Ok, It took me a while to post again, bur here it is. Hope you enjoy it.
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A NIGHT FULL OF SONGS
" The songs are arranged by me. So I could give the meaning that I wanted"
It was full that night at the Bronze, and it was also karaokee night. Everyone were singing songs to their lovers and friends. Tara was sitting in a table at the back, listening love songs, wishing she could sing one to Willow, but that would not happen. She missed the readheaded so much, she felt so lonely, but she would not turn back, Willow had played with her mind and she had wroken her trust. It had been the worst month in her life, without her, and it was still very painfull. She wished she could turn back time, she wished she could be with her, but she couldn´t.
Song after song, drink after drink, and the night was still young, and the Bronze was still full.
One more sight, one more sip to her drink, one more tear unshead.
Across town Willow was laying in her bed, thinking about was had happened in the last month and a half. She couldn´t believed how far she had gone. The radio was on and she couldn´t stop crying. Every song reminded of her lost lover, every lyrics said words that were so alike her history. "What have I done?" she thought to herself. " If only I could tell you how sorry I am, but I don´t know how..."
One more sight and one more tear. She stood up and went to the window, looking at the stars she said " I miss you baby... please forgive me."
On the other side the door Buffy was passing by Willow´s door when she heard the readheaded. She stood still, thinking for a moment. She then knock on the door.
" Come in" said Willow from the inside.
" How are you Will?" Buffy asked, already knowing the answer.
" I don´t know Buff, I just don´t know what to do... I need her so much" she repply " I know" said Buffy.
" Do you what to go to the Bronze? I heard is karaokee night" asked Buffy
" Maybe for a while, what else do I have to do?" said Willow.
They got dressed and went to the Bronze. It was full enought to get lost in there, but they found an empty table and they sat. They ordered some drinks and listened to the songs. They chat for a while about Angel, about Tara, about their lifes.
They didn´t realise that across their table someone was watching them.
Tara had seen them enter and she didn´t know what to do. She wanted to leave but she couldn´t take her eyes from Willow. It had been a month since she had last saw her and she looked so thin and so fragile. So pale and sad, she looked like she was going to faint at any moment and although she wanted to act like she didn´t care she knew she couldn´t. She loved this woman so much, she still did, she was everything to her, but so much had changed. So she stayed there, looking at her, hoping she could pass unnoticed.
Willow fet horrible, talking to Buffy was good, she just couldn´t bring herself toghether. She made up her mind and went to the stage. She had to do something and a couple of songs were in her mind. She wished Tara was there, she wanted to sing them to her.
Tara saw Willow aproaching the stage and knew she was going to sing. She wondered which songs, so she waited.
The music stopped and Willow appeared. She took the mic and sat in a stool that was there.
" Good evening to everyone. I am going to sing a couple of songs for someone I love. I hope you enjoy. Thanks".
The music started and Willow waited for her entrance...
"And I had given up the magic to touch you
But somehow you are not by my side
You´re the closest to heaven that I´ll ever be
And I don´t want to go home right now
And all I can taste is that moment
And all I can breathe is your life
Saying sory won´t make up, all that I made
I just wish that you could understand
And I don´t want the world to see me
´Cause I don´t think that they´d understand
When everything´s made to be broken
I just want you to know who I am
And I can´t fight the tears that are coming
Or the moment I´d lied in your eyes
When everything feels like the movies
And I bleed just to know I´m alive
And I don´t want the world to see me
´Cause I don´t think that they´d understand
When everything´s made to be broken
I just want you to know who I am..."
Tara was listening carefully to the lyrics, she knew that song, and that Willow had changed some of the lyrics. She could see the pain in Willow´s eyes, she wanted to go to her but she stood still.
Buffy was also listening and looking anywhere when she saw her. Tara was sitting across her listening and watching al Willow. She seemed like she was crying and her face was full of sorrow. She grabbed her drink and went to her table. She sat by her side and took her hand, she gave her a little squiz and continue listening to Willow. Tara watched her, smiled and look at Willow again.
The music started again and with her eyes closed Willow started to sing:
" The winter here´s cold, and bitte
it´s chilled me to the bone
I haven´t been in the light for weeks
to long too far from home.
I feel just like I´m sinking
and I claw for solid ground
I´m pulled down by the undertow
I never thought I could feel so low
oh darkness I feel like letting go
If all of the strength and all of the courage
come and lift me from this place
I know I could love you much better than this
full of grace
full of grace
my love.
So it´s better this way, You said
Haven´t seen this place before
where everything I say and do
hurt you all the more
It´s just that I´ve stayed, too long
in the same old sickly skin
I´m pulled down by the undertow
I never thought I could feel so low
oh darkness I feel like letting go
If all of the strength
and all of the courage
come and lift me from this place
I know I could love you much better than this
full of grace
full of grace
my love."
The music faded and Willow had tears in her eyes. She was missing Tara so much and she was so ashamed. She heard the applause from the Bronze so she kept singing.
" This one is the last one. I hope you like it." she said
Before the music started she said: " Forgive me my love"
" Still feels like our first night together
Feels like the first kiss
It's gettin' better baby
No one can better this
Still holdin' on, you're still the one
First time our eyes met - same feelin' I get
Only feels much stronger - wanna love ya longer
You still turn the fire on...
So if you're feelin' lonely don't - you're the only one I ever want
I only wanna make it good - so if I love ya a little more than I should
Please forgive me - I know now what I did
Please forgive me - I can't stop lovin' you
Don't deny me - this pain I'm going through
Please forgive me - if I need ya like I do
Please believe me - the way I say is true
Please forgive me - I can't stop lovin' you
Still feels like our best times are together
Feels like the first touch - still gettin' closer baby
Can't get close enough
Still holdin' on - still number one
I remember the smell of your skin - I remember everything
I remember all your moves - I remember you yeah
I remember the nights - ya know I still do
So if you're feelin' lonely don't - you're the only one I ever want
I only wanna make it good - so if I love ya a little more than I should
Please forgive me - I know now what I did
Please forgive me - I can't stop lovin' you
Don't deny me this pain I'm going through
Please forgive me - if I need ya like I do
Oh believe me - the way I say is true
Please forgive me - I can't stop lovin' you
One thing I'm sure of - is the way we make love
And one thing I depend on - is for us to stay strong
With every word and every breath I'm prayin'
That's why I'm sayin'
Please forgive me - I know now what I did
Please forgive me - I can't stop lovin' you
Don't deny me this pain I'm going through
Please forgive me - if I need ya like I do
Babe believe me - every word I say is true
Please forgive me - if I can't stop lovin' you
Never leave me - I don't know what I'd do
Please forgive me - I can't stop lovin' you
Can't stop lovin' you
The music stopped, Willow said goodbye and went to her table. When she got there she saw that Buffy wasn´t there, so she decided to go home.
After all she wanted to be alone and cry all night. She took her coat and went out.
When she was outside she stood for moment and then she started walking towards her house.
" I forgive you " Tara said walking behind Willow. Willow turned around and saw her. She couldn´t believe her eyes, nor what she heard. " What?" she asked.
" I forgive you Will " Tara said again. Tears were in her eyes. Willow closed the gap between them and hug her with all her strength. She couldn´t let go, she didn´t want to. Tara either. They stood like that for a long moment, niether of them wanted to break it.
Slowly the parted but not to far, they looked at each other and their eyes were so full of emotions. " Take me home baby" Tara said. Willow took her hand and led the way. When they arrived at the Summer´s house she stopped. " Are you sure?" she asked. " Yes2 was all that Tara could say.They entered and they went straight to their room.
Once inside, door closed, they stood there, in front of each other, watching, listening...
Willow took Tara´s head in her hands and kissed her. First slow, with so tenderness and so much devotion but their passion was consuming both of them and soon clothes were pulled, bed was involved, sking was being touched and love was being made.
They were silent and enjoying the moment when Tara spoke: " I´ve missed you so much my baby"
"I´ve missed you too" Willow reply. Then Tara asked, her voice full of love and emotion " Willow, would you marry me? Will you promise to stay with me? Will you promise not to hurt me again?"
With tears in her eyes she said YES and sang the last song:
" The words have been drained from this pencil,
Sweet words that I want to give you,
and I can´t sleep,
I need to tell you... goodnight.
When we´re toghether I feel perfect
when I´m pulled away from you
I fall apart.
All you say is sacred to me,
Your eyes are so blue, I can´t look away
as we lay in the stillness, you wisper to me
"Baby, marry me, promise you´ll stay with me".
Oh! You don´t have to ask me,
you know you´re all that I live for,
you know I die just to hold you,
stay with you,
somehow I´ll show you, that you are my nightsky
I´ve always been right behind you,
Now I´ll always be right beside you.
So many nights, I´d cryed myself to sleep
Now that you love me, I love myself.
I never thought I would say this,
I never thought there´ll be... You. "
The end.
Well I hope you have liked it.
Cecilia
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