Fic Mirror

[the vamp nurd]

Title: Mirror 1/?



Author: The vamp nurd [aka moon girl]



Email: the_moon_girl_zodiac@yahoo.co.uk



Rating: PG-13.



pairing W/T [B/R, X/A mentioned]



Disclaimer: Joss [the [insert word here] ] owns the characters etc, only the volume-y text is mine, none of the characters are. No harm meant. Warning if didn't like Vamp Willow please do not read this fic. S3/S4 on wards spoilers.



Feedback: Please would be suited. Whip my inner moppet.



Summary: Willow does some thinking while looking in a mirror.



Notes: Please be gentle this is my first kitten fic so… please be gentle words in closed in '*' mean thoughts.

Setting S4. Before GI TYG and WAY.



Willow looked in the mirror. She had just had a shower. She drew the comb through her hair and briefly wondered where Buffy was.



*Where she normally is* a cruel voice in her head replied, *doing stuff with Riley*.



Willow sighed, Riley, Buffy's spanking new boyfriend. It seemed, that Buffy seemed to be doing a lot lately with Riley. Leaving Willow on her own to do 'stuff'.

Like teaching Anya how to play poker *not good mental image, get away* Willow willed the image of Anya's comment, "Yes we've enjoyed the spanking." away from her mind.



Even if that meant going round to Tara's....



Willow's train of thought stopped, *no, not stopped, came to a grinding halt* at the mention of the blonde witch's name.



Willow looked back up into the mirror. She caught a glimpse of something in the mirror. She peered closer, it was just her reflection. "Simple ol' me looking back at me." Willow said, to the empty room. She sighed then wandered over to her wardrobe to get dressed. As she was getting dressed, her eyes fell to the Doll's Eye Crystal. A gift off Tara. Willow smiled then picked it up, the spells we did were pretty amazing. She remembered Tara's room. Feeling safe and protected. Willow put the crystal down again. She sighed, then walked back to the mirror again, this time she saw it. The library, face to face with her vampire self. "Wanna be bad?" a voice rasped in her ear.



"No." Willow replied firmly.



"Why not?" The mirror reflected her vampric self, "You're already starting."



Willow glared, "You're just a reflection."



"A reflection of what you can do." Vamp Willow replied smiling, "Remember?"



"No."



"You didn't like where I put my hands."



Willow turned the mirror over, but the voice was still there, "What's the matter, Willow? Trying to deny what you feel?"



Willow remained quiet, not speaking, in case it gave the voice more to explore.



"I'm so evil and skanky, and I think I'm kinda gay." The voice mocked, "You should know. We're the same."



"No, I'm not."



"Yes you are. I'm just you with more." a growl, "bite."



Willow turned around, nothing.



"You feel for Tara. So go ahead, feel for her. You'll see that you're the same as me." The voice stopped.



"Hey Will." Buffy opened the door, "What's up?"



Willow looked embarrassed then smiled, "Oh nuthin' just thinking about going the lab tonight, y'know to do stuff."



Buffy laughed then smiled, "Hey do fancy some mochas? I've got a craving for more sugar than the body can handle."



Willow smiled hopefully and nodded, "Yeah."



The mirror caught Willow's attention, "You think you what's to come..." Willow slammed the door and followed Buffy.

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feedback wanted, and if good may start part 2.

The vamp nurd founder of the cult of W/T/VW fan fic.

"Bitch"

"does that mean we have to snuggle?"

"No more snuggles?"

Edited by: the vamp nurd at: 7/22/02 3:18:28 am

[tommo]

Hmm. Okay, interesting concept with the idea of alternate personalities and that. But you might want to try getting a beta reader, as your paragraphing and sentencing is a bit confusing re: the spacing.

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It's dirty. It's all dirty. And all
over me. Dirty, dirty, bad. Bad!

[ally02]

oooo I like Vamp Willow! Why was she only in two episodes god damn! Anyhoo, please continue your fic as i am not officially intrigued!



love Aly xxx

"This whole us things is...bleh!" Willow to Xander in Lover's Walk

[The Next Tara Maclay]

Good fic. Cant wait 4 more

[willntlover]

Wow, that was



Hope that you plan to continue.



-Will

"Hear that baby? You're my always."

"well, you know, when you play a lesbian witch you've gotta get killed in this fun kind of exciting way, so the heart was the way to go..."

"we have the most amazing fans though they LOVE us."

[TheWhiz]

Hope you decide to continue with this fic

I think you have an interesting idea, combining Vamp Willow and Willow's personalities using the imagery of a mirror to do so.

"I am a whiz...If ever a whiz there was"

[the vamp nurd]

Thank you thank you.

I'd like to point out to anyone who reads my sig, it's not a threesome thing, there has been an e-mail.

I write Vamp Willow fan fic, but I don't put it on the kitten board. [I'm currently looking for a place to post]

I'm a W/T shipper, and if I affended any one with my sig, I'm sorry. W/T are meant to be together. !!!!

The vamp nurd founder of the cult of W/T [and VW fan fic]

yes I've read the pens FAQ. NO VW CONTACT promised.

"bitch"

"No more snuggles?"

[the vamp nurd]

Title: Mirror 2/?

Author: The vamp nurd [aka moon girl]

Email: the_moon_girl_zodiac@yahoo.co.uk

Rating: PG-13.



pairing W/T [B/R, X/A mentioned]



Disclaimer: Joss [the [insert word here] ] owns the characters etc, only the volume-y text is mine, none of the characters are. No harm meant. Warning if didn't like Vamp Willow please do not read this fic. S3/S4 on wards spoilers.



Feedback: Please would be suited. Whip my inner moppet.



Summary: Willow does some thinking while looking in a mirror.



Notes: Please be gentle this is my first kitten fic so please be gentle words in closed in '*' mean thoughts.



Willow sat in the expresso pump. Her best friend Buffy sat opposite. She was staring at the slightly ahead, but her hands were firmly glued to the coffee cup in front of her.



"What's up Wills, you've hardly touched your mocha, I thought you wanted some coffee."



"Huh?" Willow replied, she looked at the cup, "Oh yeah, just in a Will-world moment there." Willow smiled then took a sip out of her warm coffee.



"You've been acting weird all afternoon." Buffy replied, "Is there something wrong?"



*Oh no, Buff, I've just been confronted with the vamp alter ego, that we sent back last year, taunting me about Tara. So no biggie.* Willow thought wanting to glare at her friend, but not finding the will to do so. "Nothing, just thinking about Class."



"I guess, the new guy's so borning, at least Professor Walsh made it a little interesting." Buffy shrugged her shoulders. She looked carefully at her friend, *what's up with you Will?* she queried.



Willow again was off on one of her mental rambles, sometimes pleasant, but this time it wasn't.



"She doesn't know does she?" The voice whispered, Willow jerked slightly, to see Vamp Willow staring at her in the coffee.



Willow clamped down on that impluse and drank her coffee.



"Wow Wills you must be thirsty." Buffy replied raising her eyebrows to look at her friend.



"Yeah I guess I was." Willow replied, "I guess I was."



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End of pt 2, feedback please, and I've tried with some better lay out, feed back on that too. Thank you.



The vamp Nurd.

"Bored now."

"Hands! Hands!"

[Emily First]

More?



I'm quite intrigued by your premise - seems like a good idea to continue/explore...One thing tho',your updates are a wee bit small - are you writing this on the fly?



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Coming soon - Fic:Paradise by CandleLight.

vive,valeque.

[willntlover]

Is there more soon?? I need an update



-Will

"Hear that baby? You're my always."

"well, you know, when you play a lesbian witch you've gotta get killed in this fun kind of exciting way, so the heart was the way to go..."

"we have the most amazing fans though they LOVE us."

[ally02]

Argh more vamp Willow speaking to normal Willow!! Yeeep need more, need more, need more, need more!! Urm...do you get the point??



love Aly xxx

"This whole us things is...bleh!" Willow to Xander in Lover's Walk

[The Next Tara Maclay]

More! more! More!!!!

[TheWhiz]

Ooh, nearly missed this second part!

Joining chorus of 'more, more, more!!!'

"I am a whiz...If ever a whiz there was"

[the vamp nurd]

Title: Mirror 3/4 of 4.



Author: The vamp nurd [aka moon girl]



Email: the_moon_girl_zodiac@yahoo.co.uk



Rating: R



pairing W/T [B/R, X/A mentioned]



Note to overseers, The dream in Prt 4 apes Dopplegangerland, [s3 e16] and I repeat there is no sexual contact between VW and Tara. Just W/T.



Disclaimer: Joss [the [insert word here] ] owns the characters etc, only the volume-y text is mine, none of the characters are. No harm meant. Warning if didn't like Vamp Willow please do not read this fic. S3/S4 on wards spoilers. And There is song lyrics in pt 3-4, I don't own them. all lyrics are contained in <>.



Feedback: Please would be suited. Whip my inner moppet.



Summary: Dreams hurt, dreams come true.



Notes: Please be gentle this is my first kitten fic so please be gentle words in closed in '*' mean thoughts. Dreams //



Time: After the Spell in GI.



Pt3 ----



Willow sighed, then mumbled, "I guess that spell wasn't supposed to work."



*I wish it had, maybe Buffy would pay me some attection, I'm her best friend. But ooh no, Riley this Riley that.*



*Well, you don't need Buffy do you?* Vamp Willow's voice asked.



*Yes I do.*



*You wouldn't be thinking about Tara this way if you did.* Vamp Willow's voice reminded her.



At the mention of Tara's name, Willow looked up, Tara was asleep on the bed. She had fallen asleep.



Willow got up, she gently sat on Tara's bed. The blonde witch had curled herself into a ball, but as soon as there was movement, Tara uncurled.



*Ah so innocent so beautiful....* Vamp Willow's voice crooned.



Willow clamped down on that impluse, Tara lost all the shyness that she seemed to have when she slept.







Willow's hand seemed to be under the control of someone else, it reached out to Tara.



Tara smiled sleepily. *wonderful smile. Not shy at all*. As Willow's hand came to rest on her leg.



*Touch her* Vamp Willow's voice crooned. *TOUCH HER*







Willow pulled away, then rubbed her temples, then she looked around, hoping, praying that there was something to distract her.



*Yes, Tara's room. Filled with all sorts of interesting stuff.* Willow thought dizzily.



Then she closed her eyes for a second. Then there was something touching her.



Willow cranked her eyes open.







She looked around, no one. *just me and you, babe. Me and your dark side.* Vamp Willow's voice replied.



*Leave me alone*



*Ooh puppy's angry*



*I'm not your puppy.*



*Maybe, but I pull your strings you growl.*



*I don't.*



*You're growling now.*



Willow stopped herself. *Do you really have nothing better to do than wind me up?*



*Nope, I get off the pain*



*Fuck off.*



*Wicca showing rage. What's the matter babe? Can't cope with someone lusting after your honey?*



*She....*



Vamp Willow appeared, in all her leather clad glory. She bent over Tara's body, "Uh huh... I do like that home cooked smell of magic."



"Leave her alone." Willow snarled.



Vamp Willow pouted. "Aw..." Vamp Willow did the puppy dog eyes. "Just a nibble?"



"Leave her alone!"



"Huh?" Tara mumbled, "W-what?" Tara got up, slightly, then smiled, "Hey."



*She's cute* "Hey Tara, have a nice sleep?"



Tara smiled, "Yeah." She stretched, then smiled again, hastily ducking behind a curtain of blonde hair.



"Tara."



"Willow?"



"I need to talk about something with you."



"You told me why we d-did the spell, to help Buffy, she's a slayer. You're a wicca, your friend Xander's dating an ex d-demon." Tara replied looking at her redheaded friend. *Goddess, she's cute. When she does that. Stop it Tara! Remember Oz.*



"I-it's not about that."







"What's up Willow?" Tara watched Willow scoot, on to the bed.



"I want to tell you about something that happened to me in my last year of high school."



*Oh, she's going to talk about high school, better listen.* Tara thought, "Y-es w-what happened."



"Well," *Take a deep breath Rosenberg, you're gonna have to explain this carefully.* "One time when I was really pissed off, I mean every one was asking me to do stuff, it was like Willow = doormat."



Tara giggled, "Some people thought I was like that."



"Well, Anya asked me to do a spell."



"Anya?"



"Xander's girlfriend." *Fucking partner* Vamp Willow bitched.



"Oh."



"So we did the spell, Anya didn't get back what she wanted but uh there was a side effect."



"A side effect?"



"They happen a lot in my spells."



"What was the side effect?"



"Er, the spell brought a vamp verison on me to this world."



Tara's eyes widened, "A vamp you?"



"Yeah, big with leather and chains."



Tara looked thoughtful, *Willow in leather.... hmm. Might be a good idea.* "So what was so bad about the other you?"



*Well, how do I start? She licked my neck asked me if wanted to go 'bad'. Then she asked me to 'play and then felt me up when I gave her a nice hug!*



"She was kinda gay."



Tara started laughing, *kinda gay? That's a bad thing?*, "Was that a bad thing for you?"



Willow looked peeved, but then smiled, "Yeah, when she started to lick my neck."



*I did more than lick your neck.* Vamp Willow replied, *If I'd had a chance you'd been on that floor, naked I'd been fucking you. And then we could of been bad together. I'd turned you, now wouldn't that be fun.*



"So she was attracted to you?"



"yeah I guess she was."



"Willow, remind me never to look into you mind again."



"OK."

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prt 4. Dream a little dream.



After the gay thing, Willow curled on Tara's bed and slept, she felt good to tell her friend about *big lesbo evil me.*



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Willow found herself in the empty Bronze. *Well emptyish* she thought.



Her vampric self appeared slinking into Willow's view. "Hmm... old times." she whispered, "You're all afraid." She smiled, "I like that." The smile was evil.



Willow couldn't see who see was talking to, but she was certainly talking to someone.







Vamp Willow walked over to a table, someone was sitting there, the blonde shone like a halo.







Willow moved to follow, Tara was sitting there. Her blonde hair and blue *drownable* Willow thought eyes. The picture of innocence.



"What's your name?" Vamp Willow asked softly, *and seductively* Willow thought.



"T-Tara."



"Tara." Vamp Willow smiled then took Tara's hand, but she slightly leaned in. "Pretty."



"You're innocent. So innocent." Vamp Willow smiled, "Like a puppy."



Tara ducked her head, "Thank you."



Vamp Willow lead Tara out to the floor. Willow followed, Vamp Willow smiled, "If you're good. You can live forever." Vamp Willow ran the back of her hand down Tara's cheek, the girl flinched, but Vamp Willow's arm held her.



"But if you're bad." Vamp Willow morphed into vamp face.



"Leave her alone." Willow stepped out of the shadows, with a rifle. *Not filled with tranqs this time. This time it's personal*



"Ooh the hurt girlfriend." Vamp jerked Tara then licked her neck, "wanna get close?"



"Leave her alone." Willow became aware that the Bronze was filled. *With people, people. That I know.*



To her left sat Buffy, opposite Giles. In the middle Xander, then in another corner cordelia. In the middle was Faith a corner was occupied by Anya. The opposite middle chair sat Angel.



Willow turned around and locked eyes with Oz. He wore the same outfit that her left in. *Seems so long ago.*



"It's your choice Willow. Save her or kill her." He replied.



Willow looked to Buffy, *My best friend*, "It's your choice. Will. You're the chosen one, this time."



"Yeah! Be the hero!" Xander bounced on his chair.



"Do what you feel." Giles raised his glasses.



"But don't expect anything." Cordelia added.



"come on Red save the girl." Faith smirked.



"Don't let her make the mistake I did." Angel added.



"Kill the vampire." Anya replied briskly.



Willow gripped the gun, "Let Tara go."



The vampire let Tara go. "You've chosen wrong. You're alone."



Willow pulled the gun up, "Don't care." She squeezed the trigger. Vamp Willow expoded.



"You saved me!" Tara threw her arms around Willow, and hugged her tight. *So this is what heaven feels like.*



"Do I get a reward?" Xander speak.



Tara blushed then gently touched Willow's face. "You do."



"What?"



"This." Tara leaned in gently and kissed her. Willow's mind screamed *Tara mouth Tara mouth!*



Something broke, Willow kissed Tara hungrily, Tara kissed her back with as much passion as Willow did.



Slowly they fell to the floor, which had turned into Tara's room.



Kisses, then shirts then skirts, bras, panties. Willow found somewhere, she had found Tara.



Tara held her, naked. She felt warm and safe...





Thud, Willow landed on the floor, "Damn."



Tara sleepily looked down, "Willow!"



"Huh?" Willow shook the sleep out of her eyes and looked up at Tara. Oh my Goddess...



"Yeah?"



"You were having a funny dream."



"I was dreaming about you."



"Really? What were we doing."



Willow pulled herself up to face Tara, "This." She kissed her. Tara kissed her back.



"Willow..."



"Sh, don't speak."







Willow looked at the window, she saw her reflection. And felt good, she wasn't evil, she wasn't alone. She had Tara. And that was all that mattered.



THE End.

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Hope you liked it.



The vamp nurd.

[the vamp nurd]

And I forgot to add this poem at the bottom.



Mirror, Mirror on the wall.



You see me.



I see me.



they see me.



Mirror or not.



Mirror reflects.



People see.



I don't know.



If they see the mirror or me.



If they see me.



I'm alright.



If they see the mirror.



They don't see me.



Mirror mirror on the wall.



Who am I?



Me or the mirror?



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The vamp nurd. *Proudly wearing her W/T t-shirt.*

[willntlover]

Dude, that was freakin cool!!!

-Will

"Hear that baby? You're my always."

"well, you know, when you play a lesbian witch you've gotta get killed in this fun kind of exciting way, so the heart was the way to go..."

"we have the most amazing fans though they LOVE us."

[jdcioffi]

Very cool ... I like the dichotmoy you set up. Brings new meaning to dealing with Willow's demons in order to win Tara in the end.



Very nice.



JD

"I smell the smelly smell of something that smells smelly!" (SpongeBob Squarepants)

[TheWhiz]

Very cool!

Liked how you ended things, well done!

"I am a whiz...If ever a whiz there was"

[the vamp nurd]

Thank you thank you, *bows*.



The songs were

Sleeping Satalite.

Amercian English.

Torn.

Halo.

Naked.

Lost.



The vamp nurd. [a puppy who needs a vamp Willow]

"You don't have to be scared to please me."

[xita]

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