Fic: For All Your Good Intentions

[Grimaldi]

Great update, loved the action scenes, but a little sad that there is only on part left.

"Perhaps we should just leave nature alone to its simple, one-assed schematics."

[jomarch]

Yes, I'm back inthe office forthe second day with only 3 hours of sleep. Have just put note on admin assisstant's desk to not take any calls for the next two hours so I can answer all replies .



And yahh me, I'm a flaming O. (ok, i am actually laughing as I type this and said that out loud once again BUT luck is on my side as it is 7.45am and admin assist. is not at desk) *jomarch dances round office saying - I'm a flaming O a few times before calming down and continuing to write replies*





*Pixie* - So if I call you and sing all the songs from Assasins, you wouldn't say no??



*CK* - Well, just translate it from the noodle onto the board . Glad you like the action sequences. They are a bitca to write!



*Drakkenfyre* - Hi Sweetie, let me help you up and thanks for all your encouragement.



*foreverpiper* - I love it that you love the story.



*daydreamer* - Awwww, thanks! I liked writing those lines too. Congrats on the floating rose.



*Muttley* - Yes, it is the first time I have written fanfic. The only previous experiece was writing these fake updates for Sassette's story when she left us. They were in the old thread.



*Willow wtch* - Hi Sweetie, nice to hear from you again. Hope you had fun on your night out and visiting your grandma . yes, Ch 10 is the last chapter. it should not be too long.



*Grimaldi* - Thanks. I always feel that the action I write is too stilted - static I guess. Anyway, hope Ch 10 cheers you up a bit.

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You must think that something is happening with you, that life has not forgotten you, that it holds you in its hand; It will not let you fall

[tommo]

Right, so where's your problem with writing action scenes then? This read really well. Just the right combination of short sentences to push the action along and heighten the atmosphere.



I loved the tension, especially when Willow was sending thoughts to Tara. I really like how you're concentrating on their innate connection like that. It's romantic and, at the same time, very powerful. Sigh.

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Hey Grrrrlfriend! Yoo hoo! Over here! It's me...Flaming Joel!

[LeatherQueen]

jomarch! Excellent update! And yay for the Scoobies once again kicking major demon ass. But oh, only one more part? Do we get to see some W/T smoochies or snugglies in it, at least?

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"Honey, I'm the original one-eyed chicklet in the kingdom of the blind." - Glory

[Jae]

Okies... woo you! That was a great update and I join the crowd in saying (or, in this case, writing) that the action scene was extremely well done. I loved the Willow-babble in Tara's head, t'was so sweet and... and yes. I loved it



Sondheim references: I got the "hello little girl" one too, but as ever, am too late in posting... as for the other, I really love what I have heard of Assassins (The Ballad of Booth and the Ballad of... umm... that guy... "I am going to the Lordy, I am so glad. I am going to the Lordy, I am so glad... etc. I can sing it, but evidentally not name it. And I -can- sing the ballad of Booth.. ) and I have read the play... but I don't know the reference. *sob* The best I have is you mentioned the need a song and each of the assassins in the show has a song... some of which involve a jangly guitar. Yes, I know I'm reaching. Now I will have to go through it again til I figure it out... if I can.



Right, enough Sondheim babble. I can't wait for more! But I don't want it to end... *sniffle*.... will you be writing more? As in, other stories?



Anyway, the blasted (which translates to: beloved) board still won't let me register... so unregistered, but a fan (of you and Sondheim both), I leave off...



Jae

[Canadian Kitty]

Quote:

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Originally posted by Jomarch:

*CK* - Well, just translate it from the noodle onto the board.

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Ahhhh, were that it was that simple. Besides why write one when I can sit back and read yours?



CK

"You wanna go out sometime, for coffee, food, kisses and gay love?" Willow- Normal Again.

[Sassette]

I'm really liking this story ... your premise is great, your Scooby interactions are sweet, and it's just been a really fun read ... I'm looking forward to the next part *G*



Thanks for writing this - you do, in fact, rock.



-Sass

[jomarch]

*Tommo* - I totally agree with you. I LOVE writing Willow and Tara. I think I wrote this story so I could write about them and their relationship. Such a powerful and beautiful relationship. sigh.



*LeatherQueen* - I really wanted to go back to Tara Thoughts in Chapter 10 since I started with it in Chapter 1. But I do hope you will be surprised!



*Jae* - Fellow Sondheim fan. I do admit to cheating a bit because its not really from a song in Assasins per se. The reference is "Attention had been paid" (and I paraphrased it as well). John Wilkes Booth says it to Lee Harvey Oswald in the second act. He is in fact talking about the Arthur Miller play "Death of a Salesman" . I thought it would be cool to link that together here esp. on account of Restless as well . Weird thnigs run through my head at 2 in the morning!



*CK* - *Jomarch puts on James Earl Jones's voice* You must write, the force is strong within you, CK. Glad you like reading this.



*Sassette* - I rock, wow. Thanks ever so much. But you know, my cheer also mentioned an update on your part! Gooooo Sassette!

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You must think that something is happening with you, that life has not forgotten you, that it holds you in its hand; It will not let you fall

[Drakkenfyre]

Excuse me, Thank you for helping me up. I'm sorry but did someone mention Chapter 10 or was that just my pain medication kicking in. Please tell me I am having a lucid moment and this is not a dream. Life can be soo good sometimes. Need Chapter 10, *pouts*. I'll keep doing that until I get Chapter 10. *pouts* Wait, maybe I could beg again!?!

"We few, we happy few."
"We band of buggered."

[Owl]

* comes to in state of dazed confusedness, lostness and deliriousness *



oops! Meant to do this this morning, but then, there were obligations and migraines (ever tried biking home with a big honking headache...? gah! not recommended) Anyway, I am now recovered. Therefore, without further ado....



Betaage ahead, prepare yourselves, fellow Martians!

(that's the best i could do with jomarch+minion+kitten Pixie? )

*puts on mistress outfit and rides off into the sunset*

yee hah!

[Pixie gishmock]

* Pixie gallops up behind Owl, pushes her cowboy hat up off her eyes, hooks her thumbs into her belt and drawls* hey there, little lady. I've seen you around these here parts. Mah name's Pixie. * Pixie's horse gradually sidles closer to Owl's as she speaks. Suddenly Pixie slaps a pair of earmuffs onto Owl's head - this requires great dexterity, as Owl is also wearing a cowboy hat - and leaps onto Owl's horse behind her* Yee ha!! whipcha



I love Martians!! The only thing I could come up with was:



Kittens + (jo)march = kitchens

Personally, I vote for martians. Hey everybody (especially Jomarch)! Whaddaya think?

Edited by: Pixie gishmock at: 4/1/02 10:29:26 pm

[mollyig]

Ah, lovely updates to a great story.

I could paint you in the dark, 'cause I've studied you with hunger as a work of art - Collecting you (Indigo Girls)

[La]

I started reading part 9b at work and then had to leave in the middle and come home and finish it! You may not have written a cliffhanger, but I created one for myself!



I'm really looking forward to part 10.



Really really great job, jomarch.

~La



"No one can resist the golden lasso. It binds all who are encircled and compels them to tell... the truth!"
~Wonder Woman

[Bobos Mom]

Lordy, that was quite a ride!



Jomarch- I think you've found your calling. You are action girl!

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TARA: Willow and I always know how to find each other!

ANYA: With yoga?

[jomarch]

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This was suppose to be Ch 10 but the board got wonky so I posted it again below!

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You must think that something is happening with you, that life has not forgotten you, that it holds you in its hand; It will not let you fall

Edited by: jomarch at: 4/2/02 11:22:23 am

[daydreamer]

Um, Jomarch, so where is Ch. 10? Anyway, it's worth the wait. Still sad that it's the end. But I know you'll have another great story for us.

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I love you as certain dark things are to be loved, in secret, between the shadow and the soul... - Pablo Neruda

Edited by: daydreamer at: 4/2/02 11:16:00 am

[jomarch]

Spoiler Warning - It has some spoilers up to Normal Again.

Disclaimer - All characters, names etc belong to ME. I am just borrowing them for this short while in order to make them do what I want for a change instead of waiting to see what happens every Tuesday.

Rating - PG .

Title : For All your Good Intentions

Dedication – Well, this is for my Beta Reader Owl. Believe me, I probably would not have posted the chapters if I had not read all her encouraging comments in the e-mails back and all the punctuation corrections etc. Hope everyone likes this bit. It’s the return of Tara Thoughts and wicked Willow! I actually wrote this chapter while channeling Owl's voice in my head! I kept thinking - I wonder what Owl would like to read here!



Chapter 10



Tara quietly made her way downstairs. It was not yet dawn, and the household was still silent. Willow was so tired last night, and looked so at peace in bed that she was glad that she had managed to leave the comfort of it without waking her love.



As she entered the living room, she spotted the discarded issue of Nature she had been reading just ten days ago. 'Goddess!, has it only been ten days?' she thought to herself. So much had changed since then. So many, many changes in ten short days. It was remarkable. Then she realized that perhaps it wasn’t the length of time that was important, but the moments - The defining moments that changed your life forever.



She began to reflect back on such moments….



The first moment she noticed Willow at the Wicca meeting so long ago..…..The moment they first linked hands in magic….The moment they first linked hands in love….The moment Giles decided to come back to Sunnydale for good…….The moment Buffy decided to sacrifice herself in Dawn’s place……The moment the Scooby gang decided to accompany Buffy in her fight against Warren…..The moment Willow decided to come to her aid..….. The moment Willow felt her leg move……



All these extraordinary moments - some that start out with such good intentions and sometimes turn out so differently, so wrong. She would collect all of these moments and remember them. Those that ended well, she would cherish forever. Those that had turned out so dark, she would still keep and learn from. Each was so very important in its own way.



'Tara-girl,' she thought to herself, maybe it is too early for such thoughts. She knew exactly what Willow would say. She could hear it in her mind. Willow would say, "Ah, more Tara Thoughts, I guess we have to page Dr. Rosenberg." 'Yes, paging Dr Rosenberg, indeed,' Tara chuckled to herself.



* Hey baby*, Tara heard in her mind.



* Willow? Sweetie, why aren’t you still asleep? You should rest. We have your doctor’s appointment later*



* Yeah I know, but I kept hearing someone paging me,* Willow responded, pouting.



Tara could actually picture the pout the red-head was definitely giving * Sorry* she sent back



* S’ok. I’m feeling really cold and the blankie’s not warming me up enough. Besides, I believe Dr. Rosenberg wants to make a very important housecall anyway! [i/]*

* Does she? * Tara thought * and that impacts me how?*



* Well, Dr Rosenberg wants to give you an internal exam, so you better come up here, now!*



Tara could hardly hide her smile - another defining moment in their lives. A new day. * Well, only if I get to give you an exam too,* she sent up.



*I wouldn’t have it any other way, love,* Willow replied.



As Tara made her way up the stairs, she began to appreciate, to understand that fighting all the demons, vampires, and monsters were important. But just as essential was fighting their own internal demons - doubt, fear, guilt. They had triumphed on both fronts this time. They had survived. But it was never the end. More demons would come, from without and from within. But the one lesson they had both learned, the one thing that would hold all the bad things at bay, was that they would always be stronger together. Always together, never apart.



*Always, baby, always,* Willow echoed in her mind.









The End

(Thank God/Goddess/insert deity of choice here!)



For all my awareness

for all my knowability

for all my good intentions

and my advanced philosophy

I’m still a babe in the woods.





Melanie Doane (Babe In The Woods)



Wow, that was quite a ride for me - my first story ever. Thanks to everyone who gave me feedback and encouragement. Major thanks to Owl who had more faith in my writing than I did and helped so much with the beta’ing. Well, I guess what I would appreciate is your thoughts now that the whole story is done and you can read it through or not.



Was the pacing ok? Were there any major plot holes? Were there any major spelling /grammatical/punctuation errors that totally pissed you off (Owl, you can be honest). What did you not like/like about it, What there should have been more/less of? Etc…



Questions? Comments? (Said in Vamp Willow voice because it's cool)

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You must think that something is happening with you, that life has not forgotten you, that it holds you in its hand; It will not let you fall

[Sassette]

Very nice, jomarch ... it was well-paced, angsty, but with the needed happy pay-off *G* I really enjoyed it!



-Sass

[wizpup]

(Edited to take out my moaning about the fact that I couldn't find the last part)



Gosh - how rude of me to de-lurk with a complaint - sorry about that...



What I should have said was "This is a great story, I have really enjoyed it and I'm looking forward to the next part. Umm... where is the next part?"



Except of course I know where it is now!



Thanks for writing this story jomarch - it' s been great.

Edited by: wizpup at: 4/2/02 11:36:59 am

[tommo]

You end this story on such a hopeful note; it's so great to see that you don't just finish it, but it will go on. Oops, sorry, I was channeling Celine just then, ack...



Anyway, I loved how you rounded things off; Tara's understanding of the situation, her appreciation of Willow's love for her, the part that she plays in the Scooby Gang.



It's all good. I thoroughly enjoyed this you know. Please write some more soon. Oops. I have something of yours to read don't I? Heh. Okay then. Bad me.

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Hey Grrrrlfriend! Yoo hoo! Over here! It's me...Flaming Joel!

[Puff]

Jomarch I really enjoyed this story, I like the way you ended it and it's so nice just to have Willow and Tara in love. The main thing I liked about the story was that the characters progressed and reached an understanding of themselves in the fic....very cool.



Anyway I shall look out for your name next to a new fic sometime soon

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You know, it's a real deal relationship and that's why people can relate to it
Amber Benson

[Drakkenfyre]

Jomarch, what can I say but WOW!! I loved this story with all the heart and soul a lowly bard like myself can muster. The pacing was fine and the characterizations were on the mark. Thank you for allowing me to be a part of the feedback. I look forward with great expectation to your next fic. As I have told you before, follow the dream and let nothing or noone deter you from your path.

On a personal note, you gave people points for the Sondheim, do I get points for knowing Rilke? How many backwood West Virginian's do you think know who he is?? Points, a pat on the head, anything????

"We few, we happy few."
"We band of buggered."

[Grimaldi]

Great story, loved the ending with Tara reflecting on how Willow came into her life.

"Perhaps we should just leave nature alone to its simple, one-assed schematics."

[Canadian Kitty]

*wipes tear from eye* That was lovely jomarch. So simple yet deep, if that makes any sense whatsoever. This has been a great story and I'm glad you decided to share it with us. And of course, now that it's done, you must immediately commence another fic. It's a Pens rule.



Now you'll have to excuse me, I keep hearing this really deep voice telling me I must write another fic. It's kind of scaring me so I better do what it says.



CK

"You wanna go out sometime, for coffee, food, kisses and gay love?" Willow- Normal Again.

[jomarch]

Just wanted to reply to some feedback that I lost in the previous post that got eaten by the board



*Drakkenfye* - Please don't pout and you got Ch 10. Thanks for the e-mail and yes *sends hugs, kisses and special panties to Drakkenfyre* for getting Rilke and all the great things you said.



*Owl* - Bestest beta reader!



*Pixie* - Between Owl's plaid and your cowboy outfits - all these costumes

I feel so unspecial in the cheerleading outfit at work now and martians are great but I don't think I deserve any. Well, I was always partial to Marvin, though!



*mollyig* - Thanks for liking it and reading.



*La* - Hi, sorry that you gave yourself a cliffhanger. Hope you like Ch 10



*Bobos mom* - I miss the ' . Anyway, Action Girl! Action Girl!!!! I don't think...wait does it have a costume??



*daydreamer* - sorry for the confusion, it was there a minute ago! Its here now.



*Sassette* - I am so glad you enjoyed it. Now that it's finished, I can get back to my real job. Cheer Writing. Smittens we need to assemble soon (said in Superfriends' announcer voice)



*wizpup* - no problem. Darn Bermuda triangle part of board ate last update. Glad you like the story.



*Tommo* - Ruth, I don't particularly like Celine but you channeling her can make a girl change her mind . Your comments have been great and helped a lot. And yes, you do have that thing to read! Could you post the 10 pages of final exam first though...



*Puff* - Thanks. I really wanted the character progression which is why I had trouble with the action bits. But now all over so yahhh me!



*Grimaldi* - Yes,I thlnk I'm addicted to Tara Thoughts. I wonder if they make an ointment for that???



*CK* - Hi sweetie, I am so glad my voice works. Pens rule, huh?? I'll do another if you do yours....



*WiccansIllusion* - Fellow smitten, have you been practicing . Yes, Willow's still in the chair but she does have that doctor's appointment later..

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You must think that something is happening with you, that life has not forgotten you, that it holds you in its hand; It will not let you fall

[Drakkenfyre]

Yeah, I got "special panties!!" I feel so honored. * bows to Jomarch* Thanks Sweetie, I appreciate the props.*swoon*

I feel all tingly inside.

"We few, we happy few."
"We band of buggered."

[sheila wt]

I loved it! Congratulations, that was a wonderful start.

(note the use of "start" here? As in "we-would-love-to-read-more" start? )

I hope you don't stop, so we can keep having so many wonderful moments thanks to your talent.

Sheila

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Willow: "If you felt lost and alone? Where would you go?"

Tara:"To you."

[Muttley]

Enjoyed the reflective tone of the last chapter with the promise of a relationship based on strengthened foundations in the future.



Looking forward to the next story - but feeling somewhat generous so don't worry if it's not posted 'till the weekend (hehe).

[wolflord]

Great story. The ending was both touching and fitting. I know that when the story just started I mentioned that I did not like to see Willow in a wheelchair.....but I take that back. I see that was one of the devices used to further the relationship between Willow and Tara. You did a great job and I personally would like to see you write more or possibly a sequel. Either way Great job!!!

[Karzia]

Very Very Very nice. Well paced angast, with a happy ending. Well done jomarch, we need another story from you now I mean really, we need to know what happens with Will and the chair, are her legs healing? will she walk again? will Tara ever stop blaming herself? Do I smell sequel? Hope so.



My hats off to you, thank you for another great addition to W/T fiction.

"You can lead a whore to culture, but can't make them think"



D.Parker