New Fic - Neverland

[wimpy0729]

Oh wow...that was something else. My heart was pounding through the whole thing but at the end...wow...the lights had me totally tearing up. That was so beautiful. Tara just has to figure out these sweet gestures soon. I can dream anyway.



They way they were both going over everything in their minds was just overwhelming. Maybe they need to quit over-analyzing things and just learn to go with their feelings. Naah, that would be too easy.



And Willow's worries about pleasing Tara...oh man! Doesn't she know that when the time comes (sorry, bad pun) that she can just let her feelings take over and guide her and that the emotional part is just as big a part as the physical act itself. Everything will just fall into place and when the two come together (sorry again) there is nothing better in the world.



Again, awesome job. Thanks for the update. Left me feeling happy.



Oh yeah, can they go out in the rain and get wet and come home to no electricity and only have candlelight? That would make me happy too.



Wimpy





"There was plenty of magic." ~ Tara

[meretricious]

heather, nothing more irritating than when one of your friends can't stop talking about their new friends. took me a minute to figure what willow could get tara at a hardware store that might be too intimate, before i clued it would be the fairy lights (but i had some fun thoughts in the meantime). Getting more of willow's perspective was very nice. this must seem to be moving lightening fast to willow, after having years of a multi-time zone crush with almost no interaction. now living with the object of her crush, and getting involved in each other's lives, has to feel like someone's pushing the ff button a little. and for tara, much more intimate to now have willow's perspective on having slept in tara's bed. to know that willow remembers sleeping in her bed, and enjoyed it, that would be a little headswimming.

airport express, getting it for christmas-can't wait. and i'm enjoying the thermals, on "this is how we know" i always mean to listen to the lyrics, and then i get sucked into the baseline instead. then i saw a couple of rewiews that compared the open to echo and the bunnymen, so i had to go ahead and order that (i'm such a music whore)

now, time for them to hang the lights!-can't wait for more-mary

here and now is all that counts,here and now in large amounts,uh-huh
adam ant

Edited by: meretricious at: 11/21/04 8:37 pm

[hells bells]

o heather heather heather...*happy sighs* can i just marry you now? lol...j/k....but what a fantastic start to my morning...it's good to see willow and tara making the effort for each other....and ooo it's just beautiful. and sorry i have nothing constructive whatsoever..it's too early in the morning and i'm just happier now



*happy signs*

Jun.

-Make a darkness outside me, to match the darkness within-

[behindhereyes]

Heather



Wow... introspection indeed. You gave us so much more on what they've been thinking, feeling...and some of their history. Fairy lights, that was a huge aww moment. I'm feeling very anxious about Willow coming out to her Mom and Buffy... I want her to come through it with as few emotional scars as possible ! Wondering what Buffy was about to tell Tara... is it possible she suspects . Heather this story rules my W/T universe...YOU ROCK .



behindhereyes

Kim

"To the world, you may be one person; but to one person, you may be the world"

[EasierSaid]

My bad WillowMagic131, I'll remove the line. Sorry if it offended anyone else, I was just going for the play on the word, and not making fun of the syndrome or those that suffer from it. Again, very sorry.

Edited by: EasierSaid at: 11/21/04 7:13 pm

[JustSkipIt]

Thanks for the Thanksgiving wishes. We're hosting this year so we just finished sweeping and mopping. I guess it's to the grocery in the morning but it should be great. I hope yours is too.



What a great update. Very interludy (hey, a new word!). Finally Willow's thoughts go where I've been expecting them: what if I'm no good? Exactly! Not that it greatly matters but she doesn't know that Tara's not experienced. It will be great when they get to explore together but in the meantime, much fear. Nice exposition and timelining from Willows POV.



Tara - obsessed! Nice convo with Buffy the self-absorbed. Wonderful that Willow brought Tara the lights.



Well done.

"The arc of the moral universe is long, but it bends toward justice.” - Martin Luther King

[WillowMagic131]

I usually don't leave feedback because that's just not my deal. I only leave it when I really like the story or when something in the story REALLY bugs me. This time it happens to be both. I have a very dear friend with Tourette's Syndrome and it is NOT a disease. I understand that it was used as a joke, but I feel that you should at least make a note as to what Tourette's actually is if you are going to make jokes about it. Very few Tourette's sufferers have a verbal tic. That is a common misconception. I ask all that found that joke funny to at least take the time to look up Tourette's and educate someone about the disorder. It is an unpleasant thing to live with and I believe that everyone should understand it so they do not make fun of those that have it.



On that note, I LOVE the story. You are a great writer and I look forward to the next update. I am sorry if I was a bit harsh, but this is a touchy subject for me. Thank you.

Loving-Butch-Kiss-Tickles... For my GF only!

[Sassette]

This fic is an extremely good read, and I'm so happy to have found it This gorgeous, slow build-up to the W/T relationship/smoochies is really outstanding.



Sadly, I don't have time to gush as much as I'd like, but wanted to say that this update in particular will have a profound effect on the rest of my life, because "making sandcastles" is now my euphemism-of-choice for sex.



Thank you,

Sass

[meretricious]

I wanted to add an apology, also, to willowmagic131, if i offended you by being amused by the tourette's line, i was purely appreciating it as a play on words, and how snarky we can get when our friends annoy us. i actually have known a couple people with mild tourettes, who have for the most part grown out of it with the help of some medication on the part of one of them, and believe me, i don't take their struggles, or anyone elses, lightly. so, truly sorry, mary

here and now is all that counts,here and now in large amounts,uh-huh
adam ant

Edited by: meretricious at: 11/21/04 10:40 pm

[VixenyTarasHot]

Holy crap dude, this update kicked total ass! You totally made my day/night haha

We're seeing more and more, of course little by little, into the past of both girls, and getting closer to knowing what took place at the park years ago.



I like that they're getting over the uneasiness (sp?) and such and oh man the whole Willow buying Tara some of the "fairy-lights" killed me. I dunno, that is just something SO thoughtful and sweet, even though they HAD talked about it the night before... *shrugs* it just was really cute to me..



I hope there will be only progress from here and no more of that nasty angstyness



Also hope to read something soooooon, I was literally checking for an update like every hour of every day till I saw this, so please don't make me that desperate again



It's always worth it though



Ashleigh

"...A-and I'm gonna make it up to you. Starting right now."

(Starts to smile)"Right now?"

[Tempest Duer]

Yes, I'm taking Justin up on that offer! Though nobody's heard from him.

It's insulting to the whole gender[sic] of rap.



~Eminem

[sam darls]

Oh wow..that was simply amazing . And she brought her fairy lights . Love sam xx

"Sometimes things happen between people that you don't really expect. And sometimes the things that are important are the ones that seem the weirdest or the most wrong. And those are the ones that change your life." - Jessie Sammler (Evan Rachel Wood)

[WillowPowered]

oh wow that was sweet and very enlightening.



Jill

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Willow - Say, you all didn't happen to do a bunch of drugs did ya?



Willow Powered | Amber Powered | Alyson Powered



My lack of talent is more than made up for by my enthusiasm.

[alysagoddess85]

wow...so nice to have 2 non-ulcer inducing updates in a row...my stomach appreciates it.



i love how we got even more insight into the characters in this one...and seeing how they both hve their own fears and confusions...but that theyre each kind of fearing the same things as well. and whats up with buffy and her 'nevermind'ing?? grr on her.



anyways...great update as always heather!! definately nice to have some good quality reading to do before class!



~mel

'The Cat in the Hat' is fine, just not during sex.--Alyson Hannigan

[Arwen276]

Loved it!!

It's nice that it's a bit action-free, they take the time to sort their thoughts a bit!



Thanks for updating, you've made my day!



~Arwen

[hidden watson]

This is just beautiful.



Insightful, informative, without being sappy. And only a little angst (wow, that's a new one). It's not easy to put words to feelings, but you do it so well, so naturally.



And the smut kitten that I am, I'm now fixated on one thing and one thing only:

Quote:

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The reality of having sex with Tara, pleasing her, was suddenly upon the redhead, and Willow was freaked.

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and

Quote:

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Be patient, it might take up to an hour of continued attention to coax your lover to orgasm ... An hour...? What if it was an hour to nowhere?

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Well Willow, you never know till you try. Because, you know, an hour, you might not even want to stop!



On a personal note, I'd like to thank you from the bottom of my heart because you have been an inspiration to me. I finally decided to sign up for nanowrimo on Sunday and I know time is short and the chances of my finishing is slimer than slim. But if you can gift us with 11,000 words (this one was 6,400) in 2 updates, I'm sure as hell going to try for 50,000 in 9 days.

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quiet thoughts

[starcat73]

Great update!! I love that you let us get to really know Willow and Tara. It's like I almost know Willow's life story in this one update. Now I understand alot of Willow's actions and Tara's confusion. I like that Willow is trying to read Tara's emotions with her stuttering. Maybe now she can talk about Xander and see how upset Tara gets. *hint *hint



Poor Tara. Can't paint. can't read. What to do? Spend more time with Willow. maybe? Wishful thinking . Buffy's comment on the phone was interesting. Just.... What?



Willow bought Tara fairy lights! Yay! And she is going to help put them up. Yay! Willow and Tara in bedroom together. That will be very interesting to see. A very nervous Willow and a very nervous Tara standing on a bed to put up lights. There I go again dreaming.



I guess I will have to wait and see what you have planned for them.



Have a Happy Thanksgiving !!



Shawn (girl) not guy

aka

StarCat

[Willster]

Yay, fairy lights again!!!!



I hope they'll enjoy them together once it's all installed.. you know.. relaxing on Tara's bed?!! Okay I may be asking for too much..



But you know what's polite to do when someone give you a gift, give back a hug?!! Would have been nice..



Loved the update (hopefully I don't sound like a broken record)

[Grimlock72]

I liked Willow's view of history as how she and Tara got to meet. "Thus, she had been prepared to hate Tara in a number of various ways." hehe... Willow really should learn to stand up for herself some more, if it bugged her that much to room with Tara, should could have told Buffy to take a hike or something Of course it will eventually work out for her, I hope .



Willow needs some anchor/mentor in her closted-gayness-storm I think. She focusses on knowledge because she views that as the answer to all questions. Problem is that she questions the answers she gets . Reading how-to's on loving another woman was nice to read, typically Willow too. Combined with the fact that Willow pretty much views Tara as the one-and-only makes for a lot of stress on their 'first night' so to speak.



Did Willow ever tell the Oz/Veruca story to Tara? Seems like she got over it eventually, just wondering she and Tara ever talked about it. (Tara doesn't seem to know or hate Oz like she does Xander:-)



Willow likes to think she can be led by passion. However her overthinking due lack of confidence seems to block that. I'm pretty sure Tara can help her overcome that .



This line from Tara confused me: "Willow was her ideal, but... she had been so angry, so hurt and she knew she had said the words in spite. ". At who was Tara angry and in spite of who did she say the above? She didn't mention her break-up on the Day At The Parc did she ?



Willow's thoughts were hard to read at times, she's so down on herself at times. She's so confused too, sounds like she might drown if someone doesn't help her clear it up. Good thing she came out to Xander at least, one long-distance friend is better than none.



"I thought, maybe, I could, you know, maybe, help you put em up later. Or something.", poor shy Willow



Well, this update made me smile quite a lot which is a Good Thing(tm). Lines about sandcastles and such were nice too



Grimmy

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"You hurt Tara," Willow said too calmly. "The last one who tried that was a god. I made her regret it." -- Unexpected Consequences by Lisa of Nine

[veiled isis moon]

Once again i find myself..........



Can't help it your that good1

And what's wrong with fluffing up that ego of yours, it's well deserved chick. Am i allowed to ask if we're getting any closer to possible coming out-smoochy-telling the truth time??

[crazy florist]

woo! update! soory i haven't left feedback in a couple updates Heather, but im still enjoyin this fic immensely.



one thing that continues to bug me however, is that day in the park! cept its not just that day now is it? no, it was that day and night. what the bleedin eck happened? cos my heads a'wanderin now an im thinkin of events an scenarios an....its all gettin a bit much. and what was with the total freak out that both girls had followin said day?



rantin aside, much as i hate to admit it, i love that u manage to keep us hangin on with little tidbits about it every now and again. as if we'd forget!



this ep was beautiful, an the thought processes of both girls seems to show -shock horror- that they might be startin to realise THEY BOTH FEEL THE SAME!



to conclude, bring back buffy so we can get this comin out extravaganza of a show on the road!



love sam x

[littlecrazy80]

This was so amazing! Willow´s idea with the fairy lights was so great.

Hopefully they´ll stop thinking and worrying really soon.



*lil´c*

"I am S-E-X-Y" Amber at the FedCon



SweetAmber ~~~ AmberBoard ~~~ Sam´s melody

[Idgie]

Sally and I got back from our honeymoon (which was wonderful, as was the wedding) last night and passed the blackberry back and forth on the plane, and then when we landed and had to drive we went back to reading it out loud. Since I was the one doing the reading, I have to say I was quite happy that it was a happier, less angsty update.



I'm even more curious now about the day in the park, the context surrounding it, and why Willow and Tara thought the other didn't like her. I'm also curious about Buffy's seemingly concerned feelings about Willow and Tara being friends (or more) on their own. Is it just feeling left out or something deeper?



Willow has gotten some clarification surrounding her potential misunderstanding about Morgan - now Tara needs some information about the real nature of Willow's and Xander's relationship. If only she were as direct as Willow (but I guess Tara thought she was, back when Willow said she "loves" him). I have faith that things will all be resolved in good time.

[WickedReds]

OMG heather for once u didnt make my tummy all acidity.. that was a great update... really working on the good stuff now... willow just needs to come out dammit... hehe i know soon..



-reds



Mein Banane tanzt für Schmutz

Smutbunny Anthem: *sung to tune from Goldfinger* Smutbunnies...they'e the bunnies, the bunnies that love the smut...and Willow's butt. They surf for smut fiction...always lookin' for the next naked sweaty fix...of Tara's tits.- Written By Cameron(tarawhipped) For Us Smut Bunnies

[tarawhipped]

Okay, I know you said you might not be updating again til after Turkey Day, but just in case you do sooner, I wanted to get feedback in. This was such a chock-full-o'-info chapter that I'm sure I won't do it justice.



Willow thinking through her personal coming out process was so moving. The insecurity after the ordeal with Oz explains her reticence to redefine herself so quickly, especially knowing how Willow's mind works. I really loved how you sortof differentiated between her crush on an idealized Tara (since she rarely saw her), but also that it was the REAL Tara, not the ideal, that she fell in love with. That was really nice. And the fretting over how to please Tara sexually...that was pure Willow!



As for Tara's ponderings, now I'm more curious than ever about that darn day in the park. And what's Buffy's damage now??? Maybe she's beginning to get that "my two best friends like each other better than me" syndrome?



And you closed it on such a nice note. Go Tiny Jewish Santa passing out the fairy lights! And hey, storms that knock out lights and lead to flirting by flattering candlelight is good. Especially if they get caught in the rain on the way home and have to peel off all that wet clothing in the entranceway....



(just a suggestion )-Cameron

[astrangerhere]

I must say, you have achieved a real balance here with the way you have taken to writing your chapters. It is at one time humorous to see the opening closing door comedies that are the ways they percieve each other. Then at other times it is utterly heartbreaking when they fear that the other could never care for them as they are. I must say you have done quite a job here, and KUDOS for the supremely quick updates. Lookin forward to a sit down and re-read over thanksgiving.



ash

Can you help me with this heart in my chest? It ain't perfect, but you should see me use it.

[Sela]

Heather,

You addressed the two things that stood out to me in the last chapter in this part. First, the stutter...I admire the way you have made that a part of Tara in response to uncomfortable people and situations, and not just in an external way. The fact that Tara stutters in her thoughts is illuminating because it shows that her stutter isn't simply a physical reaction but an emotional one as well. It shows just how much time Tara spends in her own head. She's very much an internal person and yet there's no distinction between her inner and outer self. She is who she is, no lies, no preamble, just Tara.



Also, the fact that Willow genuinely worries about her sexual prowess is very telling. The way you describe her relationship with Oz has, for me, led me to see their onscreen relationship in a new light. And you've picked up on something that I had missed. Oz loved ol' reliable Willow. When she tried to make advances in the beginning and at the end of their relationship, he spurned her. He had an idea of who she was that he wasn't able to part with. Willow, in response, felt stifled. Sure, Oz left and that destroyed her, but in so many ways, it marked a new beginning, and more specifically a new beginning with Tara, without pretenses or preconceived notions. Here, you take us through Willow's emotional journey, how she came to realize she was gay and how she dealt with the repercussions, including a sexual reawakening. Her concern that she won't measure up is particularly intriguing given that she's assuming Tara is experienced. What you're setting us up for is undoubtedly both a sweet and sensual love scene that will bring out the passion in both of these women.



The build-up is phenomenal. Both women hope and suspect that the other is interested in them, but neither is willing to give the benefit of the doubt. That leads to frustration and even more frustration. But it's the little things with this story--the little victories, the little stories, the little memories-- that keep us going. I am waiting for full disclosure about the day in the park. Why did Tara want to hurt Willow by telling her who her ideal woman was that day? Why does Willow look back on that entire day with fondness while Tara is both overjoyed and sad about it? I'm sure it's centered on a misunderstanding, but I enjoy waiting for the bits and pieces you give us. Just a little more each time. One more mention until we are able to put it all together.



Also, nice brief shout out to canon in this episode, what with the fairy lights and the dorm room and all that. When you described Tara imaginging she was snuggled up to Willow, it felt like you were channeling the television representations of these characters, as if for your Tara, what really happened in the series was her AU.



I honestly cannot wait until the next update. It's just a tremendously well-crafted story. Marvelous job.



--Sela

[frau rosenclay]

Oh my goddess that was so sweet!!!



What they do for eachother is so endearing.



I've greatly enjoyed these last updates, the backstory was very nice. Fleshing out their own personal histories really helps the build up you've created, and it is a mighty fine build up at that!



Thank you.



frau

[Miss Evanescent]

I love this fic! have no idea why i havent given fb to it yet... i must be crazy! yay fic! update soon?

*worhsips heather*

[starcat73]

worships heather too