '01

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All I Have Left



As soon as you left

My heart gave away

I reached out

But you were gone

Elusive to my grasp

My hand straining

My eyes searched

Never Finding You



All I have left is

the memory of your face

All i have left is

the memory of your touch

All I have left is a memory

All I have left is

....nothing.

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6 '02





sorta depressing.. but that's where I was then..

Just thought i'd let it out



more to come...later





*hugs*

Nickole

"Life is eternal; it has no beginning and no end. The loving friends we meet on our journey return to us time after time. We never die, because we were never really born."

[Taras Shadow]

Ooouuu, new poetry...old, but new... hmm



Anyway, I love your poetry. It's all so genuwine and from the heart and soul. Love it and thank you for sharing.



~Holly~

Baby, baby, baby when all you're love is gone, who will save me from all I'm up against out in this world

- Bright Lights - Matchbox Twenty

"Show me where to touch you." - Tara, It Ain't Fickle (Luciddream)

[sunspud]

Great poems as always, baby. I really felt that last one.. I'm sure you know why.



I love you!



- B

[SilverWingedNemesis]

Holly-



Yes, they are old. They are just ramblings I've written throughout different times in my life. I've never been able to write anything unless I felt it.. and it kept bugging me.. it usually went away once it was written.. or lessened a bit.



I haven't written anything like this lately. Not really, i've started, then.. stopped.. LOL All I have now is aggrivation with work and all and well I don't feel like writing about Staples.. LMAO



Brandi



You had me really confused with the "I felt that last one I'm sure you know why?" I was like.. "what? what's going on? what am I missing? HAHAHA" I didn't know you were talking.. past tense.. and "her" HAHAHAHA.. and no sorry but I don't think I'd be inspired to write about you and Laura!! LMFAO!



okay well.. yeah.. hehe

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ANYHOOT.. maybe ya'll will get a glimpse of something new later... i've got something brewing inside me.. but I can't figure it out yet.



Nick

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"Life is eternal; it has no beginning and no end. The loving friends we meet on our journey return to us time after time. We never die, because we were never really born."

[sunspud]

Well, duhhh.. silly girl. Like I would want you to write about me and Laura! *shakes head*



Anyway.. I shall wait patiently for more.



Love you,

B

"I'm a new day rising. I'm a brand new sky to hang the stars upon tonight." Foo Fighters - Times Like These

[SJ]

Great poetry

[soluna350]

awesome poems!