Ok first replies to the feedback
*mollyig* - He's going to be worst, I guess.
*delany* - Oh god, the pressure, the pressure. Now I know why I can't sleep

. Thanks for you kind words.
*Owl* - You sound really British in my head there! read the dedication...
*Pixie* - So what's your yahoo IM nick? Maybe we all want to talk to you
*CK* - See, I am so afraid to not finish this but I really want to so I posted it. Wish me luck. And the voice is not copyrighted so use away.
*BM* - Hi Sweetie. sorry I did not post in time for you morning cofffee. Was sleeping for 3 hours straight (which for me is good). Hope you like this chapter.
Spoiler Warning - It has some spoilers up to Normal Again and you may want to read my previous story as it is set in the same universe. If you don't want to, it's ok too. Just realize that Willow is in a wheelchair and this would be set around two and a half years from start of current US season.
Feedback - Good God! Yes, please.
Disclaimer - All characters, names etc belong to ME. I am just borrowing them for this short while in order to make them do what I want for a change instead of waiting to see what happens every Tuesday.
Rating - NC -17 (well sort of. I am really bad at rating so its better to be safe than sorry) .
Dedication : I was unsure of writing this and when I sent it off to Owl, her comments were so sweet and great that I am more confident in posting it and getting on with the story so you guys owe her for making me do this.... And yes, this is so influenced by Ruth. I thnik I must have read Final Exam a few times to get in the right frame of mind. Flings panties at Ruth (with Santa Pixie's help)
Title : Left Of Center
Notes: With apologies to Elizabeth Barrett Browning, who gave us such a beautiful poem that I had to make it Willow's & Tara's (with my own inadequate words).
How do I love thee? Let me count the ways.
I love thee to the depth and breadth and height
My soul can reach, when feeling out of sight
For the ends of Being and ideal Grace.
I love thee to the level of everyday's
Most quiet need, by sun and candle-light.
I love thee freely, as men strive for Right;
I love thee purely, as they turn from Praise.
I love thee with the passion put to use
In my old griefs, and with my childhood's faith.
I love thee with a love I seemed to lose
With my lost saints,-- I love thee with the breath,
Smiles, tears, of all my life!-- and, if God choose,
I shall but love thee better after death.
Chapter 2
"Is everything alright, baby?" Willow asked as she gently placed small tender kisses starting from Tara's forehead and ending just at the side of her mouth. "You seem kinda quiety since we came back". She could feel Tara's smile begin to form, and her tongue flicked out, licking the side of Tara's sweet lips. She knew that the blonde had started to feel slightly uneasy midway through their patrol. Their
psychic link had amplified her apprehension.
Tara didn't want to alarm Willow, and since she couldn't really identify any danger... It was just a feeling in the back of her mind. She shook her head slowly and sent back thoughts of love and safety.
Willow knew what she had to do. Before, she would try to joke and pout to make the blonde smile. She had viewed love so differently then - so scientifically. She'd sometimes approached it like mathematics: all planes and symmetry and theorem proofs. Willow loves Tara equals good
things - QED. But now, everything was different. She wanted so much to let the blonde know - to give voice to her love. She placed her forehead against Tara's and began to recite softly,
"How much do I love thee? Let me show you the ways." She again kissed Tara - this time with more fervor. She wanted to show her lover, to convey so much, she only hope she could.
"You make me feel invincible. My soul soars and ascends to such a place of beauty." With that, she slowly nuzzled behind Tara's ear, her tongue flicking in and out, tasting her skin, her essence. She was glad when this earned a small moan from the blonde.
"You are my life, my heart, my reason. To love you makes me feel exalted," Willow then continued, whispering in Tara's ear. The blonde had closed her eyes at that, and had such a look of bliss on her face, it made Willow want to cry. "My love for you is essential to me. It is the air I breathe. It is the light that guides my way". Her fingers traced down Tara's cheekbone, reveling in the radiated warmth of her skin.
"My love for you transcends all other feelings. Even at my best or worst - my love will never waver." She slowly began to unbutton Tara's top, her nimble fingers lingering on every button. As she undid them one by one, she would stop and touch the bare skin underneath with such reverence, such tiny whispers of touch... Her fingertips traced a path around Tara's firm breasts and then trailed downwards. Slow, precise, movements - so that she could savor them - give them the proper veneration. She could do this for hours, she wanted to but she could also feel Tara's need, her unvoiced request.
"You are the span of my life, and the breadth of my heart. I want to be whole for you. Walk for you." She began to undo the drawstrings of Tara's pajama bottoms, her eyes never wavering from the blonde's face. She slowly, pulled them downward over her hips. The expanse of bare skin glowing with heat and passion. She placed small kisses on her belly - felt Tara's quickening breathing through the physical contact. Her fingers, trailing a path known by heart. Touching and caressing -moving with purpose. Tara was lost in the words and the feelings Willow was invoking in her mind, body and soul.
"My love is infinite. It will know no death nor pain. It will know only you." With that, she felt Tara arch her back as she entered her.
"Oh, Goddess... Willow, I love you!" Tara cried out, riding out the wave of pleasure that swept through her body, tears of joy coursing down her face. Willow had given her such a gift. It was the first time that she had initiated any lovemaking in the bedroom for such a long while. Willow would normally always ask or hint, and then wait for Tara to make the first move.
"Oh, baby... Don't cry. I didn't want to make you cry..." Willow's voice was uncertain. She hadn't expected the tears. She was frightened that she may have gone too far... pushed too hard.
"No... No. You... What you just said and did - It's value is beyond measure." The blonde witch leaned forward to kiss Willow. She felt it inadequate, but that was only the start, she promised herself. She would have her whole life to commensurately give back to Willow all that she had received: love, life, and magic.
Willow snuggled closer, happy at the words. The activities of the day and the patrol finally took their toll on her. With her eyes slowly drooping shut, and a smile on her face, she whispered one final thing - "Sleepy now. ...Gnight, baby."
"Goodnight," Tara echoed as she wrapped her arms around Willow, protecting her in sleep as she would when awake - with her body and soul.
Donny had followed them home, he knew what they were doing, of course. It sickened him. Their love - so pure. So sure. He had known about it the first time he had laid eyes on them as they entered the Magic Box so long ago. His sister and her witch. She thought him stupid... thought he was blind. She was the big college girl, but he knew the score... could see the love she had for the redhead, reflected so brightly from her eyes. He had told his father, only to have him laugh at that. "Are you
stupid, boy? Your sister's shy, and only interested in magic. Not people. That redhead is a witch. Pure and simple".
Only driving back that night was his father convinced, "She humiliated us! How dare she! You hear me, boy... She and that friend... Their punishment will come! Their day of reckoning." He had listen to the rant all the way back home. It hadn't really stopped, he could still hear the words in his mind. His father's stern voice, the hatred and venom of the words. But now, they were like a lullaby to him - they comforted him. Now, that he had the power to do something. He would make his father proud and then he would kill him and Cousin Beth…..but first, Tara.
He had done well -had not blundered in as he would have before. She never knew that he had always been around, on the periphery - watching and waiting. He had bided his time and learned their habits and weaknesses. He was not stupid. With death came great clarity. So much time spent going over his plan. Simple yet elegant. Now there was a word he had never found use for. Baling hay and growing crops did not strengthen one's vocabulary. But now, the words did flow, as did the magic. He was going to use them both to his advantage. He'd describe in minute detail to Tara exactly what he would do to the redheaded witch. The screams that would sound like music to his ears. He knew that his sister deserved to be punished. She was the one who had taken his mother away from him. She was the one who had excelled at magic and angered his father. She was the one who... He felt blood flowing from his palms. In his anger, he had broken skin. He licked the blood off. Time to feed. And soon, their day of reckoning.
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You must think that something is happening with you, that life has not forgotten you, that it holds you in its hand; It will not let you fall
Edited by: jomarch at: 4/5/02 12:54:29 pm