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Part 5d

Postby blameburner » Thu Apr 25, 2002 12:38 am

"Okay, before you said that you didn't think he was draining their power yet because that was the reason he lost last time. What does that mean?" Willow asked.



"Oh, right, the battle. Well, last Convergence The Guardian was still pretty young, and very immature. He started talking about what how he was going to focus the Convergence waaaaay before it happened. He thought he could just run around sucking up all the demon energy years before the Convergence. He was such a... such a..." Anya struggled for the right word.



"Boy?" Willow and Tara both suggested at the same time. They turned to each other and grinned, pleased they had thought the same thing.



"Right! Such a boy!" Anya said enthusiastically.



"Hey!" Xander and Giles both complained at the same time. They turned to each other and glared, somewhat annoyed they had thought the same thing.



"Before we get into a full-fledged battle of the sexes," Buffy said, "can we please hear the rest of the story?"



Anya went on. "So he went around draining all these demons, but he'd get full, and he couldn't hold it all in. So he'd have to release it, and then instead of realizing he needed to wait, he'd just start all over again. Overconfident, that one, with nothing to back it up. So he just kept up this cycle of sucking in all this power and then letting it go, for years," Anya said disgustedly. There was nothing she hated more than an overeager demon.



"Premature evil-u-ation. You see it all the time. A guy shoots his wad before it's time," Xander giggled.



"Alexander Harris! Young ears in the room!" Buffy reprimanded.



"Oh, sorry," Xander said sheepishly, looking at Dawn. She grinned.



"So his timing was all off when the convergence started," Anya continued. "Plus all that draining and expelling weakened him. He was vulnerable."



"Vulnerable to what?" Buffy asked. She liked vulnerability in a demon.



"Well, word got out that he was draining all these demons, over and over, and the other demons got pissed. So they got a bunch of humans together to go in against him," Anya said.



"Because if the demons had gone in, The Guardian would have drained them, too," Willow said, starting to understand.



"Exactly. Of course, what the demons didn't tell the humans was that there was no way they could beat him," Anya said grimly.



"Why not? He was weak, right? Weak from all the draining and filling?" Buffy asked.



"Well, yes," Anya explained, "but he was still extremely powerful compared to them. He killed them easily. But it worked just as the other demons had wanted. It distracted him long enough that they could go in and kick his ass."



"Okay, all those in favor of going and raising a demon army, say aye," Xander said, raising his hand. Of course, no one followed his lead, except Dawn, but Dawn just wanted to be supportive.



"A big no on the demon army," Buffy said. Then she asked Anya, "But you said they just kicked his ass. Why not kill him?"



"Oh, they tried. Believe me, they tried. But just as they were about to, he made them all explode. From the inside out," Anya said, a touch of disgust mixed with a touch of awe in her voice. It really was rather impressive, albeit totally disgusting. "The blast took out about a square mile, and no one saw him again after that. Which is why I thought he was dead."



"How'd he do that?" Willow asked, sensing the answer that was coming.



"Magic," Anya said simply.



"Of course. Had to be magic. On top of everything else, there's magic!" Willow shouted, her frustration bubbling over as she paced the room.



"There has to be a way," Giles said, getting up to start going through his books. There had to be something they could do.



"I don't think you're getting it. This guy is pure evil, capital E. He is a force like no other. Light magic wouldn't cut it. You'd have to use the most powerful dark magics in the known universe to just put a dent into him. And last time I checked, we didn't have access to anything like that, let alone anyone who could wield it," Anya said, looking at Willow before she could stop herself.



Willow saw Anya looking at her and stopped pacing, her hands balling up into fists as she glared at the ex-demon. She knew what Anya was thinking. Willow was about to start shouting at Anya when Tara stepped in front of her.



"Willow's not doing that kind of magic anymore. You know that, Anya, and you know why. Besides that, as powerful as Willow was, there's no way she could handle that kind of power," Tara said calmly but forcefully. Then she narrowed her eyes. "And if you ever dare suggest anything to the contrary ever again you'll be dealing with me. I may not have a thousand years of torture under my belt, but I can still give you plenty of pain."



Anya had the sense to look apologetic, then she looked away and walked over to Xander. When Tara turned to Willow, the anger was completely gone, having disappeared as quickly as it had come. Willow started to say thank you to Tara, but the blond just hook her head and smiled. My knight in shining armor, Willow thought as she clasped Tara's hand.



"There must be a weakness," Giles muttered as he pored through the most powerful magic books he had.



"There is," Anya said suddenly. "I mean, focusing all that energy into the Hellmouth has got to be draining, right? Way more draining than just sucking the energy out of demons, or else he wouldn't need to build up his power before the Convergence? So if we can get to him during the Convergence, when he's weak... maybe that's our chance?"



Giles thought about it. It was very risky, but if they could somehow weaken him further, they might be able to kill him.



"It might work. But we need to know more. And we have to search for a way to get to him before the Convergence starts," Giles said.



"That's what we've got a prisoner for, right?" Buffy asked, standing. "So, let's go know more."



Everyone followed Buffy back into the training room.



"So, you finally decided to come join 'ole Spike, huh?" Spike said, leering at the Slayer. "I knew you couldn't stay away for long."



"Spike..." Buffy said warningly. She was really in no mood, and Spike knew it.



"Whatever," Spike said rolling his eyes. It was as close to a complete drop of the subject as Buffy was going to get, and Buffy gave a little smile in thanks. If it had possible, Spike would have been blushing a bit.



"Has he been any trouble?" Giles asked, looking at the man tied to the chair, his head slumped forward.



"No, not really. He is awake though," Spike said walking over to the man. Spike bent down next to the man and lifted his head by his hair, being careful not to hurt him so as not to set off his chip. Spike bent down close to the man's ear, but still made sure everyone else in the room could hear him, and said, "You thought I didn't notice that, did you? Well, someone should have told you that vampires can hear the difference in your breathing between when you're asleep and when you're awake."



The man's eyes flew open to look at Spike, who's face had morphed. "I can smell your fear, you know," Spike growled, baring his fangs.



The man shivered, but quickly regained his composure. "You're impotent!" he spat into the vampire's face.



Sensing where things were headed, Buffy stepped in and put a hand on Spike's shoulder. "Easy there, dead boy," she said, her voice soothing despite the slight insult to her words. Spike let go of the man's head, and stood up, looking down at the Slayer. He was about to say something, but thought better of it, and stalked off. Spike grumbled quietly as he walked over to the corner, but Buffy's Slayer hearing picked up each and every word. She smiled. Despite all his false bravado, it was obvious he still cared for her.



Buffy turned her attention to the now awake man glaring up at her from his chair. She crossed her arms in front of her and jutted out her hip, and began to tap her foot impatiently on the floor.



"The Guardian takes care of his children," the man said defiantly.



"So I've heard," Buffy said. "But he doesn't seem to be here to take care of you right now, does he?"



The man looked like he was about to say something, but stopped himself. Buffy figured he was just going to re-issue his little motto, but was surprised when he said, "You have no idea how close to the end you really are." The man's voice was mocking, and full of venom.



Buffy started to reply, but Willow put a hand on her arm, stopping her. Buffy looked at her friend questioningly, but Willow just shook her head and looked back to their prisoner. After a moment, the man started speaking again.



"You think you're so smart. You think you can win. But you can't win. He's already won. They're all coming. He's drawing them in. Haven't you seen it? Can't you feel it? You're so stupid. He's putting it out there, and they're drawn to it. They're all here, just waiting. They don't even know it. He has them, and they don't even know it. And they'll stay here until he drains them," the man rambled his train of thought.



Giles studied the man. They already knew The Guardian was drawing demons in. What they needed to know was why, since The Guardian should have had enough power to be able to drain demons from anywhere in the world. "So The Guardian is drawing them towards the Hellmouth?" Giles asked, trying to lead the man along.



The man snickered and shook his head. "Just how stupid are you? Of course he is. He can't drain them unless-" The man shut up, realizing what he was about to say.



"What? 'Can't drain them unless what'?" Buffy demanded, inching closer to the man. But the man just stared at her, refusing to say anymore. Buffy grabbed him by his robe, lifting him high in the air, chair and all. She shook him, demanding that he tell them more, but he remained silent.



Frustrated, Buffy half-dropped, half-threw the man to the floor, the chair splintering beneath him. Buffy stalked towards Giles, not knowing how far she could go with the man. She didn't like the idea of torturing a human, but she was quickly considering it.



But Anya beat her to it. With a nod towards Spike, the vampire closed in on the man with just a few steps, hauling him up onto his feet. The broken chair fell away beneath him, and the ropes dangled loosely around his body before falling to the floor. Anya faced the man, grinning evilly.



"Do you know what a Vengeance Demon is?" she asked in a frighteningly sweet voice, while stroking an index finger down the man's cheek.



The man gulped, then nodded. "Good," Anya continued. "Then you know that Vengeance Demons like torture. We delight in it, actually. It makes us feel alive. Special. And I was a Vengeance Demon for a thousand years." Anya let the words sink in, and went on. "Evicerations were my specialty. I was very, very good at it. Some said I was the best. Ever."



Buffy and Giles watched Anya, horrified and yet somewhat impressed at the way she worked. She hadn't laid more than a finger on the guy, and he was obviously terrified. All Xander could think of was how he would never, ever upset Anya again. Willow too was impressed, although she felt a little guilty about it. Tara, however, was gripping Willow's arm tightly. She knew to some extent Anya's tactics were necessary, but Tara hated to see anyone that afraid. Plus, Tara wasn't all too sure how far Anya was willing to go with this.



"So imagine how I must feel, now, not being allowed to do that anymore. I've been human for nearly three years now, and in that time, I haven't been able to do one single eviceration. Not one. They wouldn't let me," Anya indicated the Scoobies with her thumb. "But see, these are desperate times. And you know where desperate times go, desperate measures follow."



Anya walked over to the weapons closet and came back brandishing a knife with a five-inch blade. She turned it over in her hands, getting a feel for its weight and size, then making a couple of slices in the air. "Good. Nice blade. Not too long, not too short. Just right for slicing a deep line across the belly, but without nicking the organs too badly."



Anya approached the man as she talked, using the knife as an extension of her hands as she talked. "See, I was a Vengeance Demon for far to long to ever be able to forget what it feels like. The warm blood sliding over my fingers as I cut into the abdomen, the stench of bowels and intestines as I reach on my hands and pull them out, letting them dangle to the floor. You know, the large intestine makes a very nice jump rope when it's cut out," Anya said, smiling at an apparent memory.



The man was shaking in Spike's grip, convinced he was about to die horribly. Anya held the knife up to his stomach, just a hairs breath from touching his skin. Tara was about to shout at Anya, scream at her to stop. But the man finally broke.



"He can't drain them unless they're within the borders of Sunnydale!" the man shouted.



Anya let the blade fall away from the man slightly. "Go on," she said, her voice still dripping with malice.



The man sighed and hung his head. He knew he was betraying his master, but... "The Hellmouth has a mystical border. The Guardian is strong, but he can't drain demons outside the border during the twenty-four hour period."



"What twenty-four hour period?" Giles asked, stepping closer to the man.



"I don't know, exactly. All I know is that he will be draining the demons of their energy for twenty-four hours, right before some big energy starts pouring into Sunnydale," the man said.



"The Convergence," Willow stated, understanding. Giles looked to her and nodded in agreement. It had to be the Convergence.



"What else?" Anya said sharply, raising the knife again to the man's belly.



"Anya!" Tara shouted. Tara couldn't take this much longer.



Anya ignored her. "What. Else?" she said again dangerously.



"Okay, okay... just don't kill me, please. I'm begging you," the man said, sobbing.



"Well that really depends on you. Tell us what you aren't telling us," she said.



"While The Guardian is draining the demons, the demons will be... incapacitated. They can't hurt anyone. They'll be too weak," the man said.



"So that would be our best shot then, right? To kill him? When the demons can't protect him?" Buffy asked Giles hopefully.



"You just don't get it, do you?" the man said, shaking his head. "You can't kill him. Especially not when he's draining the demons. He'll be a hundred times more powerful than he is right now. He'd kill you with just a thought."



"What about after the twenty-four hours? When he's focusing the big energy?" Anya asked the man, already suspecting the answer.



The man paled, but said nothing. The man's non-response confirmed her earlier theory about The Guardian's weakness. Everyone else caught it, too, and knew this was their only real chance.



"Well, then," Giles said. "I suppose we better figure out what to do with this one," Giles indicated the man.



"I say we kill him," Anya said gleefully.



"Anya, while I was willing to allow you to pretend you were going to kill him in order to get the information we needed, as dubious a concept as that was, I am not going to let you kill him," Giles said disapprovingly.



"Who was pretending," Anya said, confused by Giles' statement. "If he didn't talk, I was going to kill him. And I still think we should."



"Anya..." Xander warned.



"What? If we let him go, he's going to go running back to The Guardian and tell him all about us, about how much we know, and The Guardian will make us go poof. We can't keep him tied up for the next week while we're trying to take The Guardian out. So what do you want to do with him? I realize he's human, and you people get squirmy about your stupid 'no killing humans' code, but..." Anya trailed off, letting her suggestion hang in the air.



Giles hated to admit it, but Anya was making a certain amount of sense. The Watcher abhorred the idea of killing a human, but sometimes, it really was the lesser of two evils. Killing Ben had proved that. It had been necessary to prevent Glory's return and to prevent her from killing them all. Killing this man would largely work toward the same end - saving their own lives. But this man was no God trapped in a human body. He was human, and an underling, at that.



Before Giles could come to a decision, Tara moved assertively past Willow and marched up to Spike. "Let him go," Tara said, her eyes narrowed in anger. She had had enough.



Anya put her hand on Tara's shoulder, trying to turn the blond to face her. Tara whipped her head around and glared at the ex-demon.



"I have defended you Anya. Many times. I've said you're no longer a demon, that you're finding your humanity. But this," Tara gestured to the man still held up by Spike, "this is wrong. And if you can't see that, then you're not human."



Anya stared at Tara, letting her words sink in. Tara was the only one who had always supported Anya. She didn't make fun of Anya, or criticize her, and Tara always quietly encouraged the ex-demon. Anya realized that if Tara was this disappointed and angry with her, then she must have really messed up.



Tears formed in Anya's eyes, and she nodded sadly before moving away. She walked over to Xander, who enveloped her in a silent hug. Tara turned back to Spike, challenging him with her eyes. Spike knew better than to piss off the witch any further, and had the good sense to release the man into Tara's hands.



Tara walked the man over to a nearby bench, and had him sit so she could check him over. He really wasn't injured, just scared, and his breathing was hiccuped by broken sobs.



The rest of the group was watching Tara. She turned back to them and said, "We can't do this. We can't kill a man for no good reason. It would be murder, and we don't commit murder. We're better than that," she said sincerely.



They all knew she was right, and they all felt guilty about it. Tara looked into Willow's eyes, and saw Willow's guilt. Tara knew that for at least a few moments, Willow had been thinking that killing the man might be necessary. Tara knew, because she knew how Willow's mind worked. It was her logical nature, and she didn't fault Willow for it, because Tara also knew that Willow never would have actually gone along with murdering the man.



Tara smiled at Willow, letting her love know it was okay. Willow smiled a relieved smile back, but then her eyes grew wide in terror.



"Tara!" Willow screamed.



Suddenly Tara felt a strong arm around her waist and an equally strong arm around her neck. Tara felt her breath being cut off by the pressure of the man's arm at her neck, but when she saw the metal blade gleaming in his hand, she didn't think she could have breathed properly, anyway.



Willow was paralyzed momentarily, unwilling to move for fear of the man's response. Buffy, however, had no such fear, and moved towards them.



"Stop!" the man shouted. "Come any closer, and I'll slit her throat."



That stopped Buffy in her tracks, along with everyone else. Except Spike. Spike was in the shadows, where he had walked to when he had given the man to Tara. The blond vampire slipped slowly and quietly around the room, keeping to the shadows and keeping his movements small so as not to attract the man's attention.



Willow noticed Spike's movements, though she didn't let on, and a plan quickly formed in her head.



"So, have you been planning this all along?" Willow asked, trying to keep the man's attention focused on her.



The man laughed, then sneered. "I saw this one grab your arm when that thing," he nodded toward Anya with his head, "was threatening to slice me open. I knew the blonde here wouldn't let you people hurt me." He ginned wickedly.



"And, what? You think we're just going to let you walk out of here? You think I'm going to let you leave with her?" Willow said calmly, taking a step closer to the man holding Tara.



"Willow," Tara gasped in warning, not wanting the redhead to put herself in danger.



"Willow, is it? So what, is she your sister or something?" the man asked Willow.



"She's my everything," Willow said simply, taking yet another step closer.



The man snorted. "Too bad. Waste of good flesh," he said. Then he reached out his tongue and licked the side of Tara's face, and leered at Willow, challenging her.



Willow's hands balled into fists and her eyes flashed with anger. Tara pleaded with her eyes, silently begging Willow not to give into the darkness Tara could sense was welling up within Willow. Willow returned Tara's gaze, her decision made.



"Remember that little discussion we had earlier?" Willow asked dangerously, her eyes darkening and narrowed. "The discussion about me taking on a Hell God?"



Willow could see that her words were having the desired effect on the man, as he began to sweat and look around the room nervously. Willow went on, slowly walking towards the man and her lover.



"Wanna know how I did it? Better yet, how about a demonstration?" Willow asked coldly.



"Willow, don't do it!" Buffy yelled. She was fighting the urge to run up and grab Willow, but Buffy remembered exactly what Willow had done to Glory in revenge of Tara. Buffy was honestly afraid of what Willow was capable of now, with Tara still in danger. More than that, Buffy was scared of what Willow could do to her if she tried to interfere.



Willow was only two feet away now, staring directly into the man's eyes. She lifted an eyebrow. "Well? Which would you prefer? The hard way, or the harder way?"



The man gulped and released his grip ever so slightly. It was just the opening Spike needed. Spike leapt at the man from behind, grabbing the arm that held the knife to Tara's throat and yanking it sideways. Tara spun away from the man as Spike slammed the man's hand onto his knee, intent on knocking the knife out of the man's hand, but the move caused Spike's chip to go off, doubling him over in pain.



It all happened so fast. The man turned, wanting to run out the door, but ended up running straight into Tara's back. Willow saw it all in slow motion... Tara's eyes flinging wide... Tara stumbling forward... the man pulling back in shock... his bloody hand, with the knife still in it... Willow rushed forward and grabbed Tara, lowering her gently to the floor.



Willow fell to her knees, holding Tara. Willow looked up at the man through tear-blurred eyes. The man was stumbling backwards, looking back and forth from Tara and Willow to everyone else in the room.



"You son of a bitch!" Anya screamed.



"You're gonna pay!" Buffy snarled, running at the man.



He was backed into a corner, with no way out. Before Buffy could reach him, before anyone even realized what was happening, the man raised the knife in his hand and plunged it deep into his chest, into his heart.



Buffy stopped short of the man, completely shocked. The man's eyes rolled up into his head, and he fell to the ground. With a few gasps, he was dead on the floor.



Giles was at Tara and Willow's side, trying to get Willow to let go of the blond so he could check the wound. Willow was hysterical, and she just kept crying Tara's name over and over. Willow shut her eyes against the flood of tears. It's all my fault... all my fault... I should have just blasted him... I should have... should have... Tara...



Tara's voice sliced through the fog of Willow's babbling mind. Willow's eyes flew open to meet Tara's. Tara was smiling weakly, her eyes remarkably bright for someone who had just been stabbed. Willow looked down at Tara in confusion, and then up at Giles.



"Why is she smiling? She was just stabbed! Is she bleeding to death? She's in shock... is she in shock? Oh my God, oh my God-"



Tara cut Willow off. "Willow, honey, breath."



Willow had a million thoughts running through her head, all at the same time and in different directions, but she couldn't get a single one of them to her mouth. She stared down at Tara, her mouth hanging wide open.



Giles had managed to turn Tara onto her side so he could check her injury. He smiled gratefully. The wound was not deep, just a shallow cut. Plus it was near Tara's side, and the bleeding had already slowed considerably. It was really just a flesh wound.



Tara looked up at Giles, who confirmed her own diagnosis. "It's just a flesh wound, right?" Giles nodded.



"Baby, I'm fine," Tara said.



Willow was relieved, but reality was starting to settle in. An inch to the side or a little bit deeper, and she could have lost Tara.



"Oh, baby, I'm so sorry... I should have done something... I should hav-"



"No, Willow. You did the right thing," Tara said, trying to soothe Willow's distress.



"What do you mean she 'did the right thing'?" Buffy asked incredulously. "She got all dark magic-y with the guy! She could have killed him! Or us!"



"No, Buffy, she didn't," Tara said. Tara smiled at Willow, her heart bursting with pride. Tara had seen the magic welling up inside Willow, but Tara had looked deep into her lover's eyes, pleading with Willow not to give in. And Willow had answered that plea. It was such a small change, no one had noticed it. But Willow's hands had unclenched, just slightly, and Willow had flashed Tara a look that told her the redhead had heard her, and wouldn't give in.



"Huh?" Buffy said, completely confused. "But she was all 'how about a demonstration of how I kicked a God's ass!'"



Willow had calmed down enough to blush slightly at the Slayer's words, remembering how much false bravado she had leveled at the man.



Tara giggled, then winced slightly. Giles was pressing some gauze Anya had handed him into Tara's back, controlling the trickle of blood still seeping form the wound.



"Buffy, I watched her eyes the entire time. They never changed," Tara said.



"But... okay, I don't get it," Buffy said lamely. "When I yelled at you to stop, you just ignored me," she told Willow.



Willow looked at her best friend. "I'm sorry, Buffy. I wanted him to think I was really going to do something. I couldn't let you know I was okay, or he would have realized I was faking it."



Buffy suddenly felt very guilty for assuming the worst, and it showed on her face.



"Buffy, it's okay. You had every reason to think I was going to use magic. In fact, that's what I wanted you to think. I'm sorry I scared you," Willow said sincerely. She wasn't angry at Buffy. How could she be? After everything she had done... it was only natural.



"No, Wil, I'm sorry. I should have had more faith in you. You've proven yourself over and over again, and I just keep assuming the worst. I'm so sorry," Buffy said, her voice choked with emotion. Buffy knew how hard Willow had worked to get the magic under control, and how hard she had to work to keep it in check when they, and especially Tara, was in danger.



"S'okay," Willow said quietly. Then her voice grew stronger and she said, "Really."



Buffy smiled gratefully, and the Willow turned back to Tara. "I guess I got all large with the butch, huh?" Willow said sheepishly.



Tara grinned and said, "Yeah. You were very convincing." Then Tara reached up her hand and pulled Willow down to her and whispered, "And it was pretty darn sexy." Willow began a blush that only intensified when Tara brushed their lips together.



"Hey, no molesting the wounded!" Xander joked. Willow sat back like she had been burned, and Tara just giggled, then winced again.



"Okay, how about a little road trip to the hospital?" Buffy asked.



"Yes, quite right," Giles stood, and he and Xander helped Tara up. As soon as Tara was standing, Willow pushed Xander out of the way and put an arm around her lover.



Willow started to walk Tara out the door, but then turned to Spike. The blond vampire had been standing in a corner out of the way ever since Tara had been stabbed and the man killed himself.



"Spike," Tara called, reaching out her hand to him. Spike looked at her questioningly, and then walked to her side to put another arm around her. Willow looked at Tara, who just shook her head and smiled. No one else might have noticed, but Tara's empathic abilities, along with her semi-understanding of the vampire, told her that Spike felt guilty. Tara could feel it. Spike thought it was his fault that she had gotten stabbed.



His heart may not be beating, but he definitely still has a heart, despite himself, Tara thought. She would not make a big deal out of it in front of the others, because she knew Spike wouldn't like it. So Tara had called him specifically over to help her, knowing that it was as much thanks as Spike would accept for the time being.



Willow and Spike walked Tara slowly through the Magic Box and towards the front door.



"Uh, what about... him?" Xander asked, pointing at the body on the floor.



"Oh, right," Giles said. In his concern for Tara, he had almost forgotten about the dead man.



"We'll take care of it," Anya said definitively. She punched Xander in the shoulder. "Come on. You're helping me. Give Giles your car keys." Then she turned to Giles. "We'll meet you at the hospital when we get done."



Giles, Buffy, and Xander stared in amazement at the ex-demon. They had no idea why she, of all people, would volunteer to take care of the body, let alone for manual labor.



"I'm human," she said simply, as if it explained everything. And in fact, it really did.



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"Sir," the man in the black robe said from bended knee. The man knew his master would not be pleased that the vampire had seen them, let alone captured Michael. At least, Thomas was assuming Michael had been captured, since he had not returned to the caverns with him.



When Thomas had sliced the vampire with his dagger, he had assumed that Michael would follow his lead and use his own dagger. Then Thomas had just started running. He had assumed Michael would be on his heals. Apparently, he was wrong.



"What do you have to report to me, Thomas?"



"We did as you asked, sir. We followed the vampire and set the Tremorg loose on him. He performed as you expected," Thomas said humbly.



"The vampire fought off the Tremorg?"



"Yes, sir. He defended the two witches and the other one," Thomas said.



"Good. And I presume the vampire defeated the Tremorg?"



"Yes, sir," Thomas answered.



"Excellent. And where is Michael?"



Thomas paused before answering. "I'm sorry, sir. The vampire discovered us and captured us. I escaped, but Michael... I don't know what happened to him. I presume he was taken prisoner."



"How did the vampire capture you? He shouldn't have been able to hurt you."



Thomas paused again, not wanting to explain how they had been scared by a couple of witches. "It was the witches, sir."



"What do you mean, the witches?"



"Well, sir," Thomas explained, "they threatened us. The red-haired one said she had faced Hell Gods. Could she have been referring to Glorificus?"



"It doesn't matter. What else?"



Thomas was confused by the statement that it didn't matter, but tried not to show it. It wasn't his place to question anything, he knew. "Well, sir, it may be nothing. But I noticed the vampire was especially protective of the other one."



"Which other one? The Slayer?"



"No, sir. It was the youngest, the one with dark hair," Thomas said, unsure of how else to describe her. "He was very gentle with her. Like an older brother. She doesn't seem to have any powers of her own, sir."



"You are wrong, Thomas. She has the greatest power imaginable. Anything else?"



Thomas was even more confused now, but he hid it. "Nothing, sir. I cut the vampire and escaped, and came immediately back here," Thomas said. "Sir, shall I tell the master what happened?"



A tall man stepped from the shadows from where he had been speaking. "No, Thomas, I will take care of it. You did well. The Guardian will be pleased. Stand up, Thomas."



Thomas rose to his feet, happy that Dakin thought the master would be pleased. His happiness faded, however, as his blood poured from his neck. Thomas fell to the floor, dead. Dakin smiled, wiping his blade off on the hem of his robe. Two other men entered the room and dragged away Thomas' body. Dakin turned and went to The Guardian's chamber.



"How are things progressing, Dakin?" The Guardian asked his second-in-command. The Guardian did not especially like humans, but he needed human followers. He had to have someone helping him who wouldn't go insane before the Convergence. Plus, humans were much easier to control than demons.



"All is going as planned, master," Dakin answered, bowing his head. "The demons are all flocking to Sunnydale. You should have all the power you require for The Draining."



The Guardian smacked Dakin across the face, hard, knocking the human back, but not to the ground.



"I better, Dakin. I will not fail again," The Guardian snarled.



"Yes, master," Dakin said reverently.



"Is there anything else I should know about, Dakin?" the Guardian asked.



"No, master," Dakin lied.



******************



"You are safe, she says. Inherent in you is a truth no artificial world can fade." - The Journey

blameburner
 


Re: Part 5d

Postby willowphile410 » Thu Apr 25, 2002 1:38 am

hahahahaha...i've gotten one of your "references"...the Sasstommlisjess Convergence??? That's fantastic! When is it? Are you selling tickets? Are they gonna let Sass and tommo out of prison for it? Great update, blameburner...

"coffee, kisses and gay love"...the only things in this world to live for...

willowphile410
 


Convergence, who?

Postby blameburner » Thu Apr 25, 2002 1:46 am

See? I knew I wasn't as smart as I thunk I was... :)



So, you seem to have gotten half of a half... so does that mean I should give you a quarter fo the cheese? Hmmm... I think not!



I would like to know:

1) What the other half of Sasstommlisjess "refers" to.

2) Why I did that (think like Jeopardy! You've got the answer, now what is the question)

and

3) The as yet unmentioned other reference



Then, I shall hand over the cheese!



-blame

"You are safe, she says. Inherent in you is a truth no artificial world can fade." - The Journey

blameburner
 


Re: Convergence, who?

Postby willowphile410 » Thu Apr 25, 2002 1:55 am

Well, of course, the other half would be Lisa and Jessan...oh, no...you're not throwing them in prison with Sass and tommo, are you?!?



Why? Hmmmm...



As for the other reference...*scratches head...I'm workin' on it...I've got a theory...that its an episode...but I might be waaay off....

"coffee, kisses and gay love"...the only things in this world to live for...

willowphile410
 


Re: Convergence, who?

Postby blameburner » Thu Apr 25, 2002 2:10 am

Wait... when did Sass and tommo go to prison? And why wasn't I invited?!?!



Edited to add:

As for the other reference... I've got a theory... you may be getting warm... um, maybe. Hehe

"You are safe, she says. Inherent in you is a truth no artificial world can fade." - The Journey

Edited by: blameburner at: 4/25/02 1:12:45 am
blameburner
 


Re: Convergence, who?

Postby willowphile410 » Thu Apr 25, 2002 2:15 am

ok...I'm going out on a limb, here. It is very, very late, and my synapses aren't firing like they should be. Is the other reference the pun where Giles wonders how things got back to "normal again"? I think I might be reachin' on that one...



And, yes, there's some prison-bitch-lovin' goin' on...but I'm still not sure who is whose bitch. It's all very confusing...

"coffee, kisses and gay love"...the only things in this world to live for...

willowphile410
 


Re:

Postby mollyig » Thu Apr 25, 2002 5:18 am

The characterisation of all of the characters is really well done. The Guardian sounds like a big Big Bad. I mean if it scares Anya - yikes!



I love that Anya and Buffy both had the same reaction to seeing the robed "Guardian's child".



Anya scared me with her little Miss Psycho Evisceration Squad routine.



And was really worried that Tara had been seriously hurt.



All in all - great work - well done!

Adding up the total of a love that's true, multiply life by the power of two
Indigo Girls

mollyig
 


Re: Part 5d

Postby xita » Thu Apr 25, 2002 8:44 am

Willow faced her darkness and stood up to it. So now we have the backstory on the guardian. Thanks for the update!

- - - - - - - - - - - -

"Everything is turning out so dark..."

"No, it's okay. Lost is good. Willow and I always know how to find each other!"

xita
 


Re: Part 5d

Postby Thanatopsis » Thu Apr 25, 2002 11:04 am

Quote:
Then, I shall hand over the cheese!




What kind of cheese?

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Because he's with Willow. And if something ... happened, I'd know.

Thanatopsis
 


Re: Part 5d

Postby blameburner » Thu Apr 25, 2002 3:19 pm

Okay, so willowphile410 wins my little challenge. I knew I wasn't so clever as to fool you Kittens. Ah, well. I tried.



For those of you who missed it...

Reference 1 - Sasstommlisjess Convergence. I combined the names of Sassette, tommo, Lisa of Nine, and jessan15, in homage to my favorite writers who's fiction I am totally addicted to. I hope they don't mind.

Reference 2 - yes, willowphile410, it was indeed "Normal Again" - silly, I know, but I couldn't resist.



And now for "the cheese." The reward (if you can call it that) for this challenge is that the winner gets to tell me some things they would like to see in witchy-love (i.e. smut) moment to be included later in this fic. So, willowphile410, give me three specific things, and I'll write around what you've got. As for the specifics (I want to be creative, so the stranger, the better - though not tooooo strange!)... they can be anything from clothes to location to, um, whatever else your dirty little mind can come up with.



Of course, if anyone else wants to throw around some ideas, feel free. These are non-plot ideas I'm talking about, of course! I make no guarantees, but I'll see what I can do. I love reader feedback! It's so... inspirational. :hat



And I forgot to mention this before... a big 'ole Woo and Hoo to molsongrrrl for all helping me plug all my holes... plot holes, people, plot holes!



***Wolflord - hmmm... sweaty goodness... coming soon!



***BigMac - um, you might as well use all your hot water now, cuz you're not going to need it fairly soon... hehe



***mollyig - Can I just tell you that the Hawaiian shirts line is probably my favorite so far? I know, I'm a dork. And yeah, Anya scared the crap out of me with that whole torture thing. The show really played up the humor of her dealing with her demon past, but I guess I always thought that underneath the jokes there is a very dangerous girl in there dying to get out. I mean, every time I see "The Wish" - yikes!



***xita - I think in some ways Willow will be facing her darkness for the rest of her life.



***Thanatopsis - Ah, yes, the cheese. Sharp cheddar?



-blame



Edited because, once again, I'm an idiot.



"You are safe, she says. Inherent in you is a truth no artificial world can fade." - The Journey

Edited by: blameburner at: 4/25/02 2:23:19 pm
blameburner
 


Re: Part 5d

Postby Thanatopsis » Thu Apr 25, 2002 3:41 pm

Aw, I thought it was going to be real cheese. Not that I'm complaining about smut, mind you. Hmmm. Oh well. Smut is much more welcomed than cheese.



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Because he's with Willow. And if something ... happened, I'd know.
I am indebted to the Supreme Llama and we ask him for health and nakedness while dancing...We offer Shrubbery and peanuts to him at each prayer time;

Thanatopsis
 


Re: Part 5d

Postby Scout » Thu Apr 25, 2002 3:45 pm

Wow, what a nice long update! So much excitement and suspense. Great stuff! Looking forward to more. :)

Scout
 


Re: Part 5d

Postby witchbitchwillow » Thu Apr 25, 2002 3:57 pm

heya



just caught up with this fic. sorry ive got a bit behind recently ahh but im loving the fic. cant wait 4 the next chapter.



love ellie x x x x

*thats me as a vampire im so evil and skanky and i think im kinda gay*

*no candles? well i brought one its extra flamey!*

witchbitchwillow
 


Re: Part 5d

Postby BigMac » Thu Apr 25, 2002 4:06 pm

That is nice a few hot showers before cold. I like how Anya scare the the black robe man and she was going to do it nice. They should have let Spike have a meal since the guy was dead.

Tara: Assume Crash
Positions

BigMac
 


Re: Part 5d

Postby katydid » Thu Apr 25, 2002 6:32 pm

I have been lurking lately...but I always check for updates on this fic. I love it so far. What more could a kitten want...we got smut with a storyline!! I love the way you write Willow and Tara...you have picked them up great. :D

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She practically had genuine molded plastic stamped on her ass.

katydid
 


Re: Part 5d

Postby Wolflord » Thu Apr 25, 2002 6:56 pm

Whooo hooo BB, I loved it :bounce :bounce :bounce I loved the questioning of the prisoner. Although I hate that Tara got hurt. Love that Willow bluffed the guy into thinking she was going all dark magicky, although I really was disappointed that everyone just assumes that Willow is going to relapse. You really got the emotions and thoughts of everyone down. I did catch the Normal Again reference but totally did not catch on to the Sasstomlisjess reference. So keep up the great work.

You know even though I didn't win the contest, anyway could you throw in Willow doing a belly dance for Tara? :grin :grin please with honey and strawberry jam on it? :grin :grin



_________________:evil WOLFLORD :evil ________________





Sometimes I think of them doing spells and I have a spell by myself.

Edited by: Wolflord  at: 4/25/02 6:00:05 pm
Wolflord
 


Part 6a

Postby blameburner » Thu Apr 25, 2002 9:23 pm

Okay, this part's shorter than I normally post, but after that last monster of a chapter... In case it's unclear, note that this part takes place chronologically after the first section of Part 5c. We're back in the present, about 6am, and the backstory is over. And we're one step closer to the lovely flannel scene!!!



***Thanatopsis - I have to wholeheartedly agree with your cheese v. smut analysis. Cheese, ick - smut, yum!



***Scout - Thanks! Glad you found it exciting and suspenseful!



***witchbitchwillow - Your "wait" is over... here's the next chapter!



***BigMac - I suppose Spike does deserve a meal. Maybe I'll let the poor guy eat, sometime.



***katydid - Well thanks for de-lurking! Lately it's been more storyline than smut, but... that'll change soon enough. Hehe.



***Wolflord - Yeah, it disappointed me too, but I thought it was necessary for them to have to acknowledge that they were still assuming the worst. Now that they've realized it, hopefully they'll have a little more faith in Willow. As for the belly dance... hmmmmm... I have officially made a note to myself to work that in. No promises, but I shall try! I aim to please!



-blame



Title: The Guardian – Part 6a

Author: blameburner

Feedback: Sure… Always a plus

Summary: This is just a nice little story about two witches, facing the apocalypse – again, and love.

Spoiler Warning: Up to and including "Normal Again" in Season 6 – but really nothing major.

Disclaimer: Not my characters, but oh how I wish they were! All hail Joss, all hail ME.

Rating: NC-17 (I've given up any pretense that it's anything less)

Pairings: W/T… duh. Everyone’s will be here at some point.

Notes: I know nothing about magic, except what I learned on BtVS, so I apologize if I offend anyone - no offense meant.

Angst: This part is a bit angsty.





Part 6a



Tara woke up slowly, fighting against the sleep still pulling at her mind. The blonde felt surprisingly rested. She had slept somewhat fitfully, her dreams full of fear, yet they had never really woken her up. Not completely.



Tara had a vague recollection of a soft voice soothing her back to sleep several times throughout the night, and realized Willow must have kept watch over her, making sure she slept as soundly as possible. She allowed her mind to process being awake for a few minutes before opening her eyes. She felt Willow pressed snugly against her back, the red-head's arm cradling her breast possessively.



My little breast gal, Tara thought, smiling to herself. It never failed to amaze Tara how no matter what position they fell asleep in, Tara always woke up with Willow-hand cupping her breast. The only way to wake up, Tara thought.



Tara opened her eyes and adjusted to the dim morning light. It would be another hour before the sun made its first true appearance, but it was already casting a weak glow across the sky, pushing back the shadows. Darkness swallows the light, but light always pushes back the dark, she thought. Her mother had always said that, and a sad smile crossed her face at the memory. It's always about light and dark.



Tara turned to face Willow. The red-head grumbled in her sleep, her hand subconsciously trying to reclaim the breast that had just shifted out of her grasp. Tara giggled and lightly brushed Willow's mussed hair away from her face.



"Yu're laughin' at'me," Willow mumbled sleepily, slowly opening one eye to peek at Tara. When she saw Tara smiling back at her, Willow had no choice but to open both her eyes fully so she could gaze at her love. "Mornin'," Willow smiled, then slid her arm around Tara's bare back to pull her closer.



Tara moved happily toward her lover, their bodies fitting together perfectly as they lay side-by-side, facing each other. Willow slipped her thigh in between Tara's, lifting her other leg over Tara's hip. It wasn't a move of passion, but of comfort, her body seeking Tara's warmth and love. Tara continued stroking Willow's hair, thinking of how it always reminded her of fire. A hot, breathing, intense flame that ignited her heart and lit her way.



They lay there, just silently staring into each others eyes. They didn't need to speak, didn't need to read each other's minds to know what the other was thinking. They wanted each other. They needed each other. They had never loved and would never love another as they loved each other. And they were both terrified for the other.



Tara brushed her fingers down Willow's cheek, under her chin, over her mouth. She knew the contours of Willow-face by heart, but she needed to map them again, to burn the memory deeper into her soul. Willow stroked Tara's back, her hips, her outer thigh, wanting her fingers to memorize the flesh she had loved a thousand times.



Tara ran her thumb over Willow's lips, and Willow kissed the pad once, then again. Tara leaned in and replaced her thumb with her lips, brushing them together lightly. Willow sighed against Tara's mouth, and parted her lips slightly, sucking in the edge of Tara's bottom lip into her mouth.



Tara moved closer, running her hand to the back of Willow's head. Willow rolled onto her back, pulling Tara with her. The red-head felt Tara's tongue dart out to flick her upper lip, then run gently back and forth across it. Willow could feel her pulse start to pound loudly in her ears, felt her skin start to tingle everywhere her body was in contact with Tara's. It was always like that between them. It would always be like that. For as long as I live, Willow vowed.



Willow sucked Tara's lower lip further into her mouth, raking her teeth across the soft inner flesh. Tara moaned, and Willow seized the opportunity to invade Tara's mouth, slipping in her tongue deeply, plundering all Tara's secrets. Tara accepted the invasion, meeting Willow's tongue with her own in a dance they had perfected but never tired of practicing.



After a few minutes of deep kisses and soft caresses, both women slowed their pace, by silent mutual agreement. Finally they broke their kiss, clinging to each other in their bed. They wanted nothing more than to hold each other like that forever, but they knew there was much to do, and very little time.



***********************



The morning was cold, the chilly night air lingering. It settled into Buffy's bones as she and Dawn got out of the Jeep. Light was just beginning to creep into the landscape, although the sun was still a long way from showing itself on the horizon.



Buffy and Spike made their way across the field to Spike. He had been sitting on his car, smoking a cigarette. As the two Summers girls walked towards him, he hopped off the hood of his car, flicking his cigarette into the damp grass. It sizzled as flame met water, and quickly extinguished.



"Mornin', luv," Spike said quietly. "Mornin', niblet."



"Hey Spike," Dawn said brightly.



"Spike." Buffy was less bright, more business.



Spike nodded, picking up on the Slayer's tone. Normally he would have made some nasty remark, trying to get a rise out of Buffy, but not this morning. Not now. Spike knew he was being given a sacred duty, one that demanded a healthy dose of respect, a pint of professionalism, and maybe even a dash of reverence.



"So..." Spike trailed off, not quite sure what he wanted to say, if anything.



"So you're going to take Dawn to the caves down by Cooper River, right?" Buffy asked a little more brusquely than she had intended.



If Spike had noticed Buffy's tone, he didn't let on. "Yeah, right. Figure it'll be out of the way enough, so no demons still straggling into town should notice. And it's dark. Nothing like sunburn to darken a vamp's day," Spike joked lamely.



Buffy gave him a grudging smile. "If we fail..."



"I'll take her as far away as I can get. Protect her... as long as possible," Spike said solemnly. Truth was, if the Scoobies failed, it wouldn't much matter how far away they went. There would be no escape. Although Dawn didn't know it, Buffy had demanded a promise from Spike several days earlier. Spike would never let Dawn be killed by any demon. He would protect her, and if the time came... Spike didn't want to think about it, but he would keep his word. No matter what.



"But you won't fail, right?" Dawn said with a mixture of hope and fear.



"No, Dawn. We won't fail," Buffy said, tenderly brushing a few stray hairs off Dawn's face. Buffy refused to let herself cry. Not in front of Dawn.



"Right. Well, you and me will have a good 'ole time, niblet," Spike said, trying to lighten the mood.



"Uh, yeah, sure. You and me. In a cave. For the rest of the day. In the dark," Dawn said sarcastically, although she didn't actually mind spending time with Spike. He treated her the most like a grown up.



Spike rolled his eyes. "Come on, what do you take me for? I brought a lantern!" Spike said, eliciting a small giggle from Dawn. "And... I brought cards!" Spike announced, pulling a fresh deck from his pocket.



Dawn squealed in delight. "Oooo, will you teach me how to play poker? With the betting and everything?"



"Sure thing," Spike said with a grin.



"Oh, no you don't! I know how you play poker! You are not sucking my sister into your whole sick, twisted kitten-caboodle!" Buffy shouted.



"Relax, luv. I'm just going to teach her to play cards. No betting," Spike said. Then he leaned down conspiratorially to Dawn and whispered, "'Sides, we switched over to puppies now."



"Spike!" Buffy cried.



"Kidding, Slayer. Kidding. We tried puppies. Too much yapping," Spike said with a straight face.



Buffy sputtered, then saw Spike grinning broadly. Buffy punched him in the arm.



"Hey, watch it, Slayer!" Spike groused, rubbing his arm. Then he said seriously, "No betting. Scout's honor."



"When were you a boy scout?" Dawn asked, completely amused by the whole kitten-puppy debate.



"Wasn't. But I did eat one, once," Spike said wistfully.



Buffy groaned, and Dawn giggled more forcefully.



"Well..." Buffy hinted.



"Right, we should get going. Don't want to get caught by the sun. Come on, niblet, let's get a move on," Spike said.



Dawn turned to give Buffy a hug. The girls clung to each other for a long moment. They didn't need words. They knew. Then Dawn walked over to Spike's side.



"Remember, it could go as late as midnight. We'll come for you when we're finished. If we don't show up by sunrise..." Buffy trailed off.



"I'll take her out of here," Spike finished for her. Truth was, if Buffy and the others weren't back to get Spike and Dawn by midnight, they weren't ever coming. If they didn't show, Spike would take Dawn and leave, long before sunrise.



Buffy nodded, then looked into Spike's eyes. I'm trusting you with my life, Spike. Don't let me down, Buffy said silently. Spike took a step towards her and reached out his hand. Buffy took it, and Spike raised it to his lips, placing a gentle kiss upon her knuckles. Then he lowered their hands back between each other and lingered for a moment, before releasing her hand.



"I will protect her with my life," Spike vowed, and Buffy knew he meant it.



Spike looked at Buffy for another moment, then turned and wrapped an arm protectively around Dawn's shoulders.



"C'mon, niblet. I want to hear all about this Tommy bugger you're taking to the dance," Buffy heard Spike say as they walked to Spike's car.



Buffy watched them get in and drive off. When they were out of sight, she turned and headed back to the Jeep, finally allowing her tears to fall.



******************



"I guess we should..." Willow trailed off, not wanting to have to say it. As if somehow saying it would make it more true than it already was.



"Yeah, we should..." Tara answered, not wanting to say it, either.



Willow sighed and gave Tara one last sweet kiss before slipping out from underneath her lover. Tara propped her head up on her elbow and watched Willow go into the closet to pull out a shirt. Willow could feel Tara's gaze on her backside, and smiled.



"Hey, no fair getting a free peek at naked-Willow when naked-Tara is still under the covers!" Willow called out over her shoulder, eliciting a laugh from the blond.



Tara threw off the covers and slipped out of bed, pulling on a pair of boxers and a t-shirt that were draped over the back of the desk chair.



"Hey!" Willow whined, coming out of the closet wearing an over-size men's flannel shirt. "You weren't supposed to be dressed yet! No fair!"



Tara waggled her eyebrows. "All's fair in love and nakedness." Willow rolled her eyes and groaned, and Tara laughed.



"Guess I'll go take a shower, since you cheated and there's no naked-Tara here for me to see" Willow said glumly. Then she brightened. "Unless, of course, you wanna come with me?"



"No, you go shower. I want to go check and see if Buffy's back yet," Tara said.



"Oh," Willow said, a bit disappointed. She would have been a lot disappointed, but she thought it was a good idea for Tara to check on Buffy. "Okay, be back in a bit."



Willow left the room and closed the door with a soft click behind her. Tara frowned. She hated lying to Willow, and Goddess knew she wanted nothing more than to get all soapy and naked with the redhead, but she needed a few minutes alone. She knew this might be her last chance to do what she needed to do. For Willow.



Tara sat down at the desk and took out a piece of Willow's stationary and a pen. Tara smiled at the two teddy bears hugging each other in the corner of the paper. So Willow, she thought.



Tara held the pen up to her mouth, planning her words before she put them to paper. After a few moments, she began to write.



My darling Willow,

There are things I need to tell you, things I tried to say last night but couldn't. Looking into your beautiful green eyes, I couldn't find the words I so desperately wanted to say. That happens a lot, you know. I just look into your eyes, and no words seem adequate to express the love I feel, the love I see reflected back at me.

I don't know if I could ever explain how it feels to love you, and to be loved by you, but I'm going to try, anyway. Before I met you, I always felt alone. My whole life I felt like there was something missing, like I was only half a person. I was walking through my life without really feeling it, or even really living it. I just knew there was this emptiness inside that I had to fill. I didn't know what would fill it, but I spent every day looking. Then I found you.

You changed everything. You changed me. You touched a part of me that I didn't even know existed before you. Suddenly I found myself living in the present, not just walking through it. Every moment I spent with you was full of joy, even before we were together. You saw me for who I was, and for who I could be. Yet you didn't try to change me, and that's how I changed. Since we've been together, I've started to see myself the way you see me. At first, when you would look at me, your eyes so full of love, I couldn't really accept it. I wanted it, I loved it, but I wouldn't let myself believe it - because if I let myself believe, then that meant I was worthy of your love, and I didn't feel worthy for so long.

But slowly, gradually, I started to believe. You made me believe - in love, in truth, in us, in me. It felt so amazing. I was blinded by it. I was so in love with you that I wouldn't let myself question you, wouldn't let myself recognize the road you were taking with magic. When I finally did, it was too late. That's why I had to leave. I knew you had to find your own way, even though it killed me to leave you. I thought I would die from the pain of it. It broke my heart, Willow - not that you chose magic over me, but that I wasn't strong enough protect you from it.

So I left, but deep down I always knew you would come back to me. I knew that once you found yourself again, you would find me. You always find me, and we always find each other. And you did. It broke my heart all over again, to see you in so much pain, and to know that I couldn't help you through it. But something else happened while we were apart, something miraculous and painful and joyous. Something happened to me, Willow. For the first time, I realized that I was never only half a person. I was always whole. It took you to show me, you to bring it out in me. Leaving you was the hardest thing I've ever done in my life, but I realize now it was necessary for both of us. For while we were apart, we both found ourselves. We learned that we are much stronger together, but that we could survive and be strong independent of each other. You can survive. You will survive.

I believe in me, and I believe in you. With all my heart and soul, I believe in you, Willow. And I love you. Completely. Desperately. All of my love is for you, will only ever be for you. Please, always remember that. You're my everything. You're my always.

Love, Tara




Tara set down her pen. She knew there was so much more she wanted to say, but there wasn't time. She needed to leave this for Willow, so Willow would know, just in case...



"What'cha doing, baby?" Willow asked, closing the door behind her. Tara had been so lost in thought she hadn't heard the red-head come in.



"Willow!" Tara said surprised, turning to face her love. A confused look crossed Tara's face as she took in Willow's still-mussed hair. "Um, didn't you shower?"



Willow smiled. "No, not yet. Buffy's back. I ran into her in the hall. We went into her room to talk for a while. She was a little upset after dropping off Dawn. Worried," Willow said, shrugging her shoulders slightly.



"Oh, sure," Tara said, hoping Willow wouldn't ask-



"So what are you doing?" Willow asked curiously.



"Huh? Oh..." Tara tried to come up with a story that didn't involve the letter she had just written her lover. She was so busy trying to think of something, anything, to tell Willow, that she didn't notice the red-head come over to the desk and pick up her letter.



"What's this?" Willow asked as she began to read the letter.



"Willow, don't..." Tara said desperately, knowing it was too late. She watched Willow read her letter, watched the emotions play across Willow's face. Joy. Confusion. Regret. Sadness. Joy again. Then confusion... and fear.



Willow looked up from the page in her hand and into Tara's eyes. Willow's eyes were wide, and Tara could see tears forming at the edges.



"This sounds like goodbye," Willow said quietly. "Why does this sound like goodbye?"



"Willow..." Tara said sadly, unsure of what to say next. Tara looked away, unable to see the fear in Willow's face.



"No, look at me, Tara," Willow demanded. When Tara refused to look up, Willow cupped her chin and lifted Tara's head for her. Willow's touch was surprisingly gentle considering the fierce current of emotions racing through her body. Tara's eyes were full of pain, frightening Willow even more.



Tears spilled down Willow's face as a kernel of understanding dawned on her, and as she asked the question she was afraid she already knew the answer to.



"What haven't you told me, Tara? What are you hiding from me?"



Giles: There's nothing here to indicate. Just vague references to chaos and destruction.
Willow: Just once I'd like to hear a reference to balloon animals.

blameburner
 


Re: Part 6a

Postby Wolflord » Thu Apr 25, 2002 10:05 pm

oh you evil person.....how can you leave a cliffhanger like that. Ok I am kidnapping your muse, apparently I need to have a long talk with her about this inspiration. And that means I got to bring out the big guns.......thats right silk sheets and cherry jell-o. :grin Apparently your muse is in a dark place right now and jell-o is ..........well its jell-o. :p



______________:evil WOLFLORD :evil ___________________



Sometimes I think of them doing spells and I have a spell by myself.

Wolflord
 


Re: Part 6a

Postby The Rose24 » Thu Apr 25, 2002 10:13 pm

Geez. I leave the board for a day, and there are three updates. Excellent job blameburner. I can't wait to see how the Scoobies defeat this Guardian character. Now, what was that letter Tara wrote about?

Tara: My heart doesn't stutter.

Tara: Willow, I got so lost.
Willow: I found you. I will always find you.


Willow: Hi, um Tara. I was wondering maybe you want to go out some time for coffee? food? Kisses and gay love?

The Rose24
 


Re: Part 6a

Postby LeatherQueen » Thu Apr 25, 2002 10:55 pm

uh-oh.



Ack! Another bloody cliffhanger. You've got us swinging in our harnesses almost as badly as Sass. :) But I'm really loving these updates. You've really got a good handle on the dynamics of the Scoobies and their characters. You've brought them to life in this story and it's been such a good read so far. So yay for you! :grin



More please?








--------------------------------


"Honey, I'm the original one-eyed chicklet in the kingdom of the blind." - Glory


"Futile... like a FOX, baby!" - Tara in The Late Shift by wiccachica

LeatherQueen
 


Re: Part 6a

Postby xita » Thu Apr 25, 2002 11:31 pm

oh oh, tara's been hiding stuff. That wake up scene was yummy!

- - - - - - - - - - - -

"Everything is turning out so dark..."

"No, it's okay. Lost is good. Willow and I always know how to find each other!"

xita
 


Re: Part 6a

Postby JennY » Fri Apr 26, 2002 12:53 am

Wow. I love this fic. I hate the cliffhanger, though. hehe



That letter was so tender and sweet. No goodbyes, Tara! More please!

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"I'm a blood sucking fiend. Look at my outfit!"- Willow in Doppelgangland



"Bloodsuckers. They kill by sucking blood. Take it easy, Joan." Anya in Tabula Rasa


JennY
 


The winner of the cheese...

Postby willowphile410 » Fri Apr 26, 2002 1:57 am

Well, I guess the old synapses were sparking a bit last night after all. Well, in response to my prize, I would like to see:



1) a Fruit Roll-Up

2) glitter

3) a stuffed animal of some sort (preferrably a bunny, in respectful homage to the lovely Anya, but that's not important)



Don't ask me why, but those were the first 3 things that popped into my head...which I'm finding more than a little disturbing since I was thinking about a sex scene....



Anyways...loved the update. That letter was beautiful. And that Tara...always trying to sacrifice herself...what is she up to? I really, really love this fic, blameburner...

"coffee, kisses and gay love"...the only things in this world to live for...

willowphile410
 


Re:

Postby mollyig » Fri Apr 26, 2002 4:31 am

I was worried before about what the Scoobies were about to face, but the fact that Tara was hiding something, and felt she had to write that letter (which made me cry, by the way) has me really spooked.



Brilliant, as ever!

Adding up the total of a love that's true, multiply life by the power of two
Indigo Girls

Edited by: mollyig at: 4/26/02 7:18:23 am
mollyig
 


Re:

Postby BigMac » Fri Apr 26, 2002 8:01 am

Spike teaching Dawn poker and what is Tara hidding from Willow.

Tara: Assume Crash
Positions

BigMac
 


Re:

Postby witchbitchwillow » Fri Apr 26, 2002 1:47 pm

heya,



that letter was soooooo lovely i thought i was going to cry! but i really want to know what tara is hiding pls pls pls put us out of our missery!



love ellie x x x x

*thats me as a vampire im so evil and skanky and i think im kinda gay*

*no candles? well i brought one its extra flamey!*

witchbitchwillow
 


Re:

Postby blameburner » Sat Apr 27, 2002 11:15 am

Hey all... sorry, no time to reply individually right now, but I wanted to say thanks for your kind comments. They have been the one bright spot in what has turned into my stupid, annoying little life.



The good news is Part 6b is about 3/4 written. The bad news is that I have a paper due Monday and two final exams on Tuesday, which I haven't even begun studdying for because of the paper. Needless to say, law school is kicking my ass right about now, so I don't know when I'll be able to finish the next part. But stay tuned, as whenever I get a chance to take a study break, I'll probably be writing this fic.



Sorry to leave you all dangling from the cliffhanger... I didn't even realize it was a cliffhanger! Oops.



All I wanna do right now is get through Tuesday... and can I just tell you that one of my Tuesday finals is at night, during BtVS!!! So I don't get to watch it!!! Lord help the world if my VCR doesn't work properly and I miss the W/T goodness. I'll have to go Black-Magic-Willow on somebody's ass, especially considering no one here that I know watches the show, let alone tapes it!!! UGH!



Okay, I'm not bitter, really. Just stressed.



-blame

Giles: There's nothing here to indicate. Just vague references to chaos and destruction.
Willow: Just once I'd like to hear a reference to balloon animals.

blameburner
 


Re: update

Postby Scout » Sat Apr 27, 2002 12:49 pm

Don't worry - if your VCR malfunctions, one of us will get a copy to you. You're on a board full of Buffy-taping kittens. ;)



Wonderful update. The letter was so beautiful and so Tara-like. And that was a heck of a cliffhanger - can't wait for the next update. Good luck with school! :)

Edited by: Scout at: 4/27/02 11:50:18 am
Scout
 


Drive By Posting

Postby blameburner » Mon Apr 29, 2002 12:32 am

Hey all. Sorry, no update yet. Haven't had too much writing time, plus I'm sick. Ugh. But I promise the next update will be worth the wait. Tuesday, sometime, after my exams.



Um, if anyone's feeling up to it, feel free to cross your fingers, wish me luck, cast a spell, or offer a prayer to the diety of your choosing, that I pass my tax exam. Puh-lease??? I need all the help I can get!



***Wolflord - Evil, me? Nuh-uh! Go ahead, take my muse... she's a bit cranky with me right now as I've been neglecting her. The things we do in the name of higher education... but don't treat her too well, or she might not want to come back to me! Oh, and BTW, the next update will more than make up for any anger you have directed towards me about the cliffhanger. Two words... Flannel. Shirt. Need I say more?



***The Rose24 - Ah, yes... the letter. All will be revealed soon. Promise.



***LeatherQueen - "You've got us swinging in our harnesses almost as badly as Sass" - now that is quite a compliment, seeing as how I'm still dangling from my harness off Mt. Saint Sass, knitting her a sweater that says "squicky" on it!



***xita - get ready for more yummy-ness! As soon as I get these blasted final exams out of the way! Damn school, cutting into my Willow-Tara snugglies... grrrrr!



***JennY - Love the fic, hate the cliffhanger... that's what I keep saying to Sass!



***willowphile410 - My, my, you are the creative one, aren't you? You want it, you got it. Of course, I also promised to try and work in a belly dance for Wolflord, so this should end up being one, um, interesting scene! Can anyone say "smutty goodness?"



***mollyig - I'm sorry I made you cry! I promise, my W/T stories always end happily - unlike some writers/producers I could mention! (Joss, Marti, you listening?) Of course, happy endings always come at a price... and my happy ending for this story is waaaaayyyyy off in the distance. See it waving?



***BigMac - I'm thinking Spike, Buffy, Willow, and Xander, sitting around a poker table, smoking cigars... Dawn is Spike's poker-apprentice... Tara whispering in Willow's ear while sitting on her lap... Anya trying to help Xander cheat... Spike and Buffy getting into a heated bluffing match... Giles is the dealer (can't you just see him in one of those little visors?) Then, of course, a private game of strip-poker between our two favorite witches? Hmmm... I think I've just come up with another scene. It's gonna be one hell of an epilogue!



***witchbitchwillow - I will put you out of your misery soon, I promise.



***Scout - Thanks for the good luck wishes. I need all the luck I can get right now (32 hours and counting until my tax exam - eee-gads!) And if my VCR breaks down, I am soooooo giving you a call!!!!! I will not be denied my W/T fix!



-blame



Giles: There's nothing here to indicate. Just vague references to chaos and destruction.
Willow: Just once I'd like to hear a reference to balloon animals.

blameburner
 


Re: Drive By Posting

Postby Wolflord » Mon Apr 29, 2002 5:20 pm

Hey BB....ok I got your muse and well she is calming down. Ahh the power of Jell-o. Don't worry I am taking such good care of her..:grin I like your two words...but I got two that are better.....silk panties....whip cream.......hand cuffs........belly dance.......chocolate syrup..........tongue bath...........and my favorite naked witches. Take your pick at my two word combos..:evil :evil Well gotta go your muse and I are going for ................



_____________:evil WOLFLORD :evil ____________________



Sometimes I think of them doing spells and I have a spell by myself.

Wolflord
 

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